Thursday, August 30, 2007

The Kind of Love
Was talking to my mummy in office today and we discussed about love. We came to a conclusion. I am someone who likes another person easily esp when the guy shows me some care and attention. Reason being, I enjoy being in love and the feeling of being loved, being cared for, being protected by the person I like and who likes me.

I like guys who are romantic but have never met any guy who is romantic or has given me a truly romantic feeling. Mummy said that this is life.. I agree, totally. But who am I to talk about love? I suck at it..

Been having the urge to just disappear from everyone and everything for a couple of days. Been wanting to take a break for myself, by myself. The urge is getting stronger everyday and on the bus home just now, I could see myself doing that at the place I wanna go. Don't think anyone will know where that is and will be able to find me.

Think I really need to rest more. Finally been able to finish work early or on time ever since I stopped helping Shanghai side. It's a good thing coz I need more time for myself. Been having chest pains on and off the last 2 to 3 weeks. I know it's not good but no worries. I'm perfectly ok. Most likely to be caused by my lack of rest. Nothing can stop me from what I want to do. My life is mine to live and I'll live it the way I want it to be. :)

Time to bathe and sleep in 45 mins time. :p Yay! Finally can sleep before 12 in the past mth!!! At long last~ Can't wait for my break. Must choose a good timing. :D I miss the sun, the sand, the sea, the stars, the moon. A huge clue to my chosen destination for break? Haha. Many places have what I just described.

magz [10:26 PM]

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Monday, August 27, 2007

Official Retirement
I have officially retired from Control Dept. Dunno if I should be happy or sad. I guess in a way, I can finally concentrate on my options. But somehow, it's like letting go of my baby.. Something which I have put in a lot of effort to make it work and to do it well. But I'm glad to move on.. Just like I am moving on with my life.

Been working late these days coz of the major issue that they have been facing with. Managed to resolve it today.. At long last. I can go back on time again and start enjoying my nights instead of staying on in office. I don't mind the hard work in office, but if it goes unappreciated, it's saddening and disheartening. Anyway, it's over so.. Time to go on.

Have been skipping dinner the past few nights. Not much of an appetite but while I was bathing earlier, I smelt glutinous rice and it made me crave for it. Been sometime since I last ate that.. Craving!!!

Tired and sleepy.. Shall go sleep after my show. Nitez folks!

magz [11:06 PM]

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Tuesday, August 21, 2007

Starbucks
Sitting at Starbucks today waiting for my dad who was undergoing endoscopy scan, reading the options textbook that I brought along, listening to the music in the background brought back memories of me when I was 15-16 years old. So much so that I penned it all on a Starbucks serviette before I came home to key in this entry now.

At the age of 15-16, I used to study at Starbucks Liat Towers every week and even after work sometimes. I would leave my house early in the morning with all my books and notes, head to Starbucks, get my favourite sofa seat at the corner of the cafe, plug in my earphones and be lost in my own world til almost noon when working adults would come in for a cuppa to chat and relax during lunch. That was when I would take a break.

During that time, I got to know Belle and Vincent. Belle's a very pretty girl! Both of them were working there at that time and they were super friendly. Part of the reason why I always went there. I still remember how my compositions revolved around the background of Starbucks and Belle or Vincent. My teacher told us to have fixed settings and characters to use everytime so that we can improve during lesson time and during exams, we won't have to keep thinking of what to write about and we would know the plot well.

One of my essays then got me a pretty high mark and I even gave it to Starbucks coz the background was set there and so were the main characters. Think Vincent got a pay increment and was complimented coz of that. Haha.

Those were the days.. Now, times have changed. How often do I have time to sit in Starbucks enjoying the coffee, reading my book and relaxing with the soft music in the background? I was just thinking last nite of how much I need to take a break, for myself and by myself. Disappear for a while, be uncontactable to the world and just relax and not think about anything at all.

The best part, I already know where I wanna go and I have more than one place in mind. Hahaha. :p

magz [11:40 PM]

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Monday, August 13, 2007

Fireworks 2007
Jus came home not long ago from drinks. Was at home the whole day and my friend wanted to go for drinks so I went out. Jus did my laundry and I'm sooo tired.. Gonna sleep soon.

Went for movie with Bee, Lynn, Joey, Ting and Felix on Friday night. Watched "Secret" by Jay Chou and it was kinda nice. Liked the music and all along I've liked Jay Chou so I totally enjoyed it. Went for some catch up session with Bee, Lynn and Felix at Spize Supper Club near Bee's place. Been some time since we sat down together and chatted. Short of 1 person though.. But he's pretty much out of our group now that he's attached.

Slept til 3pm on Saturday. Shiokz! Woke up and went to Brewerkz. Friend came back from Shanghai and we were drinking and playing pool there. Had a good time but realised that I can't drink beer or wine these days. At least I can't drink much of those now coz they give me headaches. I can take hard liquor though such as Martell, Chivas, Jack Daniels, etc. We were there from 3-8.45pm. Haha. The group started with 2 of us and grew to 8 people. :p

Went for dinner after that at Jumbo Seafood restaurant nearby. Found out that there was fireworks display at 9pm & 11pm respectively. Caught both rounds of fireworks and it was really gorgeous! Felt very fortunate and lucky at that time. Had a feeling of bliss. Headache cleared soon after and we went for karaoke. :p The guys were drinking more than singing and all couldn't sing so ended up with me being the only one singing. Haha. Had to send my guy friend home after that coz he was half drunk and half jet lagged due to sleeping only 1 hour on the plane. Haha.

So today was a pretty quiet day til my friend asked my out for drinks at about 10pm. Went to my usual hangout (other than St James) at Purvis Street and had a couple of drinks and more karaoke and pool. :) Had a good chat with Dave, the owner. Everytime I'm there, we will chat a lot and it's good to catch up again. Had fun but now, time for bed and I know I'll be so stoned at work later. Just hope that I can concentrate at work later.

And Khim, welcome home!

magz [12:35 AM]

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Thursday, August 09, 2007

Hate OCBC banker
Very very disgusted with an OCBC banker today. Fucking drunkard. Totally spoilt my very fantastic day at Dragonfly today. 2 weeks ago when I was there, he was there as well and he's such an attention seeking bastard who can't hold his liquer well. Always drunk and getting into trouble but yet know 1 of the managers there and hence, never got into trouble before. Fucker!

He's such a loser. Was drunk and kept bumping into us. Was afraid that Rachel be bumped too and hence, gave him a nudge and pulled Rachel to the other side of me. Bugger got pissed coz he was already drunk and made a big fuss out of it, creating a scene and huge attention for himself. Total jackass! But when he saw Joey, he was scared coz asshole knows Joey. Fucking gay drunkard. Not that I discriminate against gays or lesbians, but I find him a total loser who will never make it big in life. Bloody shortie too! Felt like telling him, "I bumped into u coz I can't fucking see u".

Tried making peace with the asshole but it only boosted his ego and made me seek even more attention. Fucker even told Juff to fuck off. Totally pissed me off. I mean, come on, we're all out to enjoy and have fun and it's not the 1st time I'm seeing u. Get a fucking life and a fucking grip of urself. If u can't hold ur fucking liquer well, then don't fucking drink. And don't fucking gimme attitude just coz u're fucking drunk.

Bloody disgrace to his company and it not only made me despise him, it also made me despise the company he works for. Or rather, I don't despise the company he works for. More like I PITY the company for hiring such a moronic idiot. Someone needs to teach him some manners, how to be a gentleman and best of all, teach him a lesson so that he doesn't get away scotfree.

And it made me sad to know that just coz fucker knows 1 of the managers there, he gets away with the things he does. It really makes me wonder what kind of management Dragonfly has. It's not the 1st time he's causing trouble there and I'm 100% sure that it won't be the last. But I've got no say coz I dunno any of the managers working there. Life is so unfair! Dragonfly needs to understand the seriousness of such issues or people will just stop going there coz honestly, I'm kinda put off by the place now.

The only reason why I'm still going is coz I like the performances there, esp acts from Utaki and William Scorpion. But to be there and be bullied the way I was today, no matter how much I like Utaki and William Scorpion, I feel apprehensive about the place now. Was so happy initially today coz not only did we get a good table with full view of the stage, a professional photographer took my pics and told me that I'll be on The New Paper this Fri. Was so excited but now, everything has been dampened. Feel so much like slapping that asshole. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

magz [4:30 AM]

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Sunday, August 05, 2007

Oosh
Went for training on Wed to Fri but took half day medical leave on Thurs due to a bout of gastric flu. Vomitted on Wed nite and it was really bad coz I woke up at 1.40am to puke. Was so tired during the training on Thurs and I fell asleep during discussion time! Was really not good in every sense so I requested for early departure. Trainer was understanding and after seeing the doctor, I'm ok now. :)

Had dept dinner at Oosh on Fri nite. Was ok but the table was too long and we had difficulty communicating and talking to one another. In the end, we ended up talking in small groups. Haha. Not exactly right for a dept dinner.

Went to Dragonfly again. Didn't stay long after the dinner coz I couldn't drink whilst the rest were all drinking away. Zoey and her friends were also there so I met up with them. Saw Sharon from the audit company I used to work at and Zuwei as well. :p Didn't stay long though coz the medication was making me sleepy. Will stay long on this coming Wed so that I can fully enjoy Utaki's performance. Hehe. I think I am becoming a Dragonfly girl. :)

Watched 'The Simpsons' today. Was really funny and the show is meaningful coz it talks about global warming. Enjoyed it! Walked around at Suntec and bought 2 tops and a dress. Haha. All in a matter of 10 mins! Fast eh? Shopping.. Nothing beats that! I've really been spending a lot and buying so much stuff. Seriously need to cut down on spending and start saving. :p

Went for bday dinner and bowling session after that. Was fun! Haven't really bowled for some time and I'm glad that I've gotten to know more people. We are starting to chat more and I'm enjoying and more relaxed with them. There might be another session tomorrow. Will see if I'm going. :)

magz [3:57 AM]

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