You Can't Please The World..

Don't wish to talk about work (aka Ailmer portion).

I think I'm allergic to office. My nose will automatically hurt when I step into office. Then it will be blocked or runny. Will feel bad and lousy after that. Sucky feeling. Til now my nose still ain't cleared. ARGH! Sickening..

Mahesh made me laugh in office a lot of times today. He really knows how to cheer me up. Even said that he's a poet and the poem goes like this.. "With Maggie there, you don't need to care. With Maggie here, there's no fear." Faint.. But he really cheered me up a lot today with a lot of other stuff.

Spoke to a friend today. Not really spoke. More like messaged. He told me something that hurts. Not the 1st time I'm seeing those words but suddenly, I realise I'm losing my guy friends coz of such stupid reasons. He said that his gf doesn't like him meeting me or hanging out with our group of friends coz I'm around. How ridiculous is that? I've never done anything to show that I have any feelings (love/relationship kind of feelings) for the guy and this is what they think???

Why can't they just trust their guy? Why can't they have more confidence in the guy and in themselves? If things were to happen, it would have happened long ago. If it didn't happen then, it won't happen now. I never wanna fight with another woman for a guy. I never did, never will!!! No matter how much I love the guy, I will NOT do such a thing. There is no need to. As long as the guy I love is happy, I'll keep quiet about my feelings and steer clear of him and never let him know.

But why can't people just understand that? Sighz.. It really hurts to know of such stuff. Especially when it concerns me, when it seems like it's my fault. I can't help the way I look. I'm born to look like this (not that I don't like my face). But like what Peter used to say, "You can't please the world. Just live ur life the way conscience free."

Complained to Ed gor about this issue this morning. Told him that I needed him to show me the light once again. He did. He told me the same. You can't please everyone. There's no need to change ur life and the way u live or behave just to please certain people. If u manage to please these people, will u lose the people who like u the way u originally were? What about the new people in life who prefer u as the original u? He gave me strength and the encouragement I much needed. Thanks gor, for always being there for me and always supporting me! :)

Dinner with Cher @ Round Market for fish steamboat that she has been craving for the longest time. Hahaha. Cabbed home. Gonna shower and sleep soon. Super tired especially with the nose block. Glad to have my pillars of strength by my side everytime I need them. Thanks all!

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