When I Dream~

i think it's obvious to a lot of people that i wanna leave this dumb audit company that i'm in. i've wanted to resign since the 1st week i started work n i told my boss, mr quek, about it. he insisted that i stay to help n to try things out, n that he'll lemme go if i really don't like it. well, of coz i take his word for it. but now, i'm being cheated n accused of wanting to leave by the audit manager or whatever his fucking post is. talked to them on fri n below is how the conversation between me n that man, mr khaw, went. mr khaw: maggie, come in.. me (walked in n took a seat without saying a word): ... mr khaw: heard from mr quek that u want to leave. why must u give us this sort of trouble now? don't u know that it's very hard for us to look for people who want to work in the financial sector now? n your letter of employment states that u r supposed to give 6 months notice if u were to leave in the 1st 6 months.. don't tell me u don't know t...

jus finished watching the national kidney foundation (nkf) show on tv just now. i always cry when i watch that show coz i see the patients suffering and i feel very sad. for years, when i watch the stories of the patients, 1 thought always cross my mind. the same thought is.. what will happen if 1 of them is me? i've always felt that i'll never be able to live long. i still feel that. i've never wanted to live for long anyway. i've always done things that i don't regret so even if i were to die right now, i won't regret anything. i've lived my life to the fullest for 22 years and i've been happy. i have no fear of dying. the only thing is.. i don't want to suffer before i can die.. i don't want to die coz i have an illness. sudden death is ok.. such as accidents or whatnots.. but no diseases and illnesses. but what if i have some illness or disease that requires long term taking care of? i've always wondered.. if i were married and i have som...

this week has passed rather quickly i must say. probably coz i wsn't in the office much. on monday and tuesday of this week, i was at desker road for audit. well, the place wasn't as bad as i thought but there are definitely more men than women along the whole road. can easily get disturbed by the men but was ok coz i only came ot to havae lunch and it was with the accountant. had acutally finished what i needed to do on monday there but knew that boss won't let me back in office til thursday so i had to head back to desker on tuesday. was a bit bored so wrote my dearest boyfriend a letter/note on 100 reasons/things that i like about him. haha. tried to sneak back to the office on tuesday evening but my boss was around til 6.30pm!! had to hide at coffee bean down the street with nothing to do at all. read a magazine that they provided there n pretty much people-watch til i was so desperate to relieve my bladder. coffee bean's toilet was being cleaned at that time and i ...

think close friends will be wondering.. what in the world is maggie up n about so early on a weekend morning? haha. that's right. i never wake up before noon on saturdays and sundays unless it's necessary. no choice. i can't finish my work n i'll be out of office on monday n tuesday so i had to drag myself out of bed to come back to office to finish up my stuff. i actually thought that it would be quite boring, but on the bright side, bosses are not around so we get to listen to music real loud!! blast the music n not get scolded. haha. that makes me feel better~ haven't seen the dbs gals for the past week. no email nor msg from them. i can understand. they're busy. i'm busy too. have been trying hard to finish up this set of accounts but they r real messy. finishing up soon. thank god! then i'll be out to audit for 2 days n come back with loads to do again. sighz~ work is really never-ending. to the dbs gals, take care of yourselves. u gals fall sick so...

i'm a happy girl today~! it's been a long while since tom said that he misses me n that he really wanted to do something with. :p we had actually agreed to meet for lunch today but he was informed by his colleague at the last minute that their boss would be treating them to lunch. he was upset and said that he would rather lunch with me instead and that he missed me. it's been so long since he missed me more than i missed him. :) felt a bit happy then. in the end, he decided to try n ask his boss if he could come out for a while after lunch so that he could meet me. his boss agreed n he bought black forest ice blended from coffee bean for me n some peppermint leaves for me to try. felt so touched by the small action taken by him. it was so sweet of him to purposely walk over to my office after lunch jus to meet me for that few minutes and to get me a drink as well. it really brightened my day and jus made me a happy girl! thanx dear~ 1 sad thing though.. i'm supposed to...

went for dinner with the dbs gals on fri nite after work. felt like some sort of well-deserved break for all o f us i guess, coz we've been working ot for the past week though we're working at different places. went for dinner at liang seah st. can't remember what the restaurant's name is but their chicken wings are not bad. think anne will love them if i bring her there. haha. anyway, the food there was ok but the waiting time was way too long. we talked and laughed a lot, making lots of jokes and catching up with news at dbs. haven't laughed that much for a long time now. haha. after dinner, we decided that the nite was still young coz for once, jessie didn't need to rush home and ivy was with us. what was wasted was that rachel's husband picked her up before she could join us for karaoke. we sang karaoke from 11pm to 3am. was great fun except for some disgusting guy who kept looking into our room and trying to get our attention. nevertheless, we enjoyed o...