Finally did it..
I've finally done it.. I've deleted my "friends" from Facebook. Initially my intention was only to unfollow them but after clicking the unfollow button, I thought to myself.. Doubt anyone's gonna miss me anyway, hence the unfriend button was hit. I do feel lighter now though since it's been quite a few times that I see them going out without asking me along. So not seeing anything or treating such people as friends is no longer a loss to me.
Had dinner with Yuhui just now. Sooo happy that she's preggers!! I will and must take good care of her in office now. Hehehe. We had some private talk about office and personal stuff. Basically we feel that office mood is now super demoralizing and definitely not as fun and good as before. We won't be surprised if more people resign or get retrenched. Sigh...
We spoke about my relationship life as well. Obviously it's empty right now though I did dream of Eeyore again last night. But.. I doubt it's gonna work out. I dunno either. It's just a hollow empty space right now.. But like she said, I'm no longer young and I can't wait and live in this hollowness forever.. Sigh.. Confused me..
Met Stevo's mum and bro from Taiwan on Sat. They are soooo friendly and fun! Spent a good 6 hours with them and enjoyed myself! Stevo's mum reminds me a little of Eeyore's mum, but a friendlier and more cheerful version. Haha. Can't wait to see them again!!
True Friends?
1st, define the meaning of friends. Then, define the meaning of True Friends?
To be honest, this 1 year plus has made me realized that a lot of so called friends are actually.. better known as acquaintances. If that's the case, then the so called true friends should be better known as friends with/or benefits?
But I have known since long ago, not to expect too much from people. If my own cousins, niece and nephew can not care and treat me as transparent, let alone people I consider my friends. As such is human nature ain't it? When you are not rich, famous or of any use, then why should anyone really care or bother about your existence or whether you are alive or dead?
So pls stop telling me I'm your friend, or good friend or girlie forever. Such terms carry NO meaning to me anymore. All you care about is yourself and when you whatsapp or msg or call me, it's always with a hidden meaning behind it. Which is why I'll rather not reply at all. Or if I really can, I wouldn't mind blocking or deleting a lot of people from my phone and from my Facebook.
Time to start considering taking such drastic measures?
A song that truly denotes how I feel about love and life right now..
Both Sides Now
by Joni Mitchell
Rows and flows of angel hair
And ice cream castles in the air
And feather canyons everywhere
I've looked at clouds that way
But now they only block the sun
They rain and snow on everyone
So many things I would have done
But clouds got in my way
I've looked at clouds from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
It's cloud illusions I recall
I really don't know clouds at all
Moons and Junes and Ferris wheels
The dizzy dancing way you feel
As ev'ry fairy tale comes real
I've looked at love that way
But now it's just another show
You leave 'em laughing when you go
And if you care, don't let them know
Don't give yourself away
I've looked at love from both sides now
From give and take, and still somehow
It's love's illusions I recall
I really don't know love at all
Tears and fears and feeling proud
To say "I love you" right out loud
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds
I've looked at life that way
But now old friends are acting strange
They shake their heads, they say I've changed
Well something's lost, but something's gained
In living every day
I've looked at life from both sides now
From win and lose and still somehow
It's life's illusions I recall
I really don't know life at all
I've looked at life from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
It's life's illusions I recall
I really don't know life at all
