When I Dream~

Was reading back on some old posts dated 2 years ago and I realised that I used to blog every day!!! Now, I hardly blog.. I think I should start doing it again. :) Thinking of starting another blog as well - to write about more general topics that aren't about myself. Will see how things go.. Anyway, thought of writing today coz it's my dad's bday tomorrow. Happy 59th Bday Daddy!! As I said earlier, I was reading thro my old posts 2 years ago - which means, when Dad was hospitalised. I read 2 entries, felt myself tearing in the office and I had to move on to posts after March. I can't do it.. I can't read my old posts without crying. Out of the 2 posts, 1 of them was when I was at the airport before flying to Sydney and before Daddy was hospitalised. It was written at the airport and he had jus dropped me off. It was nearing Xmas time and he hinted that he wanted a credit card. In my blog post, I wrote that I would apply for a sup card for him, as Xmas pressie. That...

Sometimes I'm happy to be leaving the dept. Sometimes, I'm sad to go. I dunno. Life is full of dilemmas and irony. This dept has been a good learning ground. Friendships were forged in my 5 years of being in Ops. I've had lots of close friends in these 5 years, some of whom are still with the bank, most of whom are already working somewhere else. I'll really miss the friends I've made. But sometimes it's hard to differentiate between friends and colleagues. At work, people behave differently. But as friends, we've had lots of fun and laughter. We've shared a lot of ups and downs. I can look forward now. It's time to move on.. As long as we're friends, we'll always be friends. :)

It was a celebration for Eeyore's bday, planned by yours truly, me! :) Dinner @ Les Amis. I'll jus let the pics do the talking. Fancy names for the dishes but I can't remember.. So, simple does it! :p Appetiser - Asparagus Starter - Fried scallops Starter - Char grilled cod fish Pasta for Eeyore Main Course - Pork Loin. Check out the knife! Dessert - Poached Pear & Chocolate Sorbet Complimentary Bday Cake and Chocs! Heart Shaped Sugar for the coffee & tea And lastly, there was us.. Happy Bday Dearest Eeyore! :)

Unlucky or jinxed, I dunno. Here's the story.. Eeyore and I went back to KL coz his grandma and parents wanted to celebrate his bday for him. What was meant to be a joyous occasion wasn't exactly that joyous in the end. Drove back on Fri nite, reached on Sat 2am. Dead tired but I had to endure the torture of finding a huge cockroach in the room I was sleeping in. Eeyore's dad to the rescue! After the demise of the cockroach, I went to shower and came out of the toilet to find a huge spider hanging by the toilet light switch. :( Finally headed to bed. Next morning, we had to wake up at 8+am (everything mus go according to plan, as always). So once again, it was rush rush rush the whole day. At the mall at 5pm, his mum wanted to get him a bday cake. As Eeyore hates cakes, we decided to go for ice cream cake. Went to Baskin Robbins (since Singapore doesn't have it). His mum started complaining about how expensive the cake was - RM90+ for a small cake (I admit, it's sma...

I wanna scream... YESSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's finally finally official!!! 01 JUNE 2010 !!! I can't wait to get out of this department!! Yes, I'm dying and desperate to leave, to leave a department filled with lies, hypocrisy, politics, favouritism & sucking up! Lies & Hypocrisy: Oh, how many lies have I heard in my 3 years in this department? The empty promises to everyone, the outright lie to my close friends forcing them all to leave 1 by 1. And my supervisors lied to me right in my face a few times too. How disgusting! Politics: The arrogance of being promoted when 1 knows shit about his/her work. The unfairness in everything. Slogging and working hard is useless here. Working even when u're sick will not gain u anything except for the words "foolish" and "stupid". Taking sick days often guarantee that u get promoted. How about that eh? Sucking up: Oh, I'm seeing this soooooo often these days that it makes me wanna dig my eyes ...

I am soooo thrilled! The best news in a long long long long time!!!! I am grateful and I am thankful!!! ::WOOHOO:: I couldn't contain my excitement in office. Colleagues who knew told me that I'm eluding a glow the whole day! How could I not?? It is the most amazing thing to happen to me for the last 2 years! I have been waiting for this day for that long and it's finally happening! I can only hope that everything will go well now. Til the day that I get the "call", I will have to contain my excitement and happiness. I don't want anything to fall thro again, at the last minute, jus like the other time 2 years back. I can't afford to have my happiness dashed again. Pls jus lemme find my happiness!!! "We had a lot of people to ( fill in the blanks ) .. But u blew them all away." This line threw me off! I never expected, never ever thought of myself in that manner. I hope I can live up to their expectations! I have regained my lost soul, my lost pas...

How much more can I take? How much longer can I wait? The ridicule of all these.. The folly of the people. Driving me mad.. Driving me insane. I won't be surprised if I suffer a mental breakdown some day. Nothing I can do now but to keep my fingers crossed. Pls don't let me wait too long!

On a day when I was stressed, nervous and unhappy, thank u for being there for me! For cracking silly jokes, for allowing me to put my head on ur lap while u drive, for making me feel protected and safe. On a day like this, I feel the love and I'm thankful that you are in my life! :)

Things seemed to have turned out well, maybe in my own opinion that is. Oh well, I can only wait and see how things pan out. :) But again, I shan't keep my hopes too high in case I get disappointed. :p Everything else has been going pretty well in my life so far I guess. Eeyore and I seem to be in the smooth sailing phase at the moment and I can only wish it carries on like this. ^.^ Oh, jus realised I haven't taken any photo with him since my bday which was 4 months ago! :( Time for some pics soon! Watched Sammi Cheng concert yesterday with Cher, Irene & my sis. :) Very very wonderful concert! Still pretty after all these years! Hehe.

Tomorrow's a very important and big day for me! Gotta keep my cool and do my thing! :) If all turn out well, I'll write about it soon! ^.^ Til then, nite nitez!