Saturday, April 29, 2006

Satisfied
I think in some ways, I'm a sinple girl who's easily satisfied with life.

Headed to town just now to buy some heels and present for Min. Tom was thirsty so we decided to grab drinks. As we were at Borders, I naturally went to look for my buddy. There he was, hidden by the counter. Luckily I decided to bend down as I saw someone there, else, I wouldn't have been in the cafe.

Thanx to my buddy for making me my favourite dish and a drink that I really wanted to try. We had Monster Mushrooms and IMM Slam. It made me a truly satisfied gal and definitely a happy one at that. Haha. :) And as always, he refuses to let me pay! Had a debate and in the end, I only paid $7 after saying that if he doesn't let me pay, I won't ever eat there again. Haha.

After which, Tom and I headed to Far East to shop for my heels as the pair that I usually wear to work is spoiling. I managed to buy 3 pairs for the price of 2 and I like what I bought!! Am a happy and truly SATISFIED gal today!! :p

magz [8:26 PM]

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Wednesday, April 26, 2006

Stressed..
I've been rather stressed with work recently.. To the extent that I had bad Monday blues 2 days ago.

Last week started to get hectic as 1 colleague was on training and I had a number of things to rush for my boss before she went for her course in Shanghai yesterday. Furthermore, I had to learn another colleague's portfolio as my supervisor doesn't want to cover her work when we are shorthanded. So, the job landed on my laps.. With a very sarcastic comment, "Maggie can learn your portfolio.. She's very smart one mahz."

So, I took 2 days off my own work to learn from my colleague how to handle her work. In the end, I was left with Fri last week and Mon this week to finish my urgent stuff that needed my boss's signature before she left. What's worse was that there were some screw ups for my own portfolio and I made the same mistake 3 times in 2 days! Was really upset with myself coz it's not the first time I made this mistake. Sighz..

Think the stress from work hit me hard coz I suffered from insomnia on Sunday night. Couldn't sleep til 1+ am and I woke up earlier than normal.. at 6am. Sighz.. In the end, I ended up with very terrible Monday blues and had the urge to just scream out loud! I guess something added to the feeling as well. Anne called me on Friday night and told me about some crap that my supervisor told her. I find it ridiculous that she should say something like that and I actually had to subdue my urge to just walk over to my supervisor's desk and confront her in her face. Boy, was I glad when the day ended..

Today, my supervisor had to pick on me once again, questioning a lot of things. To me, I don't see the need to trouble bosses, especially other dept's bosses, when it is a small matter and their subordinates will know what's happening. But no, she wants me to call the bosses and ask them myself. It's downright ridiculous coz honestly, I don't think the bosses are so free to entertain you everyday and they will have to check with the same subordinates that I call anyway! It's such a redundant move that I feel stupid in doing that. Got scolded by her for that so tomorrow onwards, bosses pls take note coz I'm gonna have to bug all of you! Duhz.

Anyway, thanx Stef, for the sms on Monday wishing my Monday blues away. Haha. It was nice receiving your msg and it came at the perfect timing! *HUGZ*

magz [8:09 PM]

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Saturday, April 15, 2006

2 years ago..
Went to do fringe rebonding today as my fringe was getting too wavy and disgusting. As always, I went back to my normal haorstylist, Kef. He asked me if I was still in contact with my ex-bf, Stu. Kinda surprised me that he would ask this question. Brought back some memories..

Many people were envious of me when I first started dating Stu. Who wouldn't be? It was almost like a fairytale story. I was the temp staff at his office and he was the director of the company. It was a partnership that he had set up with a couple of friends. Anyway, the way we started was like a fairytale in itself.. He is 8 years older than I am, and yet we started dating.

As most people know, I'm not the kind of girl who needs her bf to be around 24/7. I believe in personal time and space, and that we all should have the freedom to go out with friends even when we are in a relationship. With Stu, I had more than that coz he was always too busy to go out with me. Our dating ground, almost everytime we met, was in his office. His life was too hectic to accomodate a gf. Even though i don't need a bf 24/7, I needed care and concern.. Which I could hardly get from him.

There was a time when we were supposed to meet and I had to wait for almost 3 hours before he appeared. And there wasn't a single "Sorry" when he arrived. He said that when he was busy, he won't think of anything.. Let alone his gf waiting for him and worrying about his safety. That day, I realised I was a nobody and my heart was broken. Just like when I waited for him for 5 hours and he lost his temper. It was a tough period for me coz most people who know me well enough will know that I hate waiting for people. Yet.. For him.. I waited long, and i mean LONG, hours. Maybe love is really blind..

He told me he couldn't handle long distance relationships when we first started dating. But when he told me he was going to US for a month in July, I decided to try out for internship in Shanghai which would happen in June. He was unhappy upon hearing that I wanted to even go for the internship, so I stayed on in Singapore.

Stu's not a bad person.. Just that he will put himself and his job on the top of his list. Those are his priorities. He didn't need to have me in his life and I felt redundant most of the time. Especially when I pop by his office to look for him. To other people, it always appears as if I'm disturbing him while he's working. I don't mean to... But.. There's no other way I could meet up with him!

It soon dawned on me that this guy doesn't need a gf.. He's too much a workaholic to sustain a relationship. Hopefully he's changed now coz I heard that he's got a gf. Maybe he's better off without me. I could never satisfy his needs anyway. What he wants, I couldn't give. Hope the girl is able to make him happy and that she's the one he's looking for. Hope she doesn't need too much of his time, care and concern. That will make the relationship work better. All the best Stu!

magz [8:15 PM]

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Sunday, April 09, 2006

Ice Age 2
It's been a stressful week for me as I had to do my currency all on my own and can only ask for help from Tom when I need it. My supervisor wants me to handle it by myself so my afternoons now are only to handle this.

Furthermore, I'm in the Staff Events Committee and we had a movie screening of Ice Age 2 yesterday (08/04). It was tiring as my leader was on reservist and Cheryl was on medical leave the whole week. My other 2 partners helped on several stuff and I was running the show. Luckily, everything went smoothly and I hoped all of them enjoyed themselves.

What really made me upset was that my dad called at my busiest moment and was yakking away though I told him I was busy. The handphone reception at the area was lousy and kept breaking up. I ended up screaming at my dad in front of my boss.. Not my female boss but the one even higher ranked than her!! Sighz.. It's such a disgrace and I felt so embarrassed!! And here he is.. Yakking away now. Can't stand him!!!!! I've decided not to answer his calls in public in future as it only makes me ashamed and embarrassed all the time.

I know.. Filial piety should be on the top of every children's list. I wish I can do that, but sometimes, it's just so hard to do that with my father. Guess it's either my character or his.. Or maybe, I just know too much about him to wanna feel filial towards him.

My sis's exams are coming.. About a month away from now but apparently, she has yet to start studying. I have this feeling (and I know it's gonna happen) that she's gonna fail all her papers again. I mean, I don't mean to look down on her or to curse her, but com'on.. I used to start studying in January and I still fear during exam time. It's not easy to mug thro' a year's work in 5 months, let alone mug it all in a month.. 4 subjects at that too. Both her hubby and I feel that she's wasting money and time but she simply refuses to listen to us. I give up..

My rash is acting up from the stress. I wonder if losing my temper aggravates it. Maybe I should keep my temper under control. I always say that I'll try to be nicer to my dad and I tend to forget it after a while. It's not that I didn't try, it's just so hard!! I'll try harder still.. but.. I have a premonition that it's gonna fail again. Keep my fingers crossed..

magz [7:53 PM]

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