He always thought that Eeyore and I were a perfect match and he always supported us being together. So of coz, he started doing his thing of asking if I still wanna be together with Eeyore and that he will try to help us get together again. And immediately he started whatsapping Eeyore and stuff in front of me.. So embarrassing!! 

At the end of the party when I was about to leave, he told me that Eeyore has promised to speak to me and maybe see if we can get together. I'm not sure how true or if it will really happen but I'm not gonna probe. Don't think I wanna keep dwelling about it.. Standing by Fullerton Bay earlier at the party, I still remember how much we had enjoyed our time together and how much we have changed to accommodate each other til we became so in love.  

But yet... I have been thinking so much that I no longer know myself nor to be happy again. Just like how Sunil kept asking why I'm still single after all this time and how that is possible.. Maybe coz the heart just can't let go that's why I've been choosing to be single all this while? Just that I refuse to admit in front of others and just keep saying that I'm getting old and non attractive that's why. Oh well...

Not sure if it's coz I've been missing mummy and daddy too much.. Been dreaming of Eeyore again the last few nights. Dreamt that he was by my side comforting and consoling me, hugging me and making me feel better. Sigh.. At the rate this is going, will I go mad or insane soon? Maybe I just need someone to slap me and tell me to wake up my stupid bloody ideas and dreams.. Everything in my life is nothing but a dream. What is real in my life anymore? I no longer know.. Maybe only the sadness in my life is real now. 

Going to Hong Kong for holiday tomorrow but I feel no excitement at all. Even when being on leave the last few days, I only feel tired and drained.. Becoming emotionless and a zombie? What am I to do with myself? Sigh... 

Just finished my checkup at the hospital again.. More blood tests and stool samples coz of my fever 3 weekends ago but yet I still vomit almost every week.. Sigh.. Why can't the gods or heaven up there be nice to me and just take me away for good to be with my mummy and daddy?? Stop torturing me this way.. :( I just wanna join them..