When I Dream~

Was really pissed at work today, but not coz of my current department. I cannot believe that as a manager, when u have nothing bad to write about a person, u can write all sorts of rubbish as my appraisal. It's so ridiculous and when we try to ask for a proof or protect ourselves, u claim that we are very defensive. I mean, come on, the way that u write jus makes people pissed. Everyone who has seen the mail says that too. I have many people who can vouch for me regarding the way I work and they all know that what u wrote is jus rubbish! Seriously wtf! U suck as a manager and u have no "people" relationship skills. I was so pissed the whole afternoon since I saw the mail. Decided to stop arguing with a useless ex-manager and went directly to my new manager. Told him that I do not agree with the comments written by previous manager and my current manager actually said that he laughed at the comments coz it was so crappy! Told me that he has totally ignored the comments wri...

What does a girl do when her care and concern has been told off as a form of nagging? Does she stop talking and showing care and concern to the person? I no longer know what is right and what is wrong. I no longer know how to make a person happy or to even communicate anymore. Everything I do seems to be wrong. Asking slightly more questions and clarifying what was said is known as generation gap, and to think that we are of the same age. My english mus be really poor that people do not understand me and I need to clarify. My mistake for even asking. I know to keep quiet now. Let the doubts grow and not ask so much. Talking is not a form of communication. It's a form of miscommunication. So is typing. So how should we communicate now? Hand language? Maybe. How about not communicating with each other anymore. Would that be better? Then there will be no more misunderstandings that will lead to unhappiness. Would everyday be happier then? I can't be going to work with unhappiness ...

Still going around in the same circle of doubts and questions when we argue or quarrel. It's a never-ending thing?? Seriously wearing me out and making me really sick and tired. The sweetness never lasts. Bitterness sets in after a while. How much does a person need to do to prove her point? How much does it take to let a stubborn person understand certain things? How can a person be this stubborn that he can never put other people's viewpoint or words into his mind for consideration? Watched Inception over the weekend - Is this really what it is? The idea was already planted in his mind long ago, even before I knew him. Nothing can change it now? I think so. Well, at least I feel that way. That's why we are always going round and round in circles. People think it's all sweet and nice but it's only coz I try my best to stop blogging about the fights, quarrels and arguments. Don't wanna remember the bad things, only the good ones. Ask me if I'm getting marrie...

Just realised that I've been neglecting my blog. Wonder if I still have anyone reading it, but what does it matter? It's for me to remember stuff anyway though more often than not, I forget stuff rather than remember them. Work rocks! Seriously does. I'm happy with work and at work. I have a crazy and fun team, my mentor is always there for me despite being on block leave! My team loves Magnum ice creams and we're constantly eating! :p It's all good and I feel so different being here than in my previous department. 3 years of being in my previous department made me into a bitter person, angry with the world and everything revolving around me. Here, ranking and hierarchy is out of the window. We are a team. They are all higher ranked than me by a lot and earn heaps more than me so they pay for drinks, ice creams, food, etc. :) But that's not the point. The point is, everyone is jus at ease with everyone. World Cup 2010 came and went & I'm very very proud ...