Running

I was in office chatting with a trader from another desk over messenger before I left office and he said I still look happy everyday at work. Yes, I am happy - I love my trading team, I love the work, I love most of the people I work with. I am indeed very blessed in that sense and I'm grateful for that. To have a great team is the most important thing to me and my traders make me feel loved every single day! What else can I ask for?

I happened to bump into the same trader coincidentally in the lift as I was leaving office. My lovely traders allowed me to leave on the dot at 5pm sharp to go for a run. :) Wonderful people! So we were talking in the lift and I said I was going back to change n go for a run. He asked me something which struck a chord right in my heart - Are you running from problems or should you be searching for solutions?

It did hit me right there and then. I admit I might be running away from problems right now. I actually thought of changing departments or requesting to be transferred to another country for other positions or simply, leaving the firm. I thought of hopping on a plane by myself jus to be alone.

While running the 5km route earlier on, I know I shouldn't be running away from problems. I like to run physically but whatever issues should be resolved. I'm just too stubborn to take the 1st move. And it no longer matters to me.

I know I'll sleep like a baby tonite after 2 nites of insomnia. I know I'll do better than before and make myself proud. I know I'll be me, still the same old me.

Not sure where I heard A-Lin 以前以后 before but I love the lyrics and I'm glad I chanced upon this song. It's about love and dreams of a couple when they were in love and what happens after being in love or rather, after break up.

I believe in this - What is meant to be, will be.