serendipity & love~
somehow or other, i always feel that serendipity is the same as coincidences. it was only til yesterday that i found out that serendipity is the natural talent that some people have for finding interesting or valuable things by chance. was it because of the show 'serendipity' that i always felt that serendipity had something to do with love n coincidences. guess i can't really remember the movie much. the only part that i can remember from the show was how the male n female lead actor n actress met each other n decided to have a game of fate, n how the female actress wrote her contact no/address on a book n sold it to a 2nd hand book shop. that's all that i can remember.
wonder y but somehow, that show struck something in me. it made me want to play that game of fate. in the show, the couple took different lifts n tried to see if they can guess correctly which level each chose n when the lift open, will they be able to see each other? i've always wanted to play that game after watching the show, but i don't want to play the lift game. i feel like telling my bf to walk in a different direction from me in orchard n see if somehow we can meet. but (there's always a but, isn't it?) i'm afraid that if we don't meet, what would that signify? that we don't have fate. i can't deal with that coz i'm a firm believer of fate.
to me, i believe that it's fate that u meet someone n be friends with, it's fate that makes u somebody's child, it's fate that brings 2 people together to be a couple. so what happens when after playing the 'fate' game n the 2 of u didn't meet? does it mean that the 2 of u aren't meant to be together as a couple? not necessarily. how can anyone base their relationship on a game right? but i still don't have the courage to play this game. :p
heard from a colleague recently that she's jealous of me. why? coz she feels that i've got a good bf n that it's so sweet n nice to be able to do things together with the person u love. i guess that's quite true.
love doesn't come easily. some people have to pay a price to be with the person they love. for me to be able to enjoy what i have now with my bf, we went through a lot. so much that only 2 of my close guy friends know what happened. whatever happened in the past doesn't matter now coz i'm happy n enjoying every moment with my bf n that's all that matters.
my colleague is actually married n she's my age. got married last yr i think. somehow, she said she was blinded by love then. now she wants a divorce. i'm pretty amazed at how fast love for a person can die. if u loved him so much then, where did the love for him go? i don't understand. but i won't probe coz it doesn't really concern me.
is it really true that when love comes, u can't hide from it n when love goes, there's nothing u can do to stop it from going off? i always feel that to love a person, it doesn't mean that u have to make the person stay by ur side. as long as that person is happy, u should be happy for him/her (especially if that person isn't ur gf/bf). love can't be forced. it can only grow with time but if it doesn't happen, then i guess there's nothing much that anyone can do.
people who have known me long enough will know that i've never really had a lasting relationship. i know that lots of people love to ask me 1 question.. 'are u still seeing the same guy or u changed bf already?' i know that my reputation for relationships suck but yes, i've changed. over the past 2 years, i've changed. i now want a long lasting relationship n i think i've found it. so, to those who still love to ask me that question, i'm still seeing the same guy n i'm very very very happy with him.
my reputation for relationships might be bad, but something else is making it worse. i've found out that people i don't know have been using my photo to ask strangers in irc if they love threesomes n whatnots. somehow or other, i'm currently someone who loves to have sex with guys n even threesomes!!! my goodness! i'll kill those people personally if i find out who they are. utter nonsense!
sigh.. back to work now~
wonder y but somehow, that show struck something in me. it made me want to play that game of fate. in the show, the couple took different lifts n tried to see if they can guess correctly which level each chose n when the lift open, will they be able to see each other? i've always wanted to play that game after watching the show, but i don't want to play the lift game. i feel like telling my bf to walk in a different direction from me in orchard n see if somehow we can meet. but (there's always a but, isn't it?) i'm afraid that if we don't meet, what would that signify? that we don't have fate. i can't deal with that coz i'm a firm believer of fate.
to me, i believe that it's fate that u meet someone n be friends with, it's fate that makes u somebody's child, it's fate that brings 2 people together to be a couple. so what happens when after playing the 'fate' game n the 2 of u didn't meet? does it mean that the 2 of u aren't meant to be together as a couple? not necessarily. how can anyone base their relationship on a game right? but i still don't have the courage to play this game. :p
heard from a colleague recently that she's jealous of me. why? coz she feels that i've got a good bf n that it's so sweet n nice to be able to do things together with the person u love. i guess that's quite true.
love doesn't come easily. some people have to pay a price to be with the person they love. for me to be able to enjoy what i have now with my bf, we went through a lot. so much that only 2 of my close guy friends know what happened. whatever happened in the past doesn't matter now coz i'm happy n enjoying every moment with my bf n that's all that matters.
my colleague is actually married n she's my age. got married last yr i think. somehow, she said she was blinded by love then. now she wants a divorce. i'm pretty amazed at how fast love for a person can die. if u loved him so much then, where did the love for him go? i don't understand. but i won't probe coz it doesn't really concern me.
is it really true that when love comes, u can't hide from it n when love goes, there's nothing u can do to stop it from going off? i always feel that to love a person, it doesn't mean that u have to make the person stay by ur side. as long as that person is happy, u should be happy for him/her (especially if that person isn't ur gf/bf). love can't be forced. it can only grow with time but if it doesn't happen, then i guess there's nothing much that anyone can do.
people who have known me long enough will know that i've never really had a lasting relationship. i know that lots of people love to ask me 1 question.. 'are u still seeing the same guy or u changed bf already?' i know that my reputation for relationships suck but yes, i've changed. over the past 2 years, i've changed. i now want a long lasting relationship n i think i've found it. so, to those who still love to ask me that question, i'm still seeing the same guy n i'm very very very happy with him.
my reputation for relationships might be bad, but something else is making it worse. i've found out that people i don't know have been using my photo to ask strangers in irc if they love threesomes n whatnots. somehow or other, i'm currently someone who loves to have sex with guys n even threesomes!!! my goodness! i'll kill those people personally if i find out who they are. utter nonsense!
sigh.. back to work now~
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