Deserve better..
Frankly, I think I deserve better.. Sms-ed him if we were meeting over the weekend and his reply was "Can you don't ask me this sort of thing at this sort of time? I dunno what time I'll end work. U want to have ur own activity then go ahead." The very 1st sentence was enough to make me never ever sms or call him again. It was lunch time when I messaged him.. And all I asked was meet on Fri or Sat.
It sucks.. Sucks to the core. What does he take me as? Forget it. Seriously, forget it. I deserve so much more.. So much better. When I'm busy, I still reply him nicely and this is what I get. I don't understand.. In what way have I not been good to him? He said he was busy these 2 weeks. I haven't called or sms-ed him for days and I didn't even dare ask for a call or sms from him. I simply allowed him to call or sms if he wants to or have the time to. And yet, it was.. Never. Not a call or sms. What am I to him?
I keep asking myself this question the whole day. I cried in office.. Again. Irene was there for me when I cried. She kept telling me it's not worth it. It's the 2nd time he made me cry in office and Irene was there both times. She cheered me up by showing me the latest video clip of her baby boy and he was sooo funny and cute that I was laughing again. But deep inside, the damage has been done. When I had finished my work, I started thinking about it again.. I dunno what to do. This time, I'm really lost and confused..
Was able to concentrate on work which sometimes, I amaze myself. In the midst of the sadness, tears and heartache, I didn't make any mistakes at work. I can't help but be proud of myself in that sense. Career has always been important to me. Need to feed myself with a job..
Found out that the job opportunity is to support Hong Kong business but based in Singapore. A bit disappointed and the desk (job scope) is not something that I'm familiar with. The people there aren't that nice either. Still considering about this.. Citi advertisement on TV now. Haha. The coincidences in life..
Somebody came to look at the empty room earlier and liked it. I'm having a new tenant soon. ^.^
Chris Yeo asked why I keep listening to Bleeding Love.. I am bleeding.. I'm tired.. Tired from the crying. It's time to move on for me.. Just like it is for Shuang. We are strong girls. We will be able to get over it. :)
It sucks.. Sucks to the core. What does he take me as? Forget it. Seriously, forget it. I deserve so much more.. So much better. When I'm busy, I still reply him nicely and this is what I get. I don't understand.. In what way have I not been good to him? He said he was busy these 2 weeks. I haven't called or sms-ed him for days and I didn't even dare ask for a call or sms from him. I simply allowed him to call or sms if he wants to or have the time to. And yet, it was.. Never. Not a call or sms. What am I to him?
I keep asking myself this question the whole day. I cried in office.. Again. Irene was there for me when I cried. She kept telling me it's not worth it. It's the 2nd time he made me cry in office and Irene was there both times. She cheered me up by showing me the latest video clip of her baby boy and he was sooo funny and cute that I was laughing again. But deep inside, the damage has been done. When I had finished my work, I started thinking about it again.. I dunno what to do. This time, I'm really lost and confused..
Was able to concentrate on work which sometimes, I amaze myself. In the midst of the sadness, tears and heartache, I didn't make any mistakes at work. I can't help but be proud of myself in that sense. Career has always been important to me. Need to feed myself with a job..
Found out that the job opportunity is to support Hong Kong business but based in Singapore. A bit disappointed and the desk (job scope) is not something that I'm familiar with. The people there aren't that nice either. Still considering about this.. Citi advertisement on TV now. Haha. The coincidences in life..
Somebody came to look at the empty room earlier and liked it. I'm having a new tenant soon. ^.^
Chris Yeo asked why I keep listening to Bleeding Love.. I am bleeding.. I'm tired.. Tired from the crying. It's time to move on for me.. Just like it is for Shuang. We are strong girls. We will be able to get over it. :)
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