Happy 57th Bday Mummy!
It's been a rather moody week. Things weren't as rosy as I thought but then again, I have only been there for 6 months. Can't expect too much, can I? But then again, I think it was the other news that made me more moody. I guess, it's destined that I can't have a good manager for long. Nothing lasts forever eh? I'll jus have to stick it out for now I guess.
Meanwhile, I've never been more hardworking than now I think. I've been studying during lunch time or whatever free time I have at work so that I can achieve my dream faster. Not gonna sit there and take it easy anymore. But wild random thoughts keep causing my thoughts to stray. So I've burnt my studying/learning CD and put it into my phone. Full speed ahead now!
Borrowed 2 good books from my trader. Started on 1 for now. Interesting reads about the market and how it collapsed previously. Things that will be beneficial. Yes, I'm going for it! Working hard, moving fast. Stopped playing games as much as before. Time to do something about my life, for myself.
Other people's moods have been affecting mine as well. I know, I'm too easily influenced but I can't help it. Sigh.. Not to mention, the sad songs that are on my playlist. Wanna stay happy and positive!! I think the stress is hitting me hard - rash outbreak is a killer right now. Itching all over! ARGH!
Had a belated bday celebration for me with XZ last nite at Black Angus Steakhouse. :) Good food, good friend. Nothing to complain about. Meeting up with old friends is always beneficial to the soul. ^.^
This Friday is my mummy's 57th bday if she's alive. The older I get, the more emotional I become. Becoming some emo freak. :( My bday wish for my mummy - I hope you are happy, I wish you well. U'll always be the prettiest person in my heart. Thanks for everything u've given me in my life! I miss u lots.. always!
Can't wait for my trips in Feb and now there's another trip planned in Mar. I need the breaks desperately. Even short weekend trips give me something to look forward to. Need a good balance of work and play! :)
magz [6:55 PM]
*will dreams come true one day?*
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Jakarta 14-16 Jan 2011
On the way home, I stopped for the old school ice cream from the motorbike seller. Bread with peppermint ice cream flavor. Was feeling a little down after talking to 1 of my traders. Think his depression spread to me or something. :( But the ice cream did help~! :) Another office party tomorrow but guess I'm gonna give it a miss this time since most of the guys on my team aren't gonna be there.
Anyway, I had a great weekend in Jakarta visiting Mahesh, Krupa and baby Dev!! Dev is soooo adorable with huge eyes, super long eyelashes and a smile that melted my heart! He doesn't cry much and he's not even afraid of strangers! Love carrying him around and he was the only reason why I dragged myself out of bed every morning in Jakarta! Right after I finish washing up, I'll run out to carry him and play with him! :p Still waiting for Mahesh to send me the group photos that we took together. ^.^
Had dinner with Rick who came from HK on Mon nite. Went for Korean food and we drank Korean Shoju, Korean beer and lychee martini. Yes, it's only Mon nite! Went a little crazy mixing the drinks but oh well, drinking is fun! :D
Last nite was a mini belated bday dinner for my trader Kelvin and I cum a farewell dinner for Kelvin who has been transferred to NY. I'm gonna miss him a lot coz he's the only other Singaporean other than me in this department. Once he goes to NY, I'll be the only one there and he's a great mentor too! :( Sooo gonna miss him!! We had dinner with KW and we kept teasing n disturbing KW to treat. He really did! Omg!
And not only did KW treat us, he brought us to Hachi which is not a cheap restaurant to begin with. Food there was good and the sake was nice too (I'm not a fan of sake). Think the meal cost at least $700 and honestly, I barely know this guy!!! Kelvin and I offered to pay him back but he refused! Now I feel really terrible for teasing him to give Kelvin and I a bday treat. :X
Tomorrow is the day whereby our bonus, increment and promotion is determined and given out. I'm keeping my fingers crossed tightly. It's the day of the truth on whether I made the right decision to move here - Not that I'm gonna regret my decision coz I was not happy at the previous department to begin with. But more like, I'll get to see if it is really as rosy here as everyone tells me. Will update on that again once I know more about things.
To end off this post, here's a picture of my very dried up bday roses. :)
magz [7:20 PM]
*will dreams come true one day?*
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Er Mei Pai
I think u guys who read my blog will realise that I've been blogging quite a lot recently. Oh well, that's what happens when I have my own laptop and I knock off early nowadays. :) If u're bored of my ramblings, pls take a break. Hahaha.
Had a very enjoyable gathering with my Er Mei Pai sisters (plus Winston) last nite at Sizzler. I really miss this group of people whom I worked closely with for 2 years when I 1st joined this company. 15-18 hour days were the norm for me then. Much as I suffered the wrath of my supervisor who hated me coz she always felt that I was a threat to her position, the rest of the girls were always there to back me up, support and encourage me. Those were the days when I never complained I was tired, where I went back to work willingly when I was still on hospitalisation leave.
I miss the good old days. I do.. Sigh.. Time flies and we are all in different departments now. Meeting up is such a difficult thing to do now as it's hard to coordinate with everyone and for everyone to be free. But I'm glad I managed to pull this gathering off yesterday! Woohoo!!
Obviously, the topic will definitely revolve around.. When Are You Getting Married? Sigh.. I'm not getting married anytime soon! Don't have to ask. Hahaha. I'm fine as I am and I'm happy as it is. I really don't care much about being married or not. When I was younger, I always thought I'll be married between 24-26, have about 2 years of being together, have kids between 28-30 and that's it. Ever since I hit 24, then 25.. And after 26, I never thought of marriage anymore. So now at the wonderful age of being always 21, I most definitely won't be thinking about it. :) Let nature take its course.
And the topic of being "rich" came up again. I really HATE this topic. They love saying that I'm rich despite me telling them I hate it when they say that. Their mentality is that coz I have a house under my name that's been fully paid off, it means I'm very rich. I have been repeating this a gazillion times and I'm gonna say it again. If having a freaking house to my name coz my dad passed away means I'm rich, everyone should be wishing their parents dead? I do not want this kind of "richness". Never wanted, never ever will want! I'd rather have my parents still alive than to have a freaking house under my name!!! Why do people not understand this simple logic?? Annoying!!!!
Esther's dad passed away. Hope she's doing alright. I'm supposed to go for the wake tonite but waiting for Eeyore to end work. And I gotta pack my bags for tomorrow's trip to Jakarta! :)
Went home twice with Kelv gor this week coz he's started work at the building next to mine! Yay!!!
Saw the below article on a friend's Facebook and I decided to copy and paste it here coz I like the meaning of the article. For me to re-read as and when I want to.
一辈子、一次、一眼、一生、一起、一切…
突然在空间发现的一篇美文。
一辈子，就做一次自己。
这一次，我想给你全世界。
这一次，遍体鳞伤也没关系。
这一次，用尽所有的勇敢。
这一次，可以什么都不在乎。
但只是这一次就够了。
因为生命再也承受不起这么重的爱情。
愿意为你丢弃自尊，放下矜持，
不管值不值，不管爱得多卑微。
第一眼爱上，然后用一辈子去忘记。
一生至少该有一次，为了某个人而忘了自己。
不求有结果，不求同行，不求曾经拥有，甚至不求你爱我。
只求在我最美的年华里，遇到你
在心里装下一个你。
只要呼唤你的名字，就不再感到害怕。
只要呼唤你的名字，就会觉得自己变得勇敢，变得坚强。
我可以不顾一切地一直一直对你好
因为我只想忠于我自己的感情。
在挤公车的时候想起你，买糕点的时候想起你，
唱情歌的时候想起你，一个人的时候想起你。
为你不停不停流下感动或悲伤的眼泪，还笑着对你说没事。
会听你听过的歌，读你读过的书，
走你走过的路，在意你在意的人。
即便你忘了那首歌那本书那条路那个人，
我也还是会一样深深记得。
会在吃最后一个苹果的时候想给你一半，
吃最后一块蛋糕的时候想分你一半。
我想要我们什么都在一起做，即使我们什么都没在一起做过。
想要和你一起环游世界，去普罗旺斯看薰衣草，
去夏威夷晒太阳，去美国百老汇看歌舞剧……
想把全世界都给你。
你划定的楚河汉界，我不敢轻易犯规。爱你爱到妥协。
你前进，看着你背影，就足够世界无条件的放晴。
静者恒静，就让我的心安静地守着你。
我愿给你幸福不灭的定理。
不会再对你说我爱你。我知道，没人可以比我更爱你。
我知道你难过的时候，我比你更难过一百倍。
好想让你知道你身后一直都有一个我不离不弃。
一直都在你身后等待，
我的笑送给你希望你快乐，你的难过都给我。
关于你的一切我都好好收藏着，等你有一天能感觉到我。
就算我在你世界渺小像一颗尘埃，我也会给你我所有的光和热。
我鼓起勇气呐喊，你要听得见。
我不许你再孤单要你拥抱我给的温暖。
你有没有听见？
深深的话我要浅浅地说，你见，或者不见我，
我就在那里，不悲不喜。
你念，或者不念我，情就在那里，不来不去。
你爱，或者不爱我，爱就在那里，不增不减。
或者，让我住进你的心里，默然相爱寂静欢喜。
当你什么也没有说的时候，我只希望你能了解：
就算你走得再远，累了，回头我就在你的身边。
我还会像以前那样，在一旁落寞。
只要你记得：我爱你，可以为你哭，为你笑，
可以为你癫狂，为你安静地坐在角落里落寞…
And a song that I've been really crazy about these days. Sorry it's Cantonese again.
Great 1st week of 2011!
Had a very busy week last week so I decided to have a more relaxed week this week. :)
Weekend was especially great. Let's start with Thurs drinks - We had a great nite of drinking, eating chicken wings & peanuts and of coz, bitching, gossiping and laughing! Jean came down and joined my bunch of ex-colleagues and I think everyone enjoyed her company as well. Seriously awesome nite that though I slept at 1am and had to wake up at 5.30am the next morning for work, it was without any complaints nor grouchy-ness in me. :p Looking forward to the next gathering!!!
Fri was supposedly a quiet nite for Eeyore and I but Jean wasn't feeling very happy so we had a gathering at the house of SSS (I need a shorter name for Sid & Stef's house). Helped Stef with the marination sauces, salad sauces and honestly learnt a lot about cooking and how a real kitchen/house looks like. Mine is.. definitely not up to standard. Will work hard to get there some day. Stayed til 2am and was sooo tired, but yet again, with no complaints!
Woke up at 8.30am to visit my gram - 1st visit of 2011~! Spoke to her briefly before she decided to sleep again. Haha. Brekkie with my family then headed home for a nap from 12.3o-2.30pm. Then it was off to BBQ at SSS's place at 5+pm~! Absolutely fantastic & marvellous BBQ!! Great food, the best company of friends ever! What more can I ask for? Lots of fun and laughter!!
Really really love my Thurs group & Saturday group of friends!!
Went to JB with my family yesterday - Ann, Uncle Charles, MZ & Eeyore. Ate and shopped, ate and shopped, ate and shopped!! From 10am til 7pm. That was all that we did there! It's like a repeat of my HK trip with them 2 years ago and I actually did enjoy myself! :)
Need a massage terribly today but the sky decided to be uncooperative and kept raining the whole day. Decided to head home instead. My shoulders are aching really badly and my colleague Stephen said my shoulder muscle is a little swollen and he couldn't find the knot that's causing it. :( Sigh.. Doubt Eeyore will be able to end early enough for us to go for the massage at 9pm.. Guess I'll have to wait til tomorrow maybe?
magz [8:04 PM]
*will dreams come true one day?*
Tuesday, January 04, 2011
林峰 - 愛在記憶中找你 (HD Live KTV)
This song is stuck in my head - Listening to it brings back certain memories..
magz [9:59 PM]
*will dreams come true one day?*
Baby Kayden
Think I forgot to mention in my previous post - Thanks to my back office in Australia who did a wonderful bday email for me! :) And to Agnes for the wonderful lunch treat! :p
Jus came home from Lynnie's place. Oh my god! Baby Kayden is sooo adorable!! Was looking at him while he slept and he has soooo many facial expressions even when sleeping! His smile simply melts my heart!!
But as always, playing with other people's babies are fun. When it comes to giving birth to 1 of my own, it will have to wait. Hahaha. Anyway, I've told Lynnie that I'll pop by her place every week once or every alternate week once. Need to bond with the new baby. :D
By the way, I am so in love with my new "baby" that I love turning it on the minute I reach home. Beautiful~!
magz [9:45 PM]
*will dreams come true one day?*
Monday, January 03, 2011
Harlow 2011!!
Today's the 1st working day of 2011 and it's also my 1st post for 2011! :)
My bday came and went in a flash. I'm truly blessed with a bunch of really wonderful people whom I wanna thank! Not going to post much photos here since they are mostly on Facebook.
1) My group of uni girl friends aka bellas who have been amazing all these years! Of coz, I'll have to include the hubby and the fiancee as well~! Thanks for being great friends throughout the years, for standing by me, for all the fun and laughter, and for sharing my sadness with me. Thanks Jean & Dilun, Stef & Sid, Anne & Von!! For the surprise bday cake, for the singing at the restaurant that I'll never ever forget! ^.^
2) Shirleen - My insurance agent who ordered a bear with 3 roses to be delivered to my office. Unexpected and totally incredible when I tell others that it's from an insurance agent.
3) Bee for buying me a present every year, without fail. Her friendship has amazed me tremendously over the years, always being there for me. Knowing her ever since I joined this company is probably the best thing that has ever happened to me!
4) Lisa & Sylvia - The surprise elephant with flowers and chocs that came were a huge surprise that put an even more huge smile on my face! I merely teased them and the actual present came through courier. Thanks babes, for everything and spending so much money on me!
5) Liwen who bought me my favourite glutinous rice from Chinatown and delivering it to my office for me, with a box of Laurent Bernard chocolates. :)
6) Irene, Cher & El for the really expensive dinner at Oso which is highly recommended by Chris for the longest time now. Service was good and food was not too bad either.
7) Ed gor for re-continuing the bday tradition - bday breakfast for me!! It was stopped for a while coz of certain people but it's back to the tradition again! Yay!!
8) Everyone who remembered my bday - pressies are not the most important factor. It's the
thought that counts and everyone who remembered and wished me a Happy Bday thro all various method have made me feel really touched and very happy! :) Even Mr Z sang me a bday song. Haha. Unbelievable!
Of coz, what's my bday without Eeyore? He brought me to Garibaldi for dinner. Food is definitely not as nice as Jaan but I'm not complaining. It's the company that counts and I felt like a princess that nite. Thanks for the lovely pressies, which I'm currently using now to type this post! :p Not forgetting the beautiful flowers that came to office, unknown. The surprises for 2010 bday are fantastic!
Due to the loss of my camera, I don't have the photo of us together on my bday. :(
Cooked sweet & sour pork for dinner on 01 Jan 2011 as I wanted to do something different instead of always eating. Not very successful as it's the 1st time I'm cooking for so many people but my supportive family said it wasn't too bad. Haha, Jus trying to make me feel good. :D I'll try harder next time.
Once again, I must say that overall, 2010 was a pretty fantastic year for me and it really did fly by too fast. Hoping that 2011 will be even better than 2010!!!
Looking forward to playing with Lynnie's baby tomorrow, dinner on Wed, drinks with Lisa, Sylvia, Shi Han & Jerome on Thurs, BBQ on Sat, JB on Sun.
Then, further looking forward the following week which includes dinner with XZ on 1 of the nites, dinner with the Er Mei Pai ladies on Thurs nite, flying off to Jakarta on Fri nite to Sun to visit dearest Mahesh, Krupa and baby Dev.
More activities all planned up to February!! Can't wait!! The only sad thing is that Eeyore won't be around for 1.5 weeks of CNY period. :_( Much as I'm gonna miss him, I'm gonna arrange dinner dates! Hahaha. Meet up with everyone! :p Then it's off to HK for me! WOOHOOO!!!
2011 looks good so far!!! Hope it's the same for everyone! Have a good year ahead!!!
magz [7:17 PM]
*will dreams come true one day?*
Name: Magz D.O.B: 31st Dec Loves: Chocolates, Perfumes and all things sweet!!
