confused...
well, been thro my interview.. think i'm getting the job but my mind's in a whirl.. not sure what i should do..
the citibank job pays well. that's for sure. not sure if i'll get to enjoy the benefits coz i'm only a contract staff. contract for 1 year. conversion to perm staff will only happen if i work well n hard enough n if there's a vacancy. basically what i'll be doing is gonna b pretty admin stuff. not sure if i wanna do that. i mean, i studied 7 years of accounting.. is it what i really want?
my big boss's p.a. has told me that someone who once broke the contract of our company had to pay 6 months' worth of pay to the tyrant (big boss). not sure if i have to do that or not coz i told me own boss before that i wasn't happy here n that auditing is not suitable for me n he told me to try it out for 3 months first. my big boss's p.a. told me that since there's another vacancy for the post of finance and admin personnel, i can try it out since i don't really like auditing. but pay n benefits will be exactly the same so what's the point? n i'll be working directly under the tyrant which makes everything worse.
sighz.. what m i going to do?? honestly, if u ask me what is it that i wanna work as in the future, i have no idea. where does my interest lie? how about being a singer? that's where my interest lies.. i've never really thought about what i want to work as in the future. y make me think now? i've always hated to make this sort of decisions. i mean, i like admin work n i do like accounting stuff too. so what is it that i wanna do?? i don't know.. really don't.. n this feeling sucks. juz lemme be a singer n i'll be real happy. sighz...
this is so awful.. i hate this feeling.. feel so screwed. never liked this feeling, never will.. what am i going to do?? got job, also confused.. no job, also confused.. such a dilemma.. do i want to leave or do i want to stay? what job do i want? all these stupid questions..
wish i can juz drop dead tonite or tomorrow then i won't have to think anymore! screw it.. fuck life!
the citibank job pays well. that's for sure. not sure if i'll get to enjoy the benefits coz i'm only a contract staff. contract for 1 year. conversion to perm staff will only happen if i work well n hard enough n if there's a vacancy. basically what i'll be doing is gonna b pretty admin stuff. not sure if i wanna do that. i mean, i studied 7 years of accounting.. is it what i really want?
my big boss's p.a. has told me that someone who once broke the contract of our company had to pay 6 months' worth of pay to the tyrant (big boss). not sure if i have to do that or not coz i told me own boss before that i wasn't happy here n that auditing is not suitable for me n he told me to try it out for 3 months first. my big boss's p.a. told me that since there's another vacancy for the post of finance and admin personnel, i can try it out since i don't really like auditing. but pay n benefits will be exactly the same so what's the point? n i'll be working directly under the tyrant which makes everything worse.
sighz.. what m i going to do?? honestly, if u ask me what is it that i wanna work as in the future, i have no idea. where does my interest lie? how about being a singer? that's where my interest lies.. i've never really thought about what i want to work as in the future. y make me think now? i've always hated to make this sort of decisions. i mean, i like admin work n i do like accounting stuff too. so what is it that i wanna do?? i don't know.. really don't.. n this feeling sucks. juz lemme be a singer n i'll be real happy. sighz...
this is so awful.. i hate this feeling.. feel so screwed. never liked this feeling, never will.. what am i going to do?? got job, also confused.. no job, also confused.. such a dilemma.. do i want to leave or do i want to stay? what job do i want? all these stupid questions..
wish i can juz drop dead tonite or tomorrow then i won't have to think anymore! screw it.. fuck life!
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