Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Everyone's Leaving Me Behind
Home! Tired and sleepy! As always!! Haha.
Work today was... Normal. Nothing much to do. Surfed web and read up on some soccer news. Love talking to dealers sometimes! They're.. Knowledgeable?
Had a talk with Ed gor.. We're both sad... Reason will be known soon. :(
1 thing I know for sure.. Everybody's leaving me again.. Be it at work, or my friends.. 1 by 1, they all leave. People come and go all the time, but this time, this year, it's really gonna be a sad year for me. When will my turn come?
Saw a job posting for Trading Asst position. Thinking of trying out for it but could not get more info as to which desk this belongs to. Plus the fact that I'm in this dept for less than a year, to get a transfer, I need to talk to my boss 1st. That's the sucky bit but I'm interested and keen to move on. I shall decide by Friday..
JZ will be at work til late tonite and tomorrow nite.. :( Nothing I can do to help except not to disturb him while he's busy. But he's been calling me on his own accord which I appreciate. Will only see him on Thurs nite..
K.. Need to bathe and do my laundry...
magz [10:49 PM]
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Monday, April 28, 2008
Sleepless..
Sleepless nite last nite again. Sucks to the core. Eye rings are becoming darker each day and I simply hate them. Can't live without my concealer now. Sighz.. Don't wanna be dependent on such stuff but simply no choice.
Dinner at Bugis followed by coffee at TCC. Just reached home. Sooo tired but had some good laughs earlier on. :) Nice!
Work ended at 6.30pm but stayed back to help Gopi and Shanghai side til 8.30pm. Til my brain was dead and refused to work any longer. Eyes refused to open anyway. Yeah.. I'm totally knocked out.
K.. Shall shower and sleep early tonite. Else, my mood will become bad and I'll become cranky and crazy. Nitez!
magz [11:12 PM]
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Sunday, April 27, 2008
The Other Boleyn Girl
Back from shopping! Didn't buy anything for myself.. As usual.. Sighz... Getting normal. I'm always buying things for other people. Bought 2 bday gifts and they cost me $350! Haha. I simply walked into the Ralph Lauren shop, looked at what I wanted and told the guy to wrap it up and paid up. I must be crazy!!
Anyway, as long as the people I'm buying for like the present, I'm happy. :) Went to watch "The Other Boleyn Girl". Nice real show about the former King of England. It's a true story and it got me very intrigued!!
Bumped into Bee Ling from my sec sch.. She was a close classmate of mine in Sec 3 & 4. So nice to bump into her again. :p Will arrange to meet up and catch up with her soon!!
K.. Shall go shower and watch some vcds now. Tata!
magz [10:13 PM]
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Happy? Honoured?
Home! Should I say I've got a good weekend? I'm not sure if it was all that good anyway...
Spent the whole day with JZ yesterday. Haven't done so in a very long time now. 1 whole day, just the 2 of us. Yes, I was happy though we didn't really have a lot to talk about nor were we very intimate. It still made me happy.
After I woke up and showered, we went to Telok Kurau for lunch. Ate mee pok and bought for his sis, my sis n my bro in law. Drove back to pass the noodles to his sis, then to my sis's place and after which, we were on the way to JB!
Stuck in the jam at Causeway for an hour, where I slept for 10 mins in the car due to drowsiness caused by medication. Finally reached JB and the 1st thing I bought was cup corn! Haha. So tempting.. Then we walked around a bit. He brought me to the shop where he always buys his snacks from. The 2 female owners kept calling him "leng zai" aka handsome boy and they were real loud about it. Haha. Was so funny coz everybody kept staring. 1 of them even told me that knowing my bf for so long, this is the 1st time he ever brought a gal to their shop. Honoured! Haha.
Bought some vcds, had dinner at a Taiwanese porridge shop nearby then came back to Singapore. Both of us were so urgent at the customs that we had to ask the checkpoint guards where the nearest toilet was and dashed for it! Felt sooo relieved. Hehe. Drove to Tampines Courts and walked around the place. Saw a bed frame that I like but still thinking if I should buy. Then headed to Giant across the street and bought some groceries. Headed back to his place.
Supposed to visit gram this morning but couldn't wake up in time. Woke up but the medication effect was too strong. Eyes just closed without me knowing and then it was 8.30am already. Too late.. By 10.45am, I woke him up to buy Macs breakfast for me as I have yet to try McGriddles breakfast. Hehe. He went out to buy and Donn asked me to call him.
Talked to Donn for a while.. Felt sad afterwards coz something seemed to have dawned on me. It's something that I've been thinking about the last few weeks but don't wanna face. I'm running from the reality of it and I still am. Don't wanna think about it anymore. Just leave it as it is. I can be nonchalent about certain stuff I guess.
Anyway, I'm going shopping in a while. Gonna get some shut eye for now 1st before heading for shopping. :p
magz [1:36 PM]
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Friday, April 25, 2008
2 Swollen Eyes - Stye + Infection
Was at the doc's clinic by 8.45am but my turn only came at 10.15am!! Fainted... By the time I reached office, it was 11am! Sighz.. Worked til 8.15pm which means I didn't use my MC at all. :( Doc said I have a stye.. 2 in fact coz both eyes are swollen. And I have infection at my dark eye ring area. I'm sad.. I had to wear specs to work and was laughed at by everybody! :((((((( Took medication for my sinus/flu that seems to be getting worse and also for my rash. Hope I recover well now. ^v^
Work was soooo busy that my medical leave was simply wasted. Much as I would like to leave early, Mahesh had a meeting in the afternoon and there was no other maker coz Gopi is on leave. And there were soooo many deals today which also meant that as soon as I had cleared a deal, another deal came in and I had to check it. Sighz.. Not complaining coz I like to work but.. Not when I'm supposed to be resting my eyes.
Anyway, JZ picked me up from work and it was dinner @ MOS Burger, Bishan. Followed by walking around a bit for him to buy some accessories and stuff for his car. Saw this huge polar bear that I liked to hug a lot!! But.. it's white so I'm afraid it might get dirty too easily. Thinking of putting in his car which he allowed but.. I'm trying to look for piggy instead. Will walk around more to see if I can find 1. Hehehe.
Matt said I yearn for JZ a lot from my actions and the things I say.. The happiness I exude and the excitement in me shows when I'm meeting JZ for the day. I never knew that and I had a good look at JZ while having dinner and thought about it. I guess I am happy to see him and to spend time with me especially coz we don't really spend a lot of time together. And my boy does give in to my requests at times and has even granted me permission to buy cutsie girlish stuff to put in his car. :p It does make me feel like I'm a big part of his life which I'm really very very satisfied and contented about. :)
K.. Taken medicine and I've been feeling the effect of drowsiness the whole day. Need to catch up on my zzz. Going JB with my boy tomorrow. Yay!! Even just sitting in his car next to me is good enough for me coz I still get to see him and be beside him. :D So easily contented.. Haha. Nitez all!
magz [11:27 PM]
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Thursday, April 24, 2008
Happy Secretary's Week!
Finally met my boy on a weekday!! Haha. Just that it was only for 1.5 hours.. :( Didn't even get to see enough of him.. I think I only managed to hold his hand for 5 mins out of the 1.5 hours. Sighz... I'm deprived of my time with him!!! I've got dinner tomorrow so he'll pick me up from wherever I am then head home. But he promised that we will go out on Sat. I hope so!!
Work was busy today. Had to attend a totally slow and not very useful training for almost 1.5 hours. Felt like dying in the meeting room. So many people fell asleep!! Haha. Thank God today was a busy day. Gave the reason that there were too many new deals not checked and some were urgent so was granted permission to come out and do! Managed to get Mel out from the training as well. Haha. :p Urgent - so maker (aka me) do, check (aka Mel) had to quickly check. Hehe.
Bought flowers - Lilies for Carissa mummy today! It's secretary's week today and poor mummy is such a good secretary yet nobody appreciates her. Showed my appreciation to her by giving her flowers. :o) Initial plan was just me giving to her.. But Christine mama was asking me something last nite and I told her my plan. She decided to share the cost of the flowers with me.
Was chided by everyone else though.. For not including them in the plan. Did not include them for several reasons:
(1) It's always so hard to coordinate.. Then everybody starts flooding mailbox..
(2) People always question the idea of what others wanna give.. In terms of usefulness, etc etc
(3) People always complain about the cost of the gift and how expensive it is
(4) I never intended to share my plan of buying something for her in the 1st place - I only wanted to show my appreciation to her for everything she has done for us & it was meant to be a surprise
So seriously, I'm not gonna argue or debate about this issue. I'm just doing what I feel I wanna do. No need to ask for anybody's permission or anything. And like what Carissa mummy said, it was a pleasant surprise for her which was my main intention to begin with. Glad she liked the flowers and brightened her mood. :) Good enough for me!
My eyes are becoming more and more swollen each other. Hmmz.. Think I need to see the doc soon. Should I see him tomorrow? I wonder... Lemme think about it before I decide. :p
magz [10:37 PM]
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Wednesday, April 23, 2008
His Woman?
Not very happy coz JZ didn't meet again today after promising me to. Sighz.. Just called him and he said he's still stuck in the office. Will meet me tomorrow instead. I hope he keeps his word this time. Told him that he has broken his promise to me 2 weeks in a row and that I will be upset/angry if he breaks his promise again. He said that if that's the case then I'm not suitable to be his woman coz he's at work, not having fun. I was only kidding but I like hearing him say that I'm his woman. Hehehe. I'm so easily satisfied.. :p
Anyway, thank god for friends! I ended work at 9.30pm and yet, managed to have dinner!!! Haha. Ate prata before heading home! :) So happy!!!
Busy day at work but totally can't remember what I was busy with. Too busy to remember. Hahaha.
Felix made me herbal tea today coz of my flu. Thanx Felix!
K.. Me gonna go zzz.. I'm sooooo tired and it's 12.05am already!!!
magz [11:45 PM]
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Tuesday, April 22, 2008
Ugly Me..
Met up with a few friends in town for dinner earlier and shopping!! Been shopping quite a fair bit recently. No choice. Can't wear my pink clothes for 100 days so I need more black, white, brown, blue clothes. Bought mostly white and black. Haha. Spent another $60+ on 2 tops. Same as Saturday. I like them so it doesn't really matter to me. :p Had Gelato ice cream before coming home!
And the fact that I have gone to the toilet 4 times since morning ain't such a good news but I simply can't resist my ice cream fix!! Hehe. Hope my tummy will cooperate with me. :) Woke up with this really badly blocked nose that made me so agitated and pissed. Luckily it cleared after an hour else today would have been real terrible. Plus the swollen eyes.. Oh my god! And the horribly ugly pimples.. Unspeakable. I look.. AWFUL!!!! Plus the rash.. WORSE!!! Oh my.. I hate the way I look now. UGLY!!!
JZ's still in the office finishing up some work. Said he's trying to finish most of the stuff today so that he can meet me tomorrow to go Bugis. Yay!!! Told him on Sat that he hasn't made me feel loved over the last 2 weeks. He said he was tired from work.. Sighz.. But, I saw the change in him after that and I'm glad I told him how I felt!! Coz at least he's making an effort. ^.^ Happy!!
Feeling sleepy again.. :( Shall go take my shower soon..
My dearest babes - Anne, Jean, Stef & Von - when are we meeting up again??
Oh ya.. Received chocs from Chocolate Factory last nite. Sweet!!!!
magz [10:28 PM]
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Monday, April 21, 2008
Gregorian!
Staring at my lappie on my lap, I'm suddenly at a total loss of what to write. Yes, I am.. I'm finally running out of things to talk about coz... I've been talking too much? Haha. Maybe.. Or could it be that my life has become such a bore that I dunno what to write about? Or maybe.. I'm just sleepy as always. Hahaha. I'm.. full of nonsense.
Listening to Enigma - Once in a Lifetime now. Love Gregorian music, especially the dark, eerie and mysterious types. Unpredictable.. I like! Haha.
Dan did email me today. He really set his schedule to send me an email every Monday morning to send my Monday blues away. Was happy to receive it! It did brighten up the day quite a bit. :)
Think I'm seriously gonna come down with flu soon. My nose is not listening to me. It's running away or creating blockages all the time. ARGH! It's more of the herbal tea time I guess. And my eyes practically refuse to stay open at any hour, any minute, and second of the day. This is bad bad bad. Sighz...
K.. Gonna go check on my laundry and head to bed as soon as laundry is done. Else, I'm really gonna fall sick big big time. :((((
magz [10:24 PM]
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Sunday, April 20, 2008
Katie Melua - The Closest Thing to Crazy
Just finished cutting my nails. At long last! Been procrastinating for the past 1 week. Can't stand my ultra long nails. So hard to do anthing properly. ARGH!
Quick blog coz it's already 11.47pm and my eyes can barely open but I still gotta pack some stuff before I can head to bed. Salsa today was bad. Real bad on my part coz I simply wasn't in the mood to dance. I danced terribly and I know it. Sighz.. Don't ask me why I wasn't in the mood coz I dunno myself. Simply not in the mood for anything at all. Sighz..
Packed my kitchen again after salsa. Wasn't in the mood to do so either but I can't sit there while Felix cleaned for me so I cleaned too. Was ok.. Not as bad as last week. Rather, not as dirty. Haha. But still got at least 2 more weeks of cleaning to go. Kill me pls!!!
Slept at 8.30pm last nite without removing contact lens or washing up. Woke up at 11.30pm to wash up and do my stuff. Slept at 1am again. Don't ask me why I'm still tired. Think I'm just a pig in disguise. Sleep sleep sleep!!
Went shopping for a while at Marina Square yesterday and bought 2 tops from Mango. The other top that I liked was dirty so I gave that up. :p Met Matt for ice cream and chatted for a while. Kinda envious of his wife coz she's so successful in her career and have such a good hubby. Matt said that u gotta sacrifice time to be that successful which I agree. There's gotta be a balance between work and reality but is it really that easy? I dunno but I sure wish I can be both successful and have a nice hubby 1 day too.
Farewell dinner for Lynn on Friday. Was a nice catching up session between us girls from Control previously. Dinner was at Hanabi Restaurant, Katong (my 3rd time eating at Hanabi related restaurants in 1 mth plus.. I'm there every alternate week!!!) followed by coffee at McCafe at Parkway Parade. JZ picked me up at 12.30am and I told the girls to lemme sit in the car 1st before they get on coz it's his new car!!! Hehe.
Told JZ on Thurs nite that I wanted to be the very 1st person to sit in his car so I got the girls to promise that my butt will sit before they get in. Hahaha. Sent Lynn, Carissa and Joy home before we headed back to his place. He's been driving me to places the last 2 days which was nice of him. He said Felix is very nice to help me clean my kitchen. Hehe. I think so too! I've got wonderful friends! No need too many. A few good ones whom I'm close to are more than enough!
Finally changed my blog song after a very long time. Heard this song recently and I like it.. Katie Melua - The Closest Thing to Crazy. K.. Tummy ache. Need the toilet then pack my stuff n bed time!! Nitez all!!
Katie Melua - The Closest Thing To Crazy How can I think I'm standing strong?
Yet feel the air beneath my feet.
How can happiness feel so wrong?
How can misery feel so sweet?
How can you let me watch you sleep?
Then break my dreams the way you do.
How can I have got in so deep?
Why did I fall in love with you?
[Chorus]This is the closest thing to crazy I have ever been.
Feeling twenty-two, acting seventeen.
This is the nearest thing to crazy I have ever known.
But I was never crazy on my own.
And now I know
That there's a link between the two,
Being close to craziness, and being close to you
How can you let me fall apart?
Then break my fall with lovin lies.
It's so easy to break a heart,
It's so easy to close your eyes.
How can you treat me like a child?
Yet like a child I yearn for you.
How can anyone feel so wild?
How can anyone feel so blue?
[Chorus]This is the closest thing to crazy I have ever been.
Feeling twenty-two, acting seventeen.
This is the nearest thing to crazy I have ever known.
I was never crazy on my own.
And now I know
That there's a link between the two,
Being close to craziness, and being close to you
And being close to you
And being close to you
magz [10:51 PM]
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Thursday, April 17, 2008
Sorry Anne..
Not in the best of moods. I managed to sleep last nite with the aircon on but I woke up at least 5 times in the middle of the nite. The lack of sleep has seriously made me highly irritable. And the bad thing happened.. Sighz.. I had a slight argument with Anne.. I really didn't intend to sound pissed and I know I was in the wrong. Have apologised but whether she accepts or not, I really can't fore it on her.
Went to Plaza Sing to buy some stuff and I spent at least $130 I think. My mood is on the super down side. Didn't eat dinner again. Why again? Coz last nite, I didn't eat dinner in the end. JZ and I didn't meet at all. I'm hungry now but.. Maybe later I'll grab something to eat.
Think I will go drink my Moscato wine to cheer myself up.. Oh ya.. The below just came up from my DVD as I'm typing this blog and I decided to write down...
没有他的日子
黑夜的每个角落都充斥着他的身影。弥漫着他的气味，残留着他的笑声。她与他的感觉渐渐失去。虽然失去了，至少你曾经拥有和他一起笑着走过的一段路。。。English Translation:
Days without himHis shadow and backview can be felt at every corner of the dark nite. The air is filled with his smell, the remains of his laughter. They are gradually losing the feelings they have of each other. Although the feelings are lost, at least you were once happily walking thro the journey of life together.
magz [9:29 PM]
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Wednesday, April 16, 2008
2 hours sleep...
Insomnia hit last nite.. Slept only 2 hours. Thought I would sleep well coz Agnes gave me such a fantastic shoulder massage in office. But...
1am -Went to bed
2.45am -Still tossing and turning
3am - Decided to be online
3.30am - Decided to offline and watch DVD instead
4.30am - Decided to off DVD and force myself to sleep again
5am - Think I finally feel asleep
6.45am - Alarm rang and I felt like throwing my hp away
7am - Forced myself to wake up unwillingly
Can't believe it! I must be nuts! To think that I survived thro the day was an amazing feat. Mel's on medical leave today. Morning was kinda busy coz Gopi couldn't understand some stuff and I had to teach him a bit.
New deals came fast and furious at 5.15pm. Yeah.. Dealers book late again. No choice. Cleared some and Gopi did some. He's been bugging me to do new deals so I let him. At least I left on the dot at 7pm. Haha.
Supposed to meet JZ tonite. I'm still waiting for him at home to go dinner. He's still at work and honestly, I'm not sure if we're still meeting. Don't wanna disturb him at work..
K... Shall go change and watch DVD instead.. Nibble something too coz I'm hungry. Hehehe.
magz [9:08 PM]
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Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Hospital - Aunt Mic
Received news this morning that Aunt Mic was in hospital for an operation. Followed by some other news including 1 that Gopi has been confirmed as permanent staff. Mood just went down. Drastically down coz it only proved to me that it doesn't matter if you are capable, efficient or responsible. All you need is strong backing and everything goes. He's taken 6 months to master Options. I had only 1 month plus to master Options, Futures & Commodities. I see no point.. Seriously no point...
Dan emailed me early in the morning. Managed to cheer me up a bit. Hoping against all hopes that when he comes back to Singapore, we can sit down and chat like we do now. Not a proper dinner just the 2 of us before. Wonder if we can manage that. I'm not sure.. But at least we're getting on fine now I guess..
Saw 4 deal amendments then. Heart totally sank and the mood never came back to being normal. Went from bad to worse instead. How could it not go bad when it took 4 amendments for the deals to be correct and that I had so much fighting to do with the cash department? I seemed like a total bad person in the fight. Sighz... Got so bad that I messaged Irene (using the internal messaging system) the words "I QUIT!!!!!!!". She got such a shock that she said she will tender immediately if I have given my letter to the boss. Haha. Oopss... I only meant that I quit doing the deals. Hehe. Haven't found a job yet.. Cannot quit just like that else I'll be eating grass and air only. :p
Rushed thro work and left for SGH to visit aunt. Quick dinner at Great World 1st then straight to hospital. Stayed for 2 hours but aunt was still not from operating theatre. Just when we left hospital, she came out from there and is now back in the ward!! Yay!!! She's ok!!! So so so happy!! Ky was so worried and at last, we can breathe a sigh of relief for now. Tomorrow she will start her 1st injection chemotherapy session. Hope all goes well!!! Will pray hard for her!
Feeling so tired.. So drained.. Sighz.. I need more sleep!! Hehe. Told Ed gor today that there's only so much a girl can take.. He said that I have to coz I'm the one in the family now. Sighz.. I love talking to Ed gor. He knocks sense into me all the time. He's a very wonderful gor to have, both work and personal. And he kept saying I've got nice and long eyelashes that his gf will be so jealous of. Haha. And he noticed that I've been putting eyeliner these few days. It's the only makeup I put other than concealer to hide my eye rings. No choice.. Not getting young anymore. Age is catching up fast. Need to make my eyes look more lively. Haha.
magz [11:10 PM]
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Monday, April 14, 2008
My Swing!
eDempsey on a Monday nite with a mysterious person who doesn't wanna be named or made known. Shall not give out too much info. Dinner and drinks at Oosh followed by ice cream at Ben & Jerry's. Oosh was beautiful as usual. Nice quiet dinner, great ambience, great company, good food.
Had 3 scoops of ice cream as always. I'm a greedy little pig!! Ate mint chocolate chip, chocolate fudge brownie and New York super fudge chunk! So delicious!! What made it even better was getting a chance to sit on the swing to eat!! It's such a wonderfully sweet moment and it made me feel like a small girl again.
I used to have a swing in my garden when I was young and still staying at a terrace house. The swing was my fave place to be, together with my dog then. Love those days where I would sit there, swinging and gazing at the sky. Have always loved that feeling!! Wonder when I can have something like that again.. But today was close enough. Except that the swing was not at my own house. I'm still satisfied though and very very happy!
Work was ok. Realised I haven't lost my temper with Gopi for 2 weeks now. Even when he asks stupid questions or do stupid things, I simply disturb him teasingly. So unlike me, yes I know. But somehow, I seem to have lost the anger or the part of me which will lose my temper. Maybe it's better this way. At least I won't age so fast and I'm happier. Haha.
Chatted with Dan over sms in the afternoon today and via email after we exchanged our office email addresses. A great way to cure Monday blues.. Not that I was suffering from it today. Hehe.
Oh ya, I received 2 pressies today. 1 was a card from Uncle Mark - Uncle Charles old Uni mate from Sydney. Met him on the last day of my trip to Sydney where we had to rush back to SG coz of Dad's stroke. He came to the airport to meet Ann & I and I felt bad to waste his effort coz we were supposed to go to his place for lunch and dinner that day but I had to return home. Sighz.. He sent me a card with his condolences. He's a very very very nice guy!! Same for Ann's friend whose house we stayed in. His name is Peter. These are real true friends!!!
2nd pressie was from mysterious person. Guess what I received? Royce chocs!!!! Love chocs!!!!!!!! I'll definitely put on weight after eating so much.. :( But I still can't resist the temptation of chocs and ice cream. ARGH!! Must learn to control... Or should I? Hmmz...
magz [10:59 PM]
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It's the company that counts..
Home!!! Where should I start? Hmmz..
Came home after salsa to clean and pack my kitchen. Thank God Felix was around to help me out! Else, I would definitely die here. My kitchen is seriously and honestly dirty. ARGH!! Haven't cleaned in years and it sucks to the core! Can just faint by seeing the mess, dirt and especially the cockroach eggs. Eewwww!!! I threw away lotsa stuff and cleaned it thoroughly. Worked til 9+pm, showered and went for dinner with Felix at Lorong 8.
Reached my void deck at the same time as Matt. Hopped into his car after getting down from Felix's car and drove straight to Serangoon Gardens for drinks. Wanted to have wine beside Coffee Bean but the place was closed. Saw this Happy Daze Cafe still open so we went in. They were showing Man United vs Arsenal so we went in, sat down, ordered a bottle of white wine, 2 chocolate ice cream - Happy Daze Bomb and Death by Chocolate and watched soccer.
Service was not good, wine was not that fantastic, ice cream was not that good. Whatever they lacked was all compensated by the very very fantastic company that I had plus the football match. Matt's company was more than enough to make up for everything.
Gonna sleep now. It's 1.15am and I have to work tomorrow. Not sure what's with JZ. Not talking much. Sighz.. There's only so much a girl can do. Too tired to think and bother anyway. Nitez all!
magz [1:04 AM]
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Sunday, April 13, 2008
Genting soon!
Saturday (12 April 2008)Woke up at 3pm. Yes.. 3pm! Haha. JZ went to office to work 1st then bought fish soup with rice for me for lunch. He woke me up when he reached home and I showered and ate. Then headed to his office with him to help him work. Simple things like folding the cards, etc etc. Worked from 4.30pm to 6.30pm. As long as it's with him, it doesn't matter what I'm doing. I had fun anyway! Hehehe.
Came back to his eldest sis's place for dinner. MZ, my bro in law, called after our dinner and I let him talk to MZ to discuss our Genting trip details. After hanging up the phone, he said he will pay MZ including my share. Told him I'll pay him back instead but he said he will pay for me so I don't have to pay him back. Sweet~~~
He played football with his nieces and nephews for a while as I sat there sms-ing Matt. Haha. Then came back to his place to watch DVD. At 11+pm, he was hungry so he drove to Bedok 85 market to buy supper. I had rice dumplings! :p
Tired.. So slept at 1am...
Sunday (13 April 2008)Jac's bday today! Happy bday Jac! Jac's my cousin who's the same age as me. :)
Woke up at 11am. We wanted to order Macs for breakfast but the phone order delivery changes menu at 10.45am. Sighz.. He went back to office again while I slept. I woke up at 12.30pm instead and he just called to buy me lunch. :p Waiting for my lunch now..
Happy weekend. Didn't do much but meeting up with Matt and being with JZ is enough to make me happy. Especially since he finally remembered to gimme kisses before leaving the house and after waking up or before sleeping. ^.^ He's never been the romantic and touchy or lovey sort so small things like this makes me happy. Hehehe.
magz [1:46 PM]
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Saturday, April 12, 2008
1st Date with Matt!
Today's just not my day in office today. Spilt coffee on the carpet and had to spend more than half an hour cleaning it. Thanks to the cleaning auntie who helped to clean up the mess as best as she can! Sighz.. Didn't even get to drink a single sip of the coffee that Felix passed to me and it was all gone. ARGH!
Me being the bad luck person, while shifting the drawers, my finger got squashed by the drawers. Sighz.. Sad.. Painful too. Clipped the flesh of the little finger and now it's reddish. :(
Had a very very wonderful time with Matt today! Dinner at Vivo. Brought him to Aji by Hanabi and treated him to the ala carte buffet. Don't think we ate a lot but doesn't matter coz we had fun chatting and it's always the company that counts. After dinner, we went to Siglap for ice cream. Ate at Haagen Daazs. I ordered the 3 scoops ice cream - raspberry sorbet, mango sorbet and lemon sorbet plus an iced cappucino. He had 2 scoops of cookies and cream and chocolate cookies plus a cafe latte.
We chatted more, laughed and had so much fun! Enjoyed his company a lot! His friend and gf joined us for a while and we left. He sent me to JZ's place before heading back home where those 2 friends would be meeting him. They're gonna have red wine but I'm not a fan of that so I didn't join them.
Dan messaged me today. Quite a surprise coz I only messaged him out of boredom last nite. Didn't expect him to message me today. Told me that he will be coming back to Singapore in June and he wants to go Australia or New Zealand between Sept to Nov for holiday. Said he needed the long break as he's feeling tired. Hmmz..
Someone made my day last nite by saying that I look 20 or 21 years old only. Hahaha.
Today is Glen's last day with us. He's the Poly intern who looks Korean that I wrote about once before. Time passes so fast.. Another intern leaving us already. Sighz.. I really see so many people come and go in my 3 years here that I'm starting to wonder when my turn will come.
Decision will be made in about 2-3 weeks time I think...
-Blogged on Friday, 11 April 2008-
magz [12:25 AM]
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Thursday, April 10, 2008
Graciousness
Dinner with Matt has been postponed to tomorrow due to a communication breakdown. Hahaha. Dinner with Bee and Felix instead. Had prawn noodles opposite Felix's office. Soup's good. Enjoyable!
Had good chats with Agnes, Edmund gor and Carissa mummy today. Catching up with them and discussing some stuff. All private chats so not gonna write about the things that I talked to them about individually.
Tummyache.. Toilet 1st. Oops.. Edmund gor just called. Talk to him 1st..
That was a fast call of 2 mins. Haha.
Taught Gopi how to do Futures once again. He's forgotten even the most basic stuff. Had to start from scratch. Took me the whole morning so I had to rush Options production today. Managed to finish by 7pm coz there were no new deals today. Luckily for me.. Else I'll be swamped. But it's nice to be busy again. Time passes faster.. Hehe.
Took MRT to Raffles place to meet Bee and Felix. Is it that I haven't taken the train for a very long time or there's simply no courtesy and graciousness in Singapore when it comes to MRTs? Before I could get down from the train (there were only 2 people getting off - an Indian girl and myself), people who wanted to board the train were standing right in front of the door. They didn't even leave a gap for us to get down and the poor Indian girl (who was real petite) in front of me was pushed several times. Nobody apologised at all!! It was really bad..
Then on the way up the escalator, everybody was standing to the right of the escalator and not to the left. They simply stood there and not walking up. Sighz.. I'm simply disgusted by these people.
My rash is getting from bad to worse. I'm itching all over!! ARGH!! Think I shall go see the doctor soon.
Uncle Charles just called. Found me a new tenant. British girl. Will see how things go.
K.. Can't stand the itch. I shall go shower now. Bye!
magz [10:00 PM]
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Wednesday, April 09, 2008
The Three Kindoms: Resurrection of the Dragon
Bored in office now.. Decided to write down some stuff coz I know I'll be home late tonite. Going for movie with JZ after work today. Watching "The Three Kingdoms" starring Andy Lau. I know this is his way of cheering me up coz I am unhappy today. A big effort on his part coz he has been so busy at work that there was actually a possiblity of us not meeting today. Yet, he told me about watching movie during lunch. Very very sweet of him. Very very touched..
Why am I unhappy? Aunt Mic's cancer has relapsed. (Refer to 04 Feb 2o08 entry about my closeness with Aunt). I feel like I am a jinx. People who have stayed with me are either sick or have passed away. Mum passed away, followed by Gramp, then Gram became senile, Aunt Mic had cancer, Dad passed away.. Sis told me recently she has a cyst at the breast area, Aunt Mic's cancer came back. All these people were those whom I once lived with. Could I really be the jinx? If so, then I fear for JZ.. I do not think I can live without him. He has become my pillar of strength...
Life is really fragile. 1 minute you can be happily talking to a person. Days later, that person might be gone from your life forever. Is there really a thing such as eternity or forever? I always think.. Nothing lasts forever. Nothing.. Look at the world, our own environment. Even it is gradually disappearing due to global warming. Treasure every minute of every day coz life is too unpredictable. All we can do is to live life to the fullest and be strong. Do not live a life filled with regrets.
Which is why I try not to look back. I try to stick with every decision I have made. Does not matter if I am happy with it coz I do not want to regret. What is done is done. Nothing can turn back the time to reverse the decision or action. We can only look forward in life, not back. I found the below quote online and I like it. Hope you guys like it too. :)
"Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today." -James Dean
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Just reached home from watching the movie. JZ picked me up from office and we ate Popeye's at Terminal 3 as he had craving for fried chicken. Walked around a bit and went back to Tampines Mall to buy tickets for the show and to watch it at 9.25pm. I've never been a fan of The Three Kingdoms.. But this show made me interested. Or rather, watching JZ play the game on Saturday made me interested and this show increased my interest.
The main character in the show which was acted by Andy Lau is the same character that JZ uses in his game. Haha. Soooo cool!!! Anyway, I'm a happy girl now. He did manage to cheer me up once again and I feel much better. We even talked about his previous 3 relationships prior to me and also about settling down and whether we can last. I hope we do..
Messaged Ky earlier in the evening and she replied me while I was having dinner. Can sense that she is feeling lost, sad, frustrated. I understand.. Will sms her more often to see how she's doing. She was there for me when Dad had stroke. I'll be here for her too. She's the only cousin younger than me and we've played together since she was born. She's like a little sis cum baby to me. Will look after her well.
K.. It's getting late and I'm getting real tired. Shall go shower and sleep soon. Nitez all!
magz [11:53 PM]
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Tuesday, April 08, 2008
Deciding Factor
Boring day at work. No deals but helped Edmund gor do some stuff til 9.30pm. Took cab home. Sis n hubby came over to take some stuff from me. They bought sushi for me for dinner! Instead of butter cookies for dinner again, I had sushi! Hahahaha.
Bad bad feeling that my gor is either leaving or transferring or something. Not sure what. He was caught talking to Priscilla (HR manager) and boss today. Then he talked to boss alone. Not a good sign. Not good at all. Starting to be worried but he still refuses to tell me coz he said it's not confirmed yet. Sighz.. Wish he would just share with me again. Can't stand the tension and suspense. :(
Not yet sent out my resume. Decided I will only do it when Edmund gor tells me what is going on. If he's really moving out of the department, I will definitely start sending. Lemme just procrastinate for this much longer. Coz I know I will be sad to leave..
JZ's been real busy these few days. Haven't had much time to talk on the phone coz he's working so hard. Miss having him calling me to chat. Miss talking to him.. Whining and complaining to him and having him make me laugh. Sighz.. It's good that he's busy coz that means he's earning more.. But I do want him around as well. Dilemma.. Ironic.. Contradicting.. I know.. Hope we get to meet tomorrow. Keeping my fingers crossed tightly!
Oops.. Speaking of the devil, he just called!!! But he's still in the office.. Sighz.. Lemme talk to him 1st... Back!! He's still doing the artwork for his customer's stuff. Wonder what time he will finish. And he hasn't even taken dinner! Poor thing..
Matt called me today. Meeting for dinner on Thurs nite. At long last!!! 1 year after knowing him, this is the 1st time we get to meet up for dinner, just the 2 of us. Everytime we meet, it's always with others or coincidental meetings. Haha. Must catch up with him thro this dinner!
K.. I shall go pack my stuff, hang my laundry and prepare for bed. Nitez folks!
magz [11:06 PM]
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Monday, April 07, 2008
Teary eyed...
Just finished watching my 40 episode drama.. So touching. Teary eyed and feeling happy. So sweet.. Can't take it.
Wonder if I'll get to see Dan in HK when I go over for a visit. He will be coming back around the same period that I'm supposed to go over. I really hope the dates don't clash. Wanna meet up and catch up over a drink. That will be the 1st for us coz we've never really sat down and talk before. Not sure if we'll have the chance.
Hmmz.. Thinking if I will be able to sleep. Seems cooling tonite so will not on aircon yet. See how it goes.. :)
magz [11:25 PM]
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JC Days...
Boring day at work. Insomnia last nite again. Seems like it happens from Sundays to Thursdays. Why? Sighz.. Shall try to on my air con to sleep tonite. Hopefully it cures my insomnia else I'll go crazy soon.
Came home with tummy ache again. 3rd time to the toilet today. Haha. I'm really a toilet queen. :p
Have been keeping in contact with Dan from JC again. It's amazing how far we have come. From JC.. All the rumours and nonsense til now, friends once again. I look forward to the daily messages we will leave for each other on Facebook. He's working in HK now.. A place where I've always wanted to work at. Fantasy? Maybe.. But at least I'm happy to be in contact with him again.
Just like I'm happy to be in contact with Law again. Seeing his advertisement on TV the other day gave me a sense of happiness. Haven't met up with him for very very long. Miss the good old days in Council where we were so close and so happy then. :)
My JC days...
magz [8:43 PM]
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Sunday, April 06, 2008
Happy Bday Matt!
Friday (04 April 2008)Quite an ok day at work. No new deals at all but had to clear up some month end stuff still. Pretty alright. Ended work at 6.45pm but waited for Rachel til 8pm to leave office. Took a cab and she dropped off at Clarke Quay to meet her bf while I got off at City Hall to meet Bee and Ting.
Walked around City Hall to get something for JZ. Ting met us there and we had dinner at Din Tai Fung. Ordered sooo much! A bowl of dan dan mian for me, shared 10 xiao long baos, red bean dumplings, guo tie or something like that, yam paste dumplings and some sort of chilli dumplings. Haha. Sooo full that I thought I would explode. Chatted and caught up over dinner.
Walked all the way to Hotel Rendezvous Coffee Club for drinks. Had a Iced Earl Vanilla and chatted til 12.30am. A few people at the next people were playing Truth or Dare and 1 of the guy's dare was to take a picture together with me. Obliged but did not give him my mobile number when he requested for it. JZ picked me up and we went back to his place. Bathed, wanted to watch movies at his place but couldn't find the DVD. Watched Crayon Boy aka La Bi Xiao Xing DVD instead but it was in Cantonese and didn't sound good. Decided to sleep instead.
Saturday (05 April 2008)He woke up early to go work. Came back and woke me up. Said that his sis was treating him to dim sum. Showered and his sis asked if we were ready to go. Wasn't in the mood to go coz (1) I don't like to be rushed, (2) I felt that the treat wasn't meant for me. Told him that and he was pissed. Told his sis to go ahead without us and both of us were angry with each other. By the time I was done to go out, he was lying on his bed.
Left the house together but walked on our own. Reached the bus stop with no destination in mind at all. Asked him what bus we were taking and he said he doesn't know. 2 unhappy people standing at the bus stop not talking and looking pissed. Finally boarded bus number 55 and got off at East Coast Road. Walked some distance in the hot sun to eat the prawn noodles and ngor hiang. Then walked to Joo Chiat for him to eat wanton noodles. After that, walked 2 streets down to buy durian puffs and raspberry rolls.
Weather was too hot to walk back to the bus stop so we took a cab back to his place. I did up my resume (yes, it's finally done!!!) while he played game on his Playstation. I watched him play a while and it seemed like the tension was more or less gone but still not as close as before. He went to marinate chicken wings to be brought to his elder sis's place for dinner and I fell asleep. Slept til 7pm where he woke me up to go for dinner.
Ate dinner and he wanted to go downstairs to play with his nieces and nephews. Went down with him but intended to sit there and read the Recruit section of Straits Times which I took from his elder sis's place. But, the younger ones wanted to play football with him and the older one wanted to play badminton. I played badminton with the girl in my halter top and jeans and my hair untied. Haven't exercised in a long time plus the hot weather, I was perspiring badly. Finally stopped playing to rest.
The young ones went back to his elder sis's place while we went back to his place. Showered while he watched Liverpool vs Arsenal. Draw 1-1. Haha. Again! He went to bathe and I watched tv. Got a shock when he requested to kiss me. That's when I knew he had eaten his durian puff! No wonder so nice to me! Haha. But thanx to the durian puffs, all tension was lost and we were back to normal! He even tickled me til I had leg cramp.
By 12.30am, both of us were hungry and he cooked instant noodles for us. Sweet! Had my noodles and watched tv for a bit til I was sleepy. Slept while he continued watching. Not sure what time he slept but I know I slept soundly in his arms.
Sunday (06 April 2008)He woke up early again to go tomb sweeping with his sisters and brothers. Told me I didn't need to go coz he knew that I would wanna sleep. Maybe next year I'll follow him. :p Shall try not to sleep so much. Haha.
Woke up when he messaged me to say that he would be buying lunch for me. Showered and he reached home. Ate the mee pok he bought for me, watched 9-ball pool while he entertained some Singtel promoter at the door.
Salsa time and Felix picked me up. Salsa for 2 hours. 1st time I really felt giddy and lost my balance. Got a shock. But was ok. Tampines to buy shoe cabinet after salsa and I finally chose 1. Cost me $250. Slightly on the expensive side but it's big enough for all my shoes and looks quite nice. Guess it's worth the money. Hopefully.
Had dinner with Felix at Toa Payoh Central. Bought my favourite bubble tea that cannot be found at most places. Came back to my place and packed my balcony cum living room area. Super hard work. Both of us perspired badly and the stuff that we brought down to throw were really heavy. Metal and heavy wood, etc etc. Took us about 2.5 hours to clean and clear everything. Waiting for my shoe cabinet to arrive next Saturday now. But I won't be home so Felix will come over and help me open the door. Haha. I really owe him big time!
Next Sunday will be cleaning and clearing my kitchen.. Another tough day but I think I like things neat and clean now. Will be very happy to come home everyday then. Haha. Except weekends.. Hehe.
Oh ya.. Something very important to say.. HAPPY BDAY MY DEAREST MATT! :-)
magz [10:44 PM]
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Thursday, April 03, 2008
CV
1st thing I did when I reached home.. Yeah, you guessed it. Toilet! Tummy ache! Hahaha. As usual.
Left office at 10pm. Very very hungry now. But too tired to eat now. Kinda disappointed at the same time. Don't ask why.
Lynn has resigned. Sighz.. Seriously time to update my CV and do the necessary.
Going to temple to pray to Dad tomorrow morning before going to work. And Mahesh and Irene are on leave. Need to rush back to work and to do my morning stuff. Plus the fact that auditors are coming tomorrow for at least 2 weeks. Oh no!!!
Still suffering from insomnia. Think tonight will be able to sleep well coz I'm really very very tired..
magz [11:03 PM]
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Wednesday, April 02, 2008
Slight Diarrhoea..
Another pretty busy day at work. Was ok. Just that I was really really tired. Couldn't sleep on Sun nite and the last 2 nites, I woke up at 3.30am to use the toilet plus my rash was acting up. Sighz.. Irritating. All I need now is a nite of very sound sleep. Hopefully I can get that tonite.
Lunched at Macs. Had the meal plus a free McFlurry. Then I bought a cup of coffee back to office to drink. Not sure if it's coz of the hot and cold drinks that I'm having a slight diarrhoea now. Sickening..
Yet to eat dinner. Slightly hungry now. Most likely I'll cook instant noodles using my new utensils. Hehe. Shall head to the toilet now... Tata!
magz [8:38 PM]
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Tuesday, April 01, 2008
Dad's Bday.. Next Month End..
Busy day again. Still at month end. Like the way time flies. Not complaining.
Lunch time today. Irene, Mel and I were chatting when Mahesh put a copy of
Headhunt on my lap. Wanna know what Headhunt is? It's like the Recruit section of Straits Times just that the ads are all posted by headhunting companies. We saw some job opportunities suitable for us and we discussed it real loudly. Boss was in his room but he doesn't understand Chinese anyway. Who cares anyway? Haha. It was bad but we couldn't be bothered. We're all unhappy employees. :p
Worked hard til 7.30pm. JZ called and asked what time I would be off work. He showered and picked me up from office. Told him about the job opening. He's supportive as always coz he knows I'm unhappy. :) Had dinner at Toa Payoh Lor 5 market. Ate fishball noodles and had sugarcane juice. Wasn't fully satisfied so ordered fried chicken wing. Was nice! Deliciously crispy skin that's even better than KFC. Drool~~
Home after that. As always, eat too much = tummy ache. Haha. What goes in comes out, just that everybody always feel that mine is super fast. Maybe my intestines are straight. Haha. Opened letterbox and saw a letter for Dad. Opened it and it was a bday card from NTUC Income...
Was thinking in office today that the next month end would be Dad's bday. And the card came.. Sighz.. I recalled Dad's bday last year. I was unfilial.. Last year, on Dad's bday (the actual day), I was in Shanghai and couldn't celebrate for him. Came back to Singapore on a Sunday evening and was too tired to celebrate for him. The following weekend, Tom and I broke up. Was so sad and depressed that I didn't wanna celebrate with Dad. Dad kept wanting to eat out.. He always wanna eat out on his bday... I didn't fulfil that wish of his.. I just wasn't in the mood. :( And now, I'll never get a chance to celebrate his bday for him. Sighz..
On a brighter note, I'm glad I managed to have lunch with him at his favourite restaurant before I went Sydney.. He had always wanted me to eat with him there (so that I can pay) but I've always been too lazy and reluctant. At least I fulfilled that wish...
magz [9:44 PM]
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