Sunday, October 31, 2004

dedicated to my sis~
my sis finally got married today (30/10)! must wish her a happy n blissful marriage!

was quite angry with her the past few days for taking me for granted n for venting her anger on me. but when i saw the slideshow of her from young til now n her hubby, it was quite touching. had to control my tears coz i was the emcee for the day. :)

glad that my sis married ming zhong. i know he'll treat her well. the way he gives in to her whenever she loses her temper, it's enough to tell me that this guy will love her forever. he's sweet n nice to her. that's the most important thing in a relationship. it's not about looks, money, or car. those r only for materialistic people. what's important is the character n personality of a person. i don't believe that anyone should shortchange themselves for someone else coz if u really love a person, u should accept that person juz as he/she is. that's the way that love should be.

everybody keeps asking me when is my turn. hey, come on, i'm not that old manz. i'm 5 yrs younger than my sis. don't think it'll be my turn so soon. haha.

alvyn gor, remember to send me the website for the photos n to burn a copy of the video for me. thanx so much~!~!~! :)

anyway, must thank quite a no. of people who have made this occasion a success:

1) alvyn gor - the man behind everything. without him, nothing would have been possible. he's the videographer for the day, photographer during their ROM, music person, slideshow cum montage maker, labourer, servant n main helper. :p

2) elaine, yee mun, bee cheng, jeannie, samuel, gary, yun nai - the 'brothers' n 'sisters' for the day. without them being so sporting, the day wouldn't have been so fun. :)

3) tom - for being the servant, labourer, chauffeur n errand boy. for helping out in many ways more than one though he didn't go for the banquet. :p

4) derrick - the banquet manager. without him, the banquet wouldn't have been successful n things wouldn't have run smoothly. he's efficient n really dealt with my last minute requests very well. he handled them perfectly n got everything for me just as i wanted. he's a good banquet manager. deserves to be promoted!!!!

5) yu fa - the driver who had to wait so long before he could end work due to the indecisiveness of people.

6) martin - photographer who was so responsible n for being so friendly. he even made my angry sis laugh n smile for photo shoots. well done~!

7) adrian n me - the 2 emcees who made a fool of themselves on stage. haha. esp to me, for being the maid, labourer n the 'dummy' who kept being scolded for no reason coz my sis wanted to vent her anger. so much so that i cried in the office. much as i always say that i hate her n that she's a bitch, she's my sis after all. i still love her n after complaining, i'll still do things for her. sighz~ hehe.

i enjoyed myself loads today~ that's most important n hopefully my sis n her bf enjoyed themselves too. hope it was memorable for them. may they stay happy always. ^_^

magz [1:36 AM]

*will dreams come true one day?*

Saturday, October 09, 2004

reality shows
watched singapore idol results on tv today though i forgot to watch the live show last nite to see how they performed. was a little shocked and surprised to see that my friend lost. not that i was supporting or rooting for him though but at least he is my friend. not the very close kind coz he once spreaded rumours in the whole school that my friend and i were fighting with each other for him and that we liked him. i mean, hey, we only treated u as friends so aren't u thinking too much into things when i took the bus with u twice only? maybe he just needs an ego boost in school i guess. not a very popular guy back then coz of his attitude n his rather big mouth. haha. hope he's changed for the better. anyway, david yeo aka yeo chin hao (as we know him in school), all the best and sorry that u did not manage to go further. work hard in law school!

diana, thanx for the comment. u have been working like a true blue permanent staff in credit doc team. always reaching early in office and leaving late. haha. no sense of time anymore to go for lunch and to go home from work. working so hard~

been feeling so tired and sleepy.. lethargic. i missed survivor though gthe tv was on! shucks.

let's do a review on reality shows since everybody says i'm a reality show freak. haha.

1) Show Title: Amazing Race
Feelings: Stumbled on this show by accident after watching survivor 1 or 2 years back. This is 1 good reality show coz it's so real and the contestants get to travel all around the world for free. It's exciting coz u never know who gets kicked out in the end as things may happen along the way. Some pairs squabble throughout the whole race and yet emerged winners or end up being closer or getting married. My fave pairs so far are still derek and drew coz they're cute, the couple in the same season as them who got kicked out in the s'pore league but i forgot their names but they were so loving and sweet to each other throughout. Personally, i like teams who play the game with integrity and not lie or make use of other teams so that they can win. The ending for each team that gets eliminated is always quite touching and some have brought me to tears especially the charla and mirna episode. charla is a real cool gal and she's really proved lots of people wrong. well done.


2) Show Title: Survivor
Feelings: Started watching this show only in season 2 coz kuan asked me to watch. We used to watch the show over the phone together and discuss the show during advertisements. Haha. Used to think that the show is kinda dumb coz i simply don't understand why people wanna go through the torture of being in some island with no food and water although it IS a good way of experiencing another kind of life. But these people are doing it for the money, not the experience!!! However, i enjoy the show though i hated the guyh who lied about his grandma passing away so that he could win the reward challenge. No point remembering such a person's name. To outwit, outplay and outlast others, lies are not necessarily needed. Play a game with integrity!! The couple in the all reward season were the most unexpected ones to last til the end. Saw it right from the day the 2 got together that they would end up being the final 2. Nevertheless, this is still a pretty nice reality show to watch, especially for the host who's so cute!!

3) Show Title: America's next top model
Feelings: Season 1 was pretty good. This season is horrible! have only watched 1 episode so far and i feel so turned off already. I mean, some of the gals... U call them models? God!!! Most of them can't even do a catwalk properly. 1 of them even walked til so ugly that i was really disgusted. To me, she's not pretty, doesn't dress up well, always wearing her very old fashioned specs and tying her hair all up when her face is so long really makes it worse. The next episode will be when they have a makeover with their hair so i wanna watch the difference. 1 thing i don't understand is, why do these gals get upset over a haircut or dye or whatsoever. I mean, come on, to be a model, u've got to sacrifice. The hair will grow back anyway so why make a big fuss out of it? Duhz...

4) Show Title: American Idol/Singapore Idol
Feelings: Americal idol is a real hit and success. Missed the 1st season as well but i can't remember why. Started watching the 2nd season when it was the 10 finalists. Saw clay aiken then and felt that he was quite good. Still think that he's better than ruben studdard though. As for season 3, i only liked 1 singer and felt that she was really fantastic. Latoya londons. Her voice is really good and powerful. As for fantasia barrino, somehow i feel that her voice has a bit of whining sound in it. doesn't really appeal to me.
Singapore idol.. doesn't really bother watching it except to see how my friends did.. shirin and david yeo. Shirin was in the semis but didn't make it to the finals. david lost tonite so i guess i won't bother watching the show anymore. The singapore version of the show simply doesn't appeal to me at all. Feels that the voting doesn't seem very fair. Singapore is so small so basically, if u have a lot of friends and relatives, i'm sure u can go quite far in this show. American idol is more real coz the country has so many states and so many people watch the show that they can have millions of calls. Furthermore, how far can a Singapore idol go? The english singing market is saturated with so many singers far better than what our idol finalists can do. Simply compare Singapore and America idol and u can see the difference straight away. Besides, how many chinese singers have done well and gone far in the english market? Coco lee.. she doesn't seem to be doing too well now. Sun ho.. she's doing well now but it's coz she's doing dance tracks. So... Pretty pointless, aint it?

5) Show Title: The bachelor/bachelorette
Feelings: Love this show!!! Don't ask why. Think it's just a gal's thing especially the story about trista and ryan. Picked ryan out right from the beginning coz he's just so sweet!!! How many guys can be so romantic?? Gosh.. he's truly 1 fantastic guy and the kind that most gals will want. All my gal friends and i watched their wedding and we were all in awe and jealous. They are just so matching and feels so right together!!! All the best to those 2~!

the above are 5 that i never fail to catch. can't remember what other reality shows i watch but the new ones coming out now... i can't be bothered. some are simply too dumb like the swan, makeover show, the one whose kids are helping the dad look for a girlfriend off the streets, etc... eewwww... come on, have some better shows~

k.. it's time for bed... i'm so tired.. *yawnz*

magz [1:44 AM]

*will dreams come true one day?*

Friday, October 08, 2004

perm job...
desperately need a permanent job. this pay is really not enough to keep me going for too long. kuan said that my operations manager at akltg feels that it's better for me not to apply for the job there coz there might be political issues between me n him at work. i'm ok with working there coz he doesn't affect me but they dunno what he feels. fuck him. everything is all coz him. i don't get to work at a place where i was my happiest when working n it's coz of him. this is irritating n frustrating.

must start actively looking for job now. can't go on for long like this.

seems like my good friends are all starting their own businesses... kuan, hus... all their entrepreneurs. i'm satisfied n contented to be an employee but honestly, i'd rather fulfil my dream to either go into the modelling, acting or singing line. definitely not in s'pore though. either hong kong or taiwan. don't think i can make it big in the western countries. haha. i can continue dreaming...

anne called me a few nights ago. seems like she needs another job as well coz her whole team is moving to shanghai n if they go, they'll get pathetic pay, pay for their own lodging n food. so we're all trying to look for jobs now. more unemployed people.. sigh...

must go work in a short while. boring. couldn't wake up actually. didn't even hear my alarm ringing til the alarm went off. haha. i'm so dead tired. been feeling a little moody n down for the past few days but i know i will lift my own spirits up. :) k... that's all for now. must start preparing for work.. boring~

magz [7:21 AM]

*will dreams come true one day?*

Saturday, October 02, 2004

explode
if anybody asks me about my sis's wedding again, i think i might just explode!!! it's her wedding, not mine!!! n anyway, i don't wanna know anything about it. i don't wanna be her emcee on that day n i'm not important at all anyway. i'm not going to be sitting at the host's table n neither was i invited to the food tasting tonite for her wedding. she already said that i'm not important or something like that so y should i care? i don't wanna be involved in it in any way.

even people in the office think that i know a lot. today she brought her wedding photos to the office n everybody said that i should have seen it before. NO... that wasn't the case. i'm just as insignificant as other people. i saw the photos together with them. didn't know which was her wedding gowns coz i wasn't asked to go along with her when she tried them on. rather, yee mun her ex-colleague was there to help out. i'm only a small fry. pls direct all questions about her n her wedding to other people n not me. i'm not invited for anything. i'm only her 'maid' who she'll come n look for when she needs help. maids normally don't know much about their employers so DO NOT ASK ME ANYTHING!!!

alvyn gor n boon leong, u better not tell her i wrote this. she'll kill me n i'll kill u. haha. DON'T tell her anything that i've told u. thanx.

magz [1:40 AM]

*will dreams come true one day?*

congrats
firstly, congrats to diana coz she started her 1st day as a permanent staff today. Congratulations~

secondly, must congratulate dearest jean who finally allowed dilun to hold her hand n so they are a couple now. hehe. it's good to know that dilun managed to melt this tough gal a little. haha. jean, i'm happy for u. hope u r happy too. any problems, i'll be most willing to lend u my ear as i've always had n u've done the same for me. don't think too much n pls be more optimistic about things. not all relationships will end badly, moreover u've just started!!! y are u thinking of that anyway??? haha. congrats gal n i really hope u'll find happiness in this relationship n not end up like the previous one. :)

jessie's friend found a room so... told her to help me look out for other friends who might need one. hope i get good news.

i'm the only temp staff in my department now. guess going to other departments n being the errand gal will be done by me n me alone. boring.. really getting bored of it. must find permanent job!! considering the offer at akltg. full time accounts asst for $1300 a month. it's super low pay but at least i know the people there n i like the working atmosphere. sighz... pay's really too low though..

dumb friend refuses to say sorry about the gym matter n refuses to reply my email. screw him, that jerk!!! bloody asshole!!

been thinking about certain things that have happened recently. have decided that i won't bother about other people's business anymore.. family or friends. i'm not going to bother anymore unless they wanna tell me about it. even if they tell me, i'm not going to help and solve the problem for anyone especially if it involves another friend or family member of mine. everytime i try to settle things for other people, i'm the one that people get angry with or i'll get all the blame and whatnots. screw it manz. everything that people tell me, i'm just going to shut up n listen. no conveying of messages, no more being problem solver. hell no! i'm not even going to tell people how i feel anymore. nopez. no more of this shit n nonsense. being getting too much of all these from people in the past 2 to 3 weeks. sick n tired of these sort of stupid things.

so from now on, i'm gonna just concentrate on myself n not care about anyone else unless they want me to. but i'll always be here for my friends if they need me. so.. we'll see how things go. meanwhile, screw the world! haha. nah.. just kidding. :p

oh ya.. talking to my buddy now. he just complimented me that i'm pretty. haha. thanx buddy!!

magz [1:38 AM]

*will dreams come true one day?*