Chinatown
Blogging seems to have become a daily ritual for me. Feels pretty uneasy to not write everyday, and when I don't write, I try to update all the days together in 1 post. :) Hopefully people reading my blog won't find me too long-winded.
Didn't visit Dad today again. Worked til 9.30pm and I left not coz I finished my work but coz JZ was waiting for me downstairs. Sweet of him to pick me up and have dinner with me. :p Else, I won't eat again. ^.^ Today's a really busy day where again, I had to help both my dept now and my former dept resolve their issues. Kinda tiring I must say. Too many problems. Plus the fact that I have a deadline to re-check the confirmations done for 16 structured deals by this Wednesday. It's insane. Been staring at the computer til my eyes are gonna drop out. Hopefully I can finish checking all the deals by tomorrow so that I don't have to work late and can visit Dad.
Went to Chinatown for dinner with JZ. Wanted to eat porridge and Ipoh hor fun but both places were closed. Headed to Maxwell Market to eat porridge instead. I enjoy the time spent together coz I am laughing or smiling most of the time. Even when he bullies me. :) It's a nice feeling that I wanna hold on to forever. And, to clarify, he is NOT a gangster. He's a nice guy who treats me well and makes me laugh. He cares about me and is against me clubbing too much. I see and feel the concern. He scolds me when I don't visit Dad. He keeps me in place and makes sure I prioritise what is important. He nags at me when I don't eat proper meals and scolds me for working late everytime. But yet, he picks me up from work when I have to do OT. I like the fact that he cares for me, that he calls me from time to time to make sure that I'm ok.. Coz it makes me feel loved.
Just read from Felix's blog that he went out with Rachel on Sunday. I feel guilty.. I know I have been neglecting my friends recently. I haven't been meeting Bee on Fridays. Honestly, I haven't been meeting anyone much, maybe except for JZ and Khim. I hope my friends can undestand what I'm going thro. It's not that I don't wanna meet, but it's really tiring to be rushing to the hospital daily. It's a long journey and having to pacify Dad for at least an hour each time before I am able to leave, is taking its toll on me. What's worse is that I can only meet my friends after I'm done at the hospital and that is quite late normally. I am always tired, be it weekdays or weekends. Wish there is more than 24 hours a day. I'm not sure how long I can last before I finally collapse. I'm really really really tired..
Had a very good chat with Min last nite on MSN. 1st time we chatted so much though I've known her for 4 years now. :) Wishing her all the best in her relationship with Cliff. May they stay happy forever and overcome all obstacles that lay in their path!
When I met Kwang di yesterday, I realised something.. Seems like a lot of people around me have changed somehow. Then I ask myself, "Have I changed as well? Is it for the better or for the worse?" I thought long and hard.. And I feel like I am still stepping on the same ground... Being the same old me all these years... Tell me if I have changed...
Didn't visit Dad today again. Worked til 9.30pm and I left not coz I finished my work but coz JZ was waiting for me downstairs. Sweet of him to pick me up and have dinner with me. :p Else, I won't eat again. ^.^ Today's a really busy day where again, I had to help both my dept now and my former dept resolve their issues. Kinda tiring I must say. Too many problems. Plus the fact that I have a deadline to re-check the confirmations done for 16 structured deals by this Wednesday. It's insane. Been staring at the computer til my eyes are gonna drop out. Hopefully I can finish checking all the deals by tomorrow so that I don't have to work late and can visit Dad.
Went to Chinatown for dinner with JZ. Wanted to eat porridge and Ipoh hor fun but both places were closed. Headed to Maxwell Market to eat porridge instead. I enjoy the time spent together coz I am laughing or smiling most of the time. Even when he bullies me. :) It's a nice feeling that I wanna hold on to forever. And, to clarify, he is NOT a gangster. He's a nice guy who treats me well and makes me laugh. He cares about me and is against me clubbing too much. I see and feel the concern. He scolds me when I don't visit Dad. He keeps me in place and makes sure I prioritise what is important. He nags at me when I don't eat proper meals and scolds me for working late everytime. But yet, he picks me up from work when I have to do OT. I like the fact that he cares for me, that he calls me from time to time to make sure that I'm ok.. Coz it makes me feel loved.
Just read from Felix's blog that he went out with Rachel on Sunday. I feel guilty.. I know I have been neglecting my friends recently. I haven't been meeting Bee on Fridays. Honestly, I haven't been meeting anyone much, maybe except for JZ and Khim. I hope my friends can undestand what I'm going thro. It's not that I don't wanna meet, but it's really tiring to be rushing to the hospital daily. It's a long journey and having to pacify Dad for at least an hour each time before I am able to leave, is taking its toll on me. What's worse is that I can only meet my friends after I'm done at the hospital and that is quite late normally. I am always tired, be it weekdays or weekends. Wish there is more than 24 hours a day. I'm not sure how long I can last before I finally collapse. I'm really really really tired..
Had a very good chat with Min last nite on MSN. 1st time we chatted so much though I've known her for 4 years now. :) Wishing her all the best in her relationship with Cliff. May they stay happy forever and overcome all obstacles that lay in their path!
When I met Kwang di yesterday, I realised something.. Seems like a lot of people around me have changed somehow. Then I ask myself, "Have I changed as well? Is it for the better or for the worse?" I thought long and hard.. And I feel like I am still stepping on the same ground... Being the same old me all these years... Tell me if I have changed...
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