Tuesday, June 27, 2006

Lasagna
Finally finished the preparation work for the lasagna that I'm making for dinner tonite. Yes, u're reading it correctly. I made dinner and it's not instant noodles nor is it spaghetti! Haha. It's the first time that I'm making something other than those 2 and I really hope that it turns out well. All I can do now is to wait for my boy to come home from work and we can tuck in to the very 1st dinner that I prepared, all by myself! Of coz, what would I do without the help of friends like my buddy, Joy and Meng who gave me instructions on what to buy and how to do it. Haha. Thanx all!

Met up with KK, Marina and Jus for lunch just now. Just the 4 of us.. Chatting, gossiping, complaining. Haha. Too bad they only have a 1-hr lunch period. Otherwise, it'll definitely be more fun. They brought me to a place called Ah Meng's Cafe at Cuppage (And yes, it reminded me of u, Meng! Haha). The food is not bad. Depending on what you order, the range is about $5-$10 and you get a free drink and a slice of watermelon. But I got hungry real soon.

And yes, I finally got to nap on the day that I don't have to work. Feels so good!!! Haha.

Wanted to write more but am feeling kinda lazy. Hehe. Will write what I'm thinking of next time coz I'm sure the topic will arise amongst my friends again. :)

magz [6:00 PM]

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Monday, June 26, 2006

A Day On Leave
Feeling really tired and sleepy right now as I slept for only 2 hrs last nite coz I couldn't fall asleep again after watching the 2 matches. Sighz.. I know I look like a panda. Still deciding if I should give the match between Switzerland and Ukraine a miss as I'm really tired and I wanna reserve my energy to watch Spain vs France tomorrow nite. I need as much rest as I can today.

Had lunch with my ex-colleagues from DBS and it was nice meeting up with everybody. Basically, I was chatting more with Mels and Jessie but I expected as much. After all, I'm closer to them. Bought some swiss rolls for the rest of the colleagues when I went to visit them in the office. It's been such a long time since I last went back and I must say that I miss the working environment there. Sighz.. Time flies. It's been 1.5 years since I left that place. Everybody's still so sweet to me. .

Honestly, I'm really thankful that I've been blessed with wonderful, fantastic colleagues ever since I stepped into the working world. Really grateful to everyone I've met along the way for the great friendships and advices that a girl can ever ask for.

Had tea break with Meng who was very spontaneous in agreeing to meet up. Chose to meet at the place where buddy works coz the last time I met up with buddy was about 2 or 3 months ago. It's called killing 2 birds with 1 stone. Haha. Buddy gave me a very good seat, away from the crowd. Appreciate his gesture. Thanx buddy! He even gave me a whole bowl of whipped cream to eat and gave me a cake. Was so full after eating everything! And as always, he refused to let me pay til I nagged at him. Naughty boy!

Meng and I went shopping after the meal. We talked about a lot of stuff and it was nice to know that I can confide in him. Thanx bro! Shopping with Meng was really fun coz he was a great help in deciding if the clothes were nice and fitted me well. Haha. He complimented me saying that it was the first time he had ever seen a girl try on clothes and none of the clothes made her look ugly and that everything seem to fit so well. Never been complimented like that before and it does make my day. ;p

Met Janis and Ben for dinner after that. Haven't seen Janis for almost a year or 2 now. Great to finally catch up together, the 3 of us, just like before. Think the person who's changed the most is Ben, in terms of looks and build. Other than that, I feel that the 3 of us are still pretty much the same as we were when we knew one another in the year 2000. In a way, it was a familiar and yet cosy feeling. :)

Think I'll head to bed without even finishing the match between Italy and Australia. Don't think I can stand the lethargy for much longer. Gonna meet KK and Marina for lunch tomorrow afternoon, followed by some grocery shopping and my 1st try at making lasagna. Hope it works!

Oh ya, I saw Stephen and HS today! Haha. So coincidental. I even saw Cyn and she asked if I was willing to be her "sister" during her wedding. Of coz I agreed. How can I refuse and turn my good friend down? More weddings this year to attend! It's a good thing I went shopping just now. But it's not a good thing on my wallet coz I really spent a lot today and shopping continues tomorrow. Hahaha. K.. Time for bed. Nitez all!

magz [11:36 PM]

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Sunday, June 25, 2006

2.5 Years
Today is my 2.5 years and 1 day together with Tom. Wanted to finish using my movie vouchers but there were no good shows currently so we decided to stay at home and simply relax. Spent some quality time chatting and talking about stuff regarding our future. Also spent some time cuddling each other, something that we haven't done since our Genting trip as everyday and every weekend is spent rushing to places. Felt good to finally get to cuddle my boy. Happy 2.5 years' anniversary my dear!

Went to Joy's housewarming on Fri after work. Our whole dept went. For once, everybody was at the same place at the same time besides being in the office. I know it was awkward for Nat and Chris to be at the same place and Nat probably felt left out coz she basically didn't start any conversations or participate much in any of ours. But she did smile while we cracked jokes at one another's expense and teased one another. She left early though. All in all, I think the rest of us did enjoy ourselves and the food that Joy's dad made was really delicious and fantastic, especially the really huge oysters that we had! It was baked with cheese and it was absolutely tender and nice, not over-baked or too raw. I'm not a big fan of oysters but I must say that that was the best that I've ever had! :)

Saturday was very much a busy one for me. Met Zoey for the 1st time and went with her and Peg to Joy's private sale. Perspired a lot due to the hot sun and all the walking. After that, Peg and I went to Orchard to buy presents for Uncle and Alvin's bday. Couldn't find anything to buy for Ky but I'll be looking out for stuff to buy for her tomorrow since I'm on leave. Hehe.

Tomorrow's gonna be a hectic day too. I'll be going to Tom's place early in the morning as I don't want dad to know I'm on leave. Which means that I gotta wake up at the normal time that I go to work. Then I'll head to Shenton Way to meet ex-DBS colleagues for lunch. After that, I'll proceed to Orchard for some shopping before heading to buddy's workplace for tea with Meng. Then, it's more shopping either at Orchard or Suntec before meeting Janis and Ben for dinner at 6.30pm at City Hall. Haha. Schedule's all planned out. It's just a matter of how much shopping I can accomplish. :p

Thinking of what to do on Tuesday though. Don't think I wanna rush about so much on Tues a I'll be heading back to work on Wed. I'll probably just head to Tom's place in the morning, do some shopping for groceries at the supermarket and try to prepare a good meal for my boy when he's home. Hopefully it won't turn out to be a flop. Haha. Think I need to rest more on Tuesday afternoon as I'll be watching World Cup tonite and tomorrow nite (the 3am matches). Hehe.

Watching the England vs Ecuador match as I'm typing this and the score is still 0-0 and 56 mins has gone past. How saddening. I must say that Ecuador has committed quite a few fouls but referee has simply ignored them all. Sighz.. Actually, the most impt person in the match is the referee but sometimes, the referee takes side with some teams. It's so unfair.. Just like the referee who gave the penalty to Ghana (against USA) when the player fell by himself. I guess, nothing's really fair in this world ya?

Oh ya, I chatted with Diana earlier via MSN. Finally.. It's been a long time since I last talked to her. Glad that she still reads my blog and I really miss that girl! Hope to meet up with u soon k? And sorry you can't meet us tomorrow for lunch. :(

And it's a GOAL!! by David Beckham at 61 mins! Haha. K.. I shall go concentrate on the match. :)

magz [11:52 PM]

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Tuesday, June 20, 2006

So True..

magz [11:40 AM]

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Monday, June 19, 2006

World Cup
Watching Brazil vs Australia on my laptop right now and typing this entry. Have to keep changing screens so I gotta make this fast.

I normally try to sleep before 11.30pm if I have to work the next day so it's kinda amazing that I'm still awake at this time. Firstly, it's World Cup that I'm watching and I don't mind sacrificing some sleep over it though I'm already looking like a panda these days with my dark eye rings. Secondly, I think I'm starting to lose the fire and passion for my work. The more I think about work and that I've not been caring enough coz of work, the more I lose interest in my work.

Am I asking for too much? I know I just got my bonus and my conversion to be a permanent staff in February. To ask for a promotion and a pay raise right now seems too soon but I seriously lack encouragement and compliments for the hard work that I put in. I mean, when Ting and Chris works late, boss will tell them to claim dinner allowance or cab allowance. When I work late, I've never been told to claim anything. It's as if I shouldn't claim anything and I'm starting to hate it. I no longer wish or want to work late whether I am able to finish my work or not. Why should I? Why should I dedicate my time and effort in working so hard only to be unappreciated by others?

Screw all the shit that I'm going through. I'm done with the crap that I'm taking from this place. All that I want to do now is to go to a place where people recognise my efforts and not take me for granted. So for now, I'll watch World Cup til whatever time I want, be dead in the office and not bother about the quality of work that I do. If I'm not being appreciated, my attitude will be like this. Til the day I see some change, I guess I will only do whatever is necessary to keep me going on.

I'm tired.. Tired of everything. Maybe I just lack sleep.. Maybe I'm thinking too much.. But maybe.. Maybe I'm just being ridiculous.

magz [12:10 AM]

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Friday, June 16, 2006

Caring..
Should I say I heard something about myself today? Wonder how I should describe it but anyway, I found out that I'm not as caring as I thought I am.

Maybe I'm just a bad friend. Haven't been contacting many friends in recent times and I haven't expressed as much concern as I should. Heard that it's the way I express myself. It's probably true. Been preoccupied with work so much that I even dreamt of work on Sunday night and again on Monday or Tuesday night (Can't remember the exact day). Am I stressed? Probably..

As I said, I've been contemplating if I should leave the bank. Our CCO dropped by today and I've always looked up to her coz to me, she's a very clever and talented woman. I know I can't compare myself with her but I always wish that I'm half as good and I'll be happy. Everytime I finish listening to her talks, I feel inspired and proud of my company. But after a while, the feeling simply goes away and I'm demoralised again. Guess it's coz I don't get enough encouragement and compliments for the hardwork I've put in.

And I seem to have neglected other people and their feelings by dedicating too much time and effort in my work. But to me, I wanna build my career while I still can when I'm still young. I don't wanna regret not being hardworking and not having a career when I'm older. So, maybe if I've neglected any of you or your feelings, I'm sorry...

magz [11:28 PM]

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Thursday, June 15, 2006

Lazy..
Been wanting to update my blog since I came back from Genting but have been so lazy. Quite a lot has happened after the trip.. Mostly unhappy stuff but there are also the happy moments. Anyway, Genting trip photos can be viewed here. I'll be putting my Fullerton stay pics in this similar website as well (provided I have the time). Haha.

Had 2 major arguments with Tom after we came back from Genting. The 1st one is definitely my fault and I've admitted it. Promise that I will not do such things again. The 2nd one has been a long outstanding issue and I don't wanna dwell on it anymore. Let's just hope that things will be better in future.

Attended Bernicia's pageant on 10 June with some of the girls from my dept. It was fun though the organisers were biased and it got me a bit pissed off. It wasn't a fair competition and it sucks. But overall, we still had fun cheering for the 'lil gal and it was nice to see her so happy! She won the Crown Princess title and she looked so pretty that nite! I truly love this "younger sis" of mine! :) She never fails to put a smile on my face. Such a sweet gal. :p Pictures and videos can be viewed here.

Wanted to take part in our office internal olympics and had been training for it, but I suddenly lost the mood for it. Not sure what came over me but I withdrew from the competition. Is it coz it's held in NUS that I felt sick about the whole thing? Do I really detest the school that much or could it be coz I do not like the people from the school? I don't mean I don't like everybody who graduated from the school but most of them anyway. I'm just biased and prejudiced I guess.

Have sent out my resume to 2 ex-colleagues asking them to help me look for jobs. Still wondering if it's the right move. Somehow, I'm still hesitating and unsure of what I want. I know I want a promotion plus a pay raise but is this job really giving me satisfaction? I'm not sure. Am I truly appreciated for the work that I do? I don't know. All I know is that I've got colleagues who truly care about me when I was feeling sick on Tuesday. And I don't know if there will be such wonderful people in a new environment. Sighz.. Sometimes, I just don't like changes. :(

magz [8:23 PM]

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