When I Dream~

A very busy day.. I enjoyed my day. But feeling kinda sad at the same time. Is it coz the company's going down or was it coz of what someone told me today? Or maybe it's coz of what was said at our unit meeting? A question was thrown to us to answer. The qn - Will you rather be re-deployed, cut in staff or have shorter working days in a week but with a paycut? So, which will you choose? Which choice would anyone choose? Yes, it just means that anyone of us will have a chance to be let go. I'm not worried. I choose not to be worried. I don't wanna scare myself unduly and be sad about it. That's not in me. What was it that someone told me? I can't say and I shan't say. It's not a very happy thing though. But as always, friendships are fragile. Some even come at a price. Love doesn't come easy either.. Neither is it easy to forget. Humans.. Full of irony and contradiction.. Ended work at 7.45pm. Train with Charlie. Marina Square to meet Eeyore for Slumd...

A very busy day, without the disturbance of Ailmer. Thank goodness for that! A nice day :) Rushed thro the morning stuff to make it in time for lawyer's appointment regarding Dad's stuff. Yes, it's almost been a year. This Sunday marks the day when Daddy left me a year ago. I am still settling the outstanding stuff til now. So many documents to sign. And these days, when I talk about Dad, I tend to get a tad emotional. :_( Starting to miss Mummy and Daddy again.. Hope I've done them proud all these years... Lunched with sis, Felix & Bee @ Raffles Place area. Been some time since Bee, Felix & I last sat down to have a meal. Ohh!!! It wasn't that long ago.. We met on 31 Jan... OH!!! That's long!! Shucks! We normally eat every week or every alt week. The gap for us to meet is getting further and further. Hmmz... MRT with Charlie after work. Waited for Eeyore to end work. Train to AMK to meet BS and Jean. Waited for them to finish their discussion at CitiGol...

Goals discussion at work today was alright. What I took away from it and from all other discussions before - Show no emotions at work at all, talk as little as possible when at work. That's what I've gotta learn to do from now on. But seriously, there's nothing much for me to talk about in office anymore. So, showing no emotions and not talking much ain't that hard after all. Made a settlement error at work again today. The same mistake.. Sighz... This time round, there's no "saving" of the error. Incurred a cost of USD20 charged to my department's cost centre. Sighz.. To think that 1 of my goals was to have minimal settlement errors and to have zero profit and loss. :_( Disappointed... Came home, ate my whole tub of Haagen Dazs Melon ice cream. Watched tv, blog, de-stress. I'm gonna sleep early tonite. I wanna wake up at 3am to watch Champions League - Real Madrid vs Liverpool. Luckily I have SCV now and I can watch on my tv instead of the laggy v...

Lunch with Jessica today. Heard some unsettling news. Sighz.. Basically, the company is seriously doing bad & our dept may also be affected. That's how bad it is now.. Keeping my fingers crossed.. Very tightly. Dinner with XZ @ Paulaners. While waiting for him at Starbucks of Raffles City, a foreigner kept staring at me and changing tables to sit closer and closer to me. Gave me a shock!! He even stood right in front of me!! Luckily XZ arrived jus in time to 'rescue' me out of Starbucks and on for dinner. Goal discussion tomorrow at work. Waste of my time. I can foresee the kind of stupid questions that they are going to ask me tomorrow based on the insight of my colleagues. I'm not gonna talk much or say much nor answer too many of the questions. It's just gonna be short, curt answers and to the point. No point saying anymore. I'm totally and utterly disappointed and disgusted with this department. Yet, I have no choice but to stay on til the market gets be...

Woke up with swollen eyes. Not sure why, but I'm sure I didn't cry. And that rhymes! Haha. Spent my lunch time shopping with Carissa mummy & Irene at Verge. Original damage was $560.. Thank God for 50% discount! I paid only $280 for 9 stuff - 4 pants, 2 skirts, 1 top & 2 dresses. Woohoo!!! But there's a major problem now.. My wardrobe is completely out of space to put in any new items!! Oh no!! Headache! Means I have to pack my wardrobe and throw away some of my clothes. Sobz!!! I think I need a much much bigger wardrobe! :((( Home for dinner with Cher & Eeyore. Nice!!! I can't think.. My eyes can't open.. Why are they swollen??? ARGH!!

Friday (20 Feb 2009) Mimolette - A place for yuppies. A place to be seen for people who wanna rub shoulders with models, artistes, rich young kids. Saw Fiona Xie there - Eeyore's HOT chick. Yupz, he loves her. I was pretty cool with him the whole day after what happened on Thurs but he was keen to make up with me, so.. Yeah.. We're ok again. Even let him oogle all he wanted at Fiona. Had a very expensive dinner of beef carpaccio, roasted tenderloin & angel food cake with red wine. None of us could decide what to do after dinner so we headed home. Coincidence was that I bumped into Sidney at Tampines and had company on the MRT ride to City Hall. :) It was a good dinner, nevertheless, with Sid, Stef, Jean, Anne & Eeyore. Saturday (21 Feb 2009) Woke up to have lunch bought for me together with a much needed packet of coffee. :) Watched the last few episodes of my HK drama, showered and we headed out to Kef's salon for Eeyore to have his hair cut. Freya came along and w...

This song is exactly how I feel.. My life.. Be it in terms of work, relationships, etc etc.. Seriously, I'm feeling tired.. Jaded.. I don't think I can deal with this.. To cry in the office, to make even colleagues I'm not that close to to be worried about me.. How long and how much can I take? I wonder... Maybe like the bruise on my nose (the toilet seat cover fell and hit my nose while I was puking in HK) & the swollen bruise on my thigh (from losing my balance and hitting against Ann's car this morning), I am bruised.. My heart is bruised.. My best friend = Bruises & Pain Linkin Park - In The End It starts with One thing, I don't know why It doesn't even matter how hard you try Keep that in mind, I designed this rhyme To explain in due time All I know Time is a valuable thing Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings Watch it count down to the end of the day The clock ticks life away It's so unreal Didn't look out below Watch the time go right ou...

I am staring at my blog, mind's a total blank. I have nothing to write about... How sad. Lotsa things to do at work today. I'm so glad!! At last, after months of dry spell at work, I finally have work to do! Hahaha. And I worked til 8pm! Woohoo!!! Happy!! I must be mad.. Dinner with HW. Cabbed to Millenia to meet him and I still had to wait so long for him!!! Dinner at Tiong Bahru. Had fish steamboat with beef and golden mushrooms. Nice!!! :D Really nothing much to write about today.. Time to pay bills..

I know.. I haven't been blogging! So here comes! Of my Valentine's weekend! :) Friday (13 Feb 2009) At 11.30am, when my tummy was feeling weird and bad, this came for me and made me a hundred times better. He has always claimed that he hates Valentine's Day coz it's a retailer's ploy to jack up prices of everything, but yet.. I'm touched! When I met him for dinner, this was what I received.. Dinner was at a Japanese restaurant - Kotobuki @ Jurong. Then we headed to The Observatory Lounge at Science Park to catch the stars in the sky.. But it was too cloudy. Saw this very nice colour in the sky instead.. Been ages since I last went to the Science Park. :) Received 2 balloons for V day from the volunteers at the Observatory Lounge. Went home, put down the things, and off to Yishun to watch "Look for a Star" by Andy Lau! :) Home sweet home after that and it was off to dreamland in his arms... Saturday (14 Feb 2009) Woke up with a headache and hence, misse...

Thought I would be too tired to blog.. But decided to do it anyway. :) Cooked porridge for Eeyore last nite coz he wasn't feeling well. He said he felt ok after eating the porridge and the massage that I gave him. :D He was super duper happy coz he said it was the 1st time I ever cooked for him, though it was merely plain porridge. (o"."o) *blush* My turn to take care of him while he slept.. :) Spent the whole of this afternoon in meetings. Tiring! Had a V Day event held in office today. Kinda interesting and fun. A happy event I must say. But mus think of my career path seriously. Do I really wanna continue to stay in ops? Should I opt for the leadership programs available? I wanna try for an overseas posting if possible. I'll check out my options and decide soon. Eeyore reckons I should go for leadership programs.. Will think about it. Taka with Eeyore, BS & Freya after work for dinner and for them to buy V day gifts for their partners. :p I was only there to ea...

Did so many things in HK, I have to write this in brief.. Note: Every meal we ate was accompanied with beer.. beer and more beer.. All pics in Eeyore's lappie. Shall upload when I steal them off him. :p Came back with gastric flu though. :( Friday (06 Feb 2009) 4am - Woke up late to board the plane. Rushed like crazy. 6.40am - Left Singapore. 1+pm - Arrived at the hotel. Eeyore left his backpack with passport on the airport shuttle bus. 3pm - Finally got back the backpack with everything intact. Proceeded for lunch (porridge), praying then dinner at restaurant next to hotel that serves pretty good food. Steamboat dinner. 10+pm - Drinks with Eeyore's friends. 1+am - Bed. Saturday (07 Feb 2009) 10+am - Teochew place for brunch followed by shopping at H&M where I bought 6 tops and a pair of shorts. 3pm - My fave egg tart shop in HK where I gobbled 2 egg tarts in a row, accompanied by true HK style milk tea. :D Yummy! More shopping!! But didn't buy anything.. 6pm - Dinner. ...

Money doesn't necessarily make a person happy My friends and family make me happy Eeyore makes me happy, makes me smile from the bottom of my heart everyday I have a little surprise planned for him tonite. It's supposed to be a V Day pressie but I'm afraid that he will be bored on the plane to HK tomorrow so.. I'm gonna give it to him tonite. :) Still thinking of how to plan my little surprise for him.. And he is talking to me on the phone now. Hehehe. Ok.. I think I have a plan going now. :p Will write about it when he has received his pressie. Anyway, I should start packing for my trip to HK tomorrow. Flying off at 6.40am and coming back on Tues. I'll miss the dept lunch in office tomorrow (damn!) and the girls' gathering to Sentosa on Saturday. SOBZ!!!!!!! Not fair!!! Have asked the girls if they wanna head up KL with me in March. Hope we get to travel together! Will love to travel and have some fun with the gals. :) I think I jus caused some probs for Von. O...

A day of nothing-ness at work.. Farewell lunch for Russell @ Crystal Jade by Irene, Mel, Rach & I today. Our intern for 6 months. He's helped quite a lot. A very smart boy who is friendly and helpful. A fast learner. :) Sad that he has to leave but guess that's just life. People come and go... Dinner with VY @ Cineleisure Shokudo. It's always a very comfy feeling to meet up with him. We never talk about our personal/private lives much. Mostly about work, colleagues, some weekends stuff that we've done, etc. We're very casual friends but it's still nice to hang out with him. I have no idea how many siblings he has, how many gfs he has.. I know not much about him but we still have topics to talk about everytime. Amazing!!! Walked to Taka to meet Eeyore who was having dinner with his friend. Chatted with Von on the phone while she waited for yoga to start while I waited for Eeyore to meet me. :p We jus kept laughing!!! Hahaha. So much to say, so much to laugh a...

Meeting at work today. Shall not say what went on.. Jus know that it is ridiculous and our lives are not gonna be easy. Sighz.. Oh, and that I have to remain expressionless, keep quiet and be zombified at work so that some people won't know what I'm thinking or feeling. :( How it sucks! Lion dance in office today. Didn't put mandarin oranges on my table for them to peel. Didn't see the need to. I don't think my life in office will be any better even after the peeling of the oranges. I give up.. Took MRT together with Charlie after work today. Chatted along the way. He's ok to talk to. Work wise, he's better these days so.. No conflicts as yet. :) Mus keep it that way though. Went to City Hall, couldn't resist the temptation at HMV. Went in and came out only after spending $73. :( Met Eeyore after waiting for an hour.. As usual, I had to wait for him. Headed to Liang Seah St for dinner at a Korean restaurant. On the way to the bus stop, he said something ...

I am starting to feel the impact of not sleeping for the whole of Saturday and only sleeping at 1am this morning. Dunno how I survived thro the whole day of work with no errors at work despite doing so much. But.. Mistake at work during monthend. It was a very careless mistake. I hate making such stupid errors that will cause issues. Sighz... Bought Eeyore's V Day pressie already!!! :ppppp I shall state what I bought on the day itself. Went with Irene to buy during lunch today. Hehehe. Home for dinner. Ate the noodles that I brought back from Aunt Mic's place, plus soup and vegetables cooked by Cher. :) I'm becoming fat! And it's noticeable!! Oh no!! Packed my luggage after dinner. Together with Eeyore.. :) We're going HK together this Fri, with Ann and her dad, sis & MZ. And somehow, both of us are kinda excited about this trip together. Not our 1st trip together, and definitely not the last. ^.^ I think... I have seriously fallen in love with this guy. There...

A very zombified day. Picked gram up, went Aunt Mic's place. Had lunch and right after lunch, I immediately conked out for 2 hours. Til gram walked into the room and nobody knew what she wanted. Accompanied gram to the other room to sleep. Then gram woke up, wanting to eat. Accompanied gram til I sat down at the mahjong table to replace sis. Sadly, I lost again. Another $40.. 3 games played with family, all 3 lost.. $40 to $50 each time. Not my year.. No luck at all. How saddening! Dinner, played with Ky and suddenly Aunt Mic & Uncle quarrelled. Supposed to re-start mahjong but ended up going home. Wanted to go Sid's place to meet Stef & Anne as well, but... Was driven home instead. :( A pity that I missed the chance to meet up with the girls yesterday and today. :((((((((((((((((( Still deciding if I should meet Eeyore at Novena to pick him up.. But.. I've already showered and I'm dead tired.. Hehe. Lazy me.. Think I shall wait at home. Not even sure if there w...

Woke up with a headache again.. Getting too frequent for comfort.. Sighz... Joined Felix & Bee for dinner at Marina Square. Ate at MOF then went to watch the Huayi Festival play - Design For Living at Esplanade. Didn't know what I was going for initially but glad that I went. Recommended by Bee, the show turned out to be close to real life issues and was funny yet very real. 1st time I ever watch a play and at Esplanade too! Very very nice! :) Headed to Irvin's place after the play. Mahjong with Josh's wife, Irvin and Roy. Played 2 rounds til 5.15am. My goodness!! So tiring.. Lost $2 in the end. Sooooo sleepy.. But yet, I can't sleep now coz I'm afraid I won't wake up tomorrow. Need to wake up at 8.30am to pick gram up for lunch. I am soooooo zombified. Can I last thro the whole of Sunday with no sleep at all? Hmmzz.... PS: I managed to finish the card for Eeyore on Fri nite!! Took pics but decided not to put it up in case he suddenly reads my blog. Fyi, he ...