Nature?

The below was written in office on Thursday and typed into my blog today...

Been busy since the day I came to Shanghai. Finally took some time off (it was only 10 mins) to have a break after lunch to reflect and get a hold on my thoughts.

Looking out of the window at the swaying trees, I remembered the days when I was still in Uni and how I used to walk 4 bus stops home (approximately 20 mins walk). Those times were memorable as I had a chance to enjoy and admire nature - not that Toa Payoh had much nature to enjoy but the fact that I looked at the trees and flowers as I walked. It was the time where I get to recollect my thoughts and reflect upon things and events that had happened.

Somehow, those days have gone by and it's been a very long time since I last walked home. Where and when have those days gone by without me noticing? I wonder.. I do miss those times. Sighz... Have I been too busy pursuing the material things in life that I've neglected the things that were once close to my heart?

How long have I not gone to the beach or looked at the sea? How long have not been close to nature itself? How long has it been since I was alone to recollect my thoughts? It's been such a mess and confused period in my life with the move in job scope to Shanghai, the confusion and hesitation as to where I wanna be transferred to.

Think not many people know about this yet.. Although I've decided where to be transferred to, I'm still having doubts. After I came to Shanghai, I start wondering if I should stay on here if I have a chance to. Of coz there are people who are supportive and people who think otherwise. I know the ultimate decision lies with me but trust me, this decision is not an easy one to make. I've never been one to regret decisions that I make hence I really need to make a wise choice. 1 more month before I'm back to Singapore. Need to make up my mind soon... :(

Sighz... As if I'm not stressed enough as it is.. So many things on my mind. Missing those days when I will sit at a cafe and watch the world go by, the nights where I will sit by the sea, lie on the ground and look at the stars, enjoying the serenity of the night. When will I be at peace with my mind and heart again?

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