Sunday, December 26, 2010
Lasik - Yes or No?
Last nite (or rather early this morning) while sending Ann home, we had a talk in the car. She was advising me to go for lasik.
For many a times now, I've been hesitant and unwilling to try. I've seen friends who end up having to wear specs at night or being unable to see clearly when there's a lot of lights. With my pathetic eyesight, I'm not sure what the final outcome will be and if it'll end up well. I don't wanna end up having to still wear specs.
But what I'm most dreading is the fact that I'll have to wear specs for a couple of months before I can go for the review and the actual op. I've always been vain in the fact that I think I look really ugly with specs. Not really say ugly but my eyesight is so bad that I know people can always tell by the "rings" in my glasses. I really hate it when people look at me and go "wah.. your eyesight is quite bad hor?" or "wah.. ur glasses are so thick".
Sigh.. For the sake of beauty and perfect eyesight thereafter, I know I have to overcome that horrible dreaded feeling of being criticised and all the snide remarks that will be coming my way. I have to live as an ugly duckling again before I can attain my idea of being "pretty" without specs or the hassle of glasses ever again.
I haven't worn glasses out in public (at least not town or to office) ever since I turned 15. It's been 13 years of vanity. I need a lot of courage to get over my emotional hurdle. Maybe the pros do outweigh the cons but I think I need a lot of support and encouragement to do it.
Dear friends who read my blog, pls lemme know your thoughts on whether I should go for it. Thanks!!! :)
magz [2:49 PM]
*will dreams come true one day?*
Friday, December 24, 2010
2010 Review Part 2 & Merry Xmas!
Forgot to mention in the previous post that this year, another wonderful thing that happened is the occasional gathering with Shi Han, Lisa and Sylvia. Our drinking sessions are always filled with crap but a lot of laughter. :)
Today is kinda boring at work. Had diarrhoea almost the whole day which sucked. Much as December is my favourite month of the year, I always somehow end up sick either on Xmas or my bday. Sigh.. Praying hard that I can recover within the next 4 days!
Jus taken my medicine . Think the effect is hitting me fast. Eyes are tired but tummy is churning yet again. I better enjoy my beauty sleep soon. Nite nitez all and Merry Xmas!!! :)
magz [10:59 PM]
*will dreams come true one day?*
Thursday, December 23, 2010
2010 Review
It's nearing the end of the year again and honestly, this year has flown by so quickly that I can bearly recall what happened throughout the year. I know it's only the 23rd of December but I've got dinner plans everyday from 25th onwards til the end of the year, hence the early review of this year. My bet is that I'll write about some of the other stuff that will happen next week after the review. :)
Anyway, so here's my brief review from what my limited memory. 1st 4 months of the year were pure torture to me. Biased managers and superiors meant I did not get the promotion that I well deserve. Irritating manager also meant that I was extremely unhappy at work. Waiting for my interview anxiously kept me going strong and gave me the will to get thro the most unhappy months of the year.
No words can ever describe the joy when I was told to go for the 2nd interview and when HR contacted me to sign the contract. Those were the most incredible and memorable moments of the year! And I know I will never ever look back and regret the decision of moving out of the horrible department and getting to where I am coz I worked hard to get here and I'm extremely happy where I am right now. =)
The months that follow from June onwards have been pure bliss and joy. I've never felt such an emotion in a long time. I became who I was once again - the happy go lucky, ever smiling and cheerful person whom I once knew but lost for 3 years. It all came back to me and my temper and emotions are more under control.
Friends came and went. Quarrels, arguments and unhappiness between friends, between Eeyore over the months. I put that all behind me and continue my life stronger and better than before. I will not let my unhappiness get me down. Not when my parents passed away, and definitely not over some arguments with friends or even bf. I have a lot more to look forward to in my life than that.
I have always been and will always be, a person who is happy with the simplest things in life. Sometimes, the simplest of words or actions, and not the materialistic things, can put a smile on my face for the longest time. And I have been smiling a lot more so why let unhappiness take the cheer in my heart away from me?
And of coz, a most memorable wedding of 2 great friends - Sid & Stef! Those few days living with the babes, hanging out together 24/7 were absolutely amazing!!! The crazy bunch of us.. All crying at the wedding will always always be imprinted in my heart and memory coz we were all touched and happy that they are married! :))))))
Not forgetting to mention meeting up with M and finally, his wife as well! Also knowing that Kelv gor will be joining me as a friend cum colleague. Enjoying myself at the year end party was memorable too! All the happy moments of my year! But another not too happy part is that I keep falling sick this year. Terrible!!! Need to work on getting my health back.
This year has definitely been another 1 with ups and downs. But I'm jus thankful that the upside of my life has more than outweighed the downside of my life. I am also extremely blessed with fantastic supportive friends who have been with me throughout my ups and downs. I am more than looking forward to 2011 coz I know I'll work harder than ever to achieve my dream. With the wonderful support from my team and from Mr Z who is more than willing to teach and help me, I sure hope I succeed!! May 2011 be a good year ahead!
Sidenote from my review of the year: I received my 1st ever Xmas tree from Nathan - 1 of my traders. That was extra sweet of him coz I merely mentioned that I've never had a Xmas tree in my life ever before as he was going to buy 1 for his daughter. And I left office early coz I had a fever and next day when I reached, the little Xmas tree was sitting on my desk. :D Very happy and very grateful!!!
Sidenote 2: Finally met KK and Xiao Ming for drinks and dinner. It's been a while since we last met and I'm looking foward to my 1 on 1 dinner with KK next week. He's 1 buddy who encouraged to leave my previous department and I know he's someone I can count on if I ever get into any trouble. :>
magz [10:18 PM]
*will dreams come true one day?*
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Penang 12-14 Dec 2010
After being sick for a whole week, I'm down with fever again today! WTF!! Sigh.. Not sure what happened again but this time round, I decided to give the doctor a visit.
While sleeping at home, drilling works was going on from goodness knows where n I couldn't sleep again. :( I hate being sick, esp when it's so near Xmas season.
Grateful that Irene helped me to buy lunch and my team for allowing me to leave much earlier than I wanted. Couldn't stand being in office after taking my medicine as my eyes were on the verge of closing.
Quite a few people have asked me what I'll be doing for my bday. 10 days time.. I have no idea what I'll be doing other than heading back to work. I don't mind working on my bday anymore. 5 years of such life, I'm actually used to it. Different groups of friends are asking me out for dinner to celebrate my bday. Been telling them there's no need to celebrate. Haha.
Oh, mus thank my beloved group of bellas for planning a surprise party for me though I found out about it. Haha, silly Jean. Sooo funny! But I had a good laugh and I appreciate their thoughts and efforts. Thanks babes and guys!! Love ya all!!
Ok, time for me to take another nap. My head's still soooo heavy despite the muscle relaxant. Eyes feel like they are burning. Why must I be sick again??? Damn..
Oh oh, before I publish this post, I forgot to mention that I was in Penang recently (12-14 Dec) and had a great time eating, eating n eating. Maybe that's why I'm sick again.. Coz I gained weight!! :( And dear Vic (Eeyore's youngest bro) came to Singapore!! Spent more than a week with him in both Penang, KL and SG. He's a cute guy.. Really funny and adorable. Hehe.
magz [5:45 PM]
*will dreams come true one day?*
Saturday, December 11, 2010
Supportive Colleagues Rock!
In the devil may care attitude these days. Give no shit to what others think nor really wanna care either.
The office year end party has come and gone (09 dec). Woke up at 5am jus to doll up and prepare for the party. I'm real glad that I went instead of the occasional "I don't feel like going" thoughts that kept coming to my mind. Had tonnes of fun, drinks and laughter. Stuck with my team the whole time and they actually told me a lot of things. :) Even the opinion of my makeup and the whole outfit, esp the knee length boots effect on the whole trading floor - guys & gals. Hahaha.
My mentor said I drank like a goldfish that nite. Probably smoked like a chimney too. Danced my ass off. The rubber sole on my left foot came off while I was running around Hard Rock playing the featured game. Hopefully my boots can still be repaired! I love that pair of boots!
Before the party started, I had a chat with 1 of my trader. Over drinks and some ciggies, he told me about front office life and how I should make my way into becoming a trader. He even said that I can always sit with him or my mentor if I'm really keen to learn how to trade. My heart skipped a beat when I heard that! I sooooo wanna learn trading and earn big bucks. The next morning back in office, I told my trader that I'll start sitting with him soon. And he was extremely willing to accept that. COOL!
Had coffee with Mr Z on Friday afternoon as well and I told him about my decision to learn about trading as he had also encouraged me previously. He was very supportive about it and even volunteered to provide me with more background knowledge (notes and all) before I start learning. Really touched to have such supportive people around me who are willing to impart their knowledge to me!
2010 has been an awesome year for me despite some downs along the way with arguments, broken friendships, and whatever other shit that happened to me. Career wise - I must say that I'm blessed and thankful. At least there's 1 aspect of my life that's moving great and in the correct direction. Makes everything else seem small but better, if you know what I mean.
This song is still stuck in my head after the party on Thurs - I Hate Myself For Loving You.
Work hard and party hard people! Miss the drinking/clubbing days of my life but I'm glad it's all coming back to me now. Time to relive some of the good old days! Woohoo!!!
magz [10:27 PM]
*will dreams come true one day?*
Tuesday, December 07, 2010
My Fave Month - December!
December is and will always be my favourite month of the year coz it's quiet, there's Xmas and there's my bday! Hehe. I love Decembers!
But then, this December, people have managed to piss me off at work a couple of times. 1st was a really rude HK bitch who kept hanging up on me when I wasn't even looking for her and I called the direct line of the guy I was looking for. Stupid dumbass woman!
2nd time was today. Some issues at work. A simple problem became so tedious and complicated all coz my idiotic and egoistic ex-manager refuse to listen to my dealer and I and insisting on his way. I thought about it for 3 hours and still felt it was wrong. Went to my dealer again and she went to her mentor for her help. Proved that we were correct and dumb ex-manager was wrong.
My dealer's mentor called up my ex-manager and told him the correct procedure n that we were initially correct to begin with. Ex-manager kept trying to rebutt but the mentor refused to even let him utter a word! Hahaha. I was giggling while listening to the whole conversation on the phone. Serves him right! Wasting everyone's time and brain cells jus coz he thinks he's smart.
I've been doing this for 3.5 years now and he's only been doing it for a few months! Don't bloody doubt my capabilities jus coz u're not smart! POOO!!! Even Lisa who has only been in the job for 6 months knew he was wrong, yet that smart alec couldn't see what everyone could. Made Lisa do so much extra work. Annoying!!
Gotta let it out or I'll go mad. Haha. Feels much better now. :p Once again, I feel that my wisest move is to get out of my previous department with such lousy supervisors to here where I'm always happy and having fun. Really must do my best to get Lisa out from that department as well!
Ohhhh.. Good news!! Kelv gor is joining where I work in Jan but in Millenia Tower! WOOOTT!! As gor put it, I'll have another friend at the same work area and not just another colleague! Yay yay yay!!!! Happy!!!
magz [8:43 PM]
*will dreams come true one day?*
