When I Dream~

Guess from the topic of my subject, everybody will know what I'm gonna write about. Yes!! The same topic! Haha. DF today again. Was another great nite. Haven't lost my temper since Monday. Yes, Monday I was soooo down but from then on, I've moved on. No matter how pissed I am at work, I have not lost my temper at all. Learning to keep it under control and to be more patient. Hehe. K.. Back to the topic.. Was there at about 8pm. Ordered food and drinks and chatted with 1 of the waiters for a while for fun. Haha. Was so boring and quiet when we reached so just disturbed the waiter. :p 8.30pm and the singers came on stage. I had already written the same song list as per last week coz Yutaki did not sing any of the songs I dedicated last week. :p Drew the same pig, a few faces and wrote the words "Dragonfly" on the back of the serviette. :) Yutaki saw me from the stage even before the lights were lit and he waved and said hi to me from the stage. Was already so please...

Saw this quote somewhere but can't remember when I saw it and where I saw it.. But I really like it. "There are so many stars in the sky, but only some get noticed. Among those you choose to ignore is the one which is willing to shine for you forever, even if your glance remains elsewhere." I find it truly meaningful and beautiful.. Enjoy it.. :)

Here I am, sitting at the same Starbucks on a different sofa from previous time and this time round, I have my laptop with me! Yay!! My form of entertainment! I love it like that! Feel so peaceful, so quiet.. Sitting quietly at Starbucks, typing my blog with a cup of Mocha Praline that taste soooo good and nice, especially when it's topped with lots of my favourite - whipped cream! Mmmmmm... Delicious! This is the kind of life that I like and truly enjoy.. One where I can sit back, relax and watch the day go by. Seems like the last time I did this was when I went Shanghai for the 2nd time... To take my mind off things.. Sydney trip is coming up real soon.. In about another 2 weeks. I can't wait.. Looking forward to visit my colleagues in Sydney, to explore there and to visit the beach. It's been a long time since I last went for some real tanning. :) I think this trip will do me good. K.. Time to enjoy my show via my laptop @ Starbucks. Will blog when I have more stuff to w...

Some simple things/reasons that made my very very gloomy day today brighter: (1) An sms in the early morning from my mentor (shifu), Cavin, with words of encouragement for me. (2) The young boy (I think he's 2 or 3 years old) whom I see every morning at the bus stop while picking my aunt up called me "Jie Jie aka elder sis" today. Normally when I wave bye bye to him, he'll either be shy or not bother. For once today, he actually greeted me and wanted me to wave bye bye to him. :) (3) An afternoon nap at my desk during lunch time. (4) Care and concern from my colleagues. Mel allowed me to go off early but I didn't want to. I think the best comment I had today was from my other mentor, Mahesh aka Mr M. He asked if I was not feeling well and if I needed him to back up for me. Told him I was tired. He said, "I don't like to see you like that. You must come in to work tomorrow and smile k?" It was nice to know that some of my colleagues do care. :p Touch...

3rd post in 1 day.. I realised I'm meant to be lied to.. If anyone needs to lie to someone, pls lie to me. I'm always being lied to.. I should be getting used to it. If Chris still reads my blog, I can only say Congrats. If close friends notice a change in me, don't worry. I'm just no longer that happy-go-lucky nor happy anymore. You will notice a subtle me, someone who doesn't talk much unless necessary.. Someone who will control her temper and try not to complain about things. The old Magz will have evolved somehow..

I only saw it in the newspapers this morning while visiting grandma.. The news about the 5 dragon boaters whose bodies could not be found when their dragon boat capsized in Phnom Penh Tonle Sap River. I felt sad then.. 3 of them were younger than me. Sighz.. Just waited by the TV for more news on the 5 of them. As feared by most of us, they have left us.. At last their bodies were found. I felt truly emotional then, even now. Tears fill up my eyes while I'm typing this blog. No, I do not know any of these 5 people but I feel deeply sorry for them. They were so young.. So energetic.. Devoted athletes representing our country and yet, they passed away in a faraway land. We should really treasure what we have right now. You never know when you will leave this world, leaving your loved ones behind. I feel the sorrow of the parents, the loved ones they left behind coz I've been in that situation before. Tell your loved ones you love them, show them that you care. Much as I always sc...

Have been groggy for past few days since Fri. Rushed home to see the doctor opposite my house due to some rash on my face that caused my cheeks to be swollen and red. Didn't wanna see the doctor downstairs and the doctor opposite my house is more friendly anyway. Hehe. The medicine and cream that he prescribed was effective!! The only sad fact is that I can't drink alcohol (Omigod!!), can't take seafood and egg. That's simply taking my life. Haha. My face looks pretty much back to normal now, thank god! Was worried for so long that I'd be disfigured. Hehe. :p Mel and Edmund gor allowed me to take flexi Fri so that I could leave early (at 5pm) as I took medicine and didn't take medical leave. In the end, I could only leave office at 6.45pm.. Simply too much work to clear or maybe coz my brain wasn't functioning properly and efficiently due to medication hence I was slower in my work. Haha. Rushed down to DF to watch the live unplugged performance while watchi...

Was pissed off at work today coz I was being treated like a maid. I didn't scream or scold people but I slammed the papers around. Wasn't in the best of mood til I went to DF... Was given a pretty good seat when I reached. Yay!! During the 1st live unplugged session, quite a number of people dedicated songs and I was slow in doing so. Sighz.. I wrote 4 songs on a DF serviette and gave it to the singers. But I was very biased as all the songs I wrote were songs sung by Yutaki. Hehe. I wrote my name on the serviette as well and even drew my signature pig. :p Pity he didn't have time to sing my songs for me.. But, he finally knows who I am!!!! :) That's more exciting and makes me happier than anything! He knows my name at long last!!! And he flashed such a big smile at me that I could just melt on the spot. While the last song for the set was being sung by Skye, he kept holding on to my serviette and looking at it. Omigod!!! :D Melted.... During the live performance set, h...

Today, I finally plucked up my courage and determination to do 1 thing.. I threw away the 2 bouquets of roses on my desk. They have been there for almost a year now and I really can't bear to part with them. But, I know I have to move on somehow.. Throwing them away might not mean anything. I know I won't be getting flowers from anybody for a long time. As my bday and V day draw nearer, the more I dread those days. Much as I keep complaining to Edmund gor that I need to work on my bday and that I will need to work overtime due to month end cum year end, I don't think I wanna leave office early. I'm dreading Xmas, my bday, V day.. Any special occasions. If it wasn't coz of month end cum year end, I'll definitely take those days off and leave Singapore. Sighz... By the way, pls do not buy me flowers coz u pity me or just wanna make me happy or after reading this paragraph. Appreciate the thoughts.. But.. Sometimes, flowers can mean a lot to me.. Esp if I have feel...

I know I have yet to update on my Egypt trip. Will do so when the pics have been uploaded. Sorry for the delay. Watched "Lions for Lambs" today. It's a very good show which makes u think about a lot of things. What the show said is very true and real. It's meaningful! There were quite a few lines in the movie that I'd like to quote and share, "Tried but failed or failed to try" and "When u step into adulthood, the decisions u made are made by urself. No matter what happens, that decision had been urs". What was good in the movie is not only the things they say but also the plot of the show. It truly showed the situations about war, why they were started. If what the show said is true, then I simply despise the US government. There are actually too many things to discuss about the show. I think I'll buy the disc for the show when it is out and watch it again. Then maybe blog about it in a more detailed manner. It's a very good topic to t...

Left work early today for once.. Wanted to blog, clean my room, wash some of my clothes by hand. But, I saw the number of emails I had.. 200 in my Hotmail account and I have yet to check how many I have in my Yahoo account. Sighz.. All thanks to my sis, I do not need to do anything else.. Will update again. So sorry..

Think I really drank way too much, way too fast last nite.. Or rather this morning. Puked really many times.. So much so that I actually nearly fell asleep by my toilet bowl. Thankfully I have my own personal toilet. Was puking til this morning.. Woke up and drank barley coz I was having such a bad throat and I puked all out. Never experienced this before. Will cut down on drinking.. Was very unhappy last nite and from 3am to 5am, all I wanted was to be drunk. Being drunk allows the tears to flow freely. It's like side effect and I badly needed to cry it out. So many things running through my mind.. None are really happy. Sighz.. I think I like surprises, not shocks. So far, not many people have given me nice surprises before. Oh, I remember one.. My bday last year where Lynn, Ya Ya and Felix came back to office to celebrate my bday for me. That was memorable. :) That's the kind of surprises I like. Anyway, I've decided to focus and concentrate on work once again. It's ...

Drunk. Puked several times. Many times to get this post n lyric right. Throat hurts a lot. My new currenr favourite song.. More about Egypt next time. 重来 有多少爱能重来? 多少人愿意等待? 失去之后才明白 走进回忆的安排 一幕一幕的对白上 演我们的未来 期待 原来是一种伤害 深爱的人已离开 是我不敢忽略 你给我的爱 现在我只想 回到最初的时候 不愿让你再泪流 寂寞之后只有你会陪着我 现在我只想回到最初的时候 我知道你还爱着我 亲爱的你请你握紧我的手 请你看看我 请看需要你的噢一我 一切重头 真的需要你的我 只要你回头 现在我只想 回到最初的时候 不愿让你在泪流 寂寞之后 只有你会陪着我 现在我只想 回到最初的时候 我知道你还爱着我 亲爱的你 请你握紧我的手 请你看看我 真的需要你的我 只要你回头 Shucks.. Must have been bad last nite. Didn't remove contact lens n finish this post before sleeping.. Terrible..