When I Dream~

Some stuff I missed out on typing last nite.. Had a good talk with Mahesh yesterday while waiting for the bus. He taught and told me a lot of things about Diwali aka Deepavali. :) He is the one who makes me laugh everyday in office and helps me in my work sooo much. I am really having trouble learning Exotics.. At least that's what I think. Can't seem to pick up fast enough though I'm fast with expiries now. It's gonna take time. Too confusing.. Thought of trying to transfer to front office to be a dealer as there is a vacancy. But.. Hiring freeze now and nobody knows how long this freeze will be for. Sighz.. There goes my chance. I'll wait for the right time to try again. Actually I've zero confidence in becoming a dealer but it seems like there are people who are confident in me. Eeyore and Ed gor were urging me to try.. But too bad.. Went to Isetan Scotts to collect my gift vouchers. Spent them on the spot when I bought 3 tops. Had to pay extra $52 for them. ...

Hmmz.. Why does my blog song always get cut by half when I access my blog? Shucks.... Work was.. Depressing! Redundant and senseless questions by Ailmer since I stepped foot in office. Followed by settlements that took me soooo long to do still. Sighz.. Today's not really my day. Stupid lock caused me to bleed. Had such a huge mozzie bite while waiting for Ann. :( The only happy thing was when Bio jumped up by himself onto the bench to sit next to me again. And he was sooo excited to me that he came charging towards me today. :p Very very sweet!!! Dinner @ Toa Payoh Central. Had kway chup at the interchange then walked home. Hot! Came home, saw my China tenants mess in the house. Sickening. Tolerate for 2 more days and that's it. Yay!!! K.. Gonna bathe. Lappie's rebooting. Gonna watch dvd too. Insomnia last nite. Need to sleep early today. I'm half dead now. Nitez!

Lappie's crashed on me.. Again!!! Blogging using Eeyore's Vaio. Can't live without my lappie. I feel handicapped but thank God I managed to backup everything before it went dead on me again. Graphic card is dying.. Gotta send my lappie for servicing next weekend. Sighz... :( Saddening. Picked Eeyore up from the airport today. Hehe. Good thing I did that else I'll have no lappie to use now. Hehehehe. I'm soooooo evil. :p Waited for him to unpack, ate Sarawak Kolo Mee for dinner then came home. Watching my HK drama again. Currently at episode 28 of 40 and I only started watching yesterday. Muahahaha. Can see how mad I am when it comes to watching my drama? Hehehe. Gonna concentrate on my show. I've got loads of chocs as gift. Muahahaha. My fave food! Woohoo!!!

New blog song heard from my HK drama. Lyrics per below. Blog on today will be posted later tonite. DNR- Ice Cream Talk to me You speak with me Don't sink before you rise baby Don't fade away You hesitate You seem to wait For all the time we had Feels like a world away Who's to say, we'll be ok We will make it through the night Don't wanna wake up in this state I just want us both to smile Cause we're the same And I know that we'll never change Look I bought your favourite ice cream I dont wanna see it melt away If you walk out now I don't know if we could be the same Baby just talk with me Cause I want you to stay here with me The memories The things we did I locked inside my heart Where I know I won't forget And now, who's to say, we'll be ok We will make it through the night Don't wanna wake up in this state I just want us both to smile Cause we're the same And I know that we'll never change Look I bought your favorite ice cream...

Bad feeling that my lappie is going to crash or there's something wrong with my beloved mouse. Sighz... :( It's hung on me twice today already and it's making me worried.. Woke up today and cleaned my room. Threw several stuff away and washed my whole toilet. :) Now my room is super clean! Gonna move the furniture around next weekend after my China tenants move out. Hehehe. Then my room will look more spacious and bigger. And the air con people will come and fix my air con. So I'll have new air con and everything will look better. Hehehe. Btw, Matt does not welcome me to LA. Kidding.. He's got visitors during the same period. Am making my own plans anyway. Still finding a place to go to but I'm sure I'll be able to find a place to go to. Have decided that worse come to worst, I'll stay home and pack my whole house and make it look ok again! Hehehe.

Nothing much happening on a weekend. :) Couldn't wake up to go NUS for the games. Hehe. Tried hard to look for Kek's hp number but nobody seemed to have it. Msg-ed Lyn in the end and she called me. Talked to Kek and he said I'm dead. Ooopppssss.. Sorry!! I woke up late.. :( Mahesh updated me earlier in the morning though. :) Watched discs the whole afternoon. Til it was time to go to Aunt Mic's place for dinner. :p Ate and chatted with both my aunts and my cousins. ;) Both aunts have made it clear that they wanna marry me off within the next year or 2. Ooooopppppsssssss.... Eerrrrr... Hmmmmzzzzz... I know I'm not that young anymore and I'm nearing the 'marrying' age, but.. No hurry yet right?? Sobz.. My family doesn't want me! Hehehe. Just kidding. :p But seriously, marriage is still a long way away I think.. Told them about my plans to change the sofa as well. They were agreeable. So there will be several changes at my place soon. Gonna move some of...

Drizzling this morning when I made the usual trip to Ann's place to wait for her. Fabio aka (Bio, Ann's doggie) was downstairs and couldn't walk around due to the rain. He was so excited to see me, more excited than normal. As always, I will bend down to pat him, stroke his fur and to give him a hug. Normally he'll sit on the floor next to me while I sit on the bench. Today, he insisted on jumping up the seat and squeezed in the small seat space with me. That was just soooooo sweet! I kept hugging him, calling him a good boy and stroking his fur. Made me miss my Cookie so much. Feel like buying a dog once again. Really do.. Love having the breeze blowing at me, sweeping the hair away from my face and making my hair tossled yet in a nice way coz it's only a breeze. Makes me feel good and fresh. Brightens up my morning. :) Work today was ok but.. Hypocrite at work. Backstabbed Mel when she's on leave. Could only hear bits and pieces of the conversation but I could...

Wore a long sleeved dress to work today. Bought when I was in Shanghai last year. Weather was cold then. Dress was thick. Suitable for today's weather. They said I look good in the dress. Hehe. :p But day didn't go smoothly after that. Shoe strap broke when I was carrying my lunch back to the table. :( Had to rush around Tampines finding a pair of shoes to replace and that I like. Finally bought a pair but.. Even after putting the thing to prevent the shoe from slipping, it still keeps slipping off my left foot. Pissed! Then while eating lunch, Ann msg-ed me to tell me that our Spain trip has been cancelled due to not enough people joining the tour group. Shitified! There were already 10 people who signed up when we registered. 5 more people only.. Yet! Sighz.. I don't wanna spend my compliance in Singapore, and even more not jus on a trip for 3 days only! I wanna go on a longer trip!!! Mus quickly find another country and place to go to. I can do a free and easy trip to Sp...

I am soooooooooo stressed at work that I think I can simply die. My rash is taking the turn for the worse yet again. After 3 weeks plus of nice smooth skin, it is becoming bad again! And all coz of the stress that I'm going thro. :( Depressing.. How can I not be stressed? Sighz.. I blasted at Charlie today for rushing me non-stop. I've only got a pair of hands and a head. I've only learnt doing Exotics since last Thurs. Every settlement has a different way of doing and nobody has the time to teach me properly. How much more do they want from me??? ARGH!!!!!!!!! Pissed!!!!!! I think.. I need to start taking my medication soon again. The itch today is bad.. It's killing. I wonder if I can sleep thro the nite without it. I hope I can. I don't wanna rely too much on the medicine. And the fact that it's drowsy would just mean that I'll still feel the effect tomorrow. :( I hate this!!! Refuse to talk to Ailmer at all. Been 2 days. Yes, I do not want to talk to him...

Tired.. Lack of sleep. Had a dream of a person I should no longer think about. I did not.. But yet, he's been appearing in my dreams for at least 5 times now.. In less than 5 months. It's insane. I wish I can control what I dream. I no longer wanna dream of him again. Work.. Made me tired. Been learning non stop. Have to cram so much in a day and it's normally at after work hours where I have to cram everything in. Sighz.. Stressed. My face is a mess. Pimples, blackheads, mozzie bite. SIGHZ!!! What is wrong with my face? Shall dtink more herbal tea. Did quite a lot since I came home. Still have to pack the stuff on my floor.. Hmmz.. Shall do that tomorrow when I come home instead. Gonna sleep soon. 11pm already! :p

New MA came. Name's Alison. Quite pretty, speaks with an American accent. Came from Taiwan. Very polite and courteous. Hope she works well but should be quite good since she's an MA. :) Decided never to scold Ailmer again. Sick and tired. Dinner with 2 of the dealers, HW & Vic. Have always been close to HW but he wanna get me close to the super eligible bachelor, Vic. Hahaha. So funny. Dinner at Siglap Xin Wang Cafe. Chatted a lot. They kept asking me if I wanna join them in Front Office. I do want.. But I'm not sure if I'm up to it. That is 1 aspect where I have no confidence in. They are actually hiring someone to replace PSM who has been seconded to Taiwan. Should I go for it? I really dunno.. Dilemma now. But I don't think I can get the job anyway so why worry? Now the thing is.. Should I even try in the 1st place? Hahaha. Matt, can't send the songs via email. Too big. I sleep at 11pm these days and it's 11.41pm now all coz of the songs! UR FAULT! Ha...

Woke up @ 8.30am, visited Gram. FINALLY! Damn.. I'm such a terrible grand-daughter. Miss Gram terribly. Glad to see her. I miss her loads! But Gram doesn't recognise me anymore. Breaks my heart... Came home, showered, cabbed to work. Testing ended 1 hour late, at 3pm. 2 systems were down from 12+ til 2+pm. Sighz.. In between, I was so bored that I re-read blog entries that I'd written over the past 2 months. Still bored, I read Matt's blog from June to date. Can see that he has been happy over the last few months. Having fun travelling and meeting friends with his wifey, having a daughter who loves him and even his daughter's friend thinks so highly of him. Happy family. How envious I am.. Sighz.. Wonder when I'll have a family of my own. Have always dreamed of my wedding day, the wedding photos I'll take, the kind of wedding dress that I'll wear. It's not gonna happen anytime soon so all I can do is continue dreaming.. Met XZ at Chinatown Point. Sup...

Just changed my blog song to Eternal Love by PJ Duncan. A song that I liked since the 1st time I heard it in Secondary School. :) Had a chat with Matt on MSN this afternoon. Haven't chatted with him for some time now.. Napped at 4+pm.. Til Bee & Felix came over. Bee took some music from my lappie while I showered. Picked sis & MZ up and headed to East Coast Park Food Centre for dinner. Bumped into Shuang while waiting for a table. Went with her to her table, met Aaron on the way and played with Jojo. :p Cute doggie! Ordered heaps of food! Way toooo much. Had oyster omelette, 2 plates of rojak due to miscommunication, char kway teow, fried hokkien mee, beef bee hoon, oyster sauce kailan, sambal stingray, fried tau pok, satay, fried chicken wings and sugar cane. Ate til we were complaining we were full. Haha. Keppel Bay after that. TCC. Ordered a new drink - Bleeding Tears. I teared a bit on the way there. Several memories came to mind.. East Coast Park Food Centre.. The same...

Busy mornings I have now, afternoons too. Everything that I learn, I do on the spot. Faint.. And nobody has the time to really teach me. Most of the time, I'm just grasping around but managed to get things done. Spent 4 hours doing 4 settlements today. After all, it's the 1st time I'm doing. Hopefully I can be much faster soon. :p I've got confidence in myself. Spent some time during lunch to pack my drawer and my table. Threw away lotsa stuff and packed things neatly in my drawer. :) Now I have 2 bouquets of flowers on my table - yesterday's fresh bouquet and this bouquet. This bouquet was received in June and it has dried up already. It's the nicest dried roses I've ever made. It still has the original colour and looks as nice as the fresh ones. Beautiful! I love this bouquet! Don't think I'll ever throw this bouquet away. ^.^ Watched "Nights in Rodanthe" after work with Cher @ Bishan. Had dinner at Mos Burger then went for the show. Very...

Slept at 10.50pm last nite. Conked out. Busy morning @ work today. Had to do stuff for both teams as I'm still learning manual deals. Time flew me by and it was lunch soon. :p Bought corn and carrot soup with rice and honey sea coconut for dessert. Greedy me! Afternoon was busy too. But.. Something made my day. A bouquet of roses were delivered to my office. 1st pic is without flash. 2nd pic was taken with flash to show the water droplets. Love flowers!!! A surprise that brightened my day. :) Sweet! Touched!! Macros are done! Woohoo!!! But it was with the help of Kelv. Had fun exploring and playing with it though it was really hardwork. :p Was thinking about the dress sense in my office on a work day. These days, all staff regardless of the floor they work at, the girls all dress so casually. Not that I dress very formal but at least I refrain from 3/4 pants or mini skirts on weekdays (Mon-Thurs). It really doesn't reflect well on the work environment. After all, we work in a b...

Quick post before I start doing my work AGAIN. Had to send the files home to work on the macros coz I wanna make it work. And for what? All coz of Ailmer. Damn. Spent 4 hours doing the macros in office. Sighz.. Had to cab home again. I need to save money. Been spending a lot and with the change in aircon at home that will cost me $4k plus some other renovation, it'll be about $5k minimum. Sighz... I need money!!! Yet to have dinner. Tummy feels weird. Not sure if it's due to hunger. Seems like it's starting to have cramps. More like gastric cramps.. Die.. The kind that I fear coz it landed me in hospital before. Should I eat or should I not eat? Hmmz.. Throat's starting to hurt a bit too. Sickening. BLEAH!!! Supposed to meet Leo for dinner tonite. He always doesn't reply my sms-es. Sighz.. This guy.. Hobby is to make me wait and also to disappear. Faint.. Gotta head back to work on Sunday. Workaholic.. Nah.. Some testing to be done between 11am to 2pm due to a migra...

Don't wish to talk about work (aka Ailmer portion). I think I'm allergic to office. My nose will automatically hurt when I step into office. Then it will be blocked or runny. Will feel bad and lousy after that. Sucky feeling. Til now my nose still ain't cleared. ARGH! Sickening.. Mahesh made me laugh in office a lot of times today. He really knows how to cheer me up. Even said that he's a poet and the poem goes like this.. "With Maggie there, you don't need to care. With Maggie here, there's no fear." Faint.. But he really cheered me up a lot today with a lot of other stuff. Spoke to a friend today. Not really spoke. More like messaged. He told me something that hurts. Not the 1st time I'm seeing those words but suddenly, I realise I'm losing my guy friends coz of such stupid reasons. He said that his gf doesn't like him meeting me or hanging out with our group of friends coz I'm around. How ridiculous is that? I've never done anyth...

Home.. Waiting for my tenant, JC, to come home then we're going to the pasar malam downstairs together. Hehe. Uneventful day at work today. Nothing much happening. Keep sneezing the whole day though. :(Blocked and runny nose throughout. Irritating. Watching my HK drama while waiting for my tenant. Nothing much to write about. :( Boring life. Saw 2 nice quotes recently. From Sky Burial (a book about Tibetans and Chinese.. Should read. It's really good! Makes me wanna go Tibet): No one likes crying, but tears water our souls. From James Dean: Dream as if u'll live forever, live as if u'll die today.

Saturday (11 October 2008) Woke up at 6am to wake Eeyore up to catch his flight. That pig didn't set his alarm and overslept! Faint.. Prepared and rushed to NUS for badminton competition. Sighz.. Lost real badly. I've decided to train hard in my running and badminton. Probably train for swimming too. Gonna be real healthy and work hard. :) Had a very bad headache after badminton. Stayed to support netball and soccer. Our soccer guys won 3-0 in the 1st match and 2-1 in the 2nd match. All the way to semis on 25th Oct. I'll probably head down to support them as well as our badminton team where our male & female doubles made it to the semis as well. COOL!! Headache got to such a terrible stage that I fell asleep on the cab back to Aunt Mic's place. Sorry to ignore Cher.. :( Reached Aunt's place and I think I must look real terrible. Aunt quickly massaged my head, gave me a panadol, on the aircon for me to sleep. Was still so hot and sticky as I hadn't bathed but...

Not much mood for work these 2 days. :( Badminton competition tomorrow. From simply being a reserve, I'm now a competitor due to the main player being injured. Shucks! I'm gonna play in mixed doubles and female doubles. Madness!! Wish me luck manz.. Scared.. Bought a new sports bra at City Link's Addidas. Will wear tomorrow. Hehe. Met Eeyore for dinner. Headed to Dempsey. Wanted to have dinner at PS Cafe but.. By the time he ended work and ran his errands, we reached Dempsey at 10+pm. PS Cafe was only left with desserts so we went to Wine Network instead. Ordered too much food! Had Gourmet Platter, Italian Ham & Mushroom Pizza and Top Shell Tapas! A glass of white wine each. :) Nice dinner. Left Dempsey at 12.20am for home. Super tired.. Shall sleep soon and be less dead for badminton tomorrow. And yes Matt, I'm trying my best to lead a healthy lifestyle. I barely drink, hardly smoke nowadays and I'm exercising. Drink & smoke very little now. I'm only le...

Home! Hungry! Once again. Haha. Macs only arrived at 1am last nite. Idiots. Took them 1.5 hours to deliver food to me when it's only 2 bus stops away. ARGH! Work was boring today. Not in the mood to work. Stoned most of the time away. Muahahaha. Evil me! Nothing much to blog about actually coz nothing happened today except for me getting blisters on my feet coz of my heels. Haha. And that happened coz my heels were relatively new (2nd time wearing) and quite high. Somehow, whenever I wear this pair of heels, everybody stares at me when I walk or stand up after sitting down. It's a height problem. Haha. Gonna shower, do my laundry and play game!

Bumped into Adrian from uni this morning. The super tall guy! Chatted as we walked to office. He's at the next building from mine. Still looks as good as ever. :) Busy day - The way I like it. I'm mad. I know. I LOVE work! I LOVE having things to do. Conference call this morning was postponed but I wasn't informed. :( Made me wake up at 6.15am just to reach office before 9am. Duhz! Fixed the fax machine together with Mahesh and Mel after lunch. Took us half an hour, dirtied my fingers and hand, gave myself at least 5 cuts but managed to fix it! Muahahaha. That is.. With a bit of breaking a small part of the machine. Oopppssss.. Whatever! As long as the damn machine works, who cares! Hehe. Finished work at 9pm. Eeyore took cab to pick me up from Tampines. Went to BSP, picked up his last few stuff to be shifted to RV. I wonder how he does his packing and moving on his own. He obviously can't pack!!! Faint. Cabbed to RV, dropped off the stuff, cabbed back home. Showered, h...

No checker at work in afternoon today. I was part time unofficial checker. Should I be happy? No longer know. Doesn't matter anymore. Job scope's gonna change so I'll definitely not be made checker anyway. Stop pinning hopes on it. Eeyore met me for dinner at Tampines today. Ate at Hans. :) Badminton with Cher & Roy at Marine Parade CC after dinner. Heats is this Saturday. Still unsure of whether we'll be in the competition. Will only find out tomorrow I think. Wonder if I'm in.. Haha. Starts at 9am.. Should I hope that I'm not in? Hehehe. Saw a post on CY's gf's blog today. Something I didn't wanna comment about. It's his life anyway. Just don't understand what he's doing and why he has changed so much. Probably like what Cher said.. He's blinded by love. I give up.. Managed to get a perfect 100 note score for my Guitar Hero last nite. WOOHOO!! Waiting for hair to dry before I sleep. Should I blow dry or play game and wait for it...

Moody day. Dunno why. Mood's been down. Sucks. Woke up in the middle of the nite to sneeze. Again it's happening. I don't wanna be down with flu again. Bought herbal tea (the super strong and smelly kind) during lunch. Down-ed the whole bottle with 3 breaths in between. Feeling more human once again. Work was ok. Busy in a nice pace. Ailmer tried to bug me for things to do. I'll start to teach him month end stuff soon. Scolded him yet again today. Getting sick of it. Did it in a very bored tone. Was more sarcastic than scolding. No energy nor mood to scold him. Dinner at a Philippino Restaurant @ Marina Square. Dunno what's the name of the place. Food was so-so. Not really my kind of food. Filling though.. River Valley to help Eeyore unpack a bit and then head home. Gonna shower and sleep soon.

Couldn't manage to wake up once again. Hate myself. Chinatown with Ann to book my Spain trip. Expensive! Broke.. 1 day after I come back from Spain, I'm heading straight to the airport again for Bali. Love hols! But very expensive. Need to ask for $ back from several people soon. :( Dinner at East Coast Park Scruffy Murphy's Irish Cafe & Pub. Oktober Fest is on so we had German Ham and Sausages. I had 2 Sangrias. They did it well. Taste good! Walked 5km to Bayshore then cabbed home. Packed room. Read Matt's blog. Glad that he's happy and doing well. Seems much happier already. Happy for him. To XZ, I'm sorry.. Really sorry. U know what I'm talking about. I hope u get to read this. Really didn't mean it to be like that. All I can say now is.. Sorry.. Mood's not good today. Should sleep soon.

Woke up & on Xbox. Guitar-ed for an hour, showered, lunched and went to MZ's mum's house. Mahjong for close to 5 hours. Sis & MZ seemed pretty much back to normal today. I'm not sure if it's really back to normal but I hope so. Getting a bit tired of being the middle person between them and the middle person between the family & them. Movie "Painted Skin" @ Vivo 11.30pm. Show was ok. Funny at parts. Somewhere near the ending of the show, the hubby declared his love for the wife. I was touched. As always, teared a little. It was really touching. Will anyone die for me? I doubt so. But shows.. are always deceiving. Making u believe things that will not happen in real life. Balestier for bak kut teh after movie. I didn't eat. Still full from the very heavy dinner at MZ's mum's place. Drank barley, waited for the rest to finish eating, then home. Just showered. Thought of gaming but seriously too tired. I've been saying that I wanna vis...

In the past, the 1st thing I do when I reach home is to on my lappie. Now, the 1st thing I do when I reach home is to on Xbox. I'm addicted to being a rock guitarist. Haha. Bought 2 new Xbox games just now - Lost & The Simpsons. Will start playing soon! Woohoo!!!!!!! Caught "Christina Vicky Barcelona" just now at Plaza Sing. Show was not bad. Barcelona was absolutely gorgeous!!!!!!!!!! My beloved Spain! If nothing goes wrong and my tour goes thro, Spain, wait for me!!! I'll be there in Nov! I'm keeping my fingers crossed real tightly and praying real hard to go for it! WOOHOO!!!!!!!!!! Finally got access to Shuang's blog once again. Didn't know that she has been going thro so much recently. Hope all goes well for her and that she'll be happy once again. I'm always here for u girl. Take care!! It's more guitar playing now. Hehe.

Helping to pack other people's room for a move of house. Typing this on a Sony Vaio. Pretty cool lappie. The keyboard is just as nice as my own lappie and I think this is lighter than my lappie. Hmmz.. But I still love my lappie. Haha. Work was busy but I love it! Kept me busy from morning til the time I ended work at 6.30pm. Woohoo!!! A few queries from friends reading my blog: - No, the Xbox is not mine. My friend lent it to me so that I can vent my anger on. - The woman I wanted to slap the other day is the slut who is trying to destroy my sis's marriage. K.. Watching Style Star now. How much of a help am I at helping to pack? Haha. Oopsss... Shhhh....

Tuesday (30 September 2008) Love monthend coz it gives me work to do! Haha. Worked hard and finished everything by 5.30pm. Woohoo!!! Dinner at Funan Sakae Sushi coz was supposed to buy games at Funan. Shop was closed by the time we reached, hence it was just dinner. Went to sis's place after dinner and fell asleep at 10+pm on her sofa. Cabbed home at 12+am coz of the heavy downpour. Had to call cab. Home, showered and slept immediately. Wednesday (01 October 2008) Once again, too tired to wake up to visit gram. I'm bloody unfilial. Lunch at market opposite my house and down to sis's place again. I've been going there so often these days to entertain her. Mahjong from 5+pm , dinner then mahjong til 12+am. Home, showered and I'm blogging now. Super tired. Didn't do anything coz I've been travelling to sis's place so often. Meeting her n her hubby again this Sat. It's all gonna be with her and her hubby for now. Don't want them to keep arguing over ...