Friday, November 30, 2007
Contented 'Lil Gal - Can't stop smiling (Part 4)
Guess from the topic of my subject, everybody will know what I'm gonna write about. Yes!! The same topic! Haha.
DF today again. Was another great nite. Haven't lost my temper since Monday. Yes, Monday I was soooo down but from then on, I've moved on. No matter how pissed I am at work, I have not lost my temper at all. Learning to keep it under control and to be more patient. Hehe. K.. Back to the topic..
Was there at about 8pm. Ordered food and drinks and chatted with 1 of the waiters for a while for fun. Haha. Was so boring and quiet when we reached so just disturbed the waiter. :p 8.30pm and the singers came on stage. I had already written the same song list as per last week coz Yutaki did not sing any of the songs I dedicated last week. :p Drew the same pig, a few faces and wrote the words "Dragonfly" on the back of the serviette. :)
Yutaki saw me from the stage even before the lights were lit and he waved and said hi to me from the stage. Was already so pleased then. He remembers me! Haha. Passed him the song list and he sang 好心好报 which I like a lot. At the end of the song, he even said thank you to me for choosing that song. Hehe.
And the most amazing thing happened after the set was over. He came down stage and I thought he was going to go back to the room where they practise upstairs. But, he came to our table!!! And he started chatted with us!!!
Yutaki: Eh, you still remember that I owe you the songs. I didn't remember til I saw your note. [呃，你还记得我欠你的歌啊？我都忘了。]
Me (starting to blush): Err.. Of coz..
[Err.. 对啊]
Yutaki: What time did you guys come?
[你们几点到的？]
Me: Err.. Around 7.45pm or 8pm like that. Felix, what time we reach huh?
[Err.. 大概7.45 到8点之间吧。Felix,我们几点到的？]
Felix: Around 8pm
[8点左右吧]
Yutaki: Oh.. You guys came together?
[哦，你们一起来的吗？]
Felix: Ya.. We came after work..
[对啊，下班一起来]
(I was blushing in the background and can't stop staring and smiling)
Yutaki: Oh.. Ok.. K.. I go up 1st. C u guys later for the next performance ok?
[噢，我先上去了。待会儿表演见！]
Me: Sure! Cya later!
[好啊！Bye Bye!]
That was the highlight of the whole evening! Conversation was done in Chinese but I've translated into English as well. Hehe. Can you imagine my happiness? Throughout the whole conversation, I saw that a lot of the other tables were staring at us. Didn't care much coz I was too busy concentrating on my conversation with Yutaki. Hehe. Til now, I still can't believe that he came up to our table and talked to us! OMIGOD!!! I talked to my idol!!! Ahh.. So gonna faint. Hehe. I can't stop smiling! :))))
K.. More updates besides Yutaki. Hehe. I know I can't stop gushing about him. So sorry...
Had my 1st conference call regarding the project that I'm handling now. Felt like I was the only small fry in the call. The rest of the people were all Senior Country Operation Officers.. All MD level and above.. Scary! Didn't say anything throughout the conference. Only heard dribs and drabs coz my daily processing had some problems. :p
Then I had a 3 hour lunch meeting. For the 1st time in meetings, I actually voiced out a lot of my opinions. Nobody wanted to talk much and I knew we won't end the meeting til things were being discussed. Haha. Felt so courageous suddenly. :)
Boss talked to me after the meeting. Gave me a shock when he kept me in suspense while he went for another meeting before talking to me. He told me that the unit heads including my big boss (the Senior Country Operation Officer) had unanimously agreed that I should be the Staff Event Committee Leader.. My goodness! There I was thinking of stepping down from the committee totally and now, I've been made leader! Sighz.. I've been in this committee since I joined the bank.. It's been that long..
Well, guess that adds more on the plate for me. I know everybody says that it's good for my profile and stuff. Too high a profile might not be a good thing at times as well. Will I even be recognised for my hardwork? I wonder..
Oh ya.. Got this quote off Adrian's blog. It's meaningful so I copied it and pasted in my own blog. Enjoy it!
"Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of witherings, of tarnishings." - Anais Nin
K.. Time to remove my contact lens and rest early. Such a good mood now. I'm floating in the air! Hehe. :)
magz [12:38 AM]
*will dreams come true one day?*
Thursday, November 29, 2007
New Quote
Saw this quote somewhere but can't remember when I saw it and where I saw it.. But I really like it.
"There are so many stars in the sky, but only some get noticed. Among those you choose to ignore is the one which is willing to shine for you forever, even if your glance remains elsewhere."
I find it truly meaningful and beautiful.. Enjoy it.. :)
magz [12:02 AM]
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Wednesday, November 28, 2007
Starbucks @ Tan Tock Seng Hospital
Here I am, sitting at the same Starbucks on a different sofa from previous time and this time round, I have my laptop with me! Yay!! My form of entertainment! I love it like that!
Feel so peaceful, so quiet.. Sitting quietly at Starbucks, typing my blog with a cup of Mocha Praline that taste soooo good and nice, especially when it's topped with lots of my favourite - whipped cream! Mmmmmm... Delicious! This is the kind of life that I like and truly enjoy.. One where I can sit back, relax and watch the day go by. Seems like the last time I did this was when I went Shanghai for the 2nd time... To take my mind off things..
Sydney trip is coming up real soon.. In about another 2 weeks. I can't wait.. Looking forward to visit my colleagues in Sydney, to explore there and to visit the beach. It's been a long time since I last went for some real tanning. :) I think this trip will do me good.
K.. Time to enjoy my show via my laptop @ Starbucks. Will blog when I have more stuff to write about. :p
magz [11:00 AM]
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Monday, November 26, 2007
Simple Things/Reasons to Make Me Smile
Some simple things/reasons that made my very very gloomy day today brighter:
(1) An sms in the early morning from my mentor (shifu), Cavin, with words of encouragement for me.
(2) The young boy (I think he's 2 or 3 years old) whom I see every morning at the bus stop while picking my aunt up called me "Jie Jie aka elder sis" today. Normally when I wave bye bye to him, he'll either be shy or not bother. For once today, he actually greeted me and wanted me to wave bye bye to him. :)
(3) An afternoon nap at my desk during lunch time.
(4) Care and concern from my colleagues. Mel allowed me to go off early but I didn't want to. I think the best comment I had today was from my other mentor, Mahesh aka Mr M. He asked if I was not feeling well and if I needed him to back up for me. Told him I was tired. He said, "I don't like to see you like that. You must come in to work tomorrow and smile k?" It was nice to know that some of my colleagues do care. :p Touched.. Felix gave me a colour printed copy of my dog last time - Cookie. Thanks Felix! I miss my Cookie..
(5) Dinner with my close friends, Bee & Felix, both of whom made me smile and laugh so much during dinner that I felt normal again. Such gatherings will be rare to come by in future but I do hope that we will still be close. Like how Bee's hubby answered her, we will always be close friends no matter what.
(6) The minute I logged on to MSN, Meng messaged me with a hug. It was a nice act. Thanx bro! Same goes to Khim and Hongwei papa. Thanx Thanx!
I have cleared all the soft toys from my office desk and brought them home, including some of the pics on my desk previously. My desk looks so clean and empty now. Think quite a number of people have noticed the change in me today, esp my desk.
The only thing I'm looking forward to is my trip to Sydney. I'm dreading Xmas and my bday though.. Wish those 2 periods won't come.. Not worth looking forward to.. Can't wait for my Hong Kong trip in Feb as well. I wish I can stay overseas forever and never come back.. Sighz..
magz [10:23 PM]
*will dreams come true one day?*
Sunday, November 25, 2007
Lies...
3rd post in 1 day.. I realised I'm meant to be lied to.. If anyone needs to lie to someone, pls lie to me. I'm always being lied to.. I should be getting used to it.
If Chris still reads my blog, I can only say Congrats.
If close friends notice a change in me, don't worry. I'm just no longer that happy-go-lucky nor happy anymore. You will notice a subtle me, someone who doesn't talk much unless necessary.. Someone who will control her temper and try not to complain about things. The old Magz will have evolved somehow..
magz [10:55 PM]
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Dragon Boaters
I only saw it in the newspapers this morning while visiting grandma.. The news about the 5 dragon boaters whose bodies could not be found when their dragon boat capsized in Phnom Penh Tonle Sap River. I felt sad then.. 3 of them were younger than me. Sighz..
Just waited by the TV for more news on the 5 of them. As feared by most of us, they have left us.. At last their bodies were found. I felt truly emotional then, even now. Tears fill up my eyes while I'm typing this blog. No, I do not know any of these 5 people but I feel deeply sorry for them. They were so young.. So energetic.. Devoted athletes representing our country and yet, they passed away in a faraway land.
We should really treasure what we have right now. You never know when you will leave this world, leaving your loved ones behind. I feel the sorrow of the parents, the loved ones they left behind coz I've been in that situation before. Tell your loved ones you love them, show them that you care. Much as I always scold my dad, deep down I care for him. Just that I don't show it as often. I wanna tell my mummy how much I love her, but I only had 3 years to do so coz she passed away when I was 8. Before that, I was to young to know how to tell her how much I love her.
How I miss my mummy.. I want her to be proud of me sooo much. I've struggled all these years for good results in school, in life. I want to tell her I love her so much, that I miss her. I wanna hug her and let her console me when things go wrong. All these wishes.. have not and will not be fulfilled anymore. All I can do, is continue wishing...
Watching the news on TV brought back all these memories.. I'm sure friends and families of these 5 dragon boaters will be devastated. But I'm also sure that their spirits and everything about them will live on in the memories of the people who love them. Be strong. I'm sure they will wanna see the living people who love them to be happy.
The 5 of them truly deserve our respect, for taking part in this competition in the name of our country though it cost them their lives... I truly salute you 5! Rest in peace....
magz [9:35 PM]
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Contented 'Lil Gal - Can't stop smiling (Part 3)
Have been groggy for past few days since Fri. Rushed home to see the doctor opposite my house due to some rash on my face that caused my cheeks to be swollen and red. Didn't wanna see the doctor downstairs and the doctor opposite my house is more friendly anyway. Hehe. The medicine and cream that he prescribed was effective!! The only sad fact is that I can't drink alcohol (Omigod!!), can't take seafood and egg. That's simply taking my life. Haha. My face looks pretty much back to normal now, thank god! Was worried for so long that I'd be disfigured. Hehe. :p
Mel and Edmund gor allowed me to take flexi Fri so that I could leave early (at 5pm) as I took medicine and didn't take medical leave. In the end, I could only leave office at 6.45pm.. Simply too much work to clear or maybe coz my brain wasn't functioning properly and efficiently due to medication hence I was slower in my work. Haha. Rushed down to DF to watch the live unplugged performance while watching for Bee to finish work.
But there was a jam at the exit ECP leading to VivoCity. Sighz... Wasted 15 mins there and I could only catch the last 2 songs being sung - 1 by Yutaki & the other by Skye. Throughout the time, Yutaki didn't notice me. Wanted to go to the toilet after they had finished but saw that they were still on stage and I stood at the path leading to the toilet watching them. Hehe. Coincidentally, they came off the stage from the stairs beside the toilet instead of their normal route. As he was talking to Skye, I thought he didn't see me when he walked past me. However, he seemed to have noticed me coz he suddenly turned back and waved and said hi to me!!! So so happy!!!! Yay!! :-))))
After which, we picked Bee up from work, then picked my sis and bro-in-law to have dinner together at Geylang. Then we went to Chinatown for KTV. Took my medicine at the KTV and soon after, I fell asleep there for a while. Haha. Knocked out so easily these days...
Yesterday, we went to Tao's Restaurant for lunch to celebrate Aunt Michelle's bday. Woke up late and still could not shake off the drowsiness. Sighz.. Went to my sis's (Peg) place with Alvin and Aunt Margaret as they wanted to play mahjong. The minute I reached Peg's place, I slept at her living room couch. Happily slept til 5pm while they played mahjong. Haha. Then I was woken up to take over from my sis. Won $64 that day and treated them to dinner. :) Came home to sleep immediately after dinner.
Woke up at 9am to visit grandma today and to pray to my mummy with my sis, bro-in-law and his mum. Had to tag along while my bro-in-law and his mum went to pray to his dad. I didn't mind coz when his dad passed away, I wasn't able to attend the wake as I was in Shanghai for work. Only right for me to pay my respects to him now that I am back. Went to feed the tortoises after paying my respects. Something about feeding the tortoises.. It always give me peace and serenity. Memories of the past started coming back to me.. How I used to do all the above today with Tom for the past 3 years.. How much we enjoyed feeding the tortoises.. The times we went to pray to my mummy... Sighz..
Came home, bathed and met Khim for lunch at Borders and had coffee at Coffee Bean there. Khim gave me a Nike cap! Hehe. Thanx Khim! Sat there to watch the big screen at Lido and people watch for a while before he went for golf and I came home.. To sleep. Hehe. Slept from 4.30pm to 6.30pm. The medicine really can knock me out for long periods of time. :p But it sure feels good to sleep... I'm a pig in disguise!! Hahahaha.
magz [6:50 PM]
*will dreams come true one day?*
Friday, November 23, 2007
Contented 'Lil Gal - Can't stop smiling (Part 2)
Was pissed off at work today coz I was being treated like a maid. I didn't scream or scold people but I slammed the papers around. Wasn't in the best of mood til I went to DF...
Was given a pretty good seat when I reached. Yay!! During the 1st live unplugged session, quite a number of people dedicated songs and I was slow in doing so. Sighz.. I wrote 4 songs on a DF serviette and gave it to the singers. But I was very biased as all the songs I wrote were songs sung by Yutaki. Hehe. I wrote my name on the serviette as well and even drew my signature pig. :p
Pity he didn't have time to sing my songs for me.. But, he finally knows who I am!!!! :) That's more exciting and makes me happier than anything! He knows my name at long last!!! And he flashed such a big smile at me that I could just melt on the spot. While the last song for the set was being sung by Skye, he kept holding on to my serviette and looking at it. Omigod!!! :D Melted....
During the live performance set, he sang 2 songs and he kept looking at our table.. Especially when he sang the Leo Ku medley (10mins long) that I like and know. Sang along with him the whole time and couldn't stop smiling while looking at him perform. *smilez*
Today is the happiest day thus far that I've had at DF. It's so nice to be known by my idol. I'm such a fan.. Back to the days when I was still a young girl. Hehe. I still can't stop smiling. Think my good mood will last for some time. SO HAPPY!!!!!!!! Smiling from within the heart. ^_^ I'll definitely have sweet dreams tonite. Hehehe.
magz [12:28 AM]
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Wednesday, November 21, 2007
Courage...
Today, I finally plucked up my courage and determination to do 1 thing.. I threw away the 2 bouquets of roses on my desk. They have been there for almost a year now and I really can't bear to part with them. But, I know I have to move on somehow.. Throwing them away might not mean anything. I know I won't be getting flowers from anybody for a long time. As my bday and V day draw nearer, the more I dread those days. Much as I keep complaining to Edmund gor that I need to work on my bday and that I will need to work overtime due to month end cum year end, I don't think I wanna leave office early. I'm dreading Xmas, my bday, V day.. Any special occasions. If it wasn't coz of month end cum year end, I'll definitely take those days off and leave Singapore. Sighz... By the way, pls do not buy me flowers coz u pity me or just wanna make me happy or after reading this paragraph. Appreciate the thoughts.. But.. Sometimes, flowers can mean a lot to me.. Esp if I have feelings for the person. I want it to be special..
Had my salsa lesson earlier. Enjoying it more and more. We have been practising at the cargo lift lobby in office. We're not crazy.. We only wanna perfect our steps. I'm learning to keep my feet closed when I turn and move and my instructor, Ricky, said that I'm doing well. :) Happy about it. Finally something that I can be better at but today I was kinda off form at first. Couldn't catch the beat of the songs initially til I really concentrate and listen properly. But I'm seriously enjoying it and having fun.
Talked to Anne in office today. Had a nice chat though there were stuff that we couldn't talk about in office. Was nice. Happened to mention that we haven't contacted Jean in a long time and coincidentally, Jean called me in the evening! :p Woah!!
Was asked if I wanted to be involved in a Nostro project. That is actually something related to my previous dept. Didn't know that it would be a large scale project and that I was the only one representing Corporate and Investment side. I thought it was only related to Singapore and that every dept would be sending a representative each. But, I was wrong!!! This project is an Asia Pacific project and there will be representatives from Consumer and maybe Private side as well. Omigod! And the person leading this project is the Regional Finance Head! Oh man.. Stress! I never expected myself to be doing something related to my previous dept again. Sighz... Everybody says that it's a good opportunity and that this project will gimme a high profile. But do I really wanna be so high profile? I wanna be a high flier.. But going around in circles within my former dept, where does it put me? I wanna be an all rounder..
magz [11:30 PM]
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Sunday, November 18, 2007
Lions for Lambs
I know I have yet to update on my Egypt trip. Will do so when the pics have been uploaded. Sorry for the delay.
Watched "Lions for Lambs" today. It's a very good show which makes u think about a lot of things. What the show said is very true and real. It's meaningful! There were quite a few lines in the movie that I'd like to quote and share, "Tried but failed or failed to try" and "When u step into adulthood, the decisions u made are made by urself. No matter what happens, that decision had been urs".
What was good in the movie is not only the things they say but also the plot of the show. It truly showed the situations about war, why they were started. If what the show said is true, then I simply despise the US government. There are actually too many things to discuss about the show. I think I'll buy the disc for the show when it is out and watch it again. Then maybe blog about it in a more detailed manner. It's a very good topic to think about and discuss. :)
And to Felix, I no longer wanna hear about ur decision to change jobs. As the above quote says, it is ur future. Do whatever u want. I don't care anymore. Why should I anyway? As your friend, I've said whatever I can.
Went to Music Dreamer's Cafe for the 1st time just now. Some of the singers are not bad. The only thing I didn't like about the place is that there was a very strong smell of oil and fried food. Smelt it the whole 3 hours that I was there. Made me feel oily too. Haha.
Seems like everybody thought I would be at Dave's pub today. Haha. Am I so predictable? No.. I didn't go there today. :p Amazing ya? Hehe.
So many things to say but feeling sleepy already. :D
Oh ya, I'm going Sydney from 8 Dec to 16 Dec! YAY!!!
magz [12:30 AM]
*will dreams come true one day?*
Monday, November 12, 2007
No time..
Left work early today for once.. Wanted to blog, clean my room, wash some of my clothes by hand. But, I saw the number of emails I had.. 200 in my Hotmail account and I have yet to check how many I have in my Yahoo account. Sighz.. All thanks to my sis, I do not need to do anything else.. Will update again. So sorry..
magz [10:23 PM]
*will dreams come true one day?*
Saturday, November 03, 2007
Side Effects of Alcohol
Think I really drank way too much, way too fast last nite.. Or rather this morning. Puked really many times.. So much so that I actually nearly fell asleep by my toilet bowl. Thankfully I have my own personal toilet. Was puking til this morning.. Woke up and drank barley coz I was having such a bad throat and I puked all out. Never experienced this before.
Will cut down on drinking.. Was very unhappy last nite and from 3am to 5am, all I wanted was to be drunk. Being drunk allows the tears to flow freely. It's like side effect and I badly needed to cry it out. So many things running through my mind.. None are really happy. Sighz..
I think I like surprises, not shocks. So far, not many people have given me nice surprises before. Oh, I remember one.. My bday last year where Lynn, Ya Ya and Felix came back to office to celebrate my bday for me. That was memorable. :) That's the kind of surprises I like.
Anyway, I've decided to focus and concentrate on work once again. It's back to work on Monday. Will have lots of mails to clear and stuff. Gotta prepare my presentation slides for internal training as well. Things to keep me preoccupied again and not let my mind go wandering. Career is of the utmost importance in my life now.
Shall write all about my Egypt trip tomorrow when my brain is functioning more clearly. I'm still having side effects of being unable to focus right now from all that alcohol.
magz [6:17 PM]
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Drunk
Drunk. Puked several times. Many times to get this post n lyric right. Throat hurts a lot. My new currenr favourite song.. More about Egypt next time.
重来
有多少爱能重来?
多少人愿意等待?
失去之后才明白
走进回忆的安排
一幕一幕的对白上
演我们的未来
期待
原来是一种伤害
深爱的人已离开
是我不敢忽略
你给我的爱
现在我只想
回到最初的时候
不愿让你再泪流
寂寞之后只有你会陪着我
现在我只想回到最初的时候
我知道你还爱着我
亲爱的你请你握紧我的手
请你看看我
请看需要你的噢一我
一切重头
真的需要你的我
只要你回头
现在我只想
回到最初的时候
不愿让你在泪流
寂寞之后
只有你会陪着我
现在我只想
回到最初的时候
我知道你还爱着我
亲爱的你
请你握紧我的手
请你看看我
真的需要你的我
只要你回头Shucks.. Must have been bad last nite. Didn't remove contact lens n finish this post before sleeping.. Terrible..
magz [6:23 AM]
*will dreams come true one day?*
