Future?
Just came home from dinner with sis, bro-in-law (MZ) and JZ. Had a 2 hr plus nap til JZ came over to pick us up. Headed to Changi Village for sis to try the chicken chop hor fun. We had chilli crab, fried oyster omelette and dumpling soup as well. Loads of sugar cane juice too, though I ordered teh cino for myself instead. Hehe.
Was a good dinner and a happy one too. We joked, we laughed, we had fun and teased one another. Relaxed atmosphere. We know life has to go on as per normal. We need to lead our lives again, just as before.. Before everything happened.
Time really passes by so quickly. From the time I received the call that Dad was in hospital when I was in Sydney to rushing back to Singapore, visiting Dad almost daily at the hospital to the time when he was transferred to AMK Hospital for physio til now.. All this was almost 3 months ago. Looking back, it really seems like a dream. It's like a time warp. I have been doing things on a clockwork kind of basis that sometimes, I'm not sure what I am doing or what I have even done.
Some friends whom I've not seen in ages came for the wake. Not exactly the kind of place to meet up but I'm glad to see them again. Now when I go downstairs, I see the hours and minutes that I have spent there over the last few days. Everything has been cleared and the void deck is as per before. Yet I see the yellow canvas, the area where I slept, the tables and chairs, the wreaths, etc etc. Everything is still so clear and vivid in my mind. I still hear buddhist chants in my head the whole day and I have to on music to diffuse it. Noise seems to become buddhist chants.
Time.. All I need is time. Last year at this time, I was in Shanghai. This year.. I was at a funeral.. My own father's funeral. Sometimes I wish I can turn back time, but there's no looking back. I can only look forward to the future.. I hope there is 1..
Was a good dinner and a happy one too. We joked, we laughed, we had fun and teased one another. Relaxed atmosphere. We know life has to go on as per normal. We need to lead our lives again, just as before.. Before everything happened.
Time really passes by so quickly. From the time I received the call that Dad was in hospital when I was in Sydney to rushing back to Singapore, visiting Dad almost daily at the hospital to the time when he was transferred to AMK Hospital for physio til now.. All this was almost 3 months ago. Looking back, it really seems like a dream. It's like a time warp. I have been doing things on a clockwork kind of basis that sometimes, I'm not sure what I am doing or what I have even done.
Some friends whom I've not seen in ages came for the wake. Not exactly the kind of place to meet up but I'm glad to see them again. Now when I go downstairs, I see the hours and minutes that I have spent there over the last few days. Everything has been cleared and the void deck is as per before. Yet I see the yellow canvas, the area where I slept, the tables and chairs, the wreaths, etc etc. Everything is still so clear and vivid in my mind. I still hear buddhist chants in my head the whole day and I have to on music to diffuse it. Noise seems to become buddhist chants.
Time.. All I need is time. Last year at this time, I was in Shanghai. This year.. I was at a funeral.. My own father's funeral. Sometimes I wish I can turn back time, but there's no looking back. I can only look forward to the future.. I hope there is 1..
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