Anyway, thought of writing today coz it's my dad's bday tomorrow. Happy 59th Bday Daddy!! As I said earlier, I was reading thro my old posts 2 years ago - which means, when Dad was hospitalised. I read 2 entries, felt myself tearing in the office and I had to move on to posts after March. I can't do it.. I can't read my old posts without crying.

Out of the 2 posts, 1 of them was when I was at the airport before flying to Sydney and before Daddy was hospitalised. It was written at the airport and he had jus dropped me off. It was nearing Xmas time and he hinted that he wanted a credit card. In my blog post, I wrote that I would apply for a sup card for him, as Xmas pressie. That never happened...

I regret.. I regret not giving it to him earlier. He's never had a credit card in his whole life and yet, I dragged so long. Why do I always cry when I think of my daddy?? :( Sighz.. Be strong!!

I think my baby cousin Ky knows that I'm unhappy. She's sending me cute little pics. :) Yupz, I still have my family with me and I should be happy.

To my daddy, Happy Bday once again! :) I'll do u proud and make u happy like I always do! I miss u..

I dunno. Life is full of dilemmas and irony. This dept has been a good learning ground. Friendships were forged in my 5 years of being in Ops. I've had lots of close friends in these 5 years, some of whom are still with the bank, most of whom are already working somewhere else. I'll really miss the friends I've made.

But sometimes it's hard to differentiate between friends and colleagues. At work, people behave differently. But as friends, we've had lots of fun and laughter. We've shared a lot of ups and downs.

I can look forward now. It's time to move on.. As long as we're friends, we'll always be friends. :)

It was a celebration for Eeyore's bday, planned by yours truly, me! :) Dinner @ Les Amis. I'll jus let the pics do the talking. Fancy names for the dishes but I can't remember.. So, simple does it! :p

Appetiser - Asparagus

Starter - Fried scallops

Starter - Char grilled cod fish

Pasta for Eeyore

Main Course - Pork Loin. Check out the knife!

Dessert - Poached Pear & Chocolate Sorbet

Complimentary Bday Cake and Chocs!

Heart Shaped Sugar for the coffee & tea

And lastly, there was us..

Happy Bday Dearest Eeyore! :)

Eeyore and I went back to KL coz his grandma and parents wanted to celebrate his bday for him. What was meant to be a joyous occasion wasn't exactly that joyous in the end. Drove back on Fri nite, reached on Sat 2am. Dead tired but I had to endure the torture of finding a huge cockroach in the room I was sleeping in. Eeyore's dad to the rescue! After the demise of the cockroach, I went to shower and came out of the toilet to find a huge spider hanging by the toilet light switch. :(

Finally headed to bed. Next morning, we had to wake up at 8+am (everything mus go according to plan, as always). So once again, it was rush rush rush the whole day. At the mall at 5pm, his mum wanted to get him a bday cake. As Eeyore hates cakes, we decided to go for ice cream cake. Went to Baskin Robbins (since Singapore doesn't have it). His mum started complaining about how expensive the cake was - RM90+ for a small cake (I admit, it's small). Felt bad for Eeyore coz it's what he wanted after all.

Walked around a while longer at the mall. Kept being rushed til I had no mood to shop for dresses and office wear. Was a bit pissed already and we were being rushed coz his mum wanted to play tennis and she had booked the court for 6pm. I knew why we were rushing but Eeyore didn't wanna care. Had a bit of a tiff and he was pissed with his mum so he argued with her. Of coz we gave in as always, so off we went for tennis after I had bought and collected the cake.

After tennis, we had to rush to collect Eeyore's drycleaning before the shop closed at 8pm. He couldn't find the receipt and was scolded badly by his mum. Sighz.. Finally settled all the stuff and went for dinner. Specifically told the waitress to put the ice cream cake in the freezer and I think she left it in the fridge instead. When the cake was brought out, half of it was slanted and starting to melt. By the time it was put on our table, we didn't even have time to light the candle as it was melting very badly! :( Total waste of my effort and money for the cake. Really saddening..

No rush today but upon driving home from KL, we met with a car accident on the highway. The front side of our car is smashed so badly that the driver's door can't be opened. The front bumper will have to be changed, the bonnet and the lights too. Heartache!! Our 1st car accident and it was all caused by idiots in front who had crashed and stood in the middle of the road. Damn pissed!

Came home, rested for a while and went for dinner. The minute we came home from dinner, Eeyore received a call and it was from the police station. Apparently he had dropped his "Malaysian" wallet at our house carpark and a kind soul brought it to the police station. Thank God that Eeyore's name card is in the wallet and his mobile number is stated on the card. Whoever the kind soul is, thank u for doing us this great deed!!!

I dunno how much more of such bad luck I can take in a day. And his actual bday is.. Tomorrow. But I feel so drained to even think of his celebration anymore..

Jus hope that tomorrow will be a better day. Pls let it be!!

It's finally finally official!!! 01 JUNE 2010!!! I can't wait to get out of this department!! Yes, I'm dying and desperate to leave, to leave a department filled with lies, hypocrisy, politics, favouritism & sucking up!

Lies & Hypocrisy: Oh, how many lies have I heard in my 3 years in this department? The empty promises to everyone, the outright lie to my close friends forcing them all to leave 1 by 1. And my supervisors lied to me right in my face a few times too. How disgusting!

Politics: The arrogance of being promoted when 1 knows shit about his/her work. The unfairness in everything. Slogging and working hard is useless here. Working even when u're sick will not gain u anything except for the words "foolish" and "stupid". Taking sick days often guarantee that u get promoted. How about that eh?

Sucking up: Oh, I'm seeing this soooooo often these days that it makes me wanna dig my eyes out and puke! Simply can't take it anymore!

Boy, am I happy to leave! The nonsense I have lived with for the last 3 years, just to gain enough experience to go somewhere else. I have made full use of this stepping stone and I'm more than happy to get my transfer out of here.

For the last 1 year, it has been totally unbearable. Being made redundant coz of other people's blatant sucking up and how favouritism is shown openly - talking ever so sweetly and nicely to the checkers & supervisors. Sitting next to them to chat on the pretext of learning or not understanding work.

It's disheartening to learn and see what my department has become in this 1 year. Only 1 person gets to learn and information is not disseminated or shared. Projects are dumped on us and not discussed beforehand, even if it's not workable. What have we become?

Once again, I'm thankful, grateful and ever so appreciative of this chance! I fought hard for it and I'm gonna work hard now! All the unhappiness will be behind me soon!! 1 more month to embark on my new journey and a new chapter in my life! 1 more month to start afresh!!! WOOHOO!!!!!

::WOOHOO::

I couldn't contain my excitement in office. Colleagues who knew told me that I'm eluding a glow the whole day! How could I not?? It is the most amazing thing to happen to me for the last 2 years! I have been waiting for this day for that long and it's finally happening! I can only hope that everything will go well now. Til the day that I get the "call", I will have to contain my excitement and happiness. I don't want anything to fall thro again, at the last minute, jus like the other time 2 years back. I can't afford to have my happiness dashed again. Pls jus lemme find my happiness!!!

"We had a lot of people to (fill in the blanks) .. But u blew them all away."

This line threw me off! I never expected, never ever thought of myself in that manner. I hope I can live up to their expectations! I have regained my lost soul, my lost passion.

The flame has been re-ignited. Hopefully soon, the fire will be burning bright!

The ridicule of all these.. The folly of the people.

Driving me mad.. Driving me insane. I won't be surprised if I suffer a mental breakdown some day.

Nothing I can do now but to keep my fingers crossed. Pls don't let me wait too long!

On a day like this, I feel the love and I'm thankful that you are in my life! :)

Everything else has been going pretty well in my life so far I guess. Eeyore and I seem to be in the smooth sailing phase at the moment and I can only wish it carries on like this. ^.^ Oh, jus realised I haven't taken any photo with him since my bday which was 4 months ago! :( Time for some pics soon!

Watched Sammi Cheng concert yesterday with Cher, Irene & my sis. :) Very very wonderful concert! Still pretty after all these years! Hehe.

Gotta keep my cool and do my thing! :)

If all turn out well, I'll write about it soon! ^.^

Til then, nite nitez!