Cremation..
Reality has to set in somehow. Daddy was cremated this morning. Cried my heart out. I really did. Tears just flowed continuously, without control. Nothing hurts more than having a loved one leave.. I made him promises that I have yet to fulfil. That makes everything hurt even more. The feeling of false hopes.. I hope Daddy understands that I do want to fulfil them, just that I no longer have the chance to.
Once again, I saw true friends who went out of the way to help me in every single way. Of coz, the most important person I must thank 1st (besides my family) will have to be JZ. He was with me on the day Daddy left me. From morning til night and til the next morning. He ran errands for me willingly with no complaints. He laughed at jokes and jibes about him without grumbling or even letting me know. I found out from my own cousin. He showed me his care, concern and love throughout this very emotional period of mine. He was my pillar of strength throughout. No matter how ugly I looked, how much I cried, he was there to console me. He gave in to all my whims and requests even when he slept for only 4 hours a day and was so tired. He made me laugh, entertained my family and made me feel safe. Most touching moment was when he prayed to gramp without me saying a word. He did it by himself. Thank you dear.. For being here for me the last 5 days. :)
Next person I wanna thank is Felix. He has been there for me as well, running all sorts of errands and being my family's and my "chauffeur" the last few days. Without him, many things would not have been accomplished. He stayed up with me til 7am and had to reach office by 12 noon. That's not a lot of time left for him to sleep and I appreciate it! He reached in the morning while I was sleeping and he simply sat there with no complaints nor did he try to wake me up. He was there by my side, silently and quietly, as a very very good friend. Thanx Felix!
And big thanks to all the people who checked on me almost daily without fail - Bee, Terrence, Jean, Kuan, Meng, Yong Quan, Anne, Irene. Appreciate Bee's thoughts of wanting to take leave today to attend the cremation though she was unable to come. It's a nice gesture that is warm to the heart. To Terrence coz I've only known him for 3 months and yet, he truly cared. To Jean who came 2 nights in a row. To Kuan for the words of encouragement. To Meng who called me twice from Dubai to check on me. To Yong Quan, Anne & Irene for the care and concern. ;p
Also thanks to the people who attended the wake, who did not attend the wake but yet gave the money.. Esp those whom I don't even really know from office. So many so many people.. But of coz, there will always be those who disappoint me time and again. Nothing's new and I've learned not to dwell on such stuff. Let go and I'll be happier. So these "friends" will probably not hear much from me anymore.
Slept only half an hour this morning. Super tired. Came home, changed my bedsheets, washed my fan and toilet. Showered and I'm all ready to conk out now. Maybe dinner with JZ later. Will see. Nitez to the world..
Once again, I saw true friends who went out of the way to help me in every single way. Of coz, the most important person I must thank 1st (besides my family) will have to be JZ. He was with me on the day Daddy left me. From morning til night and til the next morning. He ran errands for me willingly with no complaints. He laughed at jokes and jibes about him without grumbling or even letting me know. I found out from my own cousin. He showed me his care, concern and love throughout this very emotional period of mine. He was my pillar of strength throughout. No matter how ugly I looked, how much I cried, he was there to console me. He gave in to all my whims and requests even when he slept for only 4 hours a day and was so tired. He made me laugh, entertained my family and made me feel safe. Most touching moment was when he prayed to gramp without me saying a word. He did it by himself. Thank you dear.. For being here for me the last 5 days. :)
Next person I wanna thank is Felix. He has been there for me as well, running all sorts of errands and being my family's and my "chauffeur" the last few days. Without him, many things would not have been accomplished. He stayed up with me til 7am and had to reach office by 12 noon. That's not a lot of time left for him to sleep and I appreciate it! He reached in the morning while I was sleeping and he simply sat there with no complaints nor did he try to wake me up. He was there by my side, silently and quietly, as a very very good friend. Thanx Felix!
And big thanks to all the people who checked on me almost daily without fail - Bee, Terrence, Jean, Kuan, Meng, Yong Quan, Anne, Irene. Appreciate Bee's thoughts of wanting to take leave today to attend the cremation though she was unable to come. It's a nice gesture that is warm to the heart. To Terrence coz I've only known him for 3 months and yet, he truly cared. To Jean who came 2 nights in a row. To Kuan for the words of encouragement. To Meng who called me twice from Dubai to check on me. To Yong Quan, Anne & Irene for the care and concern. ;p
Also thanks to the people who attended the wake, who did not attend the wake but yet gave the money.. Esp those whom I don't even really know from office. So many so many people.. But of coz, there will always be those who disappoint me time and again. Nothing's new and I've learned not to dwell on such stuff. Let go and I'll be happier. So these "friends" will probably not hear much from me anymore.
Slept only half an hour this morning. Super tired. Came home, changed my bedsheets, washed my fan and toilet. Showered and I'm all ready to conk out now. Maybe dinner with JZ later. Will see. Nitez to the world..
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