Office Idols

Walking home in the relentless rain, what's the point of walking under shelters when my feet were still soaked? Being sick in this weather jus sucks but Ben managed to make me stay positive. Hmm.. Gotta stop complaining about me being sick. Makes me feel like I'm such an attention seeker.

But then again, while I was in office this afternoon, I had chest pains that were so bad til every move I made jus hurts my chest and my heart was beating at an extra fast pace. Body gone mad and crazy though I think it's more caused by sudden stress at work and the endless coughing. Oh well, at least I'm ok after taking a breather to the ladies and to the pantry. :)

The person whom I am wondering if he's colleague or friend, let's jus call him Mr Z coz I don't wanna expose his identity. Mr Z is making me confused - he didn't comment much on the thing I did. I dunno his thoughts. I thought I'll play it cool at work yesterday but he was so warm to me that I was at a loss of what to do.

In the evening, Mr Z asked me to go for a drink (non-alcoholic) coz I stayed late in office to settle some outstanding issues. We had a chat about his family, my work background and he asked me a question which I have been pondering for a while now. He asked me where I see myself in 2 years time - what would I be doing such as trader etc. I wonder too.. I dunno but I did think about it the whole nite. I might pick up my books again and study on my own what I'm doing right now.

In my years of working life, I have idolised a few people from work - Olly, Debbie, Cathy and now, Mr Z. They have been fantastic role models whom I look up to although I think some people won't agree with me. But to me, undeniably is that they are competent in their work and definitely, in their knowledge. I have a lot to learn from them.

So is Mr Z a colleague or a friend? I still wonder but we don't talk much about ourselves and stuff. It's mainly crap that we talk about and mostly stuff in the office. Definitely still a colleague. :p