At the Cowboy town, I had a go on the mechanical bull ride. Hanging on for dear life to avoid being thrown off the bull, I ended up with a slightly swollen finger (injury + injury = swelling) and slightly bruised knees (from pushing hard against the bull). It was interesting though! :)

At Water World, I went for the 8 storey high slide down lying on my back with hands crossed at my chest and legs crossed too. 2 different types of slides but sooo much fun! There were 3 other girls before me (about 20 but I dunno them) and all didn't dare to do it so I went ahead 1st. After which, they became more daring to try. Haha.

Ate, drank and be merry while I was there but had a headache the whole journey back to Singapore. Headache was still haunting me throughout the whole of today. Sometime in the afternoon, I felt like I was getting a fever. Perspired very badly for an hour plus and the headache went away. I'm still feeling really tired but at least the pain's gone now. Gotta sleep early tonite to recover.

Looking forward to more trips!! Next month is gonna be boring with nothing planned but I'm gonna target for May. I need my short breaks. Hehe. New song that I like a lot - Lucky by Jason Mraz & Colbie Caillat. Beautiful lyrics about being in love. ^.^

Had to take over my manager's work as well coz he doesn't wanna do it anymore. Was informed that I am to backup another colleague when she's not around. Means I'll have to do 3 people's job if she's not around. How fair is that? I don't mind being busy or having a lot of work. I jus don't find it fair to me coz she will not be my backup when I'm not around. Life is never fair anyway.

But what really made me happy is that the hardwork I've put in is appreciated. My Singapore boss paid for breakfast coz all of us came in early to work for the last couple of days. He even paid for lunch (Crystal Jade) for everyone who reports to him today - that's about 20+ of us. Very nice gesture of him to show his appreciation in that manner. :)

Then at 5pm whereby most of the guys had left coz everyone was sooo drained, my G10 team head came to me and said "Thanks for everything this week! You've been a star, a legend and I really really really appreciate it! You're a life saviour throughout the whole week!" Those words were more than enough to make the ultra tired me (so tired that I wanted to wear specs to work and could hardly bother to cover my dark eye circles at all today) feel energized again.

Thank you for recognizing my efforts and letting me know about it!! Thanks for appreciating me!!! :p My only wish now is to be working with u guys for as long I can coz u guys really make me feel happy!!

Some random stuff about the week that passed - Sunday was bak kut teh day with Stef, Sid, Jianwei and Eeyore. Finally managed to try the Rangoon Road bak kut teh. Yummy! Went cycling (for me) / roller blading (for them) / photo taking (Jianwei & Sarah) at East Coast Park. I ached a lot after that. Haha. Dinner was at Sunset Way Grill Out followed by ice cream at Island Creamery (Adam Road area). Ate a lot!!!! Super yummy!!!

Cooked dinner on Wed nite - cucumber with meatball soup, tofu with minced pork and prawns, and prawn omelette. I must say that the taste of the tofu dish amazed myself! I didn't expect it to taste sooo good! Ok, a bit thick skinned there but seriously, I liked it a lot! 1st dish that has ever totally exceeded my expectations! Soooo pleased with myself! Pics of food are on Facebook so I'm lazy to upload to Blogger since I have yet to save it on my lappie. :D

Broker dinner last nite at Morton's Steakhouse. Freaking awesome seafood platter!!!! Just thinking about it now is making me salivate. Damn! Steak was chunky but sooo juicy and tender! Mouthwatering!! Had champagne and 2 different red wines. Prior to dinner was more drinking at Harry's where we had beer. Eat & drink, eat & drink!

Realised that this whole post is a lot on food. Haha! And I'm hungry now! How mad am I?!! Not to worry about putting on weight.. Coz I have yet to mention.. That.. I have Xbox Kinnect at home now and I perspire soooo much from playing the game coz of the jumping and squatting, moving and running! It's a damn good workout! Wooohooo!!

Finally a happier post!!! Pls let my happiness last longer..

The next 6 months are gonna be a trying one for me. Gotta keep my fingers crossed real tight and hope for the best. Spoke to 3 of my traders when I heard the news and they are very supportive of me, asking me to be positive. Even Mr Z is supportive. Hope they will fight hard for me. That's all I can wish for..

Really not sure what's gonna happen within these 6 months. If things don't turn out well, it's probably adios amigos and on I move. Could this be a do or die situation? Maybe what I blogged about is coming true - about moving on to other departments, other positions or leaving the firm.

Much as I love my team, I know this is a tough fight to win even for someone as highly ranked as my Singapore boss. I know my traders will help me out but it's 1 team against Global initiatives. Whatever the outcome is, I'm happy to have been in this team and to have fantastic colleagues.

As promised to the people I talked to today regarding this, I'll stay positive always! Thanks for the wonderful support!! :)

On a brighter note, my lasik consultation has been booked!! Time to fulfil 1 resolution for the year. Hope that my cornea's thick enough for the operation to be done. I really wish to have perfect eyesight again! Praying hard for everything!!!!

But then again, I know it's for greener pastures that others are leaving to go for and I should be happy for them. I hate such bittersweet moments. The mixed sad and yet happy moments at the same time.

At the farewell drinks party, I was asking Will when he'll be going back to London and he said 30 April. The 1st thought that came to mind and I dunno why I said it out loud.. Was that it's my dad's bday on that day. So this trader jokingly asked if he should send flowers to me to pass to my dad and my response was "to put at his grave?". I thought he knew my parents have passed away but apparently he only knew about my mum and not my dad.

So there was this sadness suddenly around us. 1 of the 2 whom I was close to was instantly quiet and looked sad. He had known even b4 I joined about my family background. But I told all of them this.. That, hey, I grew up fine and healthy, I still did well. And Will (he's the head of the desk) said, "I'm actually really proud of u.. Of how well you have turned out in life!"

Tall compliments! Thank u! I'm proud of myself too (sometimes)! Hereby wishing Will all the best in his life, his career and everything else that he does! I'll miss the times when he'll tell brokers to call me on my Reuters and I'll tell him "NO!". And he'll always reply me.. "You're the best, RCFP pls!" I'll miss the noisy bantering, him standing behind him and yakking half the time, the Coke Light drinking moments and all the other times we've had together.

Can't have too much of my traders leaving one after another.. It's saddening, demoralizing. :_(

And suddenly, "All By Myself" pops into mind. Dad's been gone for 3 years now - his death date has jus past by 2 days. I won't cry.. Like Will said, proud of myself. :)

Think I'll sleep well tonite again - with alcohol running in the blood and veins, it's gonna be a good nite. :p

2 sad posts in a row. Hopefully the next post will be a happier one!

I happened to bump into the same trader coincidentally in the lift as I was leaving office. My lovely traders allowed me to leave on the dot at 5pm sharp to go for a run. :) Wonderful people! So we were talking in the lift and I said I was going back to change n go for a run. He asked me something which struck a chord right in my heart - Are you running from problems or should you be searching for solutions?

It did hit me right there and then. I admit I might be running away from problems right now. I actually thought of changing departments or requesting to be transferred to another country for other positions or simply, leaving the firm. I thought of hopping on a plane by myself jus to be alone.

While running the 5km route earlier on, I know I shouldn't be running away from problems. I like to run physically but whatever issues should be resolved. I'm just too stubborn to take the 1st move. And it no longer matters to me.

I know I'll sleep like a baby tonite after 2 nites of insomnia. I know I'll do better than before and make myself proud. I know I'll be me, still the same old me.

Not sure where I heard A-Lin 以前以后 before but I love the lyrics and I'm glad I chanced upon this song. It's about love and dreams of a couple when they were in love and what happens after being in love or rather, after break up.

I believe in this - What is meant to be, will be.