Lost Weight...

Refused to wake up this morning. I'm drained in all aspects. No longer know myself. I realise I'm starting to forget how to smile and be happy after Spain won! My happiness doesn't last long these days anyway. I was unhappy yesterday, I am unhappy today. It's like, I no longer have sunshine in me.. I have lost the spark to happiness. Why? I think I know the reason deep down.. But I'm refusing to acknowledge it..

There's this saying that when a person is in love, he/she will look beautiful or charming. Judging by the way I look these days, I can be sure that I am not in love. I think I look like crap..

Anyway, the sentence that I hear most these couple of days is "Did u lose weight (again)?" Some said I lost weight.. Some said I lost weight again. All I can say is that, yes.. I feel it too. I think I did lose weight but when did I exactly lose it, I'm not sure.. Could be coz of the diarrhoea the other time or coz I have only been eating a meal a day - Lunch.

This morning when I wore my pants, I felt as if I haven't worn it. This pair of pants that were quite fitting when I 1st bought 2.5 to 3 years ago were actually kinda loose. I hardly wear this pair of pants so it's easy to tell. From fitting to it being loose now, I've definitely lose weight. The minute I put it on, I knew..

Seriously, don't ask me how I lose weight.. I don't seem to feel hungry these days. When I do feel hungry, eating a little is enough to fill me up. Maybe I'm suffering from 1 of those eating disorders or something. I dunno and I don't care. Nothing interests me anymore. I really must find some stuff to do to occupy myself with. I should either learn driving or go further studies. I feel like getting away.. Getting away from here but does it really work?

I don't feel like the me I know anymore anyway. For a long time now, I don't seem to be the same old me 1 year plus ago. Where did I go? I think I'm lost in outer space.. Can somebody pls find me and bring me back to earth? Haha. I'm full of crap. I seriously lack sleep. Haven't caught up on my sleep after waking up to watch football last Thurs nite. I'm still soooo short of zzz...

Zzz monster kept attacking me when I was in office.. Attacked the whole day but I'm glad I managed to overpower it. Now, I shall let it consume me.. Nitez Earth! I'm heading to outer space again!

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