Wednesday, August 31, 2005
my character..
have been talking to my vendor on the phone a lot. her name's doreen n i consider her as a friend more than a vendor. she's a very nice lady n is always buying me dinners and stuff. we were on the phone today n she told me some stuff about myself.
according to her, i am someone who is observant, who is ambitious and has high expectations of herself n the people around her. she also said that i'm an efficient and independent worker who takes the initiative to do things and that i am able to handle my work well unlike most graduates that she know. i'm also eloquent and am able to write well, according to her. she even told me that my boss has complimented me in front of her, saying that i can work without supervision which is why i do not need to report to my supervisor at all but report to her directly.
never been praised so much before. haha. never knew i was so capable in my work. doreen told me that i shouldn't be doing operations but should do the business sector. not sure what the business sector is but she said that i'll definitely shine in that sector. probably i will opt for a transfer if i have the chance to or if i'm bored of what i'm currently doing now. but for now, i enjoy the things i do though it can be boring at times. hehe.
she said that i give people the feeling that they should pamper me or look upon me as a younger sister which is why people will tend to look out for me naturally. not sure about that though. however, she also said that i have the 'fling' thing in me. she doesn't know how to describe it in words but it has got something to do with the way i talk to people, be it guys or gals. maybe i do. deep down inside of me, i think i know what she's saying but it's something uncontrollable. it's just the feeling that i give people. even if i don't do anything and am as per normal, i know some people get that feeling about me. sighz..
seems like it's the season where people are breaking up or having problems in their relationships again. so many friends of mine have been breaking up or having problems recently that i have no idea what i can do to help. it saddens me to know that things can't work out between them n the people they love. out of the many people who are having relationships, only my colleague has confided in me. i've been trying to cheer him up and making him open up that he's learning to live n let live. i jus want u guys to know that i'm here for u guys. i won't make any judgements or comments but at least know that if u truly need a listening ear, feel free to call me. that's the one thing i can offer.
to my buddy hus, trust me.. work things out with her again. she still loves u. it's a matter of communication. don't feel insecure or giving up. i know u still love her too, else u won't be feeling so down now. call me if u need me.
to meng, u said it was due to different ideas, concepts n things like that. i'm sure things will work out as long as 1 party is willing to give in a little. relationships are about giving n taking. i'm not sure where went wrong but u said that a part of u died.. if u don't love her, that won't be the case. if u need the listening ear, call me. i know u said u want to be left alone, but gimme a ring when u need me k? take care bro!
magz [8:23 PM]
*will dreams come true one day?*
Saturday, August 20, 2005
be professional
i gotta rush this entry coz i'm gonna watch football n it's starting! hehe. wanna write this down n get it off my chest coz i think that some people work in a very unprofessional way.
some problems occurred at work recently. i am the person handling the outsourcing of printing customer statements daily n last month end, certain customer statements were printed and mailed out that shouldn't have been printed in the 1st place. these customers do not belong to the corporate side but belong to private banking side, which means their statements shouldn't even have gotten into my file!
so, somehow or other, these damned statements got printed n these lousy dumbass customers started complaining to the customer service centre. n of coz, people start questioning why this happened. therefore, people started coming to me n questioning me. on the surface, they are trying to find the cause of the problem, but IN ACTUAL FACT, THEY ARE TRYING TO POINT FINGERS AT THE PERSON WHO'S IN CHARGE N TO PUT THE BLAME ON THAT PERSON. that puts me off so much! come on, BE PROFESSIONAL!
1st of all, i wasn't taught certain procedures that was supposed to be done. somehow or other, these procedures were lost on the way as there were many other people who took over before i started. i'm not surprised that certain steps weren't passed down totally. 2nd of all, the problem has already occurred. what's the point of putting the blame on others? FIND THE FUCKING ROOT CAUSE OF THE PROBLEM, NOT POINT THE LITTLE STUPID FINGER AT OTHERS! find a god damn solution to it!
i've got people bugging me the past 2 days trying to find out what my procedure is. come on, what went wrong is already wrong. i'll take it to heart n learn from it so STOP FUCKING QUESTION ME ON WHAT I DO. 2 whole days of being questioned like a criminal. FUCKING GET OFF MY BACK! these people caused me to not be able to do my work n i've got more urgent things to do then to be accused by u assholes.
there.. finally let out all my anger. sorry about all the vulgarities but i really need to let it out. i've been busy at work recently. been starting work at 8.30am and ending at 9+ 10... the past 3 weeks have been like that. i've been working hard n doing my part, which is why i don't see the need in people questioning me on the way i do things. they have got no freaking rights to do that. n the private banking boss is so afraid of getting complaints from customers that he questions everything i do. go eat shit! coward!
anyway, enough of those assholes. glad to have nice colleagues at work. those who are closer to me knows that i've been working ot and was pissed off at work try to cheer me up n entertain me at work. 1 even let me vent my anger on him by punching him. haha. feels good after that. really thankful that i've got wonderful colleagues. makes me enjoy working there. :)
tom has been very patient with me coz for the 3 weeks that i had to do ot, he waited for me patiently n even picks me up from work when i end at times. every wed, he has to wait at the shopping centre for me for at least 1 to 2 hours before i can have dinner with him. i know it's bad, but he doesn't blame me n i'm very grateful for that. this week he even gave me massages coz i've been working so late n i'm sooo tired after that. very very sweet of him. thanx dear~!
he's watching football now n i'm going to join him~! hehe. here i come, my love~!
magz [10:09 PM]
*will dreams come true one day?*
Thursday, August 04, 2005
totally fine~!
i'm a happy gal today!! finally considered to have fully recovered from whatever caused me to be hospitalised after my checkup with the gynae. yay!!! no more going back for checkups!!! the cyst did not grow or maybe it became smaller.. not sure about that but whatever it is, i'm ok now n that's what matters most! :)
anne's last day at work is tomorrow.. she's the 3rd person that i'll be attending farewell sessions for. 3 good friends have left us for greener pastures n 1 has transferred to another place. sighz.. the only thing that i'm thankful about is that there are still a few of the people that i'm close to who are still here. but i know some are also intending to leave.. if they can find their greener pastures. sighz.. happy for them but sad for myself. but i'll definitely wish them all the best of luck~!
been trying to plan the bangkok trip but it's certainly not an easy task coz dearest ali is missing! ali~ where are you?? need you to confirm with me if you can apply leave for the trip.
seems like stef has a bf now.. wonder who the guy is.. hehe. i'm always so curious.. haha.
work has been hectic for me this week. been staying back after office hours jus to clear my stuff. not that i'm complaining.. would rather have things to do than to be bored. hate the feeling of being bored. makes me feel redundant. hehe.
where have all my friends gone to?? why's there no one for me to chat with??? boring...
waiting for my beloved tom to cook dinner. hehe. love it when he cooks for me (though i've never cooked for him before. hahaha). makes me feel very loved. haha. me n my weird thinkings.. :p
magz [7:56 PM]
*will dreams come true one day?*
