Finding myself..

Here I am.. Back in the land of a place where I just returned from.. Shanghai. Many people ask me why I'm wasting time and money coming back to this place after I've been here for 2 months. Most people won't even come here again after they've been here once. For a simple reason. I needed to find myself again and there's no country I know better than this place. Hence, I'm back here.

Currently sitting at one of the cafes I liked the most while I was here. Name of the cafe is called "House of Flour" and I loved the food, the people and that they have Wifi here and I can use my laptop. It's far from where I'm staying but really near to the office where I used to work here. Really miss this place the whole time I was back in Singapore.

Embarking on this journey to find myself came as a surprise too. I've never been one who has been rash in decisions or to spend money like this but this time, I really needed a break from Singapore. Hopefully, when I return, I'll be the same me again and not the emotional me over the past few weeks. If I'm not back to the old me after this trip, then I would have wasted my money.. Haha.

Touched down in Shanghai on Saturday and the driver picked me up. Went to Hyatt for drinks that evening which was something that I've always wanted to do coz from there, you can have a very good view of the Bund and a good view of Shanghai. After drinks, I met up with some friends for dinner at a very popular place for ducks. And after which, we went clubbing at Muse which was our normal haunt while I was there. The usual clique that I normally hang out with wasn't around but another group of friends were there so we joined them. Left after being there for about 2 hours and after we had finished 2 bottles of Johnnie Walker Black Label. Haha.

Woke up at 12+ on Sunday and lazed around til 3+pm before heading out shopping for a bit. Bought some DVDs and walked til about 6+pm before heading back to rest. Went for Japanese dinner at 8pm and had a glass of my favourite Choya. Trimmed my hair at the hair salon next door which was the one I coloured and highlighted my hair when I was here previously. Requested for the same hairdresser and he's still as cute as ever. Haha. He looks like a Jap and is really good. By the time I left the salon, it was 12 midnight. :p

Yesterday, the driver brought us to his hometown where there was a man-made beach. It's a very interesting place where the sand is like clay. Had to walk very far out to the sea which was yellowish in colour. Gross right? But I had fun there. I even got to experience riding on a horse which was something that I've always wanted to try but never had the chance to. Horses are so beautiful and I truly enjoyed the ride out. Had so much fun yesterday that I felt like I was back to normal.

Not sure if I'm back to normal yet.. When I'm alone and in my own thoughts, I know I'm not. I think too much nowadays which is not good. Is this quarter life crisis? I feel like I'm at the crossroads in my life where I'm always lost and not knowing what to do. Today is the 4th day that I'm here.. Will have to leave this place in about 4 days' time.. Will I be ok by then? I wonder.. But I know that once I'm back in Singapore, I'll focus on my career and improving myself. Will not be distracted again.. That's what I decided on when I saw the rainbow in the sky when I was about to land in Shanghai. It made me feel like I had a new lease of life and that I should make full use of it. And I will make full use of it.. I will be me again.

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