Monday, March 30, 2009
A meaningful email..
Received the below mail from Mahesh. It brought a tear to my eye when I read it so I thought I should share it. Treasure what u have and live ur life to the fullest! That has always been my motto.
To my dearest Eeyore, despite the fights, quarrels and arguments, despite the tears that fell together with the raindrops yesterday, our love will outlast and outweigh all the unhappiness. After the apologies, u took my hand, held me so tightly when we ran in the heavy downpour back to my place amidst the thunder and lightning, we knew our love for each other will stand strong. The conversations that we've had today jus made me thankful for u.. For having u love me. Thank u!
Here's the mail:Beautiful Lesson !!!!!!!!
The girl in the picture is Katie Kirkpatrick, she is 21. Next to her, her fiancé, Nick, 23. The picture was taken shortly before their wedding ceremony, held on January 11, 2005 in the US. Katie has terminal cancer and spend hours a day receiving medication. In the picture, Nick is waiting for her on one of the many sessions of chemo to end.
In spite of all the pain, organ failures, and morphine shots, Katie is going along with her wedding and took care of every detail. The dress had to be adjusted a few times due to her constant weight loss.
An unusual accessory at the party was the oxygen tube that Katie used throughout the ceremony and reception as well. The other couple in the picture are Nick's parents. Excited to see their son marrying his high school sweetheart.
Katie, in her wheelchair with the oxygen tube, listening to a song from her husband and friends At the reception, Katie had to take a few rests.
The pain did not allow her to stand for long periods.
Katie died five days after her wedding day.
Watching a woman so ill and weak getting married and with a smile on her face makes us think..... Happiness is reachable, no matter how long it lasts.
We should stop making our lives complicated.
Make the best out of it!
Hard to believe if people like this still exist.... No matter what the girl is, her love is still been reciprocated by the guy!!!
Lucky girl! He made her smile while she survived!!!
True Love Rocks!!! Life is short!! Break the rules forgive quickly love truly laugh constantly And never stop smiling no matter how strange life is Life is not always the party we expected to be but as long as we are here, we should smile and be grateful.
magz [8:34 PM]
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Thursday, March 26, 2009
Major Grocery Shopping
Qual è il significato di amico? Non ce la faccio più... Non importa.. Non lamentarsi.
Grocery shopping with sis & MZ @ NTUC last nite. Eeyore joined us late. I can't control my spending without him around. Spent $300+ at a supermarket. Record breaking moment for me. Fish steamboat after that @ Rangoon Road. It's nice!!! 1 of the best thus far. :)
On the way to Rangoon Road, I was lying on Eeyore's lap at the back seat. It's so nice to have him stroking my hair, touching my face and simply looking at me with loving eyes. Yes, it made me feel loved and very much like a little girl.
Lena called when I sat down for dinner. She's coming to Singapore!! Getting married!!! 4 months pregnant already. She's been with Jimmy for soooo many years now. She has finally gotten what she wants. :) She asked if I've found my right one. Told her I hope so. So much catching up to do when she's here! Can't wait!
Shucks.. Too busy blogging that I forgot to check in on my laundry.. Sighz..
Time for some gaming action now~! :p
Edit: At a time when my mood is really down, when the world seemed so dull, I am glad to have Eeyore by my side being ever so willing to share my problems, listen to my issues. At a time when my cramps hurt so bad, I am glad that he is willing to have a simple dinner of instant noodles which he cooked for me. Was forbidden to even enter the kitchen to help wash up and was pushed backwards all the way back to my room and on to my bed. On such days, I am thankful and blessed to have him. Thank u for making me laugh, for caring for me.. For putting the smile on my face.
magz [8:22 PM]
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Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Interview
Some things happened to make me realise who my friends are. Certain people, I'll no longer ask for help from.. Or rather, I'll choose not to contact anymore since they don't give a damn anyway or simply gimme lousy excuses when asked to meet, etc. Don't wanna waste my time and energy on such people anymore. They are jus not worth it.
I did something important during lunch time today. I went for an interview. :p With which company, I shall not say but let's just say that I think I merely did ok, nothing spectacular. Might not even be considered as good but oh well. Keeping my thoughts and expectations low so that I won't get too disappointed if I don't get chosen. And if I do, then I'll probably be happier. Hehehe.
I hate interviews! People who know me well enough will know that. But yet, every year around this period, I do crazy stuff like this.. Going for interviews. Sighz.. Thankfully, I always have supportive people around me who get me thro all this craziness. :) This year, I have to thank Carissa mummy, HW, Bee, Marina, Irene, Mahesh and of coz Eeyore. Kept telling myself that it's ok if I don't get it. Don't be nervous. Hehehe. Was pretty ok.
But coz of going for 1 interview, I saw the true colours of certain people. Nevertheless, it is another learning experience. Everyday, we learn something new.
PS: Hope Stef gets well soon. Take care babe!
magz [10:21 PM]
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Monday, March 23, 2009
Wiiiiiiiii
Friday (20 March 2009)Finally met up with Ken after some time, together with Bee & Felix. Dinner, then KTV @ Orchard Party World. Home at 3am, conked out at 4am.
Saturday (21 March 2009)
Woke up at 1.30pm, lazed in bed watching Indian Wells Championship til 2.30pm. Changed and cabbed to Aunt Mic's place together with MZ & Aunt Marg. Had breakfast and lunch at the same time (3.30pm). Fully stuffed! Mahjong all the way til dinner time at about 7.30pm. More mahjong til 10pm.
Home, watched Man U lose while playing my game. :p Laundry then bed at 2am.
Sunday (22 March 2009)
Woke up at 1.30pm again. More tennis on TV while in bed. Dismantled fan to wash, fixed it back again after washing. Scrubbed and cleaned my toilet til sparkling white. I love clean toilets! :p Changed and cabbed to Anne's place for some tennis action. Watched Stef & Sid (the big chefs) at work before heading to the tennis courts.
Tennis for about an hour, then upstairs again, then another half an hour of tennis. Showered, waited for the rest for dinner. Wanted to give Eeyore a surprise by picking him up at the airport but was waiting for dessert.. So... In the end, he came to pick me up from Anne's place instead. Oopsss.. Hehehe. Lousy gf I am.
And I was the one who had a surprise. He brought back a huge duffel bag which I hadn't seen before. While he was showering, I helped him to unpack his bags and put things away. Asked him what was in the bag, he said that he didn't know as he wasn't the one to pack the bag. I opened it and this is what was inside...
And now I have, my own Wii!!! Woohoo!!!! But I am only allowed to start playing with it AFTER I have finished all my PC games. Damn!! I'm gonna be playing my PC games real fast right now. WOOHOO!!!!
magz [10:01 PM]
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Thursday, March 19, 2009
Misunderstand
I'm sure many of us have been misunderstood before.. But has anyone been as misunderstood as me? I seriously wonder..
Not going to dwell on it. It's a good thing I have friends who know me well enough to gimme all the encouragement and support, who gave me the much needed trust with no questions asked. Thanks to Justin for the encouragement over FB & MSN, telling me that I am who I am and even asking me to stay sweet. :) It really gimmes a warm fuzzy feeling to know that. Also to Carissa mummy, Christine mama, Irene, Cher & Jess for believing in me.
I never did have the jealous streak in me before. Maybe that's why I don't understand and dunno why there are people who can be soooo easily jealous and angry over little things such as friendships. Yes, I believe in platonic friendships and most of mine have worked out well. But, oh well... Different people, different thinking.
Anyway, I know for a fact that I like being the way I am. I can't please the world and I ain't gonna change myself in anyway. I'll be me, as always. :p
Little update on my last 2 days. I'm becoming slack in my daily updates to being once in a few days. Been too tired and going out quite a bit this week. Caught "Watchmen" with Eeyore last nite and show ended at 12.40am.. Zouk with BS, Esther & Eeyore tonite for some event where we were invited guests. Nothing much happening.. Very crowded!
Time for bed.. Woke up real early to go work.. Nitez!
magz [11:19 PM]
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Tuesday, March 17, 2009
6 month anniversary @ Equinox
An unexpected yet very pleasant surprise yesterday. Never saw it coming.. He made me upset on Sun nite by saying that he won't be meeting me on Mon (yesterday).. Why was I upset over such a small thing? Coz Mon was our 6 mths together. I teared a bit but refused to show any form of sadness after that. It was all a ploy..
Asked him again on Mon morning if we will be meeting at nite. He said no. Sad, I wore rather slack and went off to work. At work, he kept asking if I was busy. Then suddenly asked if I wanna do dinner with him. I retorted by saying that he was the one who didn't wanna have dinner with me. He told me to go home to change after work and to wear a dress if possible. Refused to tell me the reason no matter how I tried to pry it out from him...
Home to change.. While waiting for him to come home to pick me up..
He brought me to Equinox for our half year anniversary. I never ever expected him to plan anything for our half year anniversary. Anywhere with him is good for me.. It's the company that counts, that's what I always say. It's just nice to be with him much as he makes me pissed at times, does the stupidest things at times but he also makes me laugh a lot. :)
I had black angus beef carppacio with roasted porcini mushrooms for starters, pan fried Japanese king scallops & codfish for main and a chocolate drink called Celaya with Tahitian vanilla cream, gold pearls and cocoa marshmellows. He had smoked Loch Fyne (whatever that is) salmon with buttered rye bread for starters and pan roasted full blood black angus tenderloin with foie gras for main. Due to his cough, we abstained from dessert and alcohol.
magz [10:57 PM]
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Monday, March 16, 2009
My New TV!
Hesitant to blog at this hour coz I'm tired and need to sleep if I wanna concentrate at work tomorrow but at the same time, I'm kinda awake from all the work I've done since I reached home - Laundry, packing of room, washing of cups, packing of ironed clothes, hanging up laundry, packing of table. I feel like a maid... Hoping to type as fast as I can so that I can jus plonk on my bed.
Anyway, an update of a very fruitful weekend. Fri started off with a bang after work. IT fair at Suntec Convention Hall. :) I went with the mind of only wanting to get earphones. As always, Eeyore showed me the really expensive but very nice looking Shure earphones that sounded "oh so good". The white colour earphones is the Shure SE210 that cost $239 & the black ones are Shure SE530 that cost $799! Obviously, the $799 ones sounded muchhhh better. But.. I'm not so rich to splurge so much on earphones yet. :p
Walked around and just as we were leaving the convention hall, we heard someone talking into the mic about Sharp Aquos 32" LCD TV going for $699. Very tempted, we went to take a look and.. I ended up with the below. A 42" Sharp Aquos LCD TV A65-Series that cost me $1349. :) I feel broke but it feels good coz this huge baby is currently residing in my room, under my aircon, in front of my bed. I can't wait to watch my football matches on this huge ass baby. Woohoo!!! Not to forget, gaming!!! COOL!
But this baby will move to my living room when my tenants move out and Eeyore brings his 32" Sony Bravia to my place. Then, it will be a whole new experience to come home every nite! Can't wait!! :p
After all the IT shopping, BS, Esther, Eeyore, Bee, Cher, El & I went for dinner at Tang Dian Wang, a Shanghai restaurant at Suntec Basement. Food was ok I guess. Expensive and not really that fantastic I mus say. It was KTV time after dinner. Bee, Cher, Eeyore & I where only Cher & I sang. Hahaha. Til 3am when we were all soooo tired..
Sat was a day of installing my LCD TV and a nite of BBQ at my boss's place. Some games played, etc. Overall, ok. More of like showing face, giving my support to the event, chatting with colleagues. Down-ed 3 cups of vodka 1 shot on a pretty emtpy tummy was not that cool. I came home and conked out immediately! Eeyore kept teasing me and laughing at me the whole of today coz of that. Damn! My alcohol limit has seriously become very very low. Sighz..
Today! I went to the IT fair again. It was absolute madness! From Raffles City, it was already damn packed! Headed to Raoul to buy a shirt and cufflinks for Felix as bday pressie. :) Hope he likes them. Squeezed my way to the convention centre to meet Bee & Felix. It was really really horrible. Sooooo many people and some of them don't smell too good! :(
Anyway, managed to get my way up to the IT fair again. Went to Sony to buy earphones. Yes, I decided to buy cheaper earphones instead of 1 that costs a few hundred (I'm broke after buying the TV!!!). The 1st pic below is the colour of the earphones I bought (It's supposed to be violet, not blue!) and the design is the next pic. I wanted white earphones but they were sold out. :( Still like these though. :p
And I bought 3 new games to play. Woohoo!!! Paid for by Eeyore on the condition that I MUST play the games else he'll slap me and that I mus still spend time with him. Hehe. I WILL play the games and still spend time with him. No worries! I can multi task!
Then it was dinner with BS, Esther, Eeyore, Felix & Bee at Adam Road. Had the famous prawn noodles but I think the standard has dropped. Not as nice as before. Next was cheesecake at The Cheesecake Cafe of Siglap. Ordered 4 cheesecakes to share and hot tea with honey. Super full!!!! Not to forget my 2 scoops of Haagen Dazs ice cream while waiting for Bee to arrive. :D And a very heavy lunch at MOS Burger coz we super over ordered and over-ate. Muahahaha. PIG!
So, that's the update of my very very fulfilling and fruitful (yet broke) weekend. :p I realised I made a mistake of lending people money coz the money is never seen again and all I have are broken promises time and again of returning it to me. I am disappointed with this person coz even when I needed money, it was still empty and broken promises of contacting me and returning it to me.
It is an expensive lesson to learn coz the amount of money loaned out is enough for me to buy 4 LCD TVs with no hesitation. I loaned it to him coz of friendship. Now, this friendship is broken and it cost me $5,000 to see the true colours of a person. I can only say that I am stupid and that I have learned my mistake the hard way.
magz [12:21 AM]
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Thursday, March 12, 2009
Memories of Workaholic Days
I can't believe I totally forgot to blog last nite. I think, I was seriously too tired and too sick. Had the feeling of flu and my bones were aching bad. Cabbed home after work and jus lazed in bed the whole nite.
Very busy day at work today. But I enjoyed it. Being involved in 2 projects is making my life kinda fulfilling now. I'm enjoying every minute now. Haven't talked for some time, CY still knows me well enough to tell me not to be stressed with work. He also said that I'm still such a workaholic as ever. Still remember the days when we were always the last to leave office from our respective teams. Much as those days were tough, I enjoyed it tremendously. :)
Came home, changed and went for tennis at Sid's place together with Stef and Eeyore. Gals played in 1 court and the guys played in the other court. Kinda fun! But haven't exercised for a very long time so was tired after 45 mins. :p But still, I had sooo much fun!! Good to perspire again! Hopefully this will cure the flu. Hehehe.
K.. 11.30pm now. Time to shower and sleep early! Need to recover fast! :p Nitez all!
magz [11:16 PM]
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Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Projects
Been told to lead a project that's going on. Not sure if I can do it.. It's the products that I'm not familiar with. Hopefully I can be able to handle what's going on. Groundwork has already been set so I'm only handling the finishing touches. Jus hope all go well.
Another project coming up. Went for training today. Another round tomorrow. Seems a bit tough but trying hard to grasp it. System looks good, just need to test it out and see if there's anything else we need to add to the system or to remove from it. Once these 2 projects are successful, it will probably look good on my resume. But wonder how relevant it will be on my resume..
Anyway, just gonna focus on my career for now. I need to build my career. Once again, work hard, play hard.
magz [11:00 PM]
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Monday, March 09, 2009
KL 06-08 March 2009
First of all, I would like to say a very big THANK U to the people who went KL with me - Stef, Sid, Anne, Von & Jean! Without Stef & Sid, I'm sure the gals would have been lost in KL. So thanx for agreeing to come along. BUT had anyone miss this trip, it would have been a lot less fun so once again, THANK U VERY MUCH!!! For all the fun, the support, the craziness! I enjoyed myself totally! :)
Of coz a very important person to thank would be Eeyore. For bringing me home to meet his parents and his grandma. Thank u to his parents for bringing me around KL and allowing me to stay in their house, paying for all my meals and being extremely nice to me! I really appreciate it! :>
Never expected myself to have fun in front of his parents but amazingly, I did. Shopped a lot and ate a lot! It was all eating and shopping, shopping and eating! Plus a nite of clubbing! Hehehe. What's most enjoyable was that I actually drove! Yes!! I drove a car! Woohoo!!!! I did quite well according to Eeyore. I managed to do a 3 point turn, a U turn, right & left turns! :D Soooo proud of myself!!! Hehehe. No license and 1st time driving yet I did so much! Love driving!!! How I wish I can drive now!! ARGH!!!
The sweetest part would be Eeyore tucking me in bed every nite coz we were sleeping in different rooms. He would come to my room, lie beside me for a while til I'm almost asleep before going back to his own room to sleep. And also, when he secretly bought me a pair of earrings when I went to the toilet. :) It was really very sweet and nice of him!
So now, the very touched me is only hoping that I left an ok impression on his family. Keeping my fingers crossed..
magz [11:35 PM]
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Thursday, March 05, 2009
Beautiful Day
A very nice and sweet day..
Eeyore beautified my day today, with words of sweetness and actions of love. It made me happy and touched. In office today, he was sooo worried about my UTI coming back that he wanted to take time off work to accompany to see the doctor. I didn't go in the end coz my doc was only working half day. But the simple thought of it jus made me happy.
After work, he met me at Bugis. The moment he showed me what was in the Carrefour bag that he was carrying, I was soooo touched that I could only hug him and call him a silly guy. He actually went to Carrefour to buy me pure natural organic cranberry juice, packets of cranberry juice with kiwi juice, and dried cranberries. :) Sweet!!!
On the bus home, he suddenly stroked my hair and thanked me for being me. Came home and he told me that being with me makes even the most mundane things fun, such as taking the bus, doing the laundry, walking to the MRT, etc etc. And it is coz I am me that's why such tasks are fun.
OMG! I have never known him to be this sweet and to say such stuff simply blew me away. I'm in awe, shocked but surprised in a very wonderful way. Will this last? Will my happiness and this sweetness last? I hope so.. Really do.
KL tomorrow for the weekend. My very 1st time in KL! :) And the bellas are coming along. COOL!!! Hope to be able to spend time with them there. Can't wait!
magz [11:45 PM]
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Wednesday, March 04, 2009
UTI back?
Thank u to all the caring friends who showed concern for me in some way or other with regards to the "talk" I had last nite til 1am. :) We're ok now and all I can do is hope that the issue is over, that we can be at peace for as long as possible. Keeping my fingers crossed.
Feeling that my "friend" aka Mr UTI came back to look for me. Don't feel good and don't feel comfy. I think I'll need to see a doc if it doesn't recover by Fri. Don't want it to spoil my trip...
Not feeling too good.. Think I shall sleep soon. Someone commented that my eyes look swollen/tired.. Even asked if I was sick. I think, I must look awful now.. Time for more rest.
Edit: Eeyore's very nice to me once again. I'm happy!
Edit 2: Supposed to sleep... But Xavier jus msg-ed me and is talking to me about his relationship problem.. :( I shall try to cheer him up...
magz [10:55 PM]
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Tuesday, March 03, 2009
"Talk"
Waiting for Eeyore to come home for our "talk". I told him in office today that I'm getting sick and tired of all the doubting. I told him straight that every few weeks, we revolve around the same old topics.. Over and over again. His doubts on why I fell in love with him so fast, why I even like him in the 1st place, why am I so in love with him. He was the one who told me not to be over reliant on love, not to fall too deeply in love. Told me not to take him for granted after he moves in to my house, the room next door. Kept asking me why I'm still not sick of him by now.
I did what I was told and he said I wasn't sweet to him anymore. It got me going to tell him that I was only doing what he wanted me to do - To love him less. I merely followed and did everything he said. Then he said I misunderstood him and that we need to talk. So talk, we are.. Tonite.. :( I can only hope that it turns out well. It's not the 1st time we're having such talks. I told him I don't wanna keep talking about the same issues time and again but I really hope that this will be the last.
I will try again. I dunno how it's gonna turn out. I dunno how many more times we can try. I'm really really tired. All this is draining me out.. I think I was happier being single. If this doesn't work out, trust me, I'm staying single no matter what. At least for a year. I don't think I can take any of this anymore. I need time to be on my own, by myself.
Dinner with Matt. It's been a year since we last met. A year since he went back to LA. Dinner at Jalan Kayu - Jerry's. Wasn't very hungry to begin with and the dinner jus made me soooo full up. Buffalo wings were good but too spicy for my liking. :( Had a Hoegaarden. Seems like every Tuesday is beer day for me. Hahaha.
Holland V after dinner to meet Wan & Zo. The 2 people whom I get to meet only when Matt is back. Zo looks pretty as always. :) Lesser make up now, prettier. Ate my fave bubblegum ice cream from Cold Rock Creamery. Everytime I go to Holland V, I'll never fail to eat my fave ice cream no matter how full I am and how on the verge I am on puking. :D That's how greedy I am.
A short time spent with them coz I told Matt to send me home before 10pm coz Jean said she'll be calling me around that time. So here I am, waiting for her to call. It was nice seeing Matt and talking to him again. Wonder when we'll meet again..
magz [10:28 PM]
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Monday, March 02, 2009
Weather
Not sure if anyone realised something about the weather at 6pm today.
It was sunny, yet the rain was a heavy downpour. Unrelentlessly beating away on the grounds and the windows. But the sun refused to give in to the dark clouds and continued to shine brightly.
That is my mood today as well. I may look ok on the outside, but inside, my tears are rolling and falling. And I did cry today. In office. I shall not deny that. Again and again, I cry for the same reason, for the same person. It's only been a mere 5 months and I'm feeling very very weary already. How are we going to make this last? How are we going to walk on forever? I seriously dunno..
Your doubts have become mine. And it never fails to spoil my day every single time. The uncontrollable tears.. Have to learn to stop. Coz.. I know I can't go on my life living like this.. I can't say that my eyes are swollen everyday due to lack of sleep or that I'm having flu. There are only so many excuses I can give.. I can fool the world, but not myself.. For I am already a fool.
magz [10:56 PM]
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Sunday, March 01, 2009
Dad's 1 year death anniversary...
Saturday (28 February 2009)Woke up to a nice brunch with my fave chwee kueh specially bought for me by Eeyore. Not forgetting my very much needed coffee. :) Mm... Sweet~!
But.. Some arguments here and there later on in the evening. From the time I was so 'lucky' to get bird shit on my head while waiting for a cab to the time that we started watching DVD at Anne's place. Sighz.. But, I mus say that we reconciled our differences quite quickly this time round. :p Phew!
It was a great evening at Anne's place. Love her new place! Soooo absolutely nice and cosy. Think we're all gonna chill out and hang around at her place quite often from now on. :ppp Eeyore and I both love her pool and the tennis courts! Time to get healthy! *winks*
We had dinner, followed by girls' talk in Anne's room. Then, it was Uno time!! Eeyore is really not very good in such games besides poker. Hahaha. Then it was Jenga time! And he's still not good at it! Last game, pictionary! Not much chemistry between us except for some parts when we started to think more alike. >.<
Watched "Kids" and the whole show was about booze, drugs and sex. OMG! It was an eye-opener. Never ever watched a show like that before. Left Anne's place at 3+am feeling half dead and very very sleepy. Cabbed home, slept immediately.
Sunday (01 March 2009)Woke up at 8am to pray to Dad. It's been a year since he was gone. :_( I still miss dad from time to time. Wish I can still hug his big tummy when I'm down and for him to stroke or pat my head to cheer me up again. Wish I can still argue and quarrel with him about things and issues. So many things that I still wish I can do with him.. I miss my daddy..
Tears rolling down my cheeks.. How I have surpressed these tears meant for my dad. How I have forced myself to be strong and not cry time and time again. Luckily I was sneezing and blowing my nose the whole of today. Else, Eeyore will definitely know that I'm crying now.
Anyway, it was off to visit Gram after praying to Dad, Mum & Gramp. Gram smiled very happily when she saw me and it was enough to bring cheer to my heart. :) After feeding Gram, we headed to Aunt Mic's place for lunch then it was home sweet home. Supposed to pack my wardrobe but ended up playing mahjong with Eeyore, Aunt Marg, MZ & his mum instead.
Won $24 overall.. And I struck 4D too. Won $40 from that. Hahaha. Not a lot but I'm glad to have the luck. :) All thanx to the bird who took its dump on my head! Hehehe.
K.. Feeling very tired now. 4 hours of sleep the whole day coupled with tonnes of sneezing can kill. Nitez folks!
magz [10:43 PM]
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