When I Dream~

today's my mum's bday. she's 51 today. happy bday mum!! i miss my mum. she passed away 15 yrs ago.. when i was only 8. i've only lived with her for 8 short yrs but i still have a very strong impression of her. mummy quarrelled with her family when she chose dad to be her boyfriend n later, her husband. mum's family hated daddy n daddy didn't like mummy's family either. whenever we went back to my maternal grandma's house, dad would be unhappy n ask mummy to go home earlier. but i know that deep down inside mummy's heart, she wished things were different coz she's a very filial daughter. things never changed even til the day mummy passed away. i used to be a very sickly child. i was sick almost every month, sometimes twice or thrice a month. it used to be very bad n mummy had to spend a lot of time looking after me n taking care of me. but mummy never grumbled nor complained. she took everything in her stride n did her best to teach me well....

somehow or other, i always feel that serendipity is the same as coincidences. it was only til yesterday that i found out that serendipity is the natural talent that some people have for finding interesting or valuable things by chance. was it because of the show 'serendipity' that i always felt that serendipity had something to do with love n coincidences. guess i can't really remember the movie much. the only part that i can remember from the show was how the male n female lead actor n actress met each other n decided to have a game of fate, n how the female actress wrote her contact no/address on a book n sold it to a 2nd hand book shop. that's all that i can remember. wonder y but somehow, that show struck something in me. it made me want to play that game of fate. in the show, the couple took different lifts n tried to see if they can guess correctly which level each chose n when the lift open, will they be able to see each other? i've always wanted to play t...

are changes good? caught up with jean today n realised that many of us have changed.. in terms of dressing, the friends we have, our mentality, personality, etc. i guess there can be good n bad changes. as for me, what i've noticed n close friends have noticed about my change is that i seem to have more gal friends now than guy friends n i'm closer to these gal friends than the guy friends. i no longer play the field as i used to n i talk more to gals than guys nowadays. the only close guy friends i have now are basically ali n josh n mayb a few guy friends whom i've known for quite long. is that considered a good change? not very sure but to most people, it should be a good change. at least i won't be labelled a flirt anymore. haha. i'm sure people change for a reason, be it good or bad. my sec close friend has changed so much in her attitude n outlook of life that i feel as if i don't know her anymore. the change is simply too drastic for me to accept. i...

to my dearez diana, wanna wish u a very happy bday!! nearly forgot about it til my bday reminder alarm rang. so sorry. hope u enjoyed urself on ur bday n i'll pass u ur present when i c u. it's from me, tom, lin, jessie n mel. hope u like what i chose coz if u don't, then too bad!!! haha. u can alwiz give me back coz i liked it myself. haha. kidding. but if u don't like the design, i'll bring u to choose another one within 14 days k? *hugz* to my lao gong del del, it's been so long since i last saw u n chatted with u. sorry i couldn't meet u all today coz i booked my appointment to colour my hair. hope to c u real soon n to catch up with u. miss u so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!! miss the good old days when we will always eat lunch together n we always treat each other to lunch. haha. still remember the time when u forgot that we were to go for lunch together n i drew a RIP graveyard on the council room whiteboard. haha. :) it's been so long... to jiehui, tha...

Broken Vow by Lara Fabian Mmm…Tell me her name I want to know The way she looks And where you go I need to see her face I need to understand Why you and I came to an end Tell me again I want to hear Who broke my faith in all these years Who lays with you at night When I'm here all alone Remembering when I was your own I'll let you go I'll let you fly Why do I keep on asking why I'll let you go Now that I found A way to keep somehow More than a broken vow Tell me the words I never said Show me the tears you never shed Give me the touch That one you promised to be mine Or has it vanished for all time I'll let you go I'll let you fly Why do I keep on asking why I'll let you go Now that I found A way to keep somehow More than a broken vow I close my eyes And dream of you and I And then I realize There's more to life than only bitterness and lies I close my eyes I'd give away my soul To hold you o...

the 1st day of work at my new place sucked big time! the audit manager who interviewed me has resigned n left the workplace, went in at 9.. had meeting at 9.05am n the big boss started scolding the staff n talking about punctuality and goodness knows what else... don't really know what he's talking about anyway... my desk is superbly dirty.. had to clean then i was made to change table.. need to clean my table again.. the computers all look obsolete.. haha. nobody talked to me n i was told to read a file n checked the computer to look for the forms.. ya.. i know how to use a freaking comp n look at the forms but nobody told me what the forms are for, what are the abbreviations,how i'm supposed to fill in the forms.. i was left sitting there n reading the file the whole day with absolutely no idea what's happening. god.. wish i was dead!!! the only gd thing was.. u can listen to music while working.. but the problem is.. there's this girl who plays chinese folk...