Welcome Back.. To Me!

Sometimes I amaze myself by the things that I can do. Slept at 4.30am and woke up at 8.30am. Ann picked Aunt Marg & I up and we headed to pray to gramp together. Prayed to Daddy & Mummy too. :) I miss all 3 of them.. :(

Went with Aunt Mic to collect bday cake for Aunt Marg while Ann, Peg, MZ & Aunt Marg went to visit Gram. Ann's car couldn't fit me in so I had to miss out on visiting Gram. :(((( Back to Aunt Mic's house after collection of cake from SICC (Singapore Island Country Club).

Had snacks & soon after, lunch. Ate a lot!!! Mahjong after lunch at about 12pm. Was losing $20+ til I started winning at about 5+pm. Won $20 in the end. Phew!!!!!

Cake cutting and dessert time at about 4pm. Then dinner at 7pm. I ate sooooo much that everyone was shocked! And I ate at a very fast speed too!!! Whole family thought I was hungry, but I wasn't.. And I just kept eating and eating and eating. Til I became super duper full. I guess, it's coz I've finally let my family know that it's over between JZ and me (though he's still supposedly thinking about whether he wanna break up or not but to me, it's over). It's like this huge relief that I ate so much!! :)

Anyway, made things clear with someone else as well. Friends forever!!

Seriously, I'm happy the way I am now.. The way my life is. The friends around me are great! I'm happy almost everyday and I love it! It's like I'm finally leading my life the way it was, should be and should always be. And I most definitely am not looking to step into any relationship at this moment. I'm happy with my friends, I'm happy with being single. And I just wanna be single for now.

I haven't felt this relieved, this free, this light-headedness for a very long time already. Right now, it's just the feeling of being relaxed, being myself. At long last.. I am myself once again. I love the me now!! ^.^

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