My Funny Life...
What is going on in my life these days?? Gosh.. I no longer know...
Finding out more shit about my own sis... I really.. am speechless. No longer know what to say or think. I can't even stand seeing her face now - yes, it's gotten to that bad and to that extent. I don't even acknowledge her presence despite her being right in front of me. I can't forgive nor forget coz I am still finding out more shit about her. So tired of it all.. So tired of hating her.. So tired of life...
And funnily enough, somehow over the last couple of months, a few of my ex-bfs have managed to "find" me and suddenly regain contact with me. 1st was Stuart whom I happened to bump into as his office is now next to my office building. Hence, close proximity in office area = easier to bump into each other. He's asked me out quite a few times now but I've only gone out with him once thus far. After all, he's married though he doesn't seem too happy in the marriage. But... I guess it's better to not get messed up in such stuff. I think he's sensible enough to not do anything wrong as well. Will still be friends and meet up once in a while.
Then there's Vince - a guy I used to like in the past but he rejected me saying that I was too young for him then. He's 4 or 5 years older than me.. Can't remember which is correct year. Haha. He's been wanting to meet up and catch up with me recently as well. Haven't seen or contacted him for the last 15 years at least. We managed to "find" each other again on FB and after contacting each other again, he told me that I misunderstood his "rejection" for me then. He did like me then but felt that I was too young and wanted me to finish my studies 1st before we got together. Oh well.. He never clarified himself then and hence I was heartbroken which was why we lost contact as well. He's been wanting to meet up now but.. He's another married guy now with a kid as well.. Which is why til now I have yet to meet up with him although we managed to reconnect since beginning of this year..
And today, Jie Shan managed to "find" me on FB after more than 10 years!! Man.. this guy.. broke my heart big time then. I've liked him since college days when he was the volleyball captain and led our school to win the championship all those years he was captain. I've always idolized and admired him and managed to get his contact from a close friend after graduation. We got together after reconnecting and he broke my heart after 3 months saying he still couldn't get over his ex gf and that he wants to break up with me. Haha. I did sms him on his bday almost every year for 2-3 years after that but he never once replied or kept in contact hence I gave up as well. And suddenly, he added me on FB today and even chatted with me!!! But guess what.. He's a married man with 3 kids!!!!
Hahahaha, what is going on?? LOL. I can't help but keep grinning and laughing at myself. Suddenly all the guys wanting to keep in contact are my ex-bfs who are all married now! And it's all happening at the same time! The twist and turn of my life again eh??
