Sunday, October 30, 2011
Kudos to Great Friends! :)
It sucks to be sick right now - I'm not sure if I'm considered sick but I vomited once on a weekday this week n twice a few hours ago. But I'm once again grateful and thankful for fantastic caring friends buying me dinner before they go for their own dinner. 5 people walked to the market opposite my house just to buy me dinner.
Boy, I'm really really touched! Thanks to the 5 of you for buying me dinner before going for your own!! Most heartfelt appreciation from me. Thanks Sid, Stef, Jean, JW and gf! :) Sorry I had to pull out of dinner last minute.
1 more week to my long awaited trip! Can't wait and I hope to get well soon enough to go for it! 1st trip to Europe! Woohoo!!!
magz [8:04 PM]
*will dreams come true one day?*
Saturday, October 22, 2011
Stacy's House Visit and New Seat Move!
Was at Stacy's place last nite after work. I love her house!!! It's the kind of place that I've been wanting for myself. But, I don' t have the money to afford it. :(
Bee Ling was not feeling well so had to pull out from our gathering. Stacy cooked dinner for us and made Korean ginseng soup. Bingjie made macaroons and brought them over. As for me, I brought wine and chips. Hehehe. I have chef friends so I shall sponsor the drinks and snacks.
Our girlie talk ended at 1.30am. Sooo tired that I was dozing off as they were talking. Haha. :X Embarrassing. But we had fun and it was nice to visit Stacy's house especially to see Tatie, Stacy's fat male cat who went from being aloof to being on my lap half the nite. I'm not a big fan of cats actually. I'm a dog person but this cat behaves sooo much like a dog, I didn't feel that it was a cat at all!! LOL! Poor Tatie lost his sweet little partner 2 weeks ago from liver failure.. :( Let's hope we can find Mr Handsome a partner soon!
And I've finally changed seats in office! Was annoyed on Thursday by the tech guy but finally got it done. I LOVE my new seat!! LOVE!! It's at the corner so I have no one on my left and on my right is an empty table meant only for visitors or my backup when I'm on leave. Woooohooo!!! Not to mention the little ledge I have on my left where I can put my stuff so my table looks more spacious now!
The best part of the seat is... THE VIEW!!! I get to look and stare at the sky and sea while typing or doing my work. Otherwise, I can stare at the TV while doing my work. Lovely and absolutely fantastic!! I used 20 pieces of wet tissue cleaning up the entire table that was so dusty and dirty but I'm ultra satisfied now. I'll be more than happy to go to work now.
Here's a picture of my new desk being blessed by the lion at our opening ceremony before I even took over the desk. May everything go well and smooth for me from now on!
magz [3:11 PM]
*will dreams come true one day?*
Friday, October 21, 2011
To dearest Venus
1st thing that I saw on Facebook this morning was the demise of a beloved dog, Venus. Venus is a labrador owned by Tom and his family. I still remember those days where I would go to Tom's house when he was at work and it was just Venus and me in the house, by ourselves. Planet and Cosmo were not allowed in the house unless Uncle was home.
Venus would be by my side wherever I walked. When I was sick or unhappy, she could sense it and would nudge me every now and then. I've had beautiful moments spent alone with this gorgeous dog that will be etched in my memory forever.
So goodbye for now my dearest Venus. Rest in peace. I'll miss you forever and may we meet again someday, somehow.
magz [9:58 AM]
*will dreams come true one day?*
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
Perforation in Right Ear
I have a perforation in my right ear, which is causing the pain. My doctor and I are not sure if it was caused by the wakeboarding (where I heard a little pop when I fell in the water) or was it from the previous ear infection. The little hole is at the top part of my outer ear. So the middle part of my ear is a little exposed now.
I've been given antibiotics but no ear drop. Gotta keep the ear clean and dry and let it heal on its own. Doc says that as long as I don't experience any loss of hearing, it's still alright. Otherwise, I might need to go for a small op. Worst case scenario will be deafness.
Am I worried? Am I scared? Hmm.. A little I guess. But of coz I'm hoping for the best. Not gonna worry too much unduly and take everything as it comes. Will I go wakeboarding again? Hell yeah! Haha. It's not gonna deter me though I'll be more careful in future. :)
Life's still good as far as I know, in my humble opinion. ^.^
magz [10:14 AM]
*will dreams come true one day?*
Sunday, October 09, 2011
WWW - Wakeboarding & Wayne's Wedding
It's been quite an eventful weekend thus far - despite headaches in between from yesterday til today which had to be cured by Panadols on both days. My life seems to revolve medication now which doesn't seem too good but whatever.. I'm still enjoying my life as it is.
Friday was spent well - had my 1 drink as promised with Ben. Then met up with Bee for some shopping and catching up at Orchard. I still owe her a birthday pressie. After shopping, it was time for massage and it was soooo good, I fell asleep! Slept at 1am..
So when Saturday morning came, obviously I was in a foul mood for having to wake up at 6.30am. Blew a little tantrum but was quickly ok thereafter coz .. it was time for my 1st go at wakeboarding!!! Woohoo!!! It was enjoyable to watch everyone do it and be sooo good at it. I'm a beginner and quite a lousy one. Haha. I managed to stand up a few times but can't hold it there for long.
Thank goodness for great friends who went with me - Charmaine, Ben, Sid, Stef and Eeyore - but most importantly, it should be kudos to Jeremy who was very patient in teaching me, giving me advice and persuading me to do the last run. Coz the last round was the one where I was able to hold on and wakeboard for the longest time! :))))))
Soooo happy and excited to have my 1st ever wakeboard experience! Not sure if there's any photos (Sid, any pics?) coz I kept insisting not to take pics of me (coz I can't stand on the board). But still, yay!! I'm happy though I now suffer from muscle aches from my neck down to my feet. Every part of me is in pain - including my chest and head (from falling face 1st into the water many times)! So that's where the Panadol comes in.. To cure my headaches which I'm suffering from due to the wakeboarding falls. :p
Went for Wayne's wedding last nite. For my close friends esp Jean, they will know that Wayne is my ex-bf. We started dating for the 1st time when I was 15 - he was 1 of my 1st ex-bfs. We broke up and got together again when I was 18. We broke up again and got together again when I was 20. We broke up again. It's weird that after 3 times, we have never been together for more than a year (at 1 stretch).
We dated again in 2008, a few months after Howdy and I broke up. We never got together for the 4th time. I kept thinking to myself that if we didn't work out for 3 times prior to that, what makes us think we can do it for a 4th time? And while dating, I realised where the problem was so I decided not to even start the 4th time. And now, he is happily married. :)
Might seem weird to attend his wedding then? I dunno. I didn't feel too much emotions. Maybe coz I had a massive headache at the wedding and had to buy my most expensive Panadol from the hotel ever or maybe, to me, I knew it wasn't possible right from the start so there was nothing to be upset about, or maybe I've really gotten over him.
Anyway, when I 1st knew Wayne, it was with a group of friends - Wayne, Luke, Vic and Al. All 4 of us were close friends and I'm still close with all 4 of them, so are Vic and Al. But Wayne and Luke have fallen out so I never get to see all 4 of them together again. Last nite, Vic and I were the only ones there and I'm glad for his company the whole nite. My gentlemanly friend was ever so caring and sweet to me. I know I'll always treasure our friendship coz it's been 14 years and counting.
And so, I'm posting up the pic of my dear friend Vic, who was there with me in every way and we were the only ones who knew each other last nite. :)
What saddened me was when we went to shake the hands of the newly weds and their parents last nite, Wayne's parents remembered me.. So did his siblings. His younger sis has always adored me and she told her mum that I was at the wedding. Auntie shook my hand and held my hand very tightly. Kept saying that I still looked pretty and if I'm married. She even thought Vic was my bf!! Haha. We talked a bit about the past and she teared.. It was sad to see Auntie being unhappy.
I know that she treats me like her own daughter. All 3 times with Wayne, Auntie has been really nice and wonderful to me. Breaks my heart to see her upset. Maybe she really wanted me to be her daughter-in-law but I'm sorry things never worked out that way between Wayne and I. I promised to be in touch with her and to meet up with her - even if Wayne and I didn't work out, I'm sure I can still be friends with Auntie. She has been good to me all along - I should reciprocate and care for her like my own mum - even though I'm not married to her son. I think that's the least I can do and of coz, I wish her happiness always! Can't wait to meet up with her and re-continue our friendship.
And lastly, a crazy picture of my feet! 1st time I ever use such a bright red colour on my toes. Just for the fun of it anyway - easy to paint the colour on and it's so bright and red that it perks me up. :D Haha.
magz [6:05 PM]
*will dreams come true one day?*
Thursday, October 06, 2011
A Tribute To Steve Jobs - An Inspiration!
While waiting for my hair to dry, I decided to blog a post.
My team had 2 broker dinners arranged tonight. Obviously I had to pick one but seems like both dinners went wild tonight from what I heard!!!
So there I was at Oso, having dinner with a couple of guys on my team and 2 brokers, jus chatting and chilling. Found out quite a number of things tonight! :)
1) their opinion of me
2) how lowly paid I am and how highly paid they thought I was. They couldn't believe that after lowering the annual pay they thought I was getting by 3 times, it was still not low enough. Haha. Pathetic life of mine
3) that I should leave this company despite my close relationship with my team (they are supportive of that idea too)
I have been toying with the idea of leaving for long enough. Tried to leave twice but still stayed on. Maybe it's time to go. Steve Job's death today was an awakening to me. I read an article which was his commencement address at Stanford College. His words were beautiful, bringing tears to my eyes. You can read it and view the clip from the link below.
http://news.stanford.edu/news/2005/june15/jobs-061505.html
Meaningful quotes from the article:
"You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life"
"Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. You've got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don't settle."
"If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly be right."
"Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart."
"No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life's change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.
Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary."
"Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish"
I'm sorry.. That's almost the whole article now. Meant for this to be a short blog post but it's so long now. But I really like those words from him! PSM sent me the link to the article n told me to follow my heart. Don't settle for anything less if it's not a job that I don't like.
It's not that I don't like my job or the people I work with. I love both of that. I'm happy but at the same time, I'm hungry.. Hungry for more knowledge and experience. If all things go well per what was discussed tonight at dinner, I might leave this company sooner than expected. But I'm going to take what was said with a pinch of salt since the guys were kinda high when we discussed it.
F from work did tell me once never to go into this certain line of work. But I need and want the experience. I know the job will be tough.. I'm willing to give it a shot if I have the chance when I'm still young. So we'll see how it goes though no hopes = no disappointment. :)
And for the 1st time in my life, I went to a karaoke lounge (nightclub?) - with mama-san and girls!!! A little awkward for me to be there but I was dragged along. Kinda interesting though and I sure saw a different side of the guys! Haha. :p
To Steve Jobs, thanks for being a great man with far visions and dreams. For creating Apple, iPhones, iPads, Macs, etc. My life was made interesting coz of u and u will be sorely missed by lots of people. U r an inspiration and u have given me hope once again. Thank you!
magz [11:59 PM]
*will dreams come true one day?*
Wednesday, October 05, 2011
Fire Starter - Fire Engine Required?
Something happened that made me kinda unhappy. Maybe that person is right - I like to send out wrong signals and start fires. Strong words used like "hate her.. acted noble.. look down on her.."
Maybe I really do behave that way but that's just me and I've been like this all my life. Judge me for my behavior below and maybe I need a fire engine.
I stroke the head of my male colleague in office. I talk rubbish with them. I treat everyone the same - coz I believe that if I'm nice to someone, they will be nice to me. So I treat the guys equally n whine jus like how I'll do to my family n friends.
I address Dilun as "Di Di" although he's now married to Jean. I call my sister endearingly on office phone as dear or darling. I'm sorry if people don't like it.
But like what my teacher used to tell me when I told him about people not liking the way I act or behave - You can't please the world. Just be yourself. True friends will stick by you and still like you as you are.
So thank you to the friends who told me to ignore what others think about me. I appreciate and am blessed to have u guys by my side.
To the person who now hates me and totally ignored me when I asked for clarification of what I did, thank u for letting me know. And congrats to u for finding someone new in your life. Wishing u happiness always.
Coz to me, friends are for life - I've lost many along the way. I like to treat everyone well from the bottom of my heart and care for them genuinely. I give hugs to guys openly just as I do to girls. So while I wish for happiness for everyone, I'll wish the same for you.
And I'll no longer dwell on this subject and be upset for the entire day anymore. Coz my name is magz and I've been thro hell and back. Nothing's gonna bring me down nor make me upset for long. Life's too short for that.
Til the next happy post - hopefully soon! :)
magz [3:10 PM]
*will dreams come true one day?*
Monday, October 03, 2011
Congratulations to Jean and Dilun!!!
Been a crazy couple of weeks so far. Working my ass off at work with OT almost everyday and even working on weekends. Not sure how appreciated I am but still.. That's life I guess.
The only 2 days where I didn't work til too late was coz the gals and I were working on the props for dearest Jean and Dilun's wedding! Yup, another bestie is now someone else's wife! :) Sooo happy for them that their love has blossomed to the marriage stage.
But since there was no speech for the wedding, I'm gonna be very extra and write a speech for my dear friend here.
Dearest Jean and Dilun, words cannot express my joy and happiness to see both of u finally tying the knot and being husband and wife. 7 long years of dating is a very long time and I'll never forget how we met as friends, and all the things we've done together as friends. All the ups and downs that we've been through, that we've shared as friends.. Are truly treasured memories in my life and I'm glad to have known you guys! Dilun, pls take care of my dear friend who can be blur and emo sometimes but is a wonderful lovely person inside. Do not break her fragile little heart and cherish and treasure her always!!
PS: Thanks JW for the instant edit and upload of pic of us 5 so that I can put it on my blog!!! :) Most appreciated!!
And on to a little bit of sad/bad news. My beloved SG boss who is head of APAC has decided that being the head of many teams is not what he wants.. He's only interested in trading and that's what he wants to focus on. So once again, I'm gonna have a change in heads and my team is getting smaller yet again. Since I joined this department, we have gone from 11 people to the current 6.. Very depressing and demoralizing....
Oh well, time to focus on other stuff to make myself happier I guess. And can you believe it? I'm attending my ex-bf's wedding this Saturday.. I know I'm weird..
magz [10:15 PM]
*will dreams come true one day?*
