Thursday, July 31, 2008

Blocked nose
Just had my shower, ate my pork porridge and took my medicine.

Today was a crazily busy day which I started work at 9am instead of my normal 9.30am. No time for drawing at all. :( By 10.30am, I had done most of options month end work. Had training for about half an hour. Settled the rest of my morning stuff and it was lunch time.

Bought lunch back to office. Ate with Irene and we chatted about stuff. :) By the time I had bought lunch back to office, it was already 1pm or even past 1pm. Soon, it was 2pm... Time to start work once again. Sighz..

Before I knew it, it was 3pm. Then it was 4, 5, 6 then 7pm!!! My god!!! Where did the time fly to??? I had so much to do and didn't even take note of the time! To make things worse, the stupid 3-ply paper printer had to have problems printing and half of the work (that makes it about 15 confirmations of 4 to 7 pages each) gone to waste! Could have killed anyone who crossed my path then but everyone was smart enough not to disturb me. Hahaha.

Spent half an hour walking to and back from the bloody printer to my desk doing test prints and realignment. ARGH! Irene & Mel sensed my increasing frustration and helped me out with part of the work. Thank u gals!!!

Ailmer steered clear of me upon seeing the huge mess on my table, my increasing pounding of the mouse (it's not an optical mouse hence roller had problems) and my getting louder versions of "shit". Hahaha. Yupz. He asked me something actually.. I did answer him but can't remember what he asked. Haha. Anyway, I was frowning, staring at my computer while answering him. So I guessed he knew to stay clear. :p I think I should do that more often. Haha.

Tomorrow and Monday will be another 2 busy days with other month end stuff. Time seems to be flying by so quickly. I still remember this time last year. Still remember so many things from last year that seem like they just happened yesterday instead of a year ago. Where did time run to???

Then, after saying that line.. I feel damn old. Shucks!! My family keeps saying I look old too. :(((( So hurtful! But they purposely say it coz I was sleeping so late previously. They wanted me to sleep earlier (in the nite, not early in the morning!) and get more rest. Which I think I need coz my recovery rate sucks! My nose is still blocked! Damn this flu.. Damn damn damn! Hehehe.

Shall go de-stress a bit with games and concuss soon. I've been tired and sleepy since afternoon (after taking my medicine). Doc bluffed me!! It's supposed to be non-drowsy. Why do I still keep feeling sleepy???

Ans: Maybe coz I'm a pig.. Haha.

magz [9:35 PM]

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Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Cough and Sneeze
Very very tired. Woke up in the middle of the nite to sneeze, not once but a few times!! This is bad.. Finally couldn't take it anymore. Went to see doc in the afternoon. Had to coz I didn't want to spread to the others and it's month end tomorrow. It's been a while since I did all the month end on my own so.. I can't afford to make mistakes and I gotta work fast. I need energy and strength for that.

Didn't draw today. Was tooooo tired to even think about drawing. Ya.. Was really bad today. But at least I feel more human now. Took my medicine immediately after seeing the doc. Asked Aunt Marg to cook porridge for me for dinner. She even boiled barley for me to drink! So nice of her!

Saw Dad's cab while I was about to alight from the bus just now!!! Was sooo excited but.. Missing Dad and Mum..

Lyn & Kelv (both my managers) allowed me to leave office early today. By early, I mean 4.30pm with no MC and didn't need to apply for leave. I think I must have been in a real bad shape or they are afraid that there's no one to do month end tomorrow coz I'm the sole survivor at the moment. Haha. I think it's a bit of both. :p

K.. Shall end here. Just took my bath and I'm gonna eat my porridge now. :D

magz [8:31 PM]

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Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Sleeping Child..
Busy morning. Finished my work to go on my half day leave.



Met Ann for lunch. She accompanied me til 2.30pm when sis finally arrived.. Late as always. Lawyer's office at 3pm. Waited for commissioner to sign the letter for an hour. Sighz.. Just to sign 1 document, we were there til 4pm. Faint.. At least it gave sis & I a chance to disturb each other and we didn't quarrel today! Haha.



Sis went for facial while I bought donuts for the dealers. Yupz, I headed back to office again.. Front office though. To meet the group of ever welcoming and friendly dealers whom I like a lot. :p All came to where I was hiding in a corner to talk to me, joke with me and to say hi. How can I not like this group of people?



Chatted with Siu Min & Heng Wee the most. The 2 whom I'm closest with. Chatted with Stephen, Shi Ming & Lynn as well. Siu Min wanted to intro me to Check, the boss.. But I refused to be introduced. Haha. Chatted with Benson & Goldwin from private bank as well. ;)



Met sis for dinner at Suntec. Ate @ NYDC. Didn't eat much. Not hungry & still coughing.. Sis's treat! Went to look for bro-in-law again then sis & I headed to Marina together to take bus home separately. Home now, washing my clothes and bedsheet. :p

Found out that Tom is in hospital. Hope he gets well soon!

Thanks all, for liking the pics that I've drawn! It's nice to know that people like my drawings. :) Very nice feeling. But can't do portraits.. Sorry!! I can't draw real life stuff.. Can't do 3D images as well. :( That's something that I've always failed to do. Anyway, here's another pic.. I drew this pic this morning and I like it a lot! It's currently my mobile's wallpaper. Hope u guys like it too! :D

magz [9:17 PM]

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Monday, July 28, 2008

Coughing..
Home.. Early today. Left office at 6.30pm, grabbed a cab and headed home immediately. Coughing the whole day til my head hurt and my tummy muscle ached. If my lungs could have dropped out, I think they would have. Coughed til I nearly puked too. Yes, it's that bad.


And worst of it all is that by lunch time, people were complaining of sore or itchy throats. Damn! The virus is strong. Everybody blamed Ailmer. Who wouldn't? We were all fine til he came to office on Thurs with very serious flu and cough. I chided him for not seeing the doc and spreading the germs. He offered to buy me fruits which he did during lunch time but I refused to eat. Don't want him to use this as some hold on me in future.


My tummy muscle hurts so much now that I feel like I've done 100 situps non stop. Bad bad bad! While wearing my watch to leave office, I realise that I've lost weight.. Again! I think I did. Not 100% sure though. Maybe I did.... Doesn't matter...


Didn't do anything much in office today. Only 1 new deal which he did. Spent my time stoning. Couldn't help it. I'm feeling awful and yet I had to stay in the office. Sighz...

K.. Here are the 3 pics I drew last week. Drew, NOT traced ok!!! Do NOT insult me and my standards!!! Muahahaha. Drawing another pic this morning but was coughing too badly to continue at all. Will upload when ready. ;p Note: I forgot to darken the penguin's left eye before scanning in the pic.. :(

magz [7:31 PM]

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Sunday, July 27, 2008

Good Girl!
Spent my whole day at home. :) Slept from 12.30am til 4+pm. Feels so good. Muahahaha.

Played games til 8+pm, cooked noodles for myself. Ate, changed my bedsheets, packed the rubbish on the floor of my room. Showered and now enjoying the aircon, watching my DVD, typing this post and relaxing.

Starting to have this itchy throat that makes me cough. All stupid Ailmer's fault. Spreading his germs in office and can still tell me that it's not bad enough for him to see a doc. JERK! And he's coughing and sneezing without covering his mouth. ARGH!!! So gonna scold him tomorrow. Dumb idiot!

Gonna play some more games and head to bed in a while. Nitez!

magz [10:19 PM]

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Saturday, July 26, 2008

Singapore Flyer
Surviving the whole day with only 2 hours of sleep is no simple feat. Especially when your family knows about it and was nagging at me about the late nites that I'm keeping. Oopsss.. Only on Fridays though.. Been sleeping early the whole week. :p

They kept saying that I'm getting fine lines at my eyes which makes me look older than my age. Panic!!! I better stop being lazy and start applying the eye gel again!! Damn!! Contact lens are getting blur now..

Singapore Flyer this morning. Spent the time up in the capsule taking pics the whole time. Hehe. Camera hogging!!!! I love my family!!! Even my uncle & aunts were happily posing with us for pics! U gotta love this bunch of people manz! My pillar of strength throughout my whole life! :)

Lunch @ a Chinese Restaurant @ Marina Square. Forgot the name of the restaurant. Ate like a pig!!! Then went to Aunt Mic's place for mahjong. Mouth watering almond tea the minute we reached there. Dinner was fantastic! Ate soooo much that I felt I could explode!!! Woo hoo!!!!!!!! Movenpick ice cream - Mango Sherbet, Mint Choc & Coffee Expresso flavours before I came home!!! Mango Sherbet is ultra DELICIOUS!!! DROOL!! I'm gonna find where I can buy and just buy 1 tub for myself, sit in front of my TV every nite and finish off the whole tub. Muahahaha! WOOHOO!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lost $26 in mahjong. Luckily I stopped playing after dinner. Aunt Marg won all of them after dinner!!! All 3 players lost to her!! I was colouring with Ky and watching TV at the same time. Hehe. Colour & draw.. My new hobbies again! In sync with each other. They were still playing when I came home with Ann coz I'm tooooo tired.

Didn't know Aunt Marg wasn't aware that it's over between JZ and I. As always, my ever supportive family was encouraging and saying that I'll definitely find someone much much better. I hope so! But I'm not rushing into anything. I just wanna be single right now. :) I'm happy!!! I don't want things to change right now. My life now is exactly the way that I want it to be and what I have always wanted. I'm a carefree kind of girl. To do what I wanna do whenever I wanna do, to have so many close friends who truly care about me, what else can I ask for? :p

Life is never a bed of roses. It has its ups and downs. Now is the up.. And I wanna hold on to every minute of my life now. I'm at the age where I'm financially stable and can go on hols as and when I want to, buy whatever I want to. What more can I ask for? Happiness comes from the heart. My happiness.. Has and will always come from my heart. ^.^

Spoke to Von this morning. Hehehe. We laughed so much!! And yes babe, train up on your alcohol level manz! I'll bring u for training sessions. LOL :p

Gonna shower and zzz soon. Almost 12 midnight and I didn't nap at all today. I shall sleep til tomorrow afternoon. Hehehe. Be lost in my own world.. Dreaming sweet little dreams..

magz [11:28 PM]

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Butter Factory & St James
Nice to be home! I'm sooo tired now.

Dinner with Bee @ Central - Da Pai Dang. She accompanied me to wait for the girls at TCC til 12 midnight to go clubbing.. Thanks Bee!!!!


Butter Factory - Crowded, hot & made me feel sick halfway thro coz the ventilation was so bad and I was wayyyyy toooooo hot!! Perspired like crazy! It's like I finished running miles and miles.


"Samantha" attracted a cute guy & "Carrie" attracted a fellow colleague of mine whom I totally didn't know. Me, nobody! Haha. It's ok. Don't need anybody. :) Bumped into Rave there so I pretty much hung around his group while the other 2 were dancing away. I drank while they danced. Hehe.


St James after that at about 3am. St James - My 2nd home!!! DF for a while but was too Chinese for the girls. Yutaki wasn't around so I didn't mind going off. Boiler Room - Music was good, empty coz it closes at 4am. At least I felt the aircon when I was dancing. That's the most important part! :p


"Carrie" sent me home. Was kinda lost but found our way. Chatted along the way. :) Thanx for the ride babe!! Appreciate it!!


Someone messaged me today. Shall not say who. It's someone whom I haven't really spoken to for a year.. I was shocked initially but sorta caught up with each other's lives after an hour plus of messaging. I'm actually glad we talked today..


Seems like some of my friends' relationships are not really stable. Kinda rocky situations. Sighz.. Not that I can offer any advice. My relationships never really turned out well anyway. But at least I can be the listening ear for them. :)


K.. Need to shower and conk off. Gotta wake up at 9am and it's already almost 5am!!! Damn! 4 hours of sleep for a super long Saturday.. I'm soooo gonna be stoned tomorrow. Nitez all!

magz [4:32 AM]

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Thursday, July 24, 2008

Drawing Again! :)
Homey~!~! The place I love most! Hehehe.

Dinner with Evans. Made him send me home initially but ended up having dinner @ Crystal Jade, Toa Payoh Central though I had just eaten a curry puff, nuggets, gyoza & spring roll from Old Chang Kee! Hehehe. I'm a pig remember? I only at xiao long bao @ Crystal Jade in case u guys are wondering how much of a glutton I can be. :p Talked about lots of stuff. Our little secret~! :D

Went out to buy coffee with Irene @ 4+pm coz there was no deals & I was super duper tired from updating the database since after lunch. Kelv was in a good mood today so I managed to get out for a short walk. ;) But he's been lenient and nice to me ever since he became my manager. I think coz he knows I can finish my work and be fast. Haha. So far, no mistakes when he checks so.. I need to keep it that way.

Picking up drawing again! Been drawing the last 2 days. Everybody's asking who I'm drawing for. Nobody actually. Nobody that I need to draw for. :) I used to draw only when I'm in the mood. These 2 days, I just felt like it & it's something to keep me occupied with anyway. Most of them are really impressed by some of the things that I drew in the past and what I drew yesterday. Didn't manage to draw much today. :( No time!!! And I only draw in office. Hehehe. Have forgotten that I actually can draw!! I'm looking forward to spending all my time drawing nowadays. ^.^

Deals started coming in right after I came back from my short little break. :(((( Worked til 8+pm which was why I made Evans send me home. Hehe. I'm mean! But I treated him to dinner. :)

Keep repeating my blog song. It's so sentimental and sad.. So sweet and nice. Simply love it. Think it's gonna stay as my blog song for some time now. Hehe.

K.. Gonna play some games before I head off to dreamland. :D

magz [9:59 PM]

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Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Loretta Chow - You Are My Angel
Lyrics not very accurate.. Song takes a bit slow to load in my blog. :( Short but nice song! Enjoy!

Once upon a time
Arcangel in the sky
Made a cover every night

Once upon a time
The angel loved me so
It's a miracle in the snow my heart won't be cold

My dear, you are my angel
Tell me what you know
Something should be told

My dear, you are my angel
Tell me where you go
I will brace behind your love

Once upon a time
My angel gave me life

magz [10:05 PM]

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Mobile-less
Chatted with Wayne & Olly today. Haven't talked to them for a very long time. 2 guys whom I miss.

Dan's flying off tomorrow morning and as expected, he forgot to contact me. Boo!


Work was kinda busy in the afternoon. Finished my morning stuff (3 people's work) by 10.30am. Haha. I'm fast! Mel will be on training on Thurs & Fri. Kelvin will cover her work. He told me to make sure Ailmer does his work in the afternoon coz he has a meeting from 2-3pm and need to help out at the other dept as well. Sighz.. I don't want!! Don't wanna talk to Ailmer!!!!!!! Nightmare starting once again!!


It's been a peaceful 3 days without Ailmer in office. How I wish that peacefulness can last forever. Hahaha.


Forgot to bring my mobile to work again. Seems like I will forget to bring it to work once a week. Getting used to not having my mobile around. Nobody really looks for me anyway. I didn't miss my mobile at all today. Yupz.. I'm becoming an invisible girl. :p


Heard a very very nice song today. A very short song, but very meaningful and nice. Love it! It's my blog song now!!

magz [9:25 PM]

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Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Slow Day..
Eating choc chip biscuits and typing this post. Hehe.

Work was kinda slow. Not many deals. Only 1 today. Spent my time clearing old mails and checking out air tix for Taiwan, reading business news on the net. :p

Nothing much to write about today actually. And it's almost 9pm anyway. Wanna sleep early again. :) Hehehe. I'm a pig!!

Nitez!!

magz [8:43 PM]

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Monday, July 21, 2008

Mean Me!
Left work at 6.30pm today!! Hooray!!! But I was so tired that I slept on the bus on my way home. :p Still deciding if I should bathe 1st or eat 1st. Think I'll blog 1st, bathe then eat. And then, I can zzzzzzzzzzz right after eating!!! Just like a pig!!! Yes Meng, I'm a glutton & a pig! Lalalalala

Stupid me screwed up the timing of the interview and the interviewer's name today. I must be an idiot!! Faint.. Supposed to be lunch time and her name is Jasmine. I went this morning at 8am and called her Jessica!!! I must have looked like a dumbo. Sighz.. Anyway, just read some news about Dresdner and seems like they are having some problems and losses as well. Oh no!!!! Now I must seriously consider if I still wanna carry on there..

Work was ok. Discovered several mistakes made last week.. I'm really becoming stupid.. Charlie said that it seems like without Ailmer, we can close shop and go off earlier! That's always the case!!! When it was just Gopi and me, it was the same thing. Now with Ailmer and I, it's also the same! All coz I'm efficient and the other 2 are not. Muahahaha. I'm mean!!! Mean is my middle name (given by Evil Cheryl). :p

I think I'm getting old.. Body hasn't recovered from the lack of sleep yet! But I've seriously been sleeping late these days. Time to sleep early again. Wanted to go running tonite since I ended early but I'm just toooooooo tired and all I want is my beloved bed. So I'm gonna bathe now, heat up the food that I brought back from Aunt Mic's place last nite (Dinner for me tonite.. Surprising??? Hehe) and head off to bed!!

Food & Mr Chou, here I come!!!! ^v^

magz [8:01 PM]

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Sunday, July 20, 2008

Welcome Back.. To Me!
Sometimes I amaze myself by the things that I can do. Slept at 4.30am and woke up at 8.30am. Ann picked Aunt Marg & I up and we headed to pray to gramp together. Prayed to Daddy & Mummy too. :) I miss all 3 of them.. :(

Went with Aunt Mic to collect bday cake for Aunt Marg while Ann, Peg, MZ & Aunt Marg went to visit Gram. Ann's car couldn't fit me in so I had to miss out on visiting Gram. :(((( Back to Aunt Mic's house after collection of cake from SICC (Singapore Island Country Club).

Had snacks & soon after, lunch. Ate a lot!!! Mahjong after lunch at about 12pm. Was losing $20+ til I started winning at about 5+pm. Won $20 in the end. Phew!!!!!

Cake cutting and dessert time at about 4pm. Then dinner at 7pm. I ate sooooo much that everyone was shocked! And I ate at a very fast speed too!!! Whole family thought I was hungry, but I wasn't.. And I just kept eating and eating and eating. Til I became super duper full. I guess, it's coz I've finally let my family know that it's over between JZ and me (though he's still supposedly thinking about whether he wanna break up or not but to me, it's over). It's like this huge relief that I ate so much!! :)

Anyway, made things clear with someone else as well. Friends forever!!

Seriously, I'm happy the way I am now.. The way my life is. The friends around me are great! I'm happy almost everyday and I love it! It's like I'm finally leading my life the way it was, should be and should always be. And I most definitely am not looking to step into any relationship at this moment. I'm happy with my friends, I'm happy with being single. And I just wanna be single for now.

I haven't felt this relieved, this free, this light-headedness for a very long time already. Right now, it's just the feeling of being relaxed, being myself. At long last.. I am myself once again. I love the me now!! ^.^

magz [9:49 PM]

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Movie Marathon
Slept from 5.30am to 4pm! Fantastic job. Proud of myself. Haha. Woke up to see a few sms-es from my dearest gal friends. Love these 4 babes! Was replying to them when XZ called and he was already out of his house to meet me. Oopss..

Showered. XZ reached while I was still preparing. Booked tix online. He was ok to go for my company's Family Day event with me. I didn't wanna go initially but wanted to tell Christine mama some stuff as she was on 2 weeks leave & I didn't get a chance to talk to her when she visited us on Friday. :)

Supposed to watch The Dark Knight. Had hard time booking tix as almost all cinemas were fully booked. Settled on AMK Cathay 10.30pm show. Then.. I happened to see that Hellboy 2 was also showing already and guess what??? We booked tix for Hellboy 2 @ 1.40am same cinema. Woah!!!! Movie marathon!! Plus the fact that it was "Movie under the stars" @ Fort Canning for my company event!! Wheet wheet~! Hehehe.

Reached Fort Canning @ 6pm I think. Had my 1st & last meal for the day. Ate soooo much coz I was soooo hungry though the food wasn't that fantastic. I was soooo full... I think I'm still quite full now actually. Haha. Left at about 8pm when the movie (Ratatouille which I had already watched) started for about half an hour which was a good thing coz it started to drizzle a bit and eventually became a downpour!! Smart of us!

Headed to City Hall URS. Bought a new pair of flats. White! Wanted to buy another pair (flats as well) that was brown with gold and looks real classy, glam & nice but everywhere was sold out. Damn!!!! :(((((( Walked to Marina Square. Looked at Creative stuff then sat at Gloria Jean's for coffee before heading to AMK.

Caught both shows @ AMK then. Both were nice shows! Christian Bale is super handsome as Batman & Heath Ledger was super good as Joker. Seriously good. The make up was damn good as well, especially when Harvey Dent's face was half burnt. Super duper fantastic! Pity Ledger's no longer around.. He really did well in this show & he would have become even more famous and popular than ever. Sighz..

Hellboy 2 was good too! Have always loved the character of Liz, the girl that Hellboy loves. She's the one who has fire.. Real fire. Definitely what I want! Hahaha. Burn!!! Oooppsss..

Think this is the 1st time I actually watched movies back to back non stop. Fun!!!! XZ & I realised that everytime he comes to my place, it rains. And that everywhere we go, be it going into shops or even sitting down for drinks, we bring the crowd. Everywhere just suddenly become crowded wherever we are.. When it was so empty before that. Faint.. Haha.

Leaving you with a few lines that I love from The Dark Knight..
"The night of dark is before the dawn"
"It all gets worse before it gets better"
"Why so serious?"

And from Red Cliff...
"我需要时时刻刻保持冷静"
"略懂，略懂"

And with that, I am going to bed coz it's 4.30am now & I gotta wake up at 8.30am. 4 hours of sleep to last me the whole day. Nitez!

magz [4:06 AM]

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Saturday, July 19, 2008

My Uni Gals & I as Sex & The City
Just reached home from the most fantastic girl gathering ever!!! It was absolute fun!!! Von, Jean, Stef & I met up from 8.45pm to 4am!!! That's how much stuff we can talk about. We laughed, we joked, we chatted, we chilled, we were angry on one another's behalf. Basically, it was all the emotions in 1 night, minus the sadness. It was way cooooooooooool!!!

From 8.45pm to 10pm, we were at Keppel Bay The Wine Glass. From 10pm to 2am, we were at Keppel Bay Privo Gastrobar. Rochor for soya beancurd only to find it closing for the night. Marina Square HK cafe for more food & drinks. Wanted to try the soya beancurd there coz Von said it was good but it was sold out. :(

This girl gathering is, by far, the best ever! There's another upcoming one in August and I can guarantee that it will be even better than today coz.. Hehe. Not telling yet. We have made the plans and details. Soon to be revealed. Date of gathering is the weekend of National Day holiday. I can't wait!!!!

Tonite simply reminded us of Sex and The City. 4 ladies on a girls' night out was really a very wonderful thing to do, given our tight and busy schedules. It's really not easy to meet up. We were discussing who's who from the show & I think I have the answer.. Von, if u dunno who are the characters in the show, here's where u should go: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sex_and_the_City

Carrie = Stef. Coz she's the one with the more unique fashion sense. Design school, cool type of gal. Loves shoes, clothes, accessories.

Samantha = Von. Independent businesswoman. Glamorous, confident and loyal to friends. She managed to get all of us to meet just coz I said we should. Simply marvellous!

Charlotte = Jean. She's not the super conservative type of girl but she's the only 1 amongst the 4 of us to have found true love and will be settling down soon. Reminded me of Charlotte in that sense.

Miranda = Me. Yupz. Definitely me now. Career minded with cynical views on relationships and men.

So there we have the 4 characters from Sex and The City. :) Finally managed to place the 4 of us with the 4 characters. Really happy to have met them tonite. I haven't had this much fun in a gathering for some time now. Whenever we get together, we simply behave like when we were back in school. The carefree days.. We know one another so well that we can let loose, misbehave, be cheeky, naughty and just be ourselves without caring about what others think.

Thank u babes, for the superbly fun nite that I really need. ^.^ Looking forward to our next meeting up, hopefully before the National Day holiday as discussed. We should meet more!! Love ya gals!!! ***HUGZ***

It's 5.03am now. Just showered. Hair's wet but eyes are tired and closing.. Shucks! Tomorrow and Sunday will be long days ahead.. Oh man.. Sleepy.. Nitez!

magz [4:26 AM]

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Thursday, July 17, 2008

Sis & I

magz [11:20 PM]

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Wednesday, July 16, 2008

Mixed Feelings
Shon asked me out for drinks. I didn't go. Don't think I wanna go drinking. Washing my clothes now anyway. :) I'm really becoming such a good girl. Haha.

Read Shuang's blog. Touched!! ^.^

Work was ok. Busy thro'out coz of several new deals. But for the 1st time in many days, I managed to leave at slightly past 7pm. Haha. Couldn't be bothered with the outstanding things that are still in my inbox. My eyes could barely open the whole day. That's how tired I am. Not sure why I'm this tired though..

Headhunter called. Said Dresdner wants me to meet with HR. More or less to firm up things if I'm not wrong. Shuang, we can go lunch in future if I really join the place. Haha. Will depend on the package that they are giving me and if they will put me in the department that I want. Once again, keeping my fingers crossed. Supposed to go at 6pm tomorrow but I can't make it so I've requested for Fri lunch time. Waiting for them to revert..

Felt a mixture of feelings when I received the call. Sad yet happy. Sighz.. Don't wish to leave the fantastic people that I've known but yet, know that I have to move on somehow. :( Cruel facts of life..

Lappie fan cooler has spoilt. The wires came apart and it's only been 2 months of usage. Ok.. I mean high usage. Haha. Gotta buy a new one when I go Sim Lim with XZ. My IT expert. Hehehe.

K.. Shall end here. I wanna go play game.. Addicted! Terrible...

magz [8:50 PM]

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Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Appraisal
Busy day today again. Morning was alright but afternoon was a bit packed with performance appraisal at 3pm and phone interview with Carval at 6pm. Had to rush quite a bit of stuff but managed to finish. :)

Performance appraisal was alright. I totally complained about Ailmer and how he called me names. Couldn't stand his attitude any longer but was told to exercise my patience with him. Been trying to and have been trying my best not to talk to him. Can't stand going to office early to face him as well. Kinda sickening but life goes on as always anyway. Duhz. Had an overall rating of 2 which was good, considering that 1 is the best. The other time that I had a rating of 2, I was promoted. Don't think this will happen now though I have a rating of 2. My rank is higher than most people now in my dept now anyway. No room to be promoted.

Supposed to have tea break with 1 of the 7th floor guy but really didn't have time so gotta postpone it.. No choice..

Carval interview wasn't really good. Actually, it's not what I really want at the moment so.. Will see how things go. The lady said that she will call me to go down for face to face interview if there's any so I'll just wait. :)

Dinner @ Sushi Tei with Zub @ East Coast Park. Nice! For a Malay/Indian to eat sushi, it was a fun experience. He suggested it, not me. :p Explored that area after dinner and headed to another part of East Coast by the beach to just chat. Learned so much about planes, flying, take off, landing, the air movement, etc. Really interesting to know all these stuff and how they work. Crosswinds, air particle, faster speed, longer distance, monitors, panels. Ya da ya da.. :) Way cool!!!

Then we joked about him being the captain or 1st officer and me being a passenger on board in future. He said he will announce over the PA system that his college friend is on board the flight, at seat number 23D.. Tell people who walk past to say hi to me and smile at me. Hahaha.. Would love that actually! Hehehe. I'm so cheeky!

Headhunter called and asked me about the phone interview and to lemme know that Dresdner is really interested in having me but are still shortlisting candidates. Will have the results by end of this week or early next week and she'll keep me updated. Keeping my fingers crossed still.

If I get this job, I'm going Maldives with Ann before I start work. I need a break.. After all that has happened recently.. Ann's not been happy.. Family problems. Me.. I need a break after everything. Seriously, whether Ann's going on holiday or not, I'll still go on my own. Yes, a trip on my own once again. That's what I want, that's what I need.

Suddenly remembered that a confo was not done and it's due tomorrow. Have sms-ed Mel about it. On my way home in Zub's car when I remembered. I'm such a workaholic.. Work never seem to be out of my mind completely but I'm glad about this aspect. At least we won't miss out on anything and forget to do stuff. Haha. It all hit me when Zub said I was forgetful too. Right words at the right time. ^.^

To Shuang, I dunno who A* is.. I dunno how he's treating u. But don't rush into things or be overcome by emotions. Look at facts, think about things before u give him ur answer. Whatever ur answer is, u know that u have all of us behind u every step u take, every decision u make. *hugz*

To Irene, I know u don't really have time to read my blog anymore. We talk every day anyway. But today, u were unhappy and I know there's nothing I can do except to share ur anger with u. Take things easy k? Life has to go on.. U have ur family with u. Me will be there for u too k? :)

Rash outbreak again!! Am I that stressed??? ARGH!! I dunno what's wrong but I think it has to do with my stupid sinus coming back again. Damn damn damn!

K.. 11.30pm already!! I need to shower and head off to dreamland!!! Nitez folks! Stay happy ya!

magz [11:00 PM]

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Monday, July 14, 2008

Awake the whole nite..
Stuck in toilet once again. No choice. Tummy ache while leaving office and the lazy me took a cab due to the super duper lack of sleep. Dying from the tiredness, rushing around and all the work. Was almost at a stage of vomitting and had a fully flushed face at work. Phew.. Thank God I managed to live thro that. Haha.

Interview was bad. I left my beloved mobile at home and couldn't remember the handphone numbers of several people who could gimme faith and strength. ARGH!!! Stupid me!!! Think the lack of sleep caused me to forget my precious.. Sighz.. Not sleeping the whole nite is crazy, to survive thro the day is even crazier. Haha. Anyway, interview wasn't as good as the previous time. I was too too stoned to think. My mind was simply a blank. Whatever came out of my mouth did not fully register with my brain 1st. Sighz.. Upsetting... :(

Retrieved my mobile after that and managed to find some comfort at long last. Messaged Heng Wee and he made me feel better at once. Hehe. He really knows what to say when I'm in need of comfort. Hey, don't misunderstand!! He's married!! :) Just a very good senior mentor role for me. Just like Olly.. But Olly and I have become distant.. Sighz..

Messaged Peter too. Used to be my teacher. We were really close as friends. I could tell him anything and everything!! Knew so much about his wife and him that I felt like I was part of the family. But as work hours became longer, the lesser we met. :( That's life I guess.

Anyway, back to talking about work. Was so dead, so supremely tired that I didn't know how I managed to clear all the work by myself. Ailmer still can't get things right, is always still saying he doesn't know, doesn't understand. He's just forgetful and over reliant on his notes in the PC where all he has to do is type Ctrl + F and ta-da! The magic words appear, he regurgitates out to us wihtout knowing what he himself is talking about. Faint..

So I did most of the work. Happy to have work to do. Kept me occupied and awake the whole day which was much needed. Oh ya, gotta thank Meng for entertaining me via MSN last nite while I was soooo awake and couldn't sleep. Haha.

K.. I better get a move on. Been sitting at the toilet bowl typing this whole post in 5 mins and I need to shower then start getting to doing my things. Keep listening to "Sometimes When We Touch". Beautiful lyrics.. Not meant for me now but.. Nah.. Don't worry. I've got that grip on myself. ^.^

Life's beautiful. Won't waste it on being sad. If I should be sad, it should be for the fact that I've lost both my parents and definitely not coz of a guy. :) That's how I think and feel~! Stay happy all! :)))))

magz [8:46 PM]

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Nervous? Excited?
Insomnia hits once again! Am I getting too nervous or too excited about later? Really dunno.. All I know now is that I need to sleep or I'll look like a panda tomorrow. Sighz.. Wish someone can knock me out right now. Gonna listen to music and hope that I sleep. Should I play some games to tire myself out? Will see what I can do.. Most people should be asleep by now.. Nitez all!

magz [1:56 AM]

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Sunday, July 13, 2008

Red Cliff
Finally went out of my house today, to watch "Red Cliff". Never really like The Three Kingdoms much in the past. It all changed when I got together with JZ coz it was the game he played and watching him play got me interested. I always thought I would be watching this show with him. It ain't the case anymore. I decided to watch it today coz I know I shouldn't be wasting time harbouring hopes on things that would not happen again. I need to move on in my life and that's what I did.

The show was nice. A bit draggy at some parts but funny and true to the story at most parts. I've really known the story before but that's what I heard anyway. :) Glad to have caught this show today, but I forgot to inform Zub that I'm not meeting him for dinner tonite. Stupid and forgetful me!!! Got teased by him. Thank God he wasn't angry. Hehe. :p Think I slept too much, that's why I can forget. Haha.

I never knew I could sleep that much. Seriously.. This weekend was really totally dedicated to sleeping. Friday nite, I slept from 11pm to 1am, with my lappie on and my game still on. Woke up at 1am, finished up my game and went back to sleep at 1.30am. Slept all the way til 3pm, with some disturbances and waking up in between but official wake up time was 3pm. Had headache so went back to sleep from 5+pm til 7pm. Slept at 1am..

This morning I woke up at 11am, played game all the way til 3.45pm. Non-stop playing. Yes, I'm addicted and hooked. I'm mad. Haha. Slept again at 3.45pm til 5pm, showered and headed for the movie. And I'm gonna sleep right after I finish typing this post.. Though I really must start packing the pile of clothes strewn over my chair, pay the stack of bills lying on my rug. Hmmz.. Those shall, once again, wait til tomorrow I guess. Hehe. Lazy me.

Oh ya, folks, pls pls wish me luck for another round of interview tomorrow. If all goes well, I may embark on a brand new journey, a brand new life. To live my life single once again, to have a change in environment, to be totally by myself in terms of work and life.. I need to be strong, independent and determined. Maybe from then on, all else will go well. I'm keeping my fingers crossed. Pray hard for me! :)

magz [11:39 PM]

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Saturday, July 12, 2008

Playing Games
Stayed at home the whole day. Nothing much to blog about. Simply slept, eat, play game, sleep some more, eat and play game again.

Back to my hermit lifestyle where I don't wanna go out nor talk much. Just wanna be by myself at this moment. I'm happy with playing games the whole day. Really did nothing but play games. Haha.

K.. Back to playing games then sleep! Nitez all!

magz [11:23 PM]

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Friday, July 11, 2008

Not Drinking
Home on another lonely and boring Friday nite. Wanted to stay later in office but was too tired to continue with work. Left office with Irene and Mel. Irene's hubby gave me a lift to the bus stop again. :) Thanx!!!

The bus that I take will pass by his house. I stared out the other side the other time. Didn't wanna look, didn't wanna think. Just wanna put everything behind me and move on. 1st thing mummy said to me today was "nice to hear my nu er's happy and chirpy voice".

Was thirsty on the bus. Thought of drinking something alcoholic.. But come to think of it, I'm not that sad.. I don't need to get myself drunk nor to drown my sorrows. I didn't feel that way or that I needed to drink at all. I'm alright, I don't need alcohol. :) This time round, I really didn't see the need to drink.

Received a call from headhunter today during lunchtime. Told me that I've got another round of interview on Monday and the interviewers were really nice to schedule it during lunch time so that I don't have to take another day of leave just to go for it. Sweet!!! Nice people right?? Hehe.

A bit sad at the thought of leaving now.. I'll really really miss the people from this office, especially those that I'm really really close to. Will miss lunching with them, chatting, joking around and jus enjoying one another's company. Sighz.. The irony of life..

K.. I know it's only 9.40pm but I wanna go bathe, play some games and sleep early. Tired.. Feel like sleeping the whole weekend away. That's the only thing that I feel like doing.. Sleep.. Sleep my life, my time away. I love to sleep! Coz I'm a pig!!! Haha.

magz [9:33 PM]

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Thursday, July 10, 2008

Back to Normal
I think I've seriously grown.. And that I am back to the me that I once knew. Thank God for that! After what happened last nite, I woke to find my eyes were swollen but not as bad as I expected. I need to thank a few people for being there for me last nite and today.

1st person - Irene. She was there for me throughout the whole thrashing out session last nite. Although it was only via msn, she was there for the whole time from the start til the end. She got angry on my behalf, was worked up and her hubby even told her to send his regards to me today. Sweet! She accompanied to run a lot of errands today to 'repay my debts'. She encouraged me, supported me and even postponed going out with her hubby tomorrow just to have dinner with me (and Cheryl) so that I won't have another lonely Friday nite on my own. I really really really appreciate it and wanna thank her for it. *HUGZ*

2nd person - Bee. The minute I msg-ed her, she came online to check if I was ok. Tried to keep my mind off things by emailing me about going out and meeting on Sat, sms-ing me to cheer me up. Touched.. *HUGZ*

3rd person - XZ. Same as Bee.. The minute I msg-ed him, he called me. When I didn't answer, he sms-ed me and came online to check on me. Throughout the whole of last nite, he was encouraging me and supporting me in my decisions. Told me that I didn't have to worry about a thing. There will always be him and Keong to back me up. Sweet! *HUGZ*

4th person - Leo. This guy.. Ultra fantastic! Msg-ed him, he replied. Asked him if he was working today, he said he was off for today and tomorrow. Immediately agreed to meet me though his new hobby still hasn't changed - making me wait. Haha. Dinner at Newton Food Centre. He listened to my sob story, cheered me up with some crappy stuff and jokes. I actually ate rice and we finished all 3 dishes that I ordered. I ate a lot!!! Haven't had so much for dinner in a long time now. :p And once again, he opened the car door for me. Really super nice guy in every way. *HUGZ*

5th person - Felix, for responding to me immediately when I needed his help. Drove me to complete my errands today and couldn't have a proper lunch. Had to make do with Long John Silver at my office desk. So paiseh. And he really did try to cheer me up. Thanx so much!! *HUGZ*

6th person - Carissa mumy. The moment I told her, she was apalled. But she supported me. She has always been with me through my ups and downs for the past 3 years that I've been with this company. She has shown me the light, been the pillar of strength, encouraged me when I'm down, sharing my happiness on my up days. This mummy is the best!! *HUGZ*

7th person - Heng Wee. Might not have known this guy for long but he's been real great! Supportive, truthful and always cheering me up when I'm down. Even encouraging me and helping me in my career. Truly marvellous! Thanks! *HUGZ*

So, I managed to live thro the whole of today without breaking down or making any stupid mistakes. Thanks to everyone for being my pillar of strenth!! Office has become my haven. So much work to keep me occupied and I'm thankful for that. Back to being workaholic days. Work - The thing that keeps me going, keeps my mind occupied and makes me forget everything. It's the most wonderful thing to do. Haha.

I think I seemed pretty normal today, the same old me.. Talking, laughing and working in office. Not a hint of sadness or abnormality. Am I good at disguising myself or am I really ok? Haha. I think, I'm really ok. Like Leo said.. I don't seem sad, more like pissed. Haha.

K.. 12.05am already. Been sleeping late these days again. Tired.. Nitez all!

magz [11:23 PM]

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Wednesday, July 09, 2008

Science Park
Thanks to everyone who has shown very determined faith and confidence in me. Carissa mummy, Heng Wee & Ken.. The kind of confidence that I never expected. But whether I get it or not, I know that I have done my best so I'll definitely have no regrets. :) Will still be happy to stay on even if I don't get the job. So.. No worries! No hopes, no disappointment. I've learnt that in a hard way, but I've learnt it well.

Woke up not feeling very happy. Don't wanna talk about it but I'm glad that this time round, I'm able to stay strong, get over it within an hour and move on with everything instead of being sad the whole day. :) So happy and proud of myself. Hehe.

Worked from another office at Science Park today and such was the coincidence that I met XZ while having tea break at the canteen. Ok, not really tea break but had some time to go downstairs and buy a cup of tea to bring back to office. Decided to have dinner together since we hardly get to meet. :D

Dinner at Bishan Din Tai Fung then walked around a bit, followed by dessert at Haagen Dazs. Came home, now talking to JZ on MSN having thrashing out session. Not looking good.

Sorry.. No mood to write further.

magz [9:55 PM]

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Tuesday, July 08, 2008

Relieved..
1st & foremost, a very important thing to do.. Thank u everybody for ur well wishes and all the good lucks and all the best that all of u have sent to me via sms, calls, msn msgs. I truly truly, from the bottom of my heart, appreciate it a lot!!!! Thanx to Shuang, Felix, Bee, Stanley, Lynn, Siu Min, Leo, Matt, Ed gor, Irene & the most important person, Heng Wee! Thank u for believing in me and giving me the very much needed encouragement!!

Why is Heng Wee the most important person? He's a dealer whom I haven't known for long but yet can click very well. Met up with him at TCC for coffee before I headed up to the dealing room. We chatted and he had so much confidence and faith in me that I was overwhelmed. Taught me the interview techniques, what to say and told me not to undersell myself. Was so nervous on my journey there but kept thinking about what he told me and I was able to calm myself down and present myself well. Which is why I must seriously thank him if I really get this job. Should not be a leader role but will get to learn more and if I do well enough, might be able to travel to other countries for cross training. Wish me luck!!

Interview was supposed to be at 6pm but I arrived at 5.30pm. Went up at 5.45pm and the Head of Operations interviewed me immediately. 1 hour session with her and I think she was very satisfied with me. Immediately asked me if my notice period was 1 month and how many days of leave do I have to offset. Then checked with me on my availability for another round of interview. Told her to try to put it during lunch time or slightly later than 6pm coz of work and she said that if I wasn't in a rush, then she will get the immediate supervisor to have an interview with me right away.

2 interviews within 2 hours!!! I'm so drained!!!! If I get thro this, that will mean my final round with HR which will decide my package. Praying hard and keeping my fingers crossed!! Honestly, I'm not sure if I really want this job that much coz I can't bear to leave the fantastic group of people and friends I have. All the dealers welcomed me sooooo much when I went to their office today that I felt like I have gone home to a very familiar place.. The great friends and colleagues that I have made in my 3 years here. Sighz...

1st thing I did after the interviews, throw away my heels!!!! Haha. Yeah.. They were hurting so much that I totally couldn't feel my legs. Bought a new pair of heels. :) Not supposed to waste this sort of money but the old pair was also peeling..So.. Not considered wasting money. Hehe.

Had dinner with Bee & Felix after the interview. In the past, I always had someone going with me for interviews and waiting for me to finish my interview to either celebrate with me or to share my sorrows. Today was the 1st time I went for an interview on my own. But I'm happy and glad to have 2 great friends who were there for me after the interview. :p

If my relationship is to fail, I shall be the same old independent me on my own once again. After today, I believe anything is possible as long as I put my heart and soul to it, and especially if I set my will on it. My confidence and faith is growing once again. Thanx to everyone whom I know will always be there for me. ^.^

magz [10:13 PM]

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Monday, July 07, 2008

Nervous - Interview...
Just reached home. Eating my prawn noodles now and I'm not going to type long coz I've got things to do. I just knocked off from work, came home and my tenants are already asleep!! Faint..

Devoting all my time to work, be it still in this company or if I get out of this company. It's a good way to not think about my problems and also a good way to spend time. I'm gonna carve a name for myself someday. I wanna be someone one day and to do that, I have to work hard now.

Interview tomorrow. I'm nervous. Haven't been to any interviews for 3 years now. Have always been afraid of interviews. Hope I perform alright. It's for associate position which is team leader position. I'm not sure I'm up to standard yet but will try my best at the interview. As long as I give it my best shot, I know I won't regret and that I have not failed myself no matter whether I get the job or not. Wish me luck folks!!!!

Ailmer can't cope today. Had to cover him, Gopi and do some new stuff which I haven't done before. Kinda busy and hectic which explained why I left office so late. I'm glad for the distraction but had to give bowling a miss. Sighz..

Wanna thank Jean babe for her sms and Zavien gor too! Especially to Jean babe!!! She's always super supportive and super sweet! Love this gal!!! Thanx babe, loads and loads of it!!!! *hugz*

K.. Shall go do my stuff and sleep early to prepare for tomorrow. Took half day leave to go for the interview. Manager questioned why I took leave. Refused to give her an answer. Why should I? I am entitled to my leave and I see no need to explain. Hahaha.

Keeping my fingers crossed tightly!! Pray hard for me tonite and tomorrow!!! :p

magz [10:22 PM]

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Sunday, July 06, 2008

Dempsey
Movie "Hancock" with Felix at 4.45pm at Great World City. Movie's so so. Will Smith has been acting as superhero quite a lot recently. The CD shop after that - Bought 4 cds and spent $75. So much for saving money. I even took cab yesterday. Err.. Save money.. Ya right.

Seb wanted to meet for coffee but he was a bit late. Agreed for movie already and he messaged me. Too bad. Haha.

Picked Bee & her hubby up at her place and went for dinner at Chomp Chomp. Too crowded so we went to the other food place instead. Food was ok. Had free music. Gave the guy $2. :)

Walked around the whole of Dempsey before we headed to Harry's for a drink. Chatted, laughed and was enjoyable. I like hanging out with Bee and Felix coz I can totally be myself. Act crazy, be mad, be myself. I know that no matter what happens, I have these 2 friends who will share my ups and downs. I know that everybody has their own lives, their own friends, their own partners. I'm glad that these 2 people are willing to share their lives, time and bring their partners out to spend time with me. Thanx Bee, Thanx Felix! :p

There will always be sunshine after the rain, rainbow in the sky. :) I will be fine!

Thinking of picking up running again. Gonna pick up Spanish as well. Hopefully this time round, I can put my mind to it and do what I say and think. ^.^

magz [11:10 PM]

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Massage
Slept at 12.30am and woke up at 2.30pm. 14 hours of sleep but woke up with a blasting headache coz my head slipped off the pillow from 12.30am to 12.30pm. Faint.. The headache was real bad..

Went to Aunt Mic's place and played mahjong. Lost $55 within 3 hours. Couldn't concentrate with the head pounding away. Ate prawn mee for dinner.. My aunt cooked! It's my fave!!! :) The normal me would have eaten 2 bowls for dinner without any problem but tonite, I only had 1 bowl. No appetite as the head was still pounding after taking panadol extra.

Went to Ky's room to rest and Ann, Jac & Aunt Mic helped me to massage. Felt sooooo comfy and good. Finally, my headache went away. Ya, my family's real good at massaging!!! Felt so wonderful and fantastic that my headache can disappear. :p Didn't wanna continue with mahjong so asked Alvin to stand in for me. The 5 gal cousins sat around, chatted and played Dai Dee.

Cut cake for Ky's bday and we decided on colouring instead. Hehe. Yeah, we're like small children. Always wanting to colour Ky's colouring book that we bought for her when she was still a kid. :D

Supposed to meet him for movie but he said he was tired. Again. I haven't seen him for a week now. I'm getting sick and tired of all this nonsense. I complained to his best friend. Not sure what's gonna happen. Told his friend that I dunno where I stand in his heart, what and who I am to him. I seriously no longer know and I'm seriously tired of all this. Tired, tired, tired....

Thankful for a very supportive family. The gals tried to cheer me up by cracking jokes, being crappy and corny and doing childish things with me. When tears threatened to roll down my cheeks today, I managed to control them and hold them back. I'm not gonna cry again. Why should I? I really dunno why I'm still crying. I no longer wanna cry.

Daddy used to say that if I were to put an ad stating that I'm single, guys will queue up from Toa Payoh to Chinatown. Daddy's always exaggerating. Today, MZ said while playing mahjong that if I put an ad, guys will queue from Toa Payoh to JB. Even more exaggerating!!! Faint.. Sorry to disappoint them.. I'm not pretty or eligible enough to have guys queuing up to be my bf. I'm just another one of those girls walking down the streets everyday. A common girl.. Not pretty, not cute, not sweet. I'm those rough girls who is not ladylike. I'm not fortunate enough to have guys queuing up for me.

Well, like those gals in Sex and the City, I'm just another gal waiting and looking for love. Hopefully I'll be able to find someone like Mr Big.. Someone whom I love and loves me back. I once told myself that I wanna get married by the age of 26 to 28. I think, time is starting to run out fast on me. In another 5 months, I'll be 26. Will I be able to find the man for me? Doesn't matter..

If I don't find a man, I still have my house. Enjoy my singlehood, staying in my house. Can even make it into a spinsters' house and have all my single gals come over and stay together. Hahaha. I'm crazy and mad.

magz [12:33 AM]

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Friday, July 04, 2008

New Rug + J Lo Designed Earrings! :)
Another quiet and lonely Fri nite.. I think I'm coming down with flu soon.. Oh no.. I can feel it.. My nose doesn't feel right and I left the Vicks & Halls sweets in office. Damn!! Sighz...


Ailmer and I have talked things over. I told him off so loudly that my boss came out of his room to ask if we were ok. Sighz.. Things are ok for now I guess. Just hope that history doesn't repeat itself. Anyway, mood in office was really relaxed and fun since morning. Everybody chatted and laughed.. Simply had fun. I like this kind of atmosphere. :)


The whole team (with the exception of Gopi) went out for lunch at T3. Had Popeyes. :p We talked, joked and laughed. It was nice. Really really enjoyable. Wish we can have such lunches and stuff more often.


After lunch, there was an announcement. Gopi will be transferring to Confirmations Unit. There are 3 other staff movement as well but doesn't really involve or concern me. They will be looking for new staff to replace Gopi. I hope the new person who comes in is more capable, better looking and definitely more efficient. But that will mean I might not be able to take leave for some time til both Ailmer & this new fella can handle the work. Oh no!!!! I need a break!!!


Hopefully, such an arrangement is for the better. I dunno what can be worse anyway.. Sighz.. But the atmosphere and everybody's mood was visibly lightened and even better after the announcement. Everybody was happily laughing and at ease with one another. :) I hope such a mood can last. But I'll still be looking for a new job. Doesn't matter what the arrangement is coz the bonus and everything in this place is changing. Can't stay on for long.


So, in other words, work today was good. Everybody had fun! And I received a present! 2 in fact!!! Hehe. :p I finally have my own sheepskin rug!!! So much better than the rug I used to have coz that rug was always dropping its fur/hair. Haha. This rug is sooooo soft and nice to touch. Much smaller than the one I had but it's sooo comfy!! Love it!!!


And the other pressie is a pair of earrings designed by Jennifer Lopez! The pair of earrings is really gorgeous!!! See the pics!!! It's the typical style that I like.. The long sleek kind. Plus, look at the back stud of the earring!! It has its own long portion as well! I can change it and use with other pairs of earrings! So cool right???? LOVE IT SOOOO MUCH!!!!!!! Super in love with both the presents! :))) Couldn't stop smiling in the office!


Oh ya, I have decided to buy the 2 Gucci bags. Yeah!! But.. That will mean that I have to spend less for the next 2 to 3 months and try to save back the money. I think it shouldn't be too hard I guess. I don't eat much anyway. Can save there. Cut down on taking cabs and take MRT or bus instead. Really gotta save up! Hehehe. Just for 2 bags.. I must be crazy but what to do? I'm mad already anyway. :D


Touching and caressing my rug now.. Sitting on it typing this blog. Loving it, the way it feels! I'll love coming home even more than ever! Happy with my new pressies!! :))))))

magz [9:03 PM]

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Thursday, July 03, 2008

Volcano Eruption
Pissed pissed pissed! But I've let all my anger and steam out after scolding and complaining to Irene, Carissa mummy, Mel, Agnes, Christine mama & Carissa mummy. Yes, I was really really angry this time round. With who? Who do u think? Ailmer..

I've said before that he always calls us names.. Such as 王八蛋 (bastard) and said I was 花痴 which also means that I'm man crazy. That was when I lost my temper and scolded him once, but he apologised and I accepted. Yesterday, he used the word 王八蛋 (bastard) on me again. I told him off nicely coz I didn't wanna make a big fuss. But I warned him against using it again. Yet, today he used it on me again and he said it quite loudly in front of the department coz we were joking and chatting when he used it on me.

This time round, I seriously didn't give him any face. I told him off in front of the whole department and I raised my voice so loudly that everybody in the office at our area could hear. I don't care if he means what he say (he always say he doesn't mean it and that it's a joke.. it's kinda like instilled in him to be normal) or whatever, it was rude, demeaning and unnecessary. I told him not to apologise again if he doesn't mean it. What's the point of saying sorry when u do it again and again? Take it back! I don't need the sorry.

The next time this happens, I'm so gonna walk right in to my boss's office and tell my boss. I'm not gonna scold him about this again. I'm just gonna tell my boss. Who is he that he can say such things to me whether he means it or not? He deserves a warning letter. Grow up manz! Stop being so childish! ARGH!!!!

Anyway, my department today is like a war zone. Everybody is at loggerheads with each other. 3 pairs of people who are angry with each other. 3 of the 6 have talked to the boss already. Not sure how many more to go but I can definitely say this now.. Tomorrow's gonna be a very very long day at work but it's not coz of work that's long.. It's gonna be another day of war I think.. Sighz...

I seriously need to find a new place to go.. This is getting from bad to worse.. Sighz...

magz [9:42 PM]

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Wednesday, July 02, 2008

1 of those days..
Was saving my email in another folder when I saw an old email in the folder. Actually, it's the 1 & only mail in that folder. Sent on 29 May 2004. Yes.. It's a 4 year old mail now..

Read thro part of it.. Kinda like a quick glance at the main points and I couldn't read further. I didn't want to. The mail was sent by Tom, my ex-bf now. It was a reply to a mail that I had sent him after we broke up for the 1st time in 2004. That break up broke my heart then.. It still did when it happened a 2nd time in 2007.

In 2004 when it happened, we got together again 1 month later. Ww broke up again in 2007 May.. And it's 2008 June now...This time round, we didn't get together. Will it happen again? I really dunno and I'm don't wanna think about it.

If u ask me, have I totally let it go? My answer is, I really dunno. 3.5 years of relationship, is it that easy to let go? At times, I still do think about him now and then but I know when to stop. It's time to move on.. I have... Or have I? Haha. I'm mad..

K.. Enough of my thinking back.. We need to look towards the future, not the past. What's happened has happened. The fact is I'm attached. It's just 1 of those days where I'm nostalgic and it all happened coz of 1 email.

It's just 1 of those days where I think of the past.. :) The future is in our hands. I will look forward to the future. :p

magz [9:43 PM]

*will dreams come true one day?*

Tuesday, July 01, 2008

Lost Weight...
Refused to wake up this morning. I'm drained in all aspects. No longer know myself. I realise I'm starting to forget how to smile and be happy after Spain won! My happiness doesn't last long these days anyway. I was unhappy yesterday, I am unhappy today. It's like, I no longer have sunshine in me.. I have lost the spark to happiness. Why? I think I know the reason deep down.. But I'm refusing to acknowledge it..

There's this saying that when a person is in love, he/she will look beautiful or charming. Judging by the way I look these days, I can be sure that I am not in love. I think I look like crap..

Anyway, the sentence that I hear most these couple of days is "Did u lose weight (again)?" Some said I lost weight.. Some said I lost weight again. All I can say is that, yes.. I feel it too. I think I did lose weight but when did I exactly lose it, I'm not sure.. Could be coz of the diarrhoea the other time or coz I have only been eating a meal a day - Lunch.

This morning when I wore my pants, I felt as if I haven't worn it. This pair of pants that were quite fitting when I 1st bought 2.5 to 3 years ago were actually kinda loose. I hardly wear this pair of pants so it's easy to tell. From fitting to it being loose now, I've definitely lose weight. The minute I put it on, I knew..

Seriously, don't ask me how I lose weight.. I don't seem to feel hungry these days. When I do feel hungry, eating a little is enough to fill me up. Maybe I'm suffering from 1 of those eating disorders or something. I dunno and I don't care. Nothing interests me anymore. I really must find some stuff to do to occupy myself with. I should either learn driving or go further studies. I feel like getting away.. Getting away from here but does it really work?

I don't feel like the me I know anymore anyway. For a long time now, I don't seem to be the same old me 1 year plus ago. Where did I go? I think I'm lost in outer space.. Can somebody pls find me and bring me back to earth? Haha. I'm full of crap. I seriously lack sleep. Haven't caught up on my sleep after waking up to watch football last Thurs nite. I'm still soooo short of zzz...

Zzz monster kept attacking me when I was in office.. Attacked the whole day but I'm glad I managed to overpower it. Now, I shall let it consume me.. Nitez Earth! I'm heading to outer space again!

magz [10:49 PM]

*will dreams come true one day?*