Monday, June 20, 2005
discharged~
i've been discharged!!! spent my weekend at the hospital. how saddening. n i had to waste 2 movie tickets coz i was in the hospital and couldn't watch the show. sighz...
1st time i've ever been hospitalised. kinda scary and had the feeling of loneliness at nite expecially right before i sleep. kinda teared a little coz i was in an environment and place that i've never been in before. was on drip the 1st nite and didn't eat and drink for more than 24 hours!!! all i could do was look at other people eat. so depressing.
doctors couldn't find what was wrong with me even agfter x-rays and a ct scan. said that the abdomen area is too big and they couldn't find the real cause behind my pain. it might be a bad case of food poisoning, gastritis, gastric pain or simply some virus. they did a ct scan on my appendix coz it was painful when they pressed on it but it didn't appear swollen or anything. however, they found a cyst in my ovary. it's supposedly common in women to have cysts in their ovaries but cysts can be good or bad.
good cysts mean that they are either benign tumours which are not life threatening and are not cancer or they can just be fatty tissues that have built up. bad cysts mean that they are maglinant tumours aka cancer. that's the one that i'm worried about. i jus hope n pray that mine is nothing serious. not sure what i'll do if it's the bad one. won't know how to tell my family.. sighz.. all i can do is wait.. for the gynae to give me a check on next thurs. meanwhile, hope and pray is all i can do. sighz..
having been hospitalised has really made me realise that health is very important (although i've always known that). but like i told jean just now, u can never control what's growing inside of u. there's nothing that u can do. i've always believed in living my life to the fullest and enjoying myself no matter what i do. i believe it even more now. u have to, especially after something so serious has happened. we must always look on the bright side of life, be optimistic and really give our best in everything that we do. be cheerful and make the best out of everything.
wanna thank all those who have been very concerned about me over the weekend and the time that i was in hospital. most important people i must thank are my sis and my beloved bf. they really took care of me when i was in hospital, rushing around doing things for me. especially my dear who did everything i asked for n was so worried about me. it would have been worse without him around. n to all my wonderful friends - anne, jean, eevon, edmund, luke, alwyn, alvyn gor, tom's parents (especially auntie for buying bird's nest for me and cooking porridge for me everytime!), colleagues and all others. i really appreciate it lots!
will definitely take care of my health and update about my condition. i'm on mc the whole week to rest and recover. hopefully i can fully recover~! time for dinner!! food!!!
magz [7:24 PM]
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Friday, June 17, 2005
hospital..
think i'm going to the hospital in a really short while. not sure what the doc will say but i'm really worried that i might have to go for an op. don't feel like letting my family know coz they have got enough worries for this week but if i'm really hospitalised, i have to let them know. sighz..
really dunno what's wrong with me right now.. i felt so much pain at work suddenly though i was better yesterday after an injection by my family doctor. thought i would be ok already, til the pain suddenly just hit me an hour or 2 after lunch. it was really severe this time n my tears nearly dropped. called my family doc who told me to go to him immediately for an examination again. told my boss who was really understanding about it (she let me off work early by 3 hours for the past 2 days too!). she told me to call her as soon as i find out what's wrong with me.
took a cab to my family doctor's clinic and he could see that i was in severe pain. gave me an injection immediately (2 injections in 2 days when i fear injections most.. sighz...). called up some hospitals and clinics to inquire about some ultrascan details and prices. this is getting serious! i'm scheduled for an ultrascan tomorrow morning at a clinic but i'm still in quite a lot of pain now despite the injection. think i'm heading for the hospital as soon as tom comes back n his dad comes back with the car. i can't take it much longer.
even forgot to lock my drawers at work (again), but this time it's coz i was in too much pain to think straight. thank god i called anne to help me check or i'll be dead. sighz.. everybody at work is worried about me now. my boss even asked me to call her tomorrow after my ultrascan. supposed to fast for 6 hours before i can go for the scan, but i haven't eaten anything since 1.30pm and drank any water since 3pm. think i can go for the scan tonight. i need to know what's wrong with myself asap. this pain is killing me.
all i can do now is wait n pray for the best. really hope that i'll be ok soon. pls don't let it be anything too serious. appendicitis and gall stones problem i can still handle coz those r common problems in the world and the op is not that major. i'm worried it might be something else.. something more serious that i can't handle n deal with. i hate this feeling. shucks! must look on the bright side. i'll be fine!!! sighz..
magz [6:26 PM]
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Tuesday, June 14, 2005
sick..
after an exciting week, i fell sick.. sobz..
tummy started feeling weird since wednesday but wasn't much of a problem. saturday nite, the problem hit me.. had dinner with my dear after we finished playing at downtown east. ate mushroom steak at simpang bedok (not sure about spelling) and a milo dinosaur. started to feel bloated after dinner and was really uncomfortable. tom helped me rub medicated oil on my tummy and i got up at 1am to do my big business. felt slightly better but not totally good yet..
sunday came.. i got up at 2pm and had some biscuits and stuff. tummy was feeling queasy and after i had dinner, it became worse. i couldn't stand properly but still tried to bear with it. it was only then that i realised it wasn't tummy ache anymore. it had become gastric pain. sighz...
monday morning, i woke up as per normal to bathe and go to work but i really couldn't stand straight at all. it was that bad! tried curling up, stretching, anything to make myself feel better but i couldn't. decided to visit the doctor and to take mc from work. tom was so sweet!! he took leave from work to look after me the whole day. bought me breakfast, lunch and dinner coz i couldn't even walk. :) thanx dear!!! appreciate everything that he did for me yesterday. :p it's actually a very very nice feeling to have someone look after u while u r sick and to show u so much care and concern. was really really touched. no guy has ever been this nice to me before. that's y i truly love my dear! hehe. so mushy.. :p
went to work this morning but still didn't feel too well. by the time i finished my normal schedule of work, my gastric pain began to feel like it was becoming gastric flu. talked to my boss about going for my offsite visit at ubi today and told her i can't do it. was feeling awful. told her i needed to see the doctor again and that i would like to take another day of mc. she's a very nice lady and agreed immediately, telling me to call the offsite personnel and to go back for a rest.
so here i am, jus had my lunch and my medicine. think the drowsiness effect will hit me soon. i'll be drifting off to dreamland in a short short while. i love sleeping!!! haha.
1 thing i must say.. i'm really grateful and thankful to be working where i am right now. working hours may be longer, but it's always good to work under an understanding and nice boss who truly cares for their staff. trust me on that. kudos to my aunts, uncle, cousins and everyone else who have supported me in leaving my former company to come here. it was a sacrifice worth making and i'm truly happy about the move. thanx all!!!
time to rest and get well for work tomorrow. :)
magz [1:39 PM]
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Saturday, June 11, 2005
clubbing..
this week's been quite a busy one for me at work, probably on thursday n friday. the beginning of the week was slow to start with at 1st. quite a few last minute things cropped up at work though.
monday (6 june) - when i reached office n was doing my usual routine work, the secretary suddenly informed me that i was supposed to be attending a talk with my colleague immediately. was quite shocked but rushed for the talk. quite a boring one and it dragged til about 11.30am. after lunch, i was quite free.. as usual.
tuesday (7 june) - my boss sent me an email at 6pm on monday evening to inform me to join in a meeting with the IT head and some others to solve a problem with our system. realised that the IT head is quite charming. not in the sense that he's handsome or anything along that line but more in the sense that he's very knowledgeable and experienced. he knows exactly what he's doing and what he wants. made me feel that when a guy is serious at what he's doing, it's really quite attractive. hehe.
wednesday (8 june) - quite bored at work. haha. met my beloved dear for dinner at bugis and to walk over to bras basah area for frog porridge. was late for almost an hour coz last minute something cropped up and i needed to discuss some stuff with my boss. sighz.. but tom is as understanding as always. thanx sweetie!
thursday (9 june) - attended a conference call with my boss and manager. IT head and supplier were on the line as well to discuss things we had to work out. IT head is as charming as usual. the serious attitude when it comes to work.. wow! haha. after the conference call, i had lots of things to do. printer at my end was spoilt at the same time so i had to keep walking across the office just to collect my printouts. haha. was barely at my seat the whole day. went for badminton session with my colleagues after work. it's been almost 4 years since i really exercised and til today, i'm still suffering from muscle ache! my goodness!! i'm becoming fat and weak. think i'll try to join them every week from now on, if possible.
friday (10 june) - attended a talk again. nearly fell asleep during the talk. it was quite a dry topic. work was ok but i was too tired to concentrate and do much so ended up talking to the colleague next to me and learned some of the stuff that he's doing although it doesn't concern me. haha. met up with jean and stef for dinner after work, together with anne. had an enjoyable time catching up on one another's lives and jus chatting. stef, u better eat more! too skinny!! went clubbing with colleagues again for someone's farewell. went to O Bar but it was totally boring. ended up playing pool for 2 and a half hours and bak kut teh after pool. the rest ended up at newsroom bar again after that. i went too.. and it was much better than O Bar. left at 3am whereas the rest proceeded to devils bar and only left at 6am. i was sound asleep by then. haha.
saturday (11 june) - tom and i went to downtown east. my 1st time there! had fun on the rides and stuff though the place was packed with kids. doing anything together with my dear is always fun. hehe.
honestly speaking, i'm glad that tom is a very understanding guy. he allows me to play badminton with my colleagues after work and not meet him, he doesn't get angry with me when i'm late in meeting him be it due to work or other reasons, he gives me the freedom to meet up with my friends and to go drinking with my colleagues. thanks dear, for always being so nice. i really appreciate it!
k.. time to end now. need to accompany my beloved who's watching tv in the next room. hehe. :)
magz [10:24 PM]
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Monday, June 06, 2005
1 week..
it's been a week since i updated my blog. will try to update as much as i can remember.
fri (27 may) - went to jumbo seafood restaurant at east coast for dinner with my department colleagues coz a colleague was transferring to another department. had seafood dinner which was pretty good. i didn't eat the crabs though. didn't want to dirty my hands. hehe. after that, anne n i took a cab down to newsroom bar to meet up with another group of colleagues for drinks. it was farewell to the guy that i've become great friends with right now. had lots of fun that night. poor tom had to wake up and send me home at 3.30am.. sorry dear~
sat (28 may) - went to collect my graduation photo. after that, i went for pool with tom at sultan plaza. played til 6.45pm and headed to fullerton hotel for the chocolate buffet. honestly, it will be a once in a lifetime thing coz it's expensive n after 2 slices of cakes, u become so full n bloated that u aren't able to eat anything else. but i enjoyed the experience. walked yong ming to the mrt station with tom after eating n had a short walk around clarke quay. was nice to do that at night. kinda like in a world of our own. hehe.
sun (29 may) - went to aunt michelle's place to celebrate grandma's bday. played a couple of rounds of mahjong. had fun playing with byron. hehe. a pity it rained coz i actually wanted to go swimming. enjoyed myself though. :)
mon & tues (30 & 31 may) - work as usual. home as usual.
wed (1 june) - met up with ex-colleagues from audit company after work for dinner at marche heeren. was an enjoyable outing. jean joined us for a short while n glad that she enjoyed herself too. oh ya, jessica's gonna move in to my place in july~! yay!!! hehe. caught up on one another's lives. glad to know that everybody's doing ok. :p n thanx adelene~ for the very very nice n meaningful present!!
thurs (2 june) - work as usual. home as usual.
fri (3 june) - watched madagascar with tom at tampines mall. went back to his place with anne where kk (the colleague whom i'm good friends with now) picked us up for pool with a few others at pool fusion. waited til 11+pm before we got a table. played til 2am where i had lost 5-3 to goldwin n had to buy him green tea. haha. reached home half dead n went to bed.
sat (4 june) - met up with kelvin for pool. he brought his colleague, brenda, along so 4 of us rotated for pool. played from 4-8pm n headed to elias park, fishermens' village for dinner (chicken wings n fries) n some beer. 1st time i've even gone to fishermens' village. pretty amazing to a lot of people knowing the fact that i'm singaporean. haha.
sun (5 june) - woke up at 10.30am to watch tom, kelvin, brenda n bernard play in dbs pool tournament. nice to catch up n see bernard after almost a year now. :) he's doing ok n even won the tournament! not bad! haha.
k... think i better get back to my work. that's all the update for the past week. ^_^
magz [4:03 PM]
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