Thursday, May 18, 2006

Barcelona
My brain is mentally exhausted right now but I'm not complaining. How can I complain when I was the one who wanted to wake up at 2.45am to watch the finals of Champions League with Barcelona vs Arsenal? Haha. I don't regret it at all coz Barcelona came back from 1-0 down to win the game!!

Overall, I gotta say that the match was really intense thro'out. With Lehman being sent off after 18 mins, the match took a crucial turning point. After Sol Campbell scored for Arsenal at the 37th min, I couldn't help feeling worried and anxious that my heart was pumping so fast! I was hoping and praying that Barca could do what Liverpool did last year at the finals - to score 3 goals in 6 mins. I wasn't greedy.. I only wanted Barca to score at least 2 goals to win the game. And they really did!!! 2 goals in 5 mins!!! They are that great and really made me a happy gal the whole of today! Haha. Tired but happy.

Was rather disappointed with Henry and Ronaldinho's performance though. Wasn't really that up to standard. I know that they can do much better than what they did yesterday. However, Ronaldinho did put in effort and Henry really played with such finesse that I was truly blown away. He's really a graceful and poised footballer, something which I must admit.

Before this match happened, I've been saying that I wanna save up for a trip to Barcelona. Now, whenever I go on leave, people will ask if I'm heading to Barcelona. Haha. That will happen, but not so soon as I haven't saved up enough for the trip yet. Will work hard towards my goal of exploring the beautiful land of Barcelona and Madrid! :) Anybody wanna join me???

magz [8:25 PM]

*will dreams come true one day?*

Sunday, May 14, 2006

Joni Mitchell "Both Sides Now"
Another 2 more weekends and I'll be heading to Genting with Tom and his friends. I can't wait coz after all, it's the 1st time we're leaving on a trip together though it's with his friends as well. At least, I get to spend some time out of Singapore with him after 2 years plus together. :) Feeling excited already!

Lyrics to a song that I really like by Joni Mitchell. It's in the soundtrack from "Love Actually". I listen to this song so much that my soundtrack is actually spoiling. Sighz.. Gotta replace a copy of the CD and buy more Joni Mitchell's CDs. Need to go to HMV coz I can't seem to find her CDs in the other music stores.

Rows and floes of angel hair
And ice cream castles in the air
And feather canyons ev’rywhere
I’ve looked at clouds that way

But now they only block the sun
They rain and snow on ev’ryone
So many things I would have done
But clouds got in my way

I’ve looked at clouds from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
It’s cloud illusions I recall
I really don’t know clouds at all

Moons and junes and ferris wheels
The dizzy dancing way you feel
As ev’ry fairy tale comes real
I’ve looked at love that way

But now it’s just another show
You leave ’em laughing when you go
And if you care, don’t let them know
Don’t give yourself away

I’ve looked at love from both sides now
From give and take, and still somehow
It’s love’s illusions I recall
I really don’t know love at all

Tears and fears and feeling proud
To say I love you right out loud
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds
I’ve looked at life that way

But now old friends are acting strange
They shake their heads and they tell me that I’ve changed
Well something’s lost, but something’s gained
In living ev’ry day

I’ve looked at life from both sides now
From win and lose and still somehow
It’s life’s illusions I recall
I really don’t know life at all

I’ve looked at life from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
It’s life’s illusions I recall
I really don’t know life at all

magz [11:15 PM]

*will dreams come true one day?*

Friday, May 12, 2006

Not in the mood..
What causes a person to lose his/her mood suddenly? I really wish to know what happened to myself. i lost all mood today.. Out of the blue. Sighz.. The rest wanted to go to Devils Bar as it's HS's farewell today, but I.. I just didn't want to be there. Didn't want to club, didn't want to do anything. Left after 20 minutes and wasted $12.

Talked to D today.. She said that I sounded different, different from the usual cheerful me that she used to know. Have I really changed or am I just stressed out by work?? I really don't know. I don't seem to know anything about myself any longer. It's like, I don't even know myself anymore. Sighz.. What the hell is wrong with me? Or is it that I lack sleep?

Could it be due to the 'creature' that's staying in my room, disrupting my sleep? Yes, there's some weird thing in my room since Monday night. It chirps when I switch on my lights. I'm not sure if it's a bird, a cricket or a lizard. It's hiding behind my cupboard and I can't push it out on my own. Will have to get Tom to help me later in the day.

I'm so not in the mood for anything now!!!! ARGH!!!!! Hate this feeling.. Sighz.. :(

magz [1:56 AM]

*will dreams come true one day?*

Sunday, May 07, 2006

My Favourite Question
"If you were to die today, would you have any regrets?" I asked.

"I think I do.. Lots of things that I've done in the past are not things that I'm totally proud of or happy about. Given a chance, I'll like to change what I used to do and how I behaved. What about yourself?"

"Me.. I don't have any regrets. I've always believed in following your heart and to live life to the fullest. Learnt that when my mum died when I was 8. From then on, all that I want is to lead a simple and happy life, doing what I want and what I like everyday so that when it's time for me to go, I can go happily and look back on my life with no regrets."

"How do you manage to do that?"

"I guess it's simple for me. I don't reflect on my life everyday but every now and then, I will. And every decision I make, I ensure that it's what I really want for myself. Just like in the past, when I had very strict curfews til I was almost 21, I know it was for my own good. And most importantly, no matter how much you are angry with a person, don't live with hatred in your life. For me, I restrict my own unhappiness for a day and that's the maximum. I won't allow myself to dwell on the saddening aspects of my life. This applies for breakups in a relationship as well. It's not that I don't feel the hurt, but I'd rather live my life happily and I know there will always be people who truly care about me, wanting the best for me."

"Wow! Sounds like you're really optimistic. Think that's 1 aspect I've got to learn from you."

For a lot of people, they do not enjoy working on public holidays, going back to work on weekends or working late when their normal working days are 5 days from 9-6pm. Look on the bright side. The other day, I was supposed to go back to work on a public holiday just to send out a report that I'm doing daily. I just think of it as part of my job and hence, I went back to work with no complaints. And I've been working late the whole week, I just feel that it's coz I'm learning more things and I handle more stuff than the rest. Yes, of coz I'm tired and I'm having flu again.. But it's all for a good cause. The more you learn, the higher the chance of a promotion. And that's all that's on my mind right now. But if the promotion doesn't come, I'll just look for another job.. Which won't be a problem coz I've been learning all this while and I believe that the experience will come in handy.

So folks, don't despair! We'll always see the light at the end of the tunnel. Be strong, be optimistic and remember to live your life to the fullest!!!!

magz [7:12 PM]

*will dreams come true one day?*