Platonic Friendships
Couldn't concentrate at work today. Too many things on my mind.. Turned down a bowling session after work and chose to go home by bus on my own instead of by car. Needed time on my own to think. Come to think of it, I haven't taken a bus home since I cam back from Shanghai 2 months ago. Either I will go out after work and take the train or Felix will send me home.
Made a big discovery this morning that made me distracted throughout the whole day and maybe lose my mind. There may have been warning signs but never really hit me til I asked someone else for the answer. Worse of all, I never knew it happened since so long ago and I only sensed it recently. What have I been doing? Maybe like what Cheryl said, I've been too caught up in the situation that I never noticed the telltale signs that were very obvious to everyone else. It has never dawned on me.. Or is it coz I've never felt that it would be possible? The truth is hard to accept but ain't that always the case? Why is this causing me to be in a dilemma when I know that it's impossible? Guess it's coz it will affect friendship... Sigh...
Why is it so hard to have platonic friendships? Why must it always end up being associated with "love"? Someone said that when most guys talk to a girl initially, it's mostly coz they are interested with the girl. But for me, it's different. I'm close to guys and I talk to them coz I feel that we can communicate.. In terms of sports and the activities that I like with the exception of shopping and watching HK dramas. But guys tend to have different perceptions and think otherwise.
Must I really change myself and my behaviour to be less chummy with people, especially guys? I don't wish to change coz that won't be me anymore. I just wanna be me.. The way I am.. A girl who is friends with guys for a simple reason. To just be friends and nothing more. And I hope that my guy friends will treat me the same way. Purely as friends and not with any hidden agenda or thinking of any sort. That's all I ask for in girl-guy friendships.. Platonic friendships..
Made a big discovery this morning that made me distracted throughout the whole day and maybe lose my mind. There may have been warning signs but never really hit me til I asked someone else for the answer. Worse of all, I never knew it happened since so long ago and I only sensed it recently. What have I been doing? Maybe like what Cheryl said, I've been too caught up in the situation that I never noticed the telltale signs that were very obvious to everyone else. It has never dawned on me.. Or is it coz I've never felt that it would be possible? The truth is hard to accept but ain't that always the case? Why is this causing me to be in a dilemma when I know that it's impossible? Guess it's coz it will affect friendship... Sigh...
Why is it so hard to have platonic friendships? Why must it always end up being associated with "love"? Someone said that when most guys talk to a girl initially, it's mostly coz they are interested with the girl. But for me, it's different. I'm close to guys and I talk to them coz I feel that we can communicate.. In terms of sports and the activities that I like with the exception of shopping and watching HK dramas. But guys tend to have different perceptions and think otherwise.
Must I really change myself and my behaviour to be less chummy with people, especially guys? I don't wish to change coz that won't be me anymore. I just wanna be me.. The way I am.. A girl who is friends with guys for a simple reason. To just be friends and nothing more. And I hope that my guy friends will treat me the same way. Purely as friends and not with any hidden agenda or thinking of any sort. That's all I ask for in girl-guy friendships.. Platonic friendships..
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