3 Years - Enraged!
Today marks my 3rd year in this department, my 5th year in this company. But today was not a good day. I was soooo pissed off that I felt my blood pressure rise to a level where I was worried that I might have a heart attack anytime soon. Yes, I was that enraged!
In my company, there's the unwritten rule whereby anyone who wants to apply for an internal transfer needs to be with the same department for 2 years. And if you managed to get the job, you are required to serve 2 months notice. Which is what I am doing now.
Yes, I know the department is freaking shorthanded. But that doesn't mean that I have to be the sacrificial lamb so that others can get their transfer right? I KNOW I AM DISPENSABLE BUT PLS SHOW ME SOME RESPECT! So what if the other transferee is referred and recommended by others? So what if the boss of the other transferee at the other department is your good friend? DOES THAT MEAN I CAN BE COMPROMISED?? EVER WONDERED HOW I WILL FEEL????
I guess not right??!!!! Otherwise, I won't be put on the pedestal to be sacrificed! I, too, am human. I have my rights too! Trust an AVP to say that he merely wanted to explore the option and possibility of delaying my start date at my new department. WHAT SORT OF OPTION IS THAT? AN INCONSIDERATE ONE!!!
I showed my unhappiness at the meeting. Why shouldn't I? I served my notice period and yet, I'm the one who has to delay my start date to allow others who got their interview later than me, who got selected for the job 1 month later than me to start 1 month before me? I WILL NOT TAKE THIS LYING DOWN!
Told the AVP that he is shortchanging me, he is VERY unfair to me! I served my notice period and I will NOT delay my start date. This is not right! No one in their right mind will feel happy or justified by it. I got this job based on my own capability and didn't rely on anyone! I WILL NOT HAVE INJUSTICE DONE TO ME!!
I fought for my rights. I don't care if I pissed anyone off in the process coz all I want is to do what I want! Fuck it! All I want is to leave this department! I don't need your blessings. I never had any to begin with. U guys never could stand outspoken people. U guys hate my guts but at least, I work with INTEGRITY! My medical leave rate is countable every year. I worked my ass off for the last 3 years. What do I get in return? FUCKING NOTHING BUT INEQUALITY!
I won't be sad to leave this department anymore. In fact, I'M DAMN GLAD TO BE LEAVING! I'm dispensable and worthless anyway. 3 years of unappreciated efforts. WHATEVER! Don't even organise a farewell party for me or gimme any farewell gifts. I don't need the hypocrisy in my life! And yes, although you have apologised and I have accepted it, it doesn't mean I can forgive you so easily.
It was my neighbour's grandchildren who brightened my day again. I must thank them for always making me smile on a day when I'm down and out. They always manage to put a smile on my face. I've gotta learn to let this episode outta my mind...
Happy Mother's Day 2010
Happy Mother's Day to all mothers, including mine!
The moment I woke up, I told Eeyore, it's been 20 years and still counting. I tried my hardest not to think about it.. But during dinner, the tables on both my left and right were celebrating Mother's Day. And Eeyore wanted to call his mum.. What about me??
I miss my mummy.. I wish I could call her too or celebrate with Mother's Day with her. I've never had a chance to do it.. She left me when I was 8 - too young for any celebration, not to mention, any celebration in future..
The time spent together has been too short. I miss u, terribly..
