When I Dream~

Sorry for the vulgar heading and the very vulgar post below but I seriously need to rant.  Just when I thought things were starting to look better.. Or rather, maybe it's just coz I'm starting to not think about that fucker in my life aka my sister and her problems anymore, the same shit issues came back to haunt me. Seriously... I'm so sick and tired of her excuses and lies and bullshit that I'm not gonna give her respect or be nice to her anymore.  If you wanna move back to stay with me, I have all along said I'm ok with it. But don't try and twist the story and act pitiful and make the whole extended family believe the wrong things. Did you even tell them that you fucking told me to sell my house to move to your fucking smelly house so that you can still stay in your place?? Of coz I won't sell my place. Why should I?? I'm not the one wanting a fucking divorce and having to give half the money back to my husband. You are the one! You should be selling...

Spent the night watching the results of the general election.. Spent the whole time crying as well. Not coz of the results, but...  I really don't understand life.. Why must it be so tough on me? I know there are lots of others out there with even tougher lives such as refugees, people with no food etc. But how much more can I take in my own life now? With a sister like mine, I really wonder... Ever since 2013, everytime when we meet.. I end up crying and wondering why.. A sister who either doesn't think about things or when she does, most times I hear bullshit, crap, rubbish or lies. And most times she only thinks about herself. Haven't I suffered and lost enough by now coz of her husband (or soon to be ex-husband) and her? And yet, I'm still being "tortured" by such nonsense from her.  Seriously how much more can I take? Told ann and ky last night that should I go down the same road as my mummy, it's all coz of my sister... I won't be surprised if I ...