Monday, September 29, 2008
Ugly scene
I typed a whole load of stuff in office today to be put into my blog. I didn't send it home. Whatever. I'm not in the mood. I never did like to wash dirty linen in public, let alone the big issue that was written in my blog last nite. I shouldn't have written that but what's done cannot be undone.
An ugly scene unfounded at Kallang MRT today. Screams, ugly words, vulgarities exchanged. I could have slapped her if it wasn't coz I was pulled back. Don't wanna talk or type anymore. Too pissed. I'm gonna play Xbox thro the nite. Super pissed.
magz [11:18 PM]
*will dreams come true one day?*
Bitch!
Friday (26 September 2008)Work was so boring that I should have taken half day leave to hang out with Leo. ARGH!!! I had nothing to do since 10.30am and I started packing my drawers, throwing things away and giving certain things to Ailmer. He got a shock and asked if I was leaving the bank. DUHZ!
Came back from lunch. Still as boring. I surfed net from 2pm til 7.30pm. When Bee told me that she'll try to reach Tampines by 6.30pm, I was so happy. Ended up, she reached only at 7.30pm and I was 1 of the last to leave. Shows how boring my day was. :(
Dinner at East Coast Park, Korean Charcoal Barbecue Restaurant with Bee & Felix to celebrate Bee's bday on 25 Sept. We didn't order a lot but the food that came was sooooo much that we couldn't finish at all! Had plum wine as well. Was nice!!! Overall, a very good meal!!!
KTV at Oriental Partyworld. Sang from 9.30am to 2.30am. Fell asleep twice in between. Yes, I'm super tired from all the lack of sleep since 2 weeks back. It is killing me slowly. Fell asleep for the 3rd time on the way home in Felix's car. Sorry but I'm really knackered.. Can't blame me right? Showered and knocked out immediately.
Saturday (27 Sept 2008)Supposed to wake up early to do some stuff but was too tired. Slept til 10.30am, prepared and packed my stuff. Rushed for badminton with the office people. Cabbed to Clarke Quay coz I was late.. As usual. Shucks! Too tired. Can't blame. Played from 12pm to 2pm. Learnt how to serve properly. :)
Haven't exercised in a super long time. Out of shape. Haha. Lunched at Central with Charlie, Mahesh, Cher & Roy. Went to The Pump Room or something like that coz Mahesh & Charlie wanted to get the drink called Little Creatures but they no longer have that. The guys drank beer while I order a shot of Slippery Nipple. Yes, in broad daylight I was drinking shots. Hehe. Order mushroom risotto and fries. Ate, drank & smoked 1 stick of ciggie with Charlie. Don't scold me!!!
Had a talk with him while we smoked. Pretty ok. He's nice as a friend actually. Probably hard to work under but ok as friends. :p Cabbed home. Slept in the cab. Dead tired. The moment I got into my room, I slept on the floor coz I was hot, sticky and dirty from badminton. Slept soundly on the floor from 4+pm til 7pm. Yeah... I'm such a pig but I really can't help it. :D
Showered, prepared, and down to Orchard for dinner at 9pm. Ate at Cuppage Maharaja Restaurant. It's my 1st time eating at an Indian restaurant! Hehe. Food was ok, service was EXCELLENT! Super friendly staff. And they gave me FREE ice cream after we had paid the bill. It was so random coz no one else in the restaurant got it! Haha. COOL!!!!!
Wanted to go Tangs to buy some stuff but was closed. Headed home, slept almost immediately from exhaustion. Hehe.
Sunday (28 September 2008)Supposed to visit gram but muscles ached too much for me to wanna move. I know.. I'm unfilial. Needed to catch up on my lack of sleep. I'll DEFINITELY do it next Sun. I promise. From now on, it's gonna be every Sun.
Woke up at 1+pm. Showered and headed to Vivo. Lunched at Thai Express then went to Candy Empire. Went crazy and spent $64 on snacks and stuff. I'm mad. Sat at Pacific Coffee for coffee coz my muscles were killing. Went to Best Denki at about 6pm.
Bought hair dryer, fan & DVD recorder with HDD for my sis as her bday pressie. Spent $600++. BROKE!!!! Sighz.. Cabbed to her place coz there were too much stuff to be carried. Watched F1 at her place and was supposed to go dinner with her and her hubby when shit happened.
Was watching F1. That ass woman called again. She's trying to break up my sis's marriage. That fucker! I answered the call on her last call to the house. I told her she was a bitch who is trying to break up the marriage and that whore called me a slut in retaliation and hung up the phone. WHAT THE FUCK?!!! I immediately demanded her number from my bro in law but he refused to give me.
That bitch then called his mobile. He answered and I demanded that she talk to us face to face. Bloody coward that she is, didn't dare. TRAMP! Bro in law told her that even if he n sis were to divorce, he wouldn't be with her and hung up on her. That hussy called his mobile again. I grabbed the phone this time round. Nobody gets away with calling me a slut, especially when that fucker didn't know me at all!
Gave that slattern a piece of my mind, called her a fucking prostitute and cut her off before she could say anything. But come to think of it, she's worse than a prostitute coz she's FUCKING FOC! That promiscuous bitch! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Pissed me off real bad. The anger I felt was similar to that when that asshole tried to take a pic of me underneath my dress.
Seriously, DON'T let me see that dumbass woman. I'll slap her BIG time. She'll regret what she did. What woman would try breaking up another person's marriage? She knew they were married and yet, she's being such a jackass. FUCK HER! Whoever she is. I hate women like this.
If u like someone who's married, don't fucking spoil their marriage. U can love the guy but does it mean that u have to be with him? Why can't u just love him deep inside and let things be? Why go around spoiling other people's marriages? PSYCHO! Love doesn't mean having to possess that someone. Love is something greater and deeper than that. Grow up and stop being so childish!
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm too pissed to sleep and it's 1.20am now. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
magz [12:49 AM]
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Thursday, September 25, 2008
Happy Bday All!
Plans to meet Leo were abandoned as he woke up late. :( Coz I didn't wake him up early enough. Sighz.. Wanted to meet Leo so much. We haven't met up since the day after JZ and I unofficially ended. I miss talking to this guy who never fails to brighten up my day and makes me laugh. Postponed to next week now..
Many people's bday today - Bee, Celine, Kelv gor & Anson. Chatted with Kelv gor for a bit over sms. Didn't realise that he is an avid reader of my blog. Thanx for the support gor!! :) It's been a long time since we met up. Find 1 day meet up for dinner or drinks k? :p
Hungry!! Haven't had anything to eat yet. Time to find food and watch my shows. Hehe.
magz [9:22 PM]
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Mamma Mia
Home from watching Mamma Mia with Cher & Roy at AMK. Good show!! Loved all the songs! I'm so getting the soundtrack of this show. Meryl Streep sang such a beautiful version of the song "The Winner Takes It All" that it nearly brought tears to my eyes. I'm not surprised. The lyrics are beautiful and well written. It really described all I feel after every breakup. It's not been easy. I haven't been letting go that easily. I'm not getting any younger. There are things that I hold on to but I move on. Everybody does, don't they? Lyrics of this song below..
"The Winner Takes It All"I don't wanna talk
About the things we've gone through
Though it's hurting me
Now it's history
I've played all my cards
And that's what you've done too
Nothing more to say
No more ace to play
The winner takes it all
The loser standing small
Beside the victory
That's her destiny
I was in your arms
Thinking I belonged there
I figured it made sense
Building me a fence
Building me a home
Thinking I'd be strong there
I was a fool
Playing by the rules
The gods may throw a dice
Their minds as cold as ice
And someone way down here
Loses someone dear
The winner takes it all
The loser has to fall
It's simple and it's plain
Why should I complain?
But tell me does she kiss
Like I used to kiss you?
Does it feel the same
When she calls your name?
Somewhere deep inside
You must know I miss you
But what can I say
Rules must be obeyed
The judges will decide
The likes of me abide
Spectators of the show
Always staying low
The game is on again
A lover or a friend
A big thing or a small
The winner takes it all
I don't wanna talk
If it makes you feel sad
And I understand
You've come to shake my hand
I apologize
If it makes you feel bad
Seeing me so tense
No self-confidence
But you see
The winner takes it all
The winner takes it all...
Chatted with CY at work today. It was a walk down memory lane of our friendship before his current gf appeared. Life works in mysterious and weird ways. Something that til now I am still unable to comprehend and grasp. Anyway, I'm glad that we talked today. It brought back nice, sweet memories. :)
1.10am... Gotta sleep. Working tomorrow.. :( Hehehe
magz [12:56 AM]
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Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Taiwan (18-22 Sept 2008)
Taiwan was fun! I walked so much though the weather was unbearably hot! Perspiration dripped non stop, from the 1st day to the last day. It was madness but I love it despite all my complaints about the heat. I chose to walk in the sun, with my cap and shades on. I've got a really nice tan now and I love my skin colour. Gotta keep it this way coz I love being brown. Makes me feel and look healthier. :)
Thanx to Bee, Ann & Felix for going on this trip together!! Thanks to Bee for suggesting, Felix for planning the itinerary and Ann for taking care of me! Or rather, everybody for taking care of the blur me. Felix was blur at most points as to where and how to go but it's unavoidable. Just that I kept nagging at him, scolding him and teasing him. Evil me!!
Stayed at Rainbow Hotel at Xi Men Ting. Very very good location hotel. Clean and not bad as well. Satisfied. went to a lot of places~!!! All of us walked til our feet hurt, calf muscles ached, back almost broke. I am proud to say I climbed up the cliff at Yeh Liu Geographic Park in my slippers with no proper route to walk. It's the highest point at the park and I'm glad I climbed up. The view was breath taking!!
Am also happy to have gone on my very 1st hot spring trip. It was boiling hot water coz of the weather but still amazingly fun! Very enjoyable! Went to visit a club called Luxy (if I remember the name correctly) on Saturday nite. Hip hop club. Citibank Clear Card allowed me free entrance. Woohoo!!! Hahaha.
Ate non stop since the moment I stepped foot in Taiwan til I came back to Singapore. I just kept eating and eating. See food, buy, eat, walk and repeat the cycle. I put on weight in the mere 5 days I was there and it shows in my pics coz my face looks so huge!! Sighz.. Oh ya, had my portraits drawn at Yu Ren Ma Tou (Fishermen's Wharf).
Basically, the whole trip was fabulous and I enjoyed it a lot albeit the lack of sleep and the painful calf and shoulder muscles. Haha. Went to so many places that I'm not sure if I wanna write down every place we went. :p Once again, thanx to the 3 of them for making this trip a success!! And the weather for holding up throughout the time that I was there. Typhoon only hit yesterday after I had got on the plane and was safely on my way home. ^.^
Came home to a packet of Godiva chocs! So sweet and nice! :) Touched!!
Work today. Didn't sleep at all last nite. Brain was in hyperactive mode. No deals. Did MENSA quiz in office. COOL! Really a test of brain cells. I like such quiz though I suck at them most of the time. Hehehe.
Dinner with Roy, Edric & El at Siglap area. Chatted a while. Home. :p
Gonna shower and try to sleep early. Must make up for the lack of sleep that I didn't get last nite. Zzzzzzzzzzz
magz [9:38 PM]
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Thursday, September 18, 2008
Azabu Sabo
Super quick post before I leave for the airport - Taiwan, here I come! Keeping my fingers crossed for fear of typhoon. Praying hard.. Typhoon, pls don't come!!! I shall bring the sunshine to Taiwan. Hahaha. Crappy me.
Work yesterday was boring once again. Markets are really not good to have many deals. Sighz.. Pretty saddening to see the banking industry in such a chaotic stage. Hope it turns good soon. Have asked people to sms me while I'm in Taiwan to gimme the latest updates.
Dinner with Cher & Roy at Azabu Sabo. Many times there but decided to take pics only yesterday. Duhz. I had beef hotpot and my fave melon ice there. :) Fat me!!! I ate everything! Cher didn't feel good after eating. :( Think she's too stressed @ work. Cher, take care of urself when I'm not around and remember to take ur medicine!!! BS & Mark sent us home after that. Thanx guys!!
Gonna make last minute checks in case I forgot to bring something. Most importantly, my passport!!! Cannot be stupid again. Haha. :p Cya all when I'm back. Meanwhile, take care!! Love lots!
magz [6:23 AM]
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Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Lehman
Home since 7pm. Real early coz I left office at 6.30pm and Felix sent me home. Work was.. BORING coz everybody's too afraid to do deals due to the Lehman bankruptcy. Sighz..
Luckily Felix sent me back. Dead cockroaches in my kitchen cupboard! Lots of them!!! All coz of the fogging of the rubbish chute. Sighz.. Nearly fainted and got a heart attack when I opened the cupboard. Best of all, my China tenant could actually ignore the sight of the dead cockroaches and stuff more things into the cupboard. :( SIGHZ... Seriously dunno what to do..
Felix helped to clear the dead cockroaches. Watched my HK shows together after that and he's just gone home. Still waiting to meet my friend. Boring...
Watching my HK drama now.. Shall go continue with my show. :)
magz [9:14 PM]
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Monday, September 15, 2008
Strongest Medicine
The nite was sooo bad. I was awake from almost 3.30am to 4.30pm. Itch was madness. I swore I could have cut my legs open, dig out the flesh and the itchy bit. Played games on lappie to distract myself til it was time to bathe and go work.
Zombified at work. Couldn't concentrate or focus. Luckily the cream worked and the itch wasn't too bad. Doc at 11am. My fave doctor of all time, Dr Siew! Had to go all the way to Capital Tower to see her and I waited from 11.30am to 12.30pm just to see her. :p She's as nice as ever! And she always makes me feel better. :)
Gave me the strongest drowsy and non-drowsy medicine to stop the itch. Creams to apply for the rash. Sent my urine for lab tests. To test the culture and the bacteria. Additional medicine, just in case, for my trip to Taiwan. Dr Siew's always so caring, so motherly to me. I love her to bits!
Lunched at Sakae with sis & Felix. Felix sent me to doc's and waited with me. He's a real good friend. Always there for me as a good "sis". :p Back to work after lunch. Cleared up the rest of the work that I had outstanding for the day. Left office at 4pm to head home for my bed. Head was so heavy when I left that I felt I could concus.
Home. Washed up. Bed. From 4.30pm to 7.45pm straight. Out flat. Til I had a weird dream. Woke up. Heated my food from Ann's mum & Aunt Marg for dinner. Ate, took medicine (strongest drowsy medicine) @ 8.30pm. Packed clothes for Taiwan trip, paid bills.
Medicine taking effect. Having a heart to heart talk with Wayne. It's not gonna work out between us. Just hope to remain as friends.. But.. I'm not sure if he's agreeable to that. Maybe I'll lose another friendship.
Peter's flying off tonite. He didn't meet me at all despite all the promises. I'm disappointed with him. But there's nothing more to say..
So tired.. Mentally, physically. Emotionally, I'm numb. No longer tired in that aspect. I should sleep.. Eyes closing..
magz [9:28 PM]
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Stupid Rash
Itching since 3.30am til now. Can't sleep coz of the itch! ARGH!
Doc later. Can't take the itch anymore. It's killing me and driving me mad. :(
magz [5:18 AM]
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Sunday, September 14, 2008
Happy Mid Autumn's Festival!
Happy Mid Autumn's Festival!
From the initial thought of spending it by myself to having an appointment to go out, it turned out to be a very enjoyable day. :)
As always, I was late in meeting up. I'm sooo sorry. I had to settle my Ipod issues before I could step out of my house. I can't live without music. So embarrassing. He had to wait for me for an hour coz he thought he would be late and rushed a cab down to Toa Payoh Central to meet me. Oopss... :X
Supposed to have lunch at Balestier coz he wanted to eat bak kut teh but the weather was way too hot for somewhere non-aircon. Down to Orchard and we had a very mouth watering brunch at Palais Renaissance. I had a crab cesar with ice mocha (topped with vanilla ice cream) while he had salmon omelette with hot latte. He gave me some of the omelette to try and it was really quite good. The portion of the food was quite huge too! So filling from the brunch.
Chatted til 3pm. Made our way to That CD shop to take a look. Bought 3 cds for $49.90. He paid coz he felt bad that I paid for lunch and he kept wanting to stuff money back to me. Men!!! Nowhere to go and decided to go for movie. Walked to Cineleisure and watched Wall E. Told Cher not to kill me for breaking my promise to watch with her. There were no other shows to catch!
Wall E's cute and kinda touching. A little bit of love story that's so sweet. :) Was raining when the show ended. Stuck at Cine, we walked around trying to find brolly. The only place that sells brolly was that cutesy place.. MiniToons or something. The brollys were too cutesy for both of us to wanna carry. By then, rain became slight drizzle so we just walked without brolly.
Walked back to Tanglin for dinner. Ate at Dan Ryans. I've always loved this place. It's kinda out of the way so it's quiet. Food is American portion and the beef is good. But this time round, I order black and white seafood linguine while he had a full slab pork ribs. A glass of red wine each for both of us. I haven't touched alcohol in a very long while and I'm not a big fan of red wine. But.. Yupz. Jus went ahead and drank.
Chatted from 6.30pm to 9.30pm. Basically, we were chatting the whole day! Non-stop!! My goodness!! We had so much to talk about. Went to Hard Rock where he wanted to get a t-shirt. Then it was to the bus stop to catch a bus back to my place. He amazes me.. By giving up his seat to old people. It was.. Unexpected but a heartwarming scene to see. Especially after that post that I wrote 2 days ago. And the wonderful thing is, he doesn't know about my blog so he did it of his own accord and not coz of what I wrote. :)
Headed to Ann's place to collect the luggage from her for my Taiwan trip. He helped me carry it home and he was holding on to my bag of cds throughout the whole time, even in the cinema. He's just this super nice guy who's easy to talk to and super easy going. I'm happy to have spent Mid Autumn Festival with him though he had no idea what today is about and the significance of it. Haha.
Thank u for the splendid day though it was just hanging out with a friend! U made me see things and find out so much about u. U showed me the behaviour of a gentleman which can't be found in many guys. U made it worthwhile for me to wake up so early on a Sun just to meet u. Thank u for everything today. Not sure if we'll hang out much with each other actually and u don't know the existence of my blog, but still, thank u!
magz [11:10 PM]
*will dreams come true one day?*
三个字 (Three words)
Friday (12 September 2008)Work was ok. Kinda bored actually though I did 4 deals. Without those deals, I would have been more bored. Even had time to sit down, have oreo cheesecake mooncakes for tea break and to chat. Haha. Yeah.. I'm jus too efficient. :p Like real.. Haha.
Left office at 6.45pm. Supposed to meet Bee & Joey for dinner but both ended work late. Didn't know where to go so decided to meet Roy & Cher 1st. Headed to Centennial and decided to call Joey. She knocked off work then and came down to join us. Roy, Cher, Eleanor & Ash headed to Chomp Chomp for dinner while Joey & I went to Raffles Place to wait for Bee.
Sat at Boat Quay TCC to wait for Bee. Had Wasabi Milkshake. No kick at all. Haha. The wasabi ice cream that I love to eat taste much stronger and better than this milkshake. -.-''' Bee finally met up with us at about 9.30pm. Went to a coffeeshop in between Clarke Quay & Boat Quay for dinner. Had sambal stingray, sambal sotong, clams, mussels & vegetables. Woohoo!! Good dinner!
Next was to Indochines Empress Place for drinks. Roy, Cher & gang joined us. Sat around and chatted til 1+am. While on the way to the ladies, I saw a couple dancing very good and sexy salsa. It was soooo beautiful and I kinda miss my salsa days. I don't think I can ever be at that standard no matter how much I love salsa. Cher asked if we should re-start our salsa again. I'm not sure but I guess.. I don't mind. I do miss it from time to time.
The rest went on to drink at Clarke Quay after that and Joey, Bee & I headed home. Showered and fell asleep immediately at 2.30am.
Dan's been sending me "Thought of the Day" emails (office mail) on an almost daily basis recently. Today's thought was very very nice and I felt touched when I read it. Decided to share it.. Don't think that any guy will ever say or think of something this romantic to ever say to me. But.. It's really a very nice line.
"If I were a tear in your eyes, I will fall down on your lips to kiss you. But if you were a tear in my eyes, I will never cry; because I am afraid to lose you."
"如果我是你眼里的一滴泪水，我会流到你的唇上去吻你。但如果你是我眼里的一滴泪水，我将决不哭泣，因为我害怕失去你。"Saturday (13 Septemher 2008)Woke up with a blasting headache that could kill. Went back to sleep. Winnie came to clean the house. I continued sleeping. Headache was still bad when I woke up at 3.30pm. Not sure what happened. :(
Watched
绿光森林 on Channel U. It's such a romantic show. Love that will never ever happen in real life, only in dramas. Sometimes I wish I can find such love, but it's close to impossible to ever find such love in real life. Maybe I should learn to differentiate between love in dramas and not fantasize too much. Sighz...Heard another song on this show that is real nice and very applicable to me. Searched for the song immediately and here's the lyrics. :) Love every single word and line of the lyrics. It's so meaningful.. So beautifully written.
曾之乔 阮经天 - 三个字(intro os)爱情不是一道选择题.我知道,那个时候你就已经做了决定.你心里永远都有着一个相信.而我的相信,就是支持着你的相信.因为,我心里有三个字,不能告诉你…如果没有你和他的约定我的爱会不会有一种权利成为你的行李陪着你去旅行无论是北极还是雨林我还守着我和他的约定最后幸福会写下一份证明就算没有日期就算还会伤心我仍相信生命的奇迹不该再用我的爱困住你不该再让你眼中有泪滴好无力去找寻那三个字的替代句也许我们从此不再相遇永远记得你微笑的眼睛别伤心你放心我知道三个字的意义如果有一天命运让我们再次相遇而你的答案还缺少一个回应或许你不知道其实我也在等待另一个奇迹我还守着我和他的约定最后幸福会写下一份证明就算没有日期就算还会伤心我仍相信生命的奇迹不该再用我的爱困住你不该再让你眼中有泪滴好无力去找寻那三个字的替代句也许我们从此不再相遇永远记得你微笑的眼睛别伤心你放心我知道三个字的意义别伤心你放心我知道三个字的意义当你笑着找到你的相信我会将这三个字化作你的姓名永远的放在心里……Showered and met Bee at Isetan with Felix. Bee bought her suitcase there. Dinner at Coca Steamboat Restaurant, Taka. We ate sooooooo much that we were all so full. Walked around trying to digest the food. Bought mooncakes for myself. :) Roy & Cher met us for a while then went to Meritus for drinks while Felix, Bee & I went to Dempsey for Ben & Jerry's.Reached Dempsey but Ben & Jerry's was swamped with people. Make an instant decision to go Holland V instead. Initial plan was to go Haagen Dazs but saw an ice cream parlour opposite Haagen Dazs so went in for a look. The combo of the ice cream looked so interesting that I wanted to try this place instead. It's Cold Rock.. :)
Only remembered to take pics of the ice cream after we had tucked in. Ooopss.. Hehe. I had the blue one which is called "Break the Law". It's bubblegum ice cream with mini M&MS, gummi bears and marshmellows. Bee had the brown one which is called "Black as Chocolate" and is chocolate ice cream with brownies and maltesers in it. Felix had the red one which is called "On a Diet" made up of yoghurt ice cream with raspberries and dark pitted cherries.
Overall, we had a great time despite my headache and stuff. :) I'm glad to have friends with me whenever I need them. :) Was talking to Matt and I told him that it's not fair to fall in love when u've been hurt too many times and there's something u can't let go. Gotta learn to start afresh before accepting someone else in ur life or u'll only end up hurting the other party. ^.^
I'm happy now though there are times when I feel down due to many reasons. But whatever the case, my life has to go on and it is moving on alright at the moment.
Tomorrow is Mid Autumn Festival. Thought I would be spending it alone but 2 people have asked me out so far. Decided to accept 1 of the invitations to have lunch together and to hang out. I think I just need to spend the day with somebody, just not alone. And out of the 2 invitations, I guess the one I chose to spend the day with would be able to make me laugh and be happier than the other one. :)
I better go sleep soon or I won't be able to wake up for lunch. Nitez!
magz [12:44 AM]
*will dreams come true one day?*
Thursday, September 11, 2008
Be A Gentleman
My rash is itching like mad. I think.. I'm too stressed. Sighz.. I might need the doc for medication soon. Irritating! Why must I be born with such a problem? :(
Work was ok. Cher made me a tad upset but made up for it by treating me to dinner @ AMK Hong Kong cafe. Food was not bad. Company was good. Chatted with her about stuff. Then realised that I'm having loads of threesomes these days. There's Wayne, Edmund & I. Cher, Roy & I. Bee, Felix & I. 3 groups of threesomes! Oh manz!
On the way to AMK from City Hall, a pregnant lady boarded the train at the same time as me. This guy looked up, saw her bulging tummy (about 5-7 months pregnant) and continued sitting there typing his sms. I felt like scolding him!!! The lady next to him gave up her seat for the pregnant lady and I kept quiet. Else, I would have told the guy off. ARGH!!
Men these days! Damn rude and no sense of courtesy. Whatever happened to being gentlemanly? No such thing now! 2 days ago, Cher & I were the ones giving up our seats for an old man and his young wife. We gave up the seat coz of the old man. Guys sitting across from us didn't even barge a muscle!
No wonder I'm getting more and more turned off by men these days. Hahaha. But at least some of the guys I know are pretty decent guys who are more civic minded though there are those who are not as gentlemanly or civic minded than the rest. >.<
Feeling so drained.. Why oh why.......
magz [11:13 PM]
*will dreams come true one day?*
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Test...
Today has been a very trying day. It was a test of my patience, endurance and mental strength.
Amended 24 confirmations today. Had to do special handling after amending which meant I had to repeat another 24 times. Print and send out after that. That took me 4 hours plus to complete. After the 1st 8, I felt tired. By the time I finished 12, I was ready to scream and go mad. By 18, I wanted to give up.
Many a time today, I wanted to jus throw everything down and walk off. I was close to losing it. Thank God for the crappy chat room (Cher, Roy & I) I'm in at work everyday to make me feel better. I was really that close to jus saying "I quit". It was real bad.. And having to re-do it another 24 times made me on the verge of a breakdown. I could have just sat there and cry. I swear.. It was horrible.
Gritted my teeth and went on with it. Finally finished everything by 7.15pm. It was a huge sigh of relief to have finally endured through the whole day. Didn't lose my temper at all the whole day. That was something I'm even more proud of. Haha.
Left office at 8.15pm. Thought of cabbing home but no cabs when I went downstairs from office so I took a bus instead. 1st bus came the moment I reached bus stop and I thought at least something wasn't against me. But.. It wasn't that way. I waited for the next bus for half an hour at Bedok and it still didn't come!!!
What a waste of my time! Took a cab in the end and reached home at 9.05pm! ARGH!!!!!! If I had taken a cab from office, I would have reached at 8.30pm. Sighz... Am I just down on luck or what? Hopefully good things will start coming my way soon.. Really a test for me today..
Oh... Lynn's gonna ROM soon. So happy for her! To have found her true love and finally being able to settle down with the man of her life. :) Still waiting for Bee's wedding dinner but she needs to get her house 1st. Hopefully all my good friends get married soon!! Then I can be their sister!! Hehehe. I'm happy for my friends when I see them getting married. :p
Skin's been itching like mad these days. Sickening!!
magz [9:51 PM]
*will dreams come true one day?*
Tuesday, September 09, 2008
Cheer up Cher! :)
Had to help Ailmer at work with 5 deals today coz he had to leave early. Not sure what he was doing the whole day but didn't ask either. Another mistake made by me. Unforgivable. It's gonna cost me my rating and bonus. Bad.
Left office at 7.45pm and I was the last in the dept. Madness! All so early today. Haha. Met Roy & Cher at Bugis. Cher wasn't happy today. Cried. Cheered her up by bringing her to eat her fave dessert. :) Even cracked some jokes to make her laugh. :p Good job! Hehehe.
Not that happy the whole day. But guess I know how to make myself cheer up. I had 3 desserts the whole day and now I'm pretty alright. Hehe. Been pigging out a lot. Ate so much that I'm really amazed at myself. Becoming a total pig. Muahahaha. Don't be surprised if I'm fatter than before though I hope not. ^.^
Pimples sprouting out.. :(
magz [10:31 PM]
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Monday, September 08, 2008
Pig!
Busy at work today but don't ask me what I was busy with. No idea. Just worked and by the time I knew it, it was 5pm. Made plans with Cheryl & Roy to meet for dinner to pass Roy the ciggies he bought but left with us. :p
Reached Raffles City at 8pm and went for dinner at Curry Favor (opposite St Andrew's Cathedral that stretch). Had soft shell crab curry with rice for dinner. I ate so much today coz I kept feeling hungry!! Had beef noodles for lunch. Reached office from lunch and was feeling slightly hungry already. Ate mooncakes, potato chips and my Haagen Dazs ice cream. Was hungry again by 5+pm. Ate rice crackers and was still hungry while waiting for Roy and Cheryl. I'm such a pig!!!!!!!!! Oink!
Jus finished cutting my nails. So sleepy. Think I'm gonna conk out soon. Nitez!
magz [10:17 PM]
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Sunday, September 07, 2008
Batam!!!
Saturday (06 Sept 2008)Woke up cursing and swearing at the unearthly hour of 5.45am. Who wouldn't? Madness! Was still stoning when Felix & Cheryl picked me up. By the time we reached Harbourfront, I woke up immediately. Not at the excitement of leaving the country but due to the fact that the very clever me forgot her passport!!!!!! DAMN!!! How stupid can I be???
Thank God we were slightly early in our schedule but had to rush like mad back home to grab my passport. I had to sprint!!! Reached just in time.. Announcements over PA system with our names coz they were about to leave. P.S: We were not the last ones to board the ferry though. Hahaha.
Chatted throughout the ride. Cam-whoring the moment we reached. Hehe.
Hotel transfer came. Checked in, rested on bed to chat more. Roy's friend who stays in Batam brought us out for brekkie at 9.30am. Ate fried mee, fried kway teow and wanton noodles. All different from Singapore's. :p Delicious! I had an iced tea with without milk.
Wijoyo, Roy's friend, drove us around Batam showing us around. Very nice guy! Super friendly and Batam is so small that they all know one another. He shared with us some of the cultures and stories of Batam. Showed us the landmarks too. :) Real cool!!
Lunched at 1.30pm. Ate bak kut teh. The pig's organs and liver were really nice!!! Never had such tender and delicious ones before. Yummy!!! Headed back to hotel to rest after lunch and Cheryl fell asleep! Roy & I chatted about loads of stuff coz BS pulled out of the trip last minute and there were just 3 of us left.
Went for our spa appointment at 4.30pm. Wayyyyyy nice!!! The bath was good but massage wasn't hard enough so that wasn't too good. Enjoyed the whole experience though. More pics in my photo album though even more pics are taken with Roy's camera. Waiting for him to send to me. :p
Wijoyo and his fiancee, Tracy (who is pretty!!), brought us out for dinner at a very famous seafood restaurant. The food was sooo delicious and soooo cheap (Only S$10 per pax coz Wijoyo got a 20% discount)!! Woohoo!!!!!! I ate sooooooo much in a day that I could explode. ^.^ We had chilli crab, steamed garoupa, sambal kang kong, hot plate beancurd and fried calamari. I had an orange juice too. Roy was soooo amazed at my skills of eating the fish head and deboning it so clean that he was in awe. Hahaha.
Reached back hotel and Roy & I watched TV in his room (king sized bed all to himself!). Cheryl showered, joined us for a short while and headed to bed. Roy & I chatted for almost another hour, watched the 2nd half of Dreamgirls (we missed the 1st half due to chatting), fell asleep, woke up to watch, fell asleep again. Haha. This continued for half an hour for both of us til I couldn't take it and went back to sleep on my own bed (super single) at 12.30am. ("o")
Sunday (07 Sept 2008)Woke up at 8.30am, washed up and went for brekkie buffet at hotel (Novotel). Ate a lot!!!!! Back to room. I tried to sleep but didn't manage to do too well. Cheryl played DS while Roy went to the gym. She took her beauty soak in the bath tub, Roy came back, I woke up. Crowded in Roy's room. They chatted while I occupied the whole bed to watch MTV. Haha.
Finally lazed around enough. Showered and checked out of hotel at 12.30pm. Nagoya Hill for lunch. Ate seafood again! Roy wanted to take pic of the fish head before and after. Hahaha. Ordered cereal prawn, baby kailan with oyster sauce, steamed garoupa and fried calamari. I had ice lemon tea. Finished everything!! And it's still cheap!! Still about S$10 per pax. Seafood's the way to go in Batam.
Godiva Coffee after lunch. Was ok... I had a caramel latte. :p Left for Harbourbay to catch our ferry back to Singapore after that. Early this time round coz we didn't wanna hear our names over the PA system again. Haha. Shopped at Polo Ralph and I bought a polo tee for myself for less than S$40 and it's real. :) My very 1st Polo Tee. WOOHOO!!! And it's cheap too! Haha.
Chatted with Roy again on the way back to Singapore. Vivo for dinner with Felix, Roy & Cheryl. Ate at Marche. Ordered too much!! Chicken chop with sausage, spanish rice, rosti with cheese sausage, vegetables and crepes. Had a root beer too. Sooo full!!!!
Home and went to Adrian's (my cousin) place for a while. Played with my niece and nephew for a while and now I'm home. Dead tired. Unpacked but yet to prepare for tomorrow. Oopsss..
Chatting with Roy and Cheryl over MSN now. We chat in the office everyday too! Endless things to talk about.. Haha. We're too talkative. :p Overall, enjoyed my Batam trip a lot though I didn't get to suntan at all. But it was still fun, nice and enjoyable. Thanks to Roy and Cheryl!!!
magz [9:30 PM]
*will dreams come true one day?*
Saturday, September 06, 2008
Opinions?
Quick post. Eyes closing. Woke up with them being swollen today. Very swollen. No, I did NOT cry at all. Wonder what happened.. Water retention maybe? Whatever..
Work was quiet. Everybody went go-karting. Office was.. Quiet. We had time to chat and joke around. All ended work at 6.30pm. Cool! :p
Met Bee for dinner at Marina Square. While walking past Citylink, I went to HMV and bought 4 cds. Hehe. :) Cut down on buying cds already so don't scold me for buying. :D Ate at Billy Bombers. Didn't finish my food. Too full. No appetite today..
Lunched with Joycelyn, my ex boss. Good catch up. We're all stressed. The restructuring is making us worried. :( BAD!
Wayne was at Suntec so we took bus home together. Got a very cute little boy on the bus. Kept playing with the boy. Hehe. And I saw this girl whom I find quite pretty but Wayne said otherwise. He said that's the difference between guys' opinion of girls and gals' opinion of gals.. Hmmz..
Won't be updating tomorrow coz I'm not in Singapore. Heading to Batam for the weekend. 1st time there. Going with Cheryl, Roy & BS. Roy promised me coffee when I reach Harbourfront to catch the ferry. He better make sure the coffee's ready when I reach coz I'm definitely not getting enough sleep. It's already 12.30am and I gotta wake up at 5.30am. Damn! I'll curse and swear when I wake up.. That's for sure. WHAT KIND OF PEOPLE WILL WAKE UP AT SUCH UNEARTHLY HOURS???? Crazy!! And I'll be 1 of these people. ARGH!
To Von, glad to receive ur sms today. Stay strong k? *hugz* Will always be here for u. I'm just a call or sms away. :) Love ya my dear!
K.. It's bed time for me else I'll curse and swear more. Hehe. Next update on Sun nite! Have a good weekend!!
magz [12:20 AM]
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Thursday, September 04, 2008
Error
Upset. My record of a year without making any major errors has been demolished. 2 major errors in a day. I can't forgive myself. I made a payment wrongly. Didn't put in the beneficiary bank. Did that at 3pm. Customer called at 4.30pm claiming non-receipt of funds. Found the mistake at 4.50pm.
Re-did my payment at 4.58pm. Had to send out by 5pm coz dumbass UOB refused to do deposit placement for customer if they don't receive the payment by 5pm. Horrible heartless creatures. Rushed my payment and thank God I met the cutoff. Had to reverse my wrong payment. :(
Posted the entries but for wrong value date!!!!!!!!!! Damn!!!!!!!!! Luckily the entries were all posted by me so it didn't matter. But still.. I'm crushed, devastated. These are mistakes that shouldn't have happened in the 1st place. I can't forgive myself. Not yet..
Depressed. Stuffed my face with ice cream the moment I reached home despite sinseh telling me to avoid cold food or drinks. I needed to cheer myself up. But I'm still not happy.. Sighz... ARGH!!!!! I better concentrate on my work more. Shitty. Pissed with myself.
Wanna thank Felix for the ginseng chrysanthemum. :)
Wanna thank Shon for giving me a free ride to KK Hospital where I could take a straight bus home. Reached home much earlier than expected coz of the free ride. Good to know someone who drives and stays near my place. Muahahaha. Evil me. :p
I shall continue moping about in my house, in my own misery for wrong payments. Reflect on my mistakes. Haha. Not that serious yet but ya.. Gotta be more careful again. :(
magz [9:12 PM]
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Wednesday, September 03, 2008
Moment of Weakness
When the 1st needle was poked into my hand, it turned chill immediately. When the 2nd needle went in, I wanted to scream. By the time the 3rd needle went in, my tears were about to roll down my cheeks.
Fought hard to overcome the pain. Refused to give in. I will not lose this fight. Was ok in the end. Chatted a bit with the sinseh. Hand hurt after that but it will be fine. I will be fine. I hope.. I have to be.
Last nite was bad. I cried. I didn't mean to but bones were aching, nose was blocked, throat was dry and scratchy. It was bad. I felt real sick and for that split second, lonely. But I didn't succumb to temptation. I teared for a minute or so and I told myself that I will be fine. That I didn't need anyone to look after me. Told myself to have nerves of steel, grit my teeth and live thro this. I have to. I know I have to.
Tears stopped after that. I chided myself for being weak. I shouldn't be like that. I am not someone who needs a man all the time. I can be by myself. I can look after myself. I will be strong. Focus on career and all will be fine.
Roy wanna do his Masters. I wanna do mine too. We're gonna check it out and maybe do it together so that we can partner each other to study. Time to channel my energy somewhere else instead of thinking about crap stuff and feeling sorry for myself. It is my life that I have to live. This is my life.
And this, is me. The stubborn girl who will not give in easily.
magz [11:16 PM]
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Tuesday, September 02, 2008
Still Sick..
Home. So sorry to XZ. Supposed to meet for dinner tonite but flu's not getting any better and sore throat coming too. :( So sorry. Always have to postpone dinner coz of me being sick. Sorry sorry.
Finally feeling more alive now. Showered and feeling better. Finally!!! Been so tired the whole day. Head was feeling light and heavy at the same time. Bad bad.
Work was alright. Taught Ailmer and the intern, Russell, how to print confos. Their turn to do it starting tomorrow.
Oh.. Gotta say thanx to Shon for sending me home. Super heavy downpour after office hours and was too tired to take bus. He's down with flu too yet still passed me his Strepsils to eat. :) Thanx loads! Super appreciate it!
K.. Too engrossed in my HK reality show to type. Hehe. Shall sleep soon. Nitez!
magz [8:33 PM]
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Monday, September 01, 2008
I'm Kind.. Haha.
Couldn't wake up yet again. Til driver called. Damn! Twice in 2 months. Forgot to set alarm again. Shitty. Luckily this time, I managed to get Shon to pick me up. Went to work together. Owe him a dinner for that. Reached at 9.30am. Not too late. Phew!
Work - Crazy. Mad. No time to read mails, no time to reply mails. Simply let the mails pile. Audit results review. Had to re-check quite a bit of stuff and to clarify on others. Took me 3 hours plus. Nobody dared disturb me. I had 4 ring files opened at the same time, flipping here and there. Not even Kelv dared to disturb. Haha. Everybody steered clear. GOOD!
Sneezed, wheezed and sniffed from 7.30pm to 8.15pm non-stop with 5-15 secs interval in between. Horrible! Cabbed home at 9pm coz I'm too tired and dead from all the sneezing, wheezing and sniffing. Cab driver was fantastic, driving at 100km/h. Good job! He's the only cabby who actually said "Thanks! You're very kind!" when I asked him to keep the change of a mere 30 cents. He made my day! Never had a cabby who would say that I'm kind when I let them keep the change. Sweet!
Thumb still hurts, I'm getting flu and I keep having this bad tummy ache. Tummy hurts real bad. Well done Magz. How much more illness/pain/ailments can u get? Stupid dumb dumb me. Wonder what's wrong. It's been an illness filled year. Damn. Can only hope that the next few months ahead will be better. ARGH!
Edit (10pm): I have just sneezed at least 20 times non stop with no intervals in between. My tenant laughed at me coz she found me funny. :(
magz [9:30 PM]
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Hotel transfer came. Checked in, rested on bed to chat more. Roy's friend who stays in Batam brought us out for brekkie at 9.30am. Ate fried mee, fried kway teow and wanton noodles. All different from Singapore's. :p Delicious! I had an iced tea with without milk.
