When I Dream~

I typed a whole load of stuff in office today to be put into my blog. I didn't send it home. Whatever. I'm not in the mood. I never did like to wash dirty linen in public, let alone the big issue that was written in my blog last nite. I shouldn't have written that but what's done cannot be undone. An ugly scene unfounded at Kallang MRT today. Screams, ugly words, vulgarities exchanged. I could have slapped her if it wasn't coz I was pulled back. Don't wanna talk or type anymore. Too pissed. I'm gonna play Xbox thro the nite. Super pissed.

Friday (26 September 2008) Work was so boring that I should have taken half day leave to hang out with Leo. ARGH!!! I had nothing to do since 10.30am and I started packing my drawers, throwing things away and giving certain things to Ailmer. He got a shock and asked if I was leaving the bank. DUHZ! Came back from lunch. Still as boring. I surfed net from 2pm til 7.30pm. When Bee told me that she'll try to reach Tampines by 6.30pm, I was so happy. Ended up, she reached only at 7.30pm and I was 1 of the last to leave. Shows how boring my day was. :( Dinner at East Coast Park, Korean Charcoal Barbecue Restaurant with Bee & Felix to celebrate Bee's bday on 25 Sept. We didn't order a lot but the food that came was sooooo much that we couldn't finish at all! Had plum wine as well. Was nice!!! Overall, a very good meal!!! KTV at Oriental Partyworld. Sang from 9.30am to 2.30am. Fell asleep twice in between. Yes, I'm super tired from all the lack of sleep since 2 weeks b...

Plans to meet Leo were abandoned as he woke up late. :( Coz I didn't wake him up early enough. Sighz.. Wanted to meet Leo so much. We haven't met up since the day after JZ and I unofficially ended. I miss talking to this guy who never fails to brighten up my day and makes me laugh. Postponed to next week now.. Many people's bday today - Bee, Celine, Kelv gor & Anson. Chatted with Kelv gor for a bit over sms. Didn't realise that he is an avid reader of my blog. Thanx for the support gor!! :) It's been a long time since we met up. Find 1 day meet up for dinner or drinks k? :p Hungry!! Haven't had anything to eat yet. Time to find food and watch my shows. Hehe.

Home from watching Mamma Mia with Cher & Roy at AMK. Good show!! Loved all the songs! I'm so getting the soundtrack of this show. Meryl Streep sang such a beautiful version of the song "The Winner Takes It All" that it nearly brought tears to my eyes. I'm not surprised. The lyrics are beautiful and well written. It really described all I feel after every breakup. It's not been easy. I haven't been letting go that easily. I'm not getting any younger. There are things that I hold on to but I move on. Everybody does, don't they? Lyrics of this song below.. "The Winner Takes It All" I don't wanna talk About the things we've gone through Though it's hurting me Now it's history I've played all my cards And that's what you've done too Nothing more to say No more ace to play The winner takes it all The loser standing small Beside the victory That's her destiny I was in your arms Thinking I belonged there I figured ...

Taiwan was fun! I walked so much though the weather was unbearably hot! Perspiration dripped non stop, from the 1st day to the last day. It was madness but I love it despite all my complaints about the heat. I chose to walk in the sun, with my cap and shades on. I've got a really nice tan now and I love my skin colour. Gotta keep it this way coz I love being brown. Makes me feel and look healthier. :) Thanx to Bee, Ann & Felix for going on this trip together!! Thanks to Bee for suggesting, Felix for planning the itinerary and Ann for taking care of me! Or rather, everybody for taking care of the blur me. Felix was blur at most points as to where and how to go but it's unavoidable. Just that I kept nagging at him, scolding him and teasing him. Evil me!! Stayed at Rainbow Hotel at Xi Men Ting. Very very good location hotel. Clean and not bad as well. Satisfied. went to a lot of places~!!! All of us walked til our feet hurt, calf muscles ached, back almost broke. I am proud to...

Super quick post before I leave for the airport - Taiwan, here I come! Keeping my fingers crossed for fear of typhoon. Praying hard.. Typhoon, pls don't come!!! I shall bring the sunshine to Taiwan. Hahaha. Crappy me. Work yesterday was boring once again. Markets are really not good to have many deals. Sighz.. Pretty saddening to see the banking industry in such a chaotic stage. Hope it turns good soon. Have asked people to sms me while I'm in Taiwan to gimme the latest updates. Dinner with Cher & Roy at Azabu Sabo. Many times there but decided to take pics only yesterday. Duhz. I had beef hotpot and my fave melon ice there. :) Fat me!!! I ate everything! Cher didn't feel good after eating. :( Think she's too stressed @ work. Cher, take care of urself when I'm not around and remember to take ur medicine!!! BS & Mark sent us home after that. Thanx guys!! Gonna make last minute checks in case I forgot to bring something. Most importantly, my passport!!! Cannot...

Home since 7pm. Real early coz I left office at 6.30pm and Felix sent me home. Work was.. BORING coz everybody's too afraid to do deals due to the Lehman bankruptcy. Sighz.. Luckily Felix sent me back. Dead cockroaches in my kitchen cupboard! Lots of them!!! All coz of the fogging of the rubbish chute. Sighz.. Nearly fainted and got a heart attack when I opened the cupboard. Best of all, my China tenant could actually ignore the sight of the dead cockroaches and stuff more things into the cupboard. :( SIGHZ... Seriously dunno what to do.. Felix helped to clear the dead cockroaches. Watched my HK shows together after that and he's just gone home. Still waiting to meet my friend. Boring... Watching my HK drama now.. Shall go continue with my show. :)

The nite was sooo bad. I was awake from almost 3.30am to 4.30pm. Itch was madness. I swore I could have cut my legs open, dig out the flesh and the itchy bit. Played games on lappie to distract myself til it was time to bathe and go work. Zombified at work. Couldn't concentrate or focus. Luckily the cream worked and the itch wasn't too bad. Doc at 11am. My fave doctor of all time, Dr Siew! Had to go all the way to Capital Tower to see her and I waited from 11.30am to 12.30pm just to see her. :p She's as nice as ever! And she always makes me feel better. :) Gave me the strongest drowsy and non-drowsy medicine to stop the itch. Creams to apply for the rash. Sent my urine for lab tests. To test the culture and the bacteria. Additional medicine, just in case, for my trip to Taiwan. Dr Siew's always so caring, so motherly to me. I love her to bits! Lunched at Sakae with sis & Felix. Felix sent me to doc's and waited with me. He's a real good friend. Always there ...

Itching since 3.30am til now. Can't sleep coz of the itch! ARGH! Doc later. Can't take the itch anymore. It's killing me and driving me mad. :(

Happy Mid Autumn's Festival! From the initial thought of spending it by myself to having an appointment to go out, it turned out to be a very enjoyable day. :) As always, I was late in meeting up. I'm sooo sorry. I had to settle my Ipod issues before I could step out of my house. I can't live without music. So embarrassing. He had to wait for me for an hour coz he thought he would be late and rushed a cab down to Toa Payoh Central to meet me. Oopss... :X Supposed to have lunch at Balestier coz he wanted to eat bak kut teh but the weather was way too hot for somewhere non-aircon. Down to Orchard and we had a very mouth watering brunch at Palais Renaissance. I had a crab cesar with ice mocha (topped with vanilla ice cream) while he had salmon omelette with hot latte. He gave me some of the omelette to try and it was really quite good. The portion of the food was quite huge too! So filling from the brunch. Chatted til 3pm. Made our way to That CD shop to take a look. Bought 3 ...

Friday (12 September 2008) Work was ok. Kinda bored actually though I did 4 deals. Without those deals, I would have been more bored. Even had time to sit down, have oreo cheesecake mooncakes for tea break and to chat. Haha. Yeah.. I'm jus too efficient. :p Like real.. Haha. Left office at 6.45pm. Supposed to meet Bee & Joey for dinner but both ended work late. Didn't know where to go so decided to meet Roy & Cher 1st. Headed to Centennial and decided to call Joey. She knocked off work then and came down to join us. Roy, Cher, Eleanor & Ash headed to Chomp Chomp for dinner while Joey & I went to Raffles Place to wait for Bee. Sat at Boat Quay TCC to wait for Bee. Had Wasabi Milkshake. No kick at all. Haha. The wasabi ice cream that I love to eat taste much stronger and better than this milkshake. -.-''' Bee finally met up with us at about 9.30pm. Went to a coffeeshop in between Clarke Quay & Boat Quay for dinner. Had sambal stingray, sambal soton...

My rash is itching like mad. I think.. I'm too stressed. Sighz.. I might need the doc for medication soon. Irritating! Why must I be born with such a problem? :( Work was ok. Cher made me a tad upset but made up for it by treating me to dinner @ AMK Hong Kong cafe. Food was not bad. Company was good. Chatted with her about stuff. Then realised that I'm having loads of threesomes these days. There's Wayne, Edmund & I. Cher, Roy & I. Bee, Felix & I. 3 groups of threesomes! Oh manz! On the way to AMK from City Hall, a pregnant lady boarded the train at the same time as me. This guy looked up, saw her bulging tummy (about 5-7 months pregnant) and continued sitting there typing his sms. I felt like scolding him!!! The lady next to him gave up her seat for the pregnant lady and I kept quiet. Else, I would have told the guy off. ARGH!! Men these days! Damn rude and no sense of courtesy. Whatever happened to being gentlemanly? No such thing now! 2 days ago, Cher & I...

Today has been a very trying day. It was a test of my patience, endurance and mental strength. Amended 24 confirmations today. Had to do special handling after amending which meant I had to repeat another 24 times. Print and send out after that. That took me 4 hours plus to complete. After the 1st 8, I felt tired. By the time I finished 12, I was ready to scream and go mad. By 18, I wanted to give up. Many a time today, I wanted to jus throw everything down and walk off. I was close to losing it. Thank God for the crappy chat room (Cher, Roy & I) I'm in at work everyday to make me feel better. I was really that close to jus saying "I quit". It was real bad.. And having to re-do it another 24 times made me on the verge of a breakdown. I could have just sat there and cry. I swear.. It was horrible. Gritted my teeth and went on with it. Finally finished everything by 7.15pm. It was a huge sigh of relief to have finally endured through the whole day. Didn't lose my te...

Had to help Ailmer at work with 5 deals today coz he had to leave early. Not sure what he was doing the whole day but didn't ask either. Another mistake made by me. Unforgivable. It's gonna cost me my rating and bonus. Bad. Left office at 7.45pm and I was the last in the dept. Madness! All so early today. Haha. Met Roy & Cher at Bugis. Cher wasn't happy today. Cried. Cheered her up by bringing her to eat her fave dessert. :) Even cracked some jokes to make her laugh. :p Good job! Hehehe. Not that happy the whole day. But guess I know how to make myself cheer up. I had 3 desserts the whole day and now I'm pretty alright. Hehe. Been pigging out a lot. Ate so much that I'm really amazed at myself. Becoming a total pig. Muahahaha. Don't be surprised if I'm fatter than before though I hope not. ^.^ Pimples sprouting out.. :(

Busy at work today but don't ask me what I was busy with. No idea. Just worked and by the time I knew it, it was 5pm. Made plans with Cheryl & Roy to meet for dinner to pass Roy the ciggies he bought but left with us. :p Reached Raffles City at 8pm and went for dinner at Curry Favor (opposite St Andrew's Cathedral that stretch). Had soft shell crab curry with rice for dinner. I ate so much today coz I kept feeling hungry!! Had beef noodles for lunch. Reached office from lunch and was feeling slightly hungry already. Ate mooncakes, potato chips and my Haagen Dazs ice cream. Was hungry again by 5+pm. Ate rice crackers and was still hungry while waiting for Roy and Cheryl. I'm such a pig!!!!!!!!! Oink! Jus finished cutting my nails. So sleepy. Think I'm gonna conk out soon. Nitez!

Saturday (06 Sept 2008) Woke up cursing and swearing at the unearthly hour of 5.45am. Who wouldn't? Madness! Was still stoning when Felix & Cheryl picked me up. By the time we reached Harbourfront, I woke up immediately. Not at the excitement of leaving the country but due to the fact that the very clever me forgot her passport!!!!!! DAMN!!! How stupid can I be??? Thank God we were slightly early in our schedule but had to rush like mad back home to grab my passport. I had to sprint!!! Reached just in time.. Announcements over PA system with our names coz they were about to leave. P.S: We were not the last ones to board the ferry though. Hahaha. Chatted throughout the ride. Cam-whoring the moment we reached. Hehe. Hotel transfer came. Checked in, rested on bed to chat more. Roy's friend who stays in Batam brought us out for brekkie at 9.30am. Ate fried mee, fried kway teow and wanton noodles. All different from Singapore's. :p Delicious! I had an iced tea with without ...

Quick post. Eyes closing. Woke up with them being swollen today. Very swollen. No, I did NOT cry at all. Wonder what happened.. Water retention maybe? Whatever.. Work was quiet. Everybody went go-karting. Office was.. Quiet. We had time to chat and joke around. All ended work at 6.30pm. Cool! :p Met Bee for dinner at Marina Square. While walking past Citylink, I went to HMV and bought 4 cds. Hehe. :) Cut down on buying cds already so don't scold me for buying. :D Ate at Billy Bombers. Didn't finish my food. Too full. No appetite today.. Lunched with Joycelyn, my ex boss. Good catch up. We're all stressed. The restructuring is making us worried. :( BAD! Wayne was at Suntec so we took bus home together. Got a very cute little boy on the bus. Kept playing with the boy. Hehe. And I saw this girl whom I find quite pretty but Wayne said otherwise. He said that's the difference between guys' opinion of girls and gals' opinion of gals.. Hmmz.. Won't be updating tomo...

Upset. My record of a year without making any major errors has been demolished. 2 major errors in a day. I can't forgive myself. I made a payment wrongly. Didn't put in the beneficiary bank. Did that at 3pm. Customer called at 4.30pm claiming non-receipt of funds. Found the mistake at 4.50pm. Re-did my payment at 4.58pm. Had to send out by 5pm coz dumbass UOB refused to do deposit placement for customer if they don't receive the payment by 5pm. Horrible heartless creatures. Rushed my payment and thank God I met the cutoff. Had to reverse my wrong payment. :( Posted the entries but for wrong value date!!!!!!!!!! Damn!!!!!!!!! Luckily the entries were all posted by me so it didn't matter. But still.. I'm crushed, devastated. These are mistakes that shouldn't have happened in the 1st place. I can't forgive myself. Not yet.. Depressed. Stuffed my face with ice cream the moment I reached home despite sinseh telling me to avoid cold food or drinks. I needed to che...

When the 1st needle was poked into my hand, it turned chill immediately. When the 2nd needle went in, I wanted to scream. By the time the 3rd needle went in, my tears were about to roll down my cheeks. Fought hard to overcome the pain. Refused to give in. I will not lose this fight. Was ok in the end. Chatted a bit with the sinseh. Hand hurt after that but it will be fine. I will be fine. I hope.. I have to be. Last nite was bad. I cried. I didn't mean to but bones were aching, nose was blocked, throat was dry and scratchy. It was bad. I felt real sick and for that split second, lonely. But I didn't succumb to temptation. I teared for a minute or so and I told myself that I will be fine. That I didn't need anyone to look after me. Told myself to have nerves of steel, grit my teeth and live thro this. I have to. I know I have to. Tears stopped after that. I chided myself for being weak. I shouldn't be like that. I am not someone who needs a man all the time. I can be by ...

Home. So sorry to XZ. Supposed to meet for dinner tonite but flu's not getting any better and sore throat coming too. :( So sorry. Always have to postpone dinner coz of me being sick. Sorry sorry. Finally feeling more alive now. Showered and feeling better. Finally!!! Been so tired the whole day. Head was feeling light and heavy at the same time. Bad bad. Work was alright. Taught Ailmer and the intern, Russell, how to print confos. Their turn to do it starting tomorrow. Oh.. Gotta say thanx to Shon for sending me home. Super heavy downpour after office hours and was too tired to take bus. He's down with flu too yet still passed me his Strepsils to eat. :) Thanx loads! Super appreciate it! K.. Too engrossed in my HK reality show to type. Hehe. Shall sleep soon. Nitez!

Couldn't wake up yet again. Til driver called. Damn! Twice in 2 months. Forgot to set alarm again. Shitty. Luckily this time, I managed to get Shon to pick me up. Went to work together. Owe him a dinner for that. Reached at 9.30am. Not too late. Phew! Work - Crazy. Mad. No time to read mails, no time to reply mails. Simply let the mails pile. Audit results review. Had to re-check quite a bit of stuff and to clarify on others. Took me 3 hours plus. Nobody dared disturb me. I had 4 ring files opened at the same time, flipping here and there. Not even Kelv dared to disturb. Haha. Everybody steered clear. GOOD! Sneezed, wheezed and sniffed from 7.30pm to 8.15pm non-stop with 5-15 secs interval in between. Horrible! Cabbed home at 9pm coz I'm too tired and dead from all the sneezing, wheezing and sniffing. Cab driver was fantastic, driving at 100km/h. Good job! He's the only cabby who actually said "Thanks! You're very kind!" when I asked him to keep the change of ...