When I Dream~

Been blogging a lot more lately it seems.. But wanted to get this off my chest/mind I guess... Had a bad dream last night.. I was at home and hanging my laundry when I noticed that there were huge (and I really mean huge) crows downstairs at the void deck looking upwards. I was scared as I've always been afraid of crows. Quickly hung up all the clothes at the balcony and contemplated if I should close the windows for fear if the crows flying into the house. Decided to close the windows in the end.  Then it was while I was closing the windows that I realised 3 of them were lying at the ledge of my window grill (don't ask me how they can squeeze there.. It's a dream.. Anything can happen!). I did my best to close the windows as gently as I could to not disturb them. Managed to avoid waking 1 of them.. As I continued to close the windows, 1 of them woke to and as I hurried to close the windows real tight, it squeezed through the grills and flew into the house!!  I dashed into ...

Went to see gram this morning per usual, and was pleasantly surprised! Gram was wide awake and even said a couple of words though we weren't able to hear clearly what she was saying. I'm over the moon!!!! It's been a long long long long time since gram actually opened her eyes and acknowledged us!! :)))))) Can't stop smiling at the sight of gram this morning whenever I think about it. And I did what gram used to do for me when I was young - rub cream all over her legs as she has some bed sores and eczema sprouting up. When I was in Secondary School and JC, she would purposely wake me up 15 mins earlier. Not by shaking or waking me up but by switching on the light and sitting on my bed, rubbing cream all over my eczema filled arms and legs. And that was how I gradually recovered from eczema and got rid of some of the scars. I'll never ever forget those days coz it was gram's tender loving care that made me look beautiful. :) I'm such a crybaby.. Just thinki...

And so, my birthday came and went. Another year older, another year wiser? Not sure about the wiser part but definitely feel old. Thank you to my family and friends for remembering and the meals that I've been having! But it has also made me see who really care for me! :) 2014 is now gone. Start of 2015.. What will this year bring? I wonder.. Will it be another bad year again? The positivity in me has vanished... Too much bad stuff in my life that it's worn me out thoroughly.  Heard this song on radio as Jianwei was sending me home... Suits me to the core..  一辈子的孤单 - 刘若英 我想我会一直孤单 这一辈子都这么孤单 我想我会一直孤单 这样孤单一辈子 天空越蔚蓝 越怕抬头看 电影越圆满 就越觉得伤感 有越多的时间 就越觉得不安 因为我总是孤单 过着孤单的日子 喜欢的人不出现 出现的人不喜欢 有的爱犹豫不决 还在想他就离开 想过要将就一点 却发现将就更难 于是我学着乐观 过着孤单的日子 当孤单已经变成一种习惯 习惯到我已经不再去想该怎么办 就算心烦意乱 就算没有人作伴 自由和落寞之间怎么换算 我独自走在街上看着天空找不到答案 我没有答案 天空已蔚蓝 我会抬头看 电影越圆满 就越珍惜伤感 有越多的时间 就越习惯不安 因为我总会孤单 过着孤单的日子 我想我会一直孤单