When I Dream~

Was sick with throat inflammation last Friday. Woke up feeling feverish, with numb and aching body. Felt bad and really tired as I had not slept the whole nite. Woke Eeyore up to go to work and he decided to stay in with me. :) It was a beautiful day despite my sickness, made beautiful coz of his presence. I slept most of the time but the moments when I was awake, he would carry me to wherever I want to go in the house. I had water in my cup the whole day, medicine served to me when I am supposed to take it, blanket covering me at all times, soft music playing in the background as I sleep. A princess was how I felt. And it was all thanks to him! Really glad to have him by my side. Thank you for the love, care and concern! ^.^

19 years ago, on today, my mummy left me for another world.. A world that is out of reach for me. I wonder if she sees me.. Sees who I am and who I have become. I hope she's proud of me, I hope I've not let her down in any way. The sentence that I used to tell her everytime is deep in my memory. "Mummy, if u die, I'll die with u." 19 years later, here I am, sitting on my chair typing this blog. I failed to do what I said I would. But what would have happened if I had kept to that promise? Sometimes, I do wonder.. I miss my mummy.. I've cancelled my NZ trip. I can't afford to go on long distance hols for the time being. I need to be here in Singapore jus in case. It's a huge dampener for Eeyore and it has caused him to be a dilemma. I feel bad about it but losing mum, gramp and dad.. It is obvious that my family will be more important than a trip. I can't bring myself to go on a hol and have history repeating itself like when I was in Sydney. I can...