When I Dream~

Couldn't concentrate at work today. Too many things on my mind.. Turned down a bowling session after work and chose to go home by bus on my own instead of by car. Needed time on my own to think. Come to think of it, I haven't taken a bus home since I cam back from Shanghai 2 months ago. Either I will go out after work and take the train or Felix will send me home. Made a big discovery this morning that made me distracted throughout the whole day and maybe lose my mind. There may have been warning signs but never really hit me til I asked someone else for the answer. Worse of all, I never knew it happened since so long ago and I only sensed it recently. What have I been doing? Maybe like what Cheryl said, I've been too caught up in the situation that I never noticed the telltale signs that were very obvious to everyone else. It has never dawned on me.. Or is it coz I've never felt that it would be possible? The truth is hard to accept but ain't that always the case? ...

Had dinner on Friday with Ting, Chris, Bee, Lynn n Felix at Lau Pa Sat. Was kinda nice to gather again but I know Ting is having a tough time at work. I won't be surprised coz the environment is really very different and the work is also very different. Sighz.. Dunno how to help her coz she's so far away now. Guess I can only hope and pray that she will get used to it soon. Checked out Muse Bar in Singapore with Bee, Lynn and Felix after that. So different from the Muse Bar in Shanghai. Bumped into Jimbo gor when I reached but he was leaving to go Velvet. :p It was drizzling whenwe reached so our moods were dampened as well. I headed to Dragonfly after that while the rest went home. Saw Utaki performing from the front view for the 1st time n he's soooo cute! Omigod! Haha. He sang a Japanese song as well. Melted.. :p~~ Drool... Haha. William Scorpion performed a new song as well. His emotions.. Fantastic! Made the whole performance so excellent! N he was only wearing his und...

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The trip to Raffles Hospital yesterday was one of a shocker. Haha. Why do I say that? I went to the Women's and Children Dept. The minute I stepped in, I could feel all the eyes staring at me. The whole place was filled with pregnant women who were there with their hubbies or parents who went there with their very young children. I was there on my own.. They must be thinking I have gotten myself pregnant or some mess like that. Sighz. No, I'm not freaking pregnant! How can I be when I don't do sex? Haha. Anyway, I wait for half an hour to see the doc who gave me a 5 minutes consultation, prescribed 2 packs of medicine and told me to go back in 3.5 weeks time. That 5 minutes plus 2 packs of medicine cost me $180!! My goodness.. I nearly fainted when I heard the amount. And I had to wait 40 minutes for them to make me pay. Sighz... Thank God I can claim company money.. But, I don't think I've got so much to claim after this time round and I still need to go back for c...

Just finished eating my instant noodles on my bed. Was too tired to want to go out for dinner. All I wanted to do was come home and rest.. At least stay on my bed. Hehe. So lazy... Having this rash on my face (That's not the recurring problem in my title for this post). It's 2 huge patches and I can't stand it. Sighz.. Make me look so ugly that I don't feel like facing the world. Just feel like hiding my face.. Sad right? :( Went to see the doctor today and she gave me a bottle of liquid to wash my face with and medicine to stop the itch and cream as well. She said it'll take at least 2-3 weeks to recover! I'm so dead!!! How am I supposed to go out with my face like that? My god.. Sadder... ARGH! Anyway, told the doctor about a problem that recurred. Was cured of it when I was 15 or 18.. I can't remember.. But it's coming back again. Sucks! Asked the doctor to prescribe the same medicine and cream for me but she said it's pointless to prescribe the s...

I'm such a klutz! Went grocery shopping today and spent $140 but forgot to bring my membership card to get points! Didn't even bring my IC. Sighz.. There goes 280 points and that's the most I've managed to attain so far!! ARGH!!! Went for dinner with Cheryl, Bee, Ting and Felix on Friday night. It's been sometime since we had a proper gathering for dinner. Went to Liang Seah Street for porridge steamboat. It wasn't too bad I must say. 1st time that I eat porridge steamboat. Hehe. After that, we had dessert at another shop and the desserts are Hong Kong style which is the kind I like. Drool! :p Close friends are leaving the company or changing to other locations one by one. Sighz.. Kinda sad. Less and less friends are at Tampines and this saddens me. After the regionalisation to Shanghai and my coming back from there, so many close friends have either resigned or transferred out. Tampines is becoming a boring place to be at and I start wondering why did I decide ...

Just reached home from my 2nd salsa class. I had sooo much fun today! I really enjoy dancing so much! After the class, we asked the instructor if he could demonstrate a whole salsa dance for us to see and I was his partner. Of coz I'm really sure of what to do. The instructor told me to just do my basic steps and the simple turn which I followed. He swirled and spun me around so much that it was funny coz I didn't know what to do. Haha. But it was really the kind of dance that I like and he even ended the dance with a dip. Got a shock but it was exciting! It's really very cool! Made me so happy. Hehe. I think I wanna sign up for more salsa classes and learn all the moves. At least I know I'll be occupied and have stuff to do. :p Just lack a partner though but I guess it doesn't matter. Actually Chris and I have got the most chemistry in class, but.. Anyway, think I'm falling sick.. AGAIN!!! So many times this year. Sighz... This sucks! But dancing has made me fo...

Sometime back, somebody told me that the word love is being used too easily. Couples often use the words "I love you" on each other but what is the definition of love? I know there is no right or wrong answer to the question but when someone says "I love you", what is he/she feeling and thinking? I've been pondering about that topic.. Love. What is love? When I say "I love you", what goes through my head? Falling in love with a person is easy but maintaining the love, that's the difficult part. Of coz when we say "I love you", we mean it at the moment but what happens when the feelings start to fade? The love just dies.. Shouldn't love be something that lasts forever? This topic is so good for debates but I don't want to debate over this topic. Someone once told me many years ago that I don't know what love is. Maybe til this day, I still dunno what it is. I don't think I'll have the courage to say "I love you...

Finally went to Cafe Del Mar today with my friend, O, who came back from the States for holiday. He's going back to the States soon and I wonder when we will meet again. That guy earns a million dollars a year! No joke manz! Wonder if I'll ever get to that level. Haha. Really must work hard now. :p Anyway, just received my letter from my boss that I've gotten a pay adjustment and I've got an increment! Haha. It's pretty ok considering the fact that I've just gotten promoted and a very good increment in February. I'm pretty happy about it. Just need 1 more increment or maybe 2 to be able to apply for platinum credit cards. Hehe. Guess how much I'm earning now based on that. I'm not gonna reveal that in my blog. :) Gave my blog add to both EK and Chris today. Never expected myself to do that but blogging is just a way of sorting out my thoughts and allowing friends to catch up on my life. My real serious thoughts are in my diary so my blog does not con...

Just came back from another movie with EK. We went to watch Goal 2 and it's a show that features soccer and most importantly, my favourite soccer team - Real Madrid! Hehe. The show totally rocks and I'm so in love with it! :p Almost the whole team was featured! COOL!! Am so in love with the show that I rushed down to HMV to buy the 1st part - Goal! Hehe. Can't wait to start watching it but I know I can't do it tonite or I won't need to sleep at all. But now, my whole mind is swirling with Real Madrid and my love for Spain is growing tremendously! Next year, I will definitely try to visit my beloved Spain and I hope the trip is as good as I've always wanted it to be. Must save lots of money now so that I can enjoy the trip more. Hehe. :p Ok.. I need to bathe and watch my Hong Kong drama. :) Walked home from Toa Payoh Central just now and it's so totally hot! Need my cold shower~!

Went to St James Dragonfly on Fri nite after work. I LOVE that place! Really! It was the kind of clubbing scene that I enjoy. :p Got to know 2 guys that day. 1 was a friend's friend (EK) that we happened to bump into and it was so coincidental that he was also from our company. :) The other guy.. Well, I've yet to really talk to him so.. Haha. Anyway, just came home from a day out with EK. He sure can talk a lot but I guess it's part of the knowing each other process. He has a lot of hand gestures when he talks. Haha. We have quite a lot in common actually but for now, we'll only be friends. I don't mind having more friends coz I won't be so bored on weekends then. My mindset now is to have more friends, but not relationships. Scared of relationships at the moment. Need to take a break from it. I'm happy the way I am now.. Finally at peace with myself, my heart and my soul. No longer drowning in my own sorrows and tears, no longer moping around and looking l...