Saturday, August 19, 2006

Bowling Event
Had our company's bowling event today for the 4 depts. I had loads of fun!! First, we had dinner at East Coast Hawaiian BBQ. The food was quite good and we had some red wine and beer. I had 2 glasses and was far from being high but yet, people started saying that I was high which was total crap. I mean, I know my limit and 2 glasses ain't even getting anywhere. Was really pissed off when I heard that but nobody wanted to admit saying that. All I can say is that it's bullshit.

I never knew that the VP of another dept was actually really entertaining. He told us jokes about his experience, his own country and stuff like that. He really made the atmosphere at my table a lot more relaxed and fun with his stories. He's really someone with no arrogance and can click with peers and subordinates. This is the kind of people and bosses whom I truly respect. Someone who knows his work and is able to communicate well with no airs. And this doesn't apply to everybody.

Anyway, I had fun at bowling. I won 2nd best female bowler of the night with a high score of only 101. Haha. Yeah.. The lanes were sucky but it was the crowd that made the whole night fun. It was really a time where I let my hair down and just relax and have fun in front of my biggest boss and my boss herself. It's something I've never done before. I mean, like D used to tell me, I was always somewhat nervous when I talk to my boss or anyone who is more superior in ranking than I am. But somehow, today, I decided that I should treat them as humans after all, that I can treat them as I would treat normal friends. And I did. I'm glad I did that though coz I was able to enjoy myself. And that is of the utmost importance.

So, being 2nd best female bowler, I've won for myself vouchers worth $150. Haha. It's the start of my collection again coz last year from this time to Chinese New Year, I had won/collected a total of $800 worth of vouchers and I used them all to buy my handphone. Haha. Wonder how much I can collect this year. :)

And to top it off, I realised for the umpteenth time that Singapore is too small. It so happens that the boyfriend of the temp staff in my dept is actually from my College. Such a coincidence! Haha. Nobody believed me that I knew the guy when I saw him but when he recognised me, everybody was surprised. Hey, my memory ain't that bad ok? :p I can remember faces well but not names so it ain't surprising when I say I know the person. Hehe. Must trust me!

Oh ya, quick update on work before I end off this post. Been busy and hectic at work. Haven't had the time to even take breaks. Been having the feeling that I'm gonna come down with fever soon. Felt really terrible on Thurs and the early parts of Fri til I tool Panadol. My bones were hurting so much and my whole body was aching like crazy. Thank God for medicine else I won't even be able to bowl at all. Hehe.

My boss has told us of our new portfolios and who will be doing what. I'm supposed to learn everything from my supervisor before she gets transferred in Sept and honestly, I really dunno how to find the time to learn from her coz there are too many things for me to handle for the next 3 weeks. Sighz.. Guess I'll have to multi-task and do everything I can to learn as much as possible. I'll try my best coz I really wanna have a chance to take on that role next year. If I do, Marina will lose her bet with me and she will have to treat me to dinner! Haha. Before that, it's gonna be more hectic and busy for me. It'll mean that it will be harder for me to find time to blog but I'll definitely do it every now and then.

For now, it's bedtime! Nitez folks!

magz [2:59 AM]

*will dreams come true one day?*

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

Mr Fighting
Been busy at work for the past 2 weeks. This week is also included. Very very tired..

My boss has started interviewing people for my position. Finally I can be rid of doing the very admin stuff. YEAH!! Haha. Ya, feeling happy and excited but also wondering when I can start learning more so that I can replace my supervisor to be team leader. I know I'm not up to standard yet but I'll work hard. I really will. Been telling myself that everyday. 1 day my dreams will come true..

Mum's death anniversary came and went. I won't deny the fact that I miss her loads. Teared a bit the night of her anniversary. 16 long years without her.. Sighz.. Wonder if she can see me now. Wonder if she knows how her daughter is and how hard her daughter is trying to prove herself to the family so as not to disappoint her. Wonder if she knows that her daughter has not let her down, that her daughter has graduated from university according to her wish and is working somewhere that she can be proud of. I miss her so much.. So so much.. God, wish the tears can stop rolling down right now..

Ok.. Change of topic else I'll be crying the whole night. Borrowed a Taiwanese drama serial called Mr Fighting from Ah Bee's boyfriend's sister. Finished the whole show in 2 days. Spent my Sunday watching from the minute I woke up to the minute that I slept.. That was almost 12 hours non-stop of watching. Haha. Ya.. Think I'm nuts. There's this quote in the show that I like a lot.. Shall end of with the quote..

"No man is ever worthy of your tears.. Because the man who is worthy of your love will never make you cry" .

magz [8:22 PM]

*will dreams come true one day?*

Thursday, August 03, 2006

Stubborn Me
Today's not a very good day at work. Colleagues are unhelpful and they simply ignore me when I ask them questions or they just treat me as transparent. I know.. I've always been taken for granted at work. They come to me when they need my help but after that, who am I to them? Sighz.. Another sad part of my life. But I know I'll be strong and I'll do what I can at work. If that's the way they want to be, I don't think I can change them so I'll just have to do things on my own. :) I know I'll succeed in time to come.

Today's Jason's birthday. Wished him a happy bday via sms at midnight. He said that I'm the only person who has wished him a happy bday all these years. That's 9 whole years! Haha. I wonder how I do that at times. It bewilders me too. I can never seem to forget his bday nor his house number. That's why I still call him to wish him Happy Bday. I mean, if I remember the date, then why not just do it? :p

Called the other company to cancel my interview appt for today. Felt bad doing that coz the lady who answered the call was so enthusiastic but ended up sounding disappointed. Sighz.. But if my boss can promise me a promotion plus the oppotunity to be team leader, then of coz I should stay. Will just have to see how things go for now. Don't wish to have high hopes to be demolished in future. Let nature take its course.

Honestly, I know there will be people who feel that I'm too new and too young to be leading the team. I don't know. People are never satisfied, aren't they? Like my teacher once said, you can never please the world. You just need to prove to others that you are capable. A person should always be an all-rounder and all along, I firmly believe in that. When the time comes, I'll show the world what I'm capable of. I'm stubborn in that sense. I will not give up!!

magz [6:02 PM]

*will dreams come true one day?*

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

Turn of Events
Been wanting to blog but haven't had the time. Shall make this a quick update.

By a turn of events, my boss is no longer transferring to the other dept. Yes, I'm happy about it. But JA wants to leave coz he's been offered a job at another company. I think there's more to come since we all applied at the same time. I'll be going for the interview on Thurs and somehow, I feel torn in between.

Made up my mind over the weekend that I'll not leave my current company for a better future. If I get my transfer, I'll be learning something useful if I intend to stay in this industry. By going to the other company, I won't be learning much coz it's more or less the same as what I'm currently doing. I know, I'm fickle.. But to advance further in future, the wiser choice will be to stay on and fight it out. Pay wise, what I'm getting now is definitely below market and cannot be compared to outside but who knows what might happen 2 years down the road. I can only keep my fingers crossed and they must be crossed real tight!

Met up with Meng on Friday nite and we had a nice chat at CAN cafe at Liang Seah St. The place is nice, just that they really restrict us to the 2 people's sofa when we wanted to sit on the longer couches. I guess they just wanna reserve it so that when the bigger crowds come in, they have space for them. Understandable. Anyway, what I didn't like was that people were smoking in the place and I came out from the cafe smelling like I had just stepped out from a pub. Haha. Had beer with Meng and a great time catching up. :) Guess I'll really miss the guy when he's gone. Sighz..

FInally I sort of know what I want after being in a dilemma for more than a week. Must thank all the people who have listened to me complain. Big THANKS go out to Dy (esp him for emailing me daily and giving me advice), Tom, Mum, Meng, Luke, Ali and Edmund gor for making me see the light at the end of the tunnel! U guys are wonderful! It's friends like you that keep me going strong! *HUGZ*

magz [8:29 PM]

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