Diarrhoea Queen!
Felt better today.. Slept sooooo soundly and soooo much yesterday and it felt soooo good. Haven't slept so much in a very long time now. Why do I have to wake up? Just lemme sleep forever..
Aunt Mic made my fave beef porridge and brought it over for me in the morning. Even made macaroni for me for dinner. So touched!! She said something which made me sad.. Though I know it's the truth.. She said that I'm a young girl, ok looking, has a career and a bright future.. Why am I still hanging on a guy who doesn't show his love, care and concern for me anymore? When the truth and reality hits u, it hurts.. It really does. I have been asking myself that same question everyday and yet, I can't find the answer.
When he told me he will be meeting me for dinner tonite, I agreed. Waited for him for almost an hour downstairs. The normal me would have lost my temper and my cool, but I didn't. I thought of scolding him when I saw him, but I didn't. I merely reprimanded him for not calling and sms-ing me for so long.. That if I don't do it, he won't do so. Said that he no longer cares about me. He said he's still sick.. Can't even care for himself, let alone care for me. Sighz... Somehow, all my resolutions dissolved when I saw him. A relationship that started 7 years later.. I can't let go.. Not now.. I still can't.. Somehow, there's something there that I still can't let go of right now.
Gave him his bday present (the box of the present). And noticed that his car had new cushions (the picture of a cute toy). Given to him by a girl for his bday. And many other girls gave him presents too. He said he received a shirt as present from another girl. I felt jealous and redundant when I heard it. Felt like taking back my present. It didn't matter to him anyway.
Ate at Geylang coz I had craving for soya beancurd. Not sure if it was the right move coz now, I keep running to the toilet. ARGH!!! Headed to Bedok NTUC to buy groceries before heading home. Home now.. Received a Coach bag from his sis and bro-in-law who went holiday in US. Quite a cute and nice bag. I can use it on Fridays and weekends esp if I go clubbing. Hehe. But.. I've got my Chanel bag for clubbing. Hmmz.. This is bigger though.. Can put more stuff. Hahaha.
K.. Still stuck in toilet. 3 times since I came home. Typing 1 post is taking sooo long. Better stop here. I still dunno what to do with my relationship anyway.. Leave it as it is..
Oh ya, forgot to mention.. I managed to squeeze into a pair of shorts I bought in Jan this year but never wore coz they were too tight. Today, I managed to wear them. I've lost weight...
Aunt Mic made my fave beef porridge and brought it over for me in the morning. Even made macaroni for me for dinner. So touched!! She said something which made me sad.. Though I know it's the truth.. She said that I'm a young girl, ok looking, has a career and a bright future.. Why am I still hanging on a guy who doesn't show his love, care and concern for me anymore? When the truth and reality hits u, it hurts.. It really does. I have been asking myself that same question everyday and yet, I can't find the answer.
When he told me he will be meeting me for dinner tonite, I agreed. Waited for him for almost an hour downstairs. The normal me would have lost my temper and my cool, but I didn't. I thought of scolding him when I saw him, but I didn't. I merely reprimanded him for not calling and sms-ing me for so long.. That if I don't do it, he won't do so. Said that he no longer cares about me. He said he's still sick.. Can't even care for himself, let alone care for me. Sighz... Somehow, all my resolutions dissolved when I saw him. A relationship that started 7 years later.. I can't let go.. Not now.. I still can't.. Somehow, there's something there that I still can't let go of right now.
Gave him his bday present (the box of the present). And noticed that his car had new cushions (the picture of a cute toy). Given to him by a girl for his bday. And many other girls gave him presents too. He said he received a shirt as present from another girl. I felt jealous and redundant when I heard it. Felt like taking back my present. It didn't matter to him anyway.
Ate at Geylang coz I had craving for soya beancurd. Not sure if it was the right move coz now, I keep running to the toilet. ARGH!!! Headed to Bedok NTUC to buy groceries before heading home. Home now.. Received a Coach bag from his sis and bro-in-law who went holiday in US. Quite a cute and nice bag. I can use it on Fridays and weekends esp if I go clubbing. Hehe. But.. I've got my Chanel bag for clubbing. Hmmz.. This is bigger though.. Can put more stuff. Hahaha.
K.. Still stuck in toilet. 3 times since I came home. Typing 1 post is taking sooo long. Better stop here. I still dunno what to do with my relationship anyway.. Leave it as it is..
Oh ya, forgot to mention.. I managed to squeeze into a pair of shorts I bought in Jan this year but never wore coz they were too tight. Today, I managed to wear them. I've lost weight...
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