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Blogging in office again. Yes.. I'm that bored. Too bad office has blocked Blogger website else I will post it immediately instead of having to email to my personal account, copy and paste into Blogger to post it. Sighz..

A thought flashed across my mind today. So often, people say keep in touch or stay in contact. How many people really do that? I seriously wonder.. I know not many of my friends or ex-bfs will do that though they said to keep in touch. I am not surprised if my ex-bfs do not stay in touch. Who will like to continue a friendship with their former partners? I admit, I do especially if we broke up on friendly or mutual terms.. Coz my ex-bfs are the ones who know me best. But they think otherwise. Sigh.. Am I such a difficult person?

Ever since Chinese New Year, I have given up trying to stay in contact with friends who do not wanna continue the friendship. I feel ridiculous.. Trying to arrange dinner, coffee, meet-up sessions or even sms-ing people who do not bother at all. How many people have said "Meet for lunch/dinner soon" but never done so? How many people have I messaged or emailed only to have no reply? How many people actually do call/sms/email/msn me to keep in contact? Not many actually.. So many modes of communication as technology becomes more and more advanced yet people become more and more distant with one another.

Do not tell others to keep in contact or stay in touch if you do not mean what you say. Why waste the time and effort of your "friends", if you even consider them as friends in the first place? There was a morning when I tuned in to Class 95 and Flying Dutchman was talking about Friendster. Do people really add others in Friendster coz they are friends or just coz they have seen the other person before or simply know the other person's name/face? Most of us are just acquaintances, not friends.

Friends are people like Matt, Meng, Felix, Bee, Carissa mummy, Chris mama, Irene, Jean, Anne, Cheryl, Terrence.. (Think I miss out some people.. But my brain can't think right now) People who truly care about me. :) These are the people I hold close to my heart.. The ones who make a difference - Matt and Terrence. Matt - someone I've known for almost a year.. So far but yet so concerned about me. Terrence - someone I met thro a friend's friend and the best part, at DF. Yet, he truly cares about me as a friend and wanna introduce his own friends to me! That's what I call, true friends!

Anyway, enough of my harping on the topic of friendships. Just had my lunch with Hongwei papa. He was very nice to queue up with me to buy 4D and Toto for tomorrow. Hehe. :) Another boring afternoon.. What shall I do? Hmmz..

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Just reached home. Lunch was nice.. And I bought my 4D and Toto. Well, 4D didn't win any money. :( Haha. The queue was soooo long but luckily it moved quite fast. Was my turn in 15 mins and of coz, thanx to Hongwei papa for queueing up for me while I went to pick my numbers.

Gopi took the whole morning and afternoon to do 1 single deal. Requested for amendments from dealers almost 8 times and flooded our mailboxes with unnecessary stuff. Sighz.. Did both the new deals for today. I have not talked to him since he came back yesterday. Only answered him rudely twice when he asked me questions. Don't see the point in being nice to him.

Ended work at 8pm where JZ picked me up from office. Headed to Vivo for movie. 1st time I'm watching movie there! Haha. I know, suaku aka mountain turtle. That's me! :p We bought the tickets and went to look for the shop to buy his singlet but couldn't find it!!! Sobz!! The sales girl bluffed him! Sighz..

Ate at Kim Gary, this HK style cafe. My idol, Bosco Wong, is actually on the menu! Haha. He's the main reason why I wanted to eat there. But food was only so-so and the service wasn't exactly fantastic. Overall experience, alright..

The show wasn't as good as what I was expecting. Wasn't entirely according to the book and some parts where I expected them to act out were omitted. Sighz.. Sad.. I remember I read the book and finished it in 1 day. I read it from the min I stepped out of my house and hopped on to the cab to Kef's salon for my haircut, perm or rebond or colour (I can't remember). I was tearing so much while reading the book!! Kef thought what happened to me and passed me tissue telling me to relax. Haha. The book was soooo touching. Tom came to meet me before going for football and he thought I was mad. Hahaha. But when I read a book, I can picture the images in my mind and everything becomes so real. But the show.. I only teared 4 times and I laughed quite a bit too. Really not what I was expecting. :(

But of coz, I enjoyed it for the company that I had and am glad that he was willing to watch it with me coz it's definitely not his kind of show. :) He wanted to drive to Mt Faber after the show but we missed a turn and decided to head home instead. So here I am, home sweet home. Can still smell his perfume on my hair and I'm already missing him.

Called Meng today. He's engaged!!! CONGRATS BRO!!!! So happy for u!! Finally tied down by Doris! Haha.

Carissa mummy, don't worry. Depression won't exist in my dictionary or in my life. Life goes on for everyone regardless whether I'm the usual chirpy, cheery me in office. He will keep me sane and happy everyday, even when I don't meet him for the day. He makes me laugh, thro the phone or face to face. I am laughing and talking each day, just not much in office. :)

K.. Shall go call him and sleep soon. It's 1.30am! And I couldn't wake up this morning.. Hahaha. And he just made me laugh via MSN again! :D How to be depressed?? Hehe.